please don't look at me

There was a distance between the two of them, and from Yu Xin's perspective, he couldn't see if Ding Sha was still wearing swimming trunks.

"Come on, this water temperature is just right." Ding Sha greeted again.

Yu Xin took a deep breath, told herself repeatedly not to think too much, and then moved over step by step.

Seeing that Ding Sha was still wearing swimming trunks, he breathed a sigh of relief.

The wooden barrel was very big, and there was room for two adults to sit face to face with their knees hugged. Yu Xin imitated Ding Sha's posture, put her hands on her bent knees, and slowly leaned her back against the edge of the wooden barrel.

Ding Sha seemed unaware of Yu Xin's fiery gaze, he closed his eyes for a short nap, then opened them suddenly: "Are you busy recently?"

Yu Xin was thinking about those little evil thoughts in her heart, she stared at him abruptly, broke out in a cold sweat in the hot water, and couldn't even hear his words clearly: "Ah? What did you say?"

"Don't you know how to draw? Last time I saw some of your works and I liked them very much. If you are free in the near future, can you help us design a set of emoticons?"

Yu Xin hesitated, he was not confident in his painter: "I can't draw well..."

Ding Sha couldn't understand his overly inferior look, but he still encouraged him patiently: "No, the response to the manga you made last time was great. It only takes about a dozen patterns, one Original theme, salary according to industry standards, do you think it’s okay?”

Yu Xin bit her lower lip. He hadn't accepted a draft for a long time, and he didn't know if he was still qualified for the job, but if he could do something for Ding Sha, he would be extremely happy.

"What about the time?"

"Just pay it after the year."

Yu Xin did the math, there are still more than two months, time is not tight, maybe he can give it a try...

"it is good."

Ding Sha smiled and showed his white teeth: "Okay, we will never treat you badly in terms of remuneration!"

What Yu Xin wanted was not fame and fortune at all, even though he had repeatedly warned himself not to try to intervene in Ding Sha's life before going out, but as long as Ding Sha made a request to him, he still couldn't refuse.He wanted too much to impress Ding Sha. He was stupid and stupid, and he was self-defeating several times. He really hoped to do something that would catch Ding Sha's eyes, but it often backfired. This time Ding Sha took the initiative to throw him away. When the olive branch came out, he was at a loss.

The two sat face to face in silence for a few more minutes. Ding Sha couldn't stand Yu Xin's gaze—it seemed to be floating around, but it was obviously looking at him freely. He simply closed his eyes, tilted his head back, and let The body sank a little deeper.

"Let's talk..." Ding Sha took the initiative to find a topic, "Have you ever played 'You Listen'?"

"Yeah." Yu Xin responded in a low voice, he wanted to run away a little bit, Ding Sha, who was soaking in the water wearing only a pair of swimming trunks, had too much impact on him, if it wasn't for running away in such a desperate way, he would seem too guilty. Wretched, Yu Xin definitely rushed home the moment she stepped out of the swimming pool... Well, she was doing something shameful.

Ding Sha didn't see any abnormalities in Yu Xin, he chatted very happily, and talked about several ideas about the revision of "You Listen", and then asked Yu Xin if he had any ideas and suggestions when using it.

While talking, Ding Sha changed his sitting posture at will, and his calf would always brush against Yu Xin's skin, causing him to shudder.Yu Xin felt his scalp tingling and his lower body getting heavier and heavier, he couldn't take it anymore!

Ding Sha was talking excitedly, but Yu Xin stood up from the bucket with a "crash", and said with a stiff face, "I'm leaving."

Ding Sha thought that Yu Xin thought the water was too hot, so he glanced at the clock on the wall: "It's only been 10 minutes, you can't take it anymore?"

"Yes." Yu Xin stepped out of the barrel, took a rough shower with her back turned to him, and was about to put on her clothes and leave.

Seeing that his expression was wrong, Ding Sha thought that he had offended him, hurriedly followed, and grabbed his arm: "What's wrong with you, did I say something wrong just now?"

Yu Xin could no longer bear him pretending to be stupid and wanting to break the casserole to ask the truth. Before, he would never lose his temper like Ding Sha, but today, maybe the spring water was too hot and the environment was too stuffy, which caused him to lose his temper. His anger came fiercely for no reason.

Yu Xin shook off Ding Sha's hand, and growled at him in an unprecedented angry tone: "Ding Sha, is it interesting for you to do this?"

Ding Sha was frightened by his sudden anger.

Yu Xin took a step back, distanced herself from him, and continued, "Did you forget that I'm fucking gay, and I still fucking like you! Is it appropriate for you to always come to me like this!"

Ding Sha frowned: "Didn't we say we were friends?"

Yu Xin took a low breath, as if trying to calm down: "Yes, I also tried my best to get along with you, trying not to have any unrealistic thoughts, but I failed time and time again. When you hugged my shoulder Sometimes, when you lean into my ear and talk, even when your calf brushes against me intentionally or unintentionally, my mother, my mother will..."

Yu Xin couldn't go on anymore, tears welled up in his eyes, he scolded himself in his heart, and once again lost face in front of Ding Sha.

Seeing him crying silently, Ding Sha was shocked in his heart.

Before Yu Xin, he had never been in contact with any comrades. When Yu Xin showed his affection to him, he treated Yu Xin in the same way he treated the girls who pursued him, and Yu Xin seemed to accept this way. No longer chasing him, he gradually relaxed, and even unconsciously regarded Yu Xin as a talkative friend.

He never imagined how much patience Yu Xin had to stay by his side, willingly to be a "friend" who comes and goes when he is called.

Ding Sha was confused, he didn't know how to treat Yu Xin.

"Sorry, I didn't think about you." Ding Sha lowered his head in despair, and for the first time felt that he was a selfish and stupid person.

Yu Xin was still crying, but he felt much more relaxed.

Ding Sha has always been his unattainable dream, like the piece of candy that was placed on the top of the cupboard when he was a child. One day, the candy accidentally fell on the ground and he picked it up. would be confiscated, and until then he wanted to taste as much sweetness as possible of the candy.

Yu Xin has no temper, and he has had enough of Ding Sha's unintentional teasing, but he always thinks that if he is a shrinking turtle and accepts everything, he will be able to last longer the sweetness like love.

But now it seems that he was wrong, if he continues, he will be the only one who indulges in the dream, and he will be the only one with bruises!

After Yu Xin finished speaking a long paragraph in one breath, he immediately felt dizzy and dizzy. He was panting heavily, his nose was sore, and his nose started to bleed.

He laughed at himself, it was really embarrassing.

Out of the swimming pool, the two walked one after the other, Yu Xin wiped it again and again with a tissue, but the blood was still flowing, Ding Sha saw this, stepped forward quickly, forced him to raise his head, and put his hand on Yu Xin's face. Let him lean on the back of his head.

"Stop here for a while to stop the bleeding."

Yu Xin was almost a head shorter than Ding Sha. At this time, he half-raised his head, and met Ding Sha's eyes. Seeing Ding Sha staring at him worriedly, he spat at himself in his heart—from the beginning to the end. In the end, the only one who harbors evil intentions is himself.

Seeing him looking straight at him, Ding Sha coughed, "What are you looking at?"

Yu Xin grinned: "I found that you tend to soften your heart when you see blood."

"What do you mean?"

"It was the same when the typhoon was blowing, and it's also the same this time." Yu Xin paused, and then added, "Just now... I got angry with you, I'm really sorry, actually, it's all my own fault."

Ding Sha didn't say anything, he scratched the back of Yu Xin's head, like punishment, but also comfort.

The two were speechless all the way, they parted at the gate of the community, Ding Sha took two steps and couldn't help turning his head.

Yu Xin's thin figure is like a sapling swaying in the wind, looming in the night.Only then did Ding Sha suddenly realize that every parting between them was not very pleasant, but in the final analysis, it was all because of himself.

He scratched his hair in annoyance, and unspeakable emotions surged in his heart.

Yu Xin said to him just now: "Ding Sha, I know you are a very good person, but if you don't feel well, you don't need to force yourself to treat me as a friend, we can just be strangers who nod to each other..."

Ding Shaduo wanted to tell him directly that he never felt the slightest bit of unhappiness, even if he was a little embarrassed, he definitely did not blame him.But when he looked at Yu Xin's downcast eyes, he couldn't even say a word of explanation.

He was also afraid, afraid that even if he said something wrong, Yu Xin would accept it without saying a word, and then suffer alone.

Ding Sha went home and took a shower, couldn't stay longer, and went back to the company.The lights were on in the office, and the programming team was still working overtime. When the team leader saw Ding Sha, he said to him: "Boss, some of us are still rubbing your floor at night."

Ding Sha managed to squeeze out a smile: "Okay, if you want to eat something late at night, order takeaway, I will reimburse you."

A few young guys cheered, but they didn't stop working. Ding Sha stood over and looked at it for a while, then walked back to the office to help them make a takeaway call.

After hanging up the phone, he slumped back to the boss chair. The exhaustion from exercising suddenly surged up, and he suddenly felt so sleepy that he couldn't open his eyelids.

The body is tired, but the mind is still clear, Ding Sha can't help but start to wonder if he is really abnormal recently.

He has no shortage of friends in Hongcheng. In addition to his working partners, there are also many college students who have stayed here after graduation. When Ding Sha is free, he always likes to contact Dou Xin as soon as possible. Xin would refuse his invitation, so he asked a few classmates to have a meal together, or simply invited the whole company to watch a movie together.But recently, he seems to be staying with Yu Xin except for work. It can't be said that Yu Xin is pestering him, but as time goes by, he seems to think of him habitually.

Ding Sha shook his head irritably, he thought, it would be fine if Yu Xin wasn't gay, and even...it would be fine if Yu Xin didn't like him.

It seems that both of them knew that they needed to calm down for a while. For the next month, no one contacted anyone. They didn't even meet each other in the community. a dream.

At the end of the year, Dou Xin got married.

With inexplicable thoughts, Ding Sha dressed up specially, and attended Dou Xin's wedding banquet grandly, and wrapped her a big red envelope.

Dou Xin wore a well-tailored wedding dress and stood at the door of the hotel to welcome guests. The man beside her kept smiling and gently supported her waist so that she could borrow some strength and not be so tired.

This is the first time for Ding Sha to see the real Lao Gong. Before that, he only saw photos in Dou Xin's circle of friends. He didn't expect the real person to look younger than the photos.He shook hands with Lao Gong with a trace of inexplicable hostility, and said, "Senior, I'll leave it to you."

The nearly forty-year-old man grinned at him: "Okay, Ding Sha."

Ding Sha pursed his lips, in front of such a man, he really can only be regarded as a brat.

The wedding process was quite interesting, they abandoned many vulgar etiquettes, and also omitted a lot of unnecessary sensationalism, most of the people present were of the younger generation, so it looked more like an ordinary gathering of friends.

Ding Sha was not in high spirits, he was interested in quitting almost as soon as he sat down, but it would be impolite to leave halfway, so he could only force himself to sit on the chair, occasionally chatting with acquaintances .

Lao Gong is indeed a very capable man, but after hearing a few words from him, Ding Su felt that he was a person with cultivation and experience. According to the people around him, he had been a teacher in many places and was still in the capital. Has a studio of its own.

Rich and capable, it is indeed a good match for Dou Xin.

After the wedding, Ding Sha hesitated again and again, but decided to chat with Dou Xin.

He knocked on the door of the lounge and Dou Xin let him in.

"Sister." He glanced at Dou Xin who was taking off his makeup, and immediately looked away, as if he had turned back into that college student in his teens and 20s who just fell in love with Dou Xin.

Dou Xin took off the earrings and put them away, stood up and took two steps, kicked off her high heels with a frown, went barefoot to pour a glass of water for Ding Sha: "What do you want from me?"

Ding Sha smiled dryly, looking for something to say: "Sister, have you planned where to spend your honeymoon?"

"I don't know...I want to go to Australia, but there is an art exhibition in the Old Palace in Paris and I want to see it first, so I might go to France first."

"That's great. When I get married in the future, I don't know if I will have time to take such a long vacation."

Dou Xin laughed: "Aren't you your own boss, why can't you give yourself a vacation?"

Ding Sha rubbed his face, and finally asked what he wanted to ask: "Sister, have you ever played 'You Listen'?"

Dou Xin hesitated for a second, and then replied: "I have played it, isn't this the software you developed, and I was trying my best to sell Amway for you."

Ding Sha couldn't believe it: "Are you... still playing now?"

Dou Xin showed embarrassment: "This... I used a new mobile phone, and the memory is not enough, so I can't play much, but don't worry! When I change to a larger capacity next time, I will install all the software of your company as soon as possible. !"

Although he already guessed the answer, Ding Su still felt great heartache when he heard Dou Xin say this with his own ears.In the past two years, he has recorded countless love words on "You Listen", each of which is a confession to Dou Xin. He always thought that Dou Xin would watch, listen, and be moved. Entertain yourself.

Ding Sha nodded, feeling unspeakably tired: "Sister, I'm leaving first."

Dou Xin leaned over with concern: "Your complexion is not very good, how about I help you call a car."

Ding Sha waved his hand: "No, it's such a short distance, I walked back, just in time to sober up."

He gently hugged Dou Xin, then opened the door and left.

Senior sister, I wish you happiness.