please don't look at me

Yu Xin fantasizes countless times that she can muster up the courage to strike up a conversation when she is following Ding Sha, but she is always just thinking about it.

He and Ding Sha had only been classmates in junior high school for one year, and Ding Sha transferred to the fast class in the second year of junior high school. Yu Xin could only read his name from the grade honor roll and his profile from the window of the passing classroom.

Then Yu Xin paid the sponsorship fee and narrowly attended the same key high school as Ding Sha.Ding Sha was still the top student in the fast class, but Yu Xin didn't even make it to the five or six pages of university admission honor list after the college entrance examination results were released.

He applied to a second-rate university, which was diagonally opposite to Ding Sha's prestigious university. The school was small, and the dormitory building was smoky.Yu Xin didn't dislike it at all, she wandered around Ding Sha's campus every day, and every time she saw Ding Sha coming out of the library from a distance, she was very excited.

But in four years, no one dared to strike up a conversation.

After Ding Sha graduated and stayed in Hongcheng, Yu Xin listened to her parents and took the civil servant exam.If he didn't go home, he stayed in Hongcheng. His parents couldn't persuade him, so they bought him a single apartment in the local area.

The location Yu Xin chose by herself was near Ding Sha's company, and it was also in the same neighborhood as him.

I commute to and from get off work every [-] to [-], and in my spare time, I can hang out around the neighborhood and look at Ding Sha.

Little days are fine.

Sometimes he followed too closely and met Ding Sha's eyes. Ding Sha didn't even recognize him, and just smiled at him as a stranger.

But this is super satisfying.

He hoped that Ding Sha would not recognize him, so that he could continue to lurk beside him and watch him silently.

As for what to do next, he hasn't made up his mind yet.

Didn't Ding Sha have a date yet, so don't be in a hurry.

These days, Hongcheng has ushered in a typhoon once in decades, and the stern wind blew Yu Xin's window on the twentieth floor.

Most of the surrounding shops are closed, only a 24-hour convenience store is still lit, but it is early in the afternoon at [-] o'clock, the sky has completely darkened, and the small decorative lights around the convenience store circle a bright area in front of the door , also illuminated a figure.

Holding a disposable coffee cup in one hand and a string of fish balls in the other, Ding Sha was standing at the door of the shop eating.The slightly curly bangs on his forehead were scattered by the wind, but he didn't care.

Yu Xin hid under the eaves at the entrance of the community to watch him, and saw him finish eating the food in his hand, and then took an umbrella and walked towards the community.Just as Yu Xin was about to look away, his eyelids twitched again. He subconsciously looked up and saw the huge light signboard of the convenience store precariously at the height of the two-story building.

not good!

Yu Xin didn't open her umbrella, and rushed directly into the wind and rain, grabbed Ding Sha's hand, and moved him in her direction.

Almost at the same time, the light board fell off and fell from a high position, making a loud noise.

Ding Sha kept holding the umbrella, didn't see what was going on above his head, and was suddenly pulled by someone, and another ear-piercing sound exploded in his ear, which made him push forward, knocking Yu Xin to the ground.

Yu Xin sank into the muddy puddle, drenched all over, as embarrassing as she wanted.

His first reaction was to cover his face and turn around.

Wanting to disappear from Ding Sha's eyes.

Ding Sha was stunned for a few seconds before he came back to his senses. Seeing the savior turned around to leave, he quickly followed him with his umbrella: "Thank you so much brother! If it weren't for you, I would have died just now!"

Yu Xin covered her face and trot forward, and said in a muffled voice, "It's okay, it's okay...you can do your work."

Ding Sha followed quickly: "You saved me, and I knocked you down...... Ah, your clothes are all dirty, or go to my house and take a shower."

When Yu Xin heard that the male god invited her to go home, she paused for a moment, her heart was about to blossom, but then she thought that the male god had also seen her embarrassing appearance, and felt very ashamed.

"No, no." The two had already walked into the community, and Yu Xin pointed in the direction of her home, "I also live near here, so I'll go home first."

Seeing that this man has been trying to get rid of him, Ding Sha didn't say much, just about to say goodbye, he glanced at his hand, but saw a red spot on his palm.

"Your hand is hurt!" Ding Sha followed him into the corridor, grabbed his hand and took a look, "Scratch... Maybe it was caused by a fall just now, I'm so sorry!"

Yu Xin shook her hand, and then let out a painful "hiss".

Seeing this, Ding Sha felt even more sorry: "Let me bandage it up for you."

Yu Xin saw that he had followed up in the elevator room, and it was really hard to refuse, and she was also looking forward to talking to him more, so she hummed twice, and didn't refuse any more.

The elevator went up to the 20th floor, Yu Xin took out the key with her uninjured hand, opened the door and entered the house.

"The medicine box is in the drawer of the TV cabinet." Yu Xin put down these words and rushed into the bathroom as if fleeing.

He wanted to change into clothes that could see people quickly.

"Hey..." Ding Sha followed to the bathroom door, "Your wound should not get wet—"

"Bang!" The bathroom door was slammed shut in front of him.

Ding Sha's nose almost touched the glass mosaic.

He took two steps back, turned around and went to the living room to find the medicine box.

After a full 10 minutes, Yu Xin came out of the bathroom dawdly.

Ding Sha smiled at him and said: "Come out, I thought you lost too much blood and fainted inside."

Yu Xin's face turned "chuckle" red.

Seeing that he made the wrong joke, Ding Sha once again showed an apologetic expression to the thin and lifesaver in front of him: "Stop talking, sit down quickly, and let me take a look at your wound."

Yu Xin took small steps and sat opposite Ding Sha, and stretched out her palm.

Ding Sha gave a "tsk" sound: "You got wet when you took a bath, it would be bad if you got inflammation!"

"I'm sorry..." Yu Xin looked at him with a serious face and whispered.

"Pfft!" Ding Sha laughed, "Your injury, you still tell me you are sorry. By the way, I should say thank you to you. Now that I think about it, I am really afraid. If you didn't pull me Well, I... well, anyway, I must thank you very much."

"No, no, no," Yu Xin waved her hands in panic, "It's just a matter of convenience, no thanks."

"Handy? Everyone can save a life in a typhoon." Ding Sha was burying his head in bandaging him, when he heard this, he raised his eyes, and Yu Xin blushed so hard that his heart beat just at this one glance.

It's over, the male god bandaged me at my home and spoke to me so gently!

Yu Xin was about to die suddenly.

Ding Sha treated Yu Xin's wound well, and put the medicine box in his hand back into the cabinet. He said casually, "My name is Ding Sha. What's your name?"

Yu Xin thought about it, but still gave his real name. He was expecting silently in his heart. After hearing his name, Ding Sha could slap his forehead, oh, it's you.

But Ding Sha didn't. After hearing Yu Xin's name, he just squinted his eyes: "Xin...a good name."

Ding Sha walked around the room, Yu Xin didn't take the initiative to speak again.

Silence for a while.

"Then... I'm going home first, let's exchange contact information, and I'll treat you to dinner when the weather clears up in two days!"

"No, no need!" Yu Xin wasn't ready to have dinner with the male god yet, she was flustered and didn't dare to fix her eyes on him.

"You are so strange," Ding Sha folded his arms to look at him, and said with a smile, "Why do I feel that you are a little afraid of me?"

Yu Xin looked down at the floor: "How could..."

Ding Sha suddenly approached him, scaring Yu Xin back two steps: "Then tell me, how can I repay you? It is said that the kindness of a drop of water will be repaid by the spring, and you are the kindness that saved my life."

Yu Xin replied habitually: "It's not about saving lives..."

I feel a little lost in my heart.

This may be the only chance to get in touch with him.

Maybe there will be no next time.

That being the case...

Yu Xin's heart, which had been timid for more than ten years, suddenly burst out with a crazy thought that was almost paranoid.

I want him to remember me.

Thinking of this, Yu Xin suddenly raised her head and looked at Ding Sha firmly.

Ding Sha was startled for a moment by his sudden gaze, then raised his eyebrows and looked at him, waiting for him to say something.

Yu Xin's chest rose and fell violently, showing that he was fighting fiercely in his heart, and his mood fluctuated violently.

It seems that after a whole century, Yu Xin finally squeezed out this sentence word by word:

"Didn't you say that you want to repay my life-saving grace? Can you repay me in any way?"

Ding Sha bent the corner of his mouth: "Of course——"

"Okay!" Yu Xin interrupted him, "I want you!"

Ding Sha stayed where he was: "Huh?"

"I said—" Yu Xin took a step towards him, "I want to sleep with you!"

Ding Sha swallowed a mouthful of saliva: "You are serious!"

Yu Xin nodded: "That's right."

Ding Sha took two steps back and stammered, "Uh, uh...you may have misunderstood, I, I'm not gay."

"It's okay, it's not that difficult to sleep with a man."

Ding Sha made a bitter face: "I, I don't want to be fucked!"

"No, no, no!" Yu Xin looked at him sincerely, "You fuck me, you do 1 and I do 0."

Ding Sha was about to cry: "I can't be hard on you either."

Yu Xin pretended to be heroic and patted her chest: "It's okay, leave it to me!"

"Can you stop like this!" Ding Sha was forced to the corner, with nowhere to retreat, and was struggling for the last time.

Yu Xin also wrinkled her face, as if she was competing with him to cry first: "I'm sorry, I know you despise me...but I saved your life, so you should do a good deed and close your eyes Just stay in bed for a while. Please!"

Seeing the other party's eyes filled with tears, Ding Sha felt embarrassment and horror in his heart: "I, I, and I didn't despise you, really! We will be good buddies from now on, you don't have to do this..."

"I'm not sick..." Ding Sha wiped away his tears, buried his head and dragged Ding Sha to the bedroom, "Don't worry, I'll give you a condom."

Although Yu Xin was thin and small, his hand was extremely strong, and he used his injured hand to hold Ding Sha's arm. Whenever Ding Sha struggled, the bandage would turn red faintly. to bed.

Yu Xin pushed him down, put her hands on both sides of his head, and said quickly, "Wait for me for 2 minutes, soon!"

After saying that, he flew into the bathroom like a whirlwind.

Ding Sha's expression was contorted. He wanted to sneak away, but the bathroom was on the way.

He thought, maybe he encountered a pervert...

But going to the convenience store by myself was indeed a temporary idea, and that person did save me...

If the signboard that weighed a thousand catties fell on him, he would be disabled if he didn't die.

Thinking about it this way, having a fling with this weak-looking and timid man doesn't seem to be unacceptable.

Besides, wait until I can't harden myself, what can that person do to me?

Ding Sha, who is extremely confident in his sexual orientation and force value, swallowed his heart in a blink of an eye. He even took off his rain-stained jacket and suit pants, and only wore thin underwear and shorts , sitting on the bed and waiting for Yu Xin.

Thinking back to the man's arrogant and panicked look, he even had the bad idea of ​​teasing him.

Yu Xin was in a hurry to "get ready" in the bathroom. On the one hand, he was afraid that Ding Sha would leave and he didn't dare to close the door, on the other hand, he didn't want him to see the shameful appearance of himself doing bowel cleansing and dilating.Full of entanglement, he wasted time and stayed in the bathroom for far more than 2 minutes.

But when he stepped out of the bathroom, he found that Ding Sha was not only still there, but even took off most of his clothes, sitting on the bed and looking at him with a smile on his face.

Yu Xin almost passed out from happiness.

Years of secret love, that unrealistic dream, is it finally about to come true?

I, finally, fell asleep, a male god!

Yu Xin shouted frantically in her heart.

With flushed cheeks, she shyly moved to the side of the bed.He was only wearing a long white shirt with no trousers on his lower body, and his underwear was faintly visible under the hem of the shirt.

If this attire was changed to a woman, Ding Sha would react a little no matter what, but, but in front of him was a man, and he was a skinny man.

Ding Sha couldn't bear to look straight at him and closed his eyes, with an expression of about to die generously.

With his expression on his face, Yu Xin was about to cry again, but the matter had come to this point, he must not give up halfway.

out on a limb.He knew that after today, when Ding Sha walked out of this door, he would never contact him again, or even avoid him.

But, at least I have my wish, and I have no more desires or desires.

Those bubble fantasies have been floating in the mind for more than ten years, and finally there is no need to wait for them to burst under the pressure of reality one day.Yu Xin was determined to grasp them in the palm of her hand.

Even if it is broken in advance, at least it was once owned.

Yu Xin pulled out a brand new black towel from behind, and said, "I'll cover your face with it, so you won't be able to see me, so it will be more comfortable."

Ding Sha twisted his mouth: "That's unnecessary."

Yu Xin asked him to lie down, covered his face with a towel, leaving only his mouth and nose: "You can think of other women in your mind... Haha, you probably don't have a girlfriend."

Yu Xin asked the question knowingly, he knew that Ding Sha was single.

But Ding suddenly hesitated. He was silent for a while, then pulled off the towel and got up to leave: "I really can't accept it...I'm sorry, I have someone I like."

The mattress was soft, Ding Sha got up with a big movement, Yu Xin followed suit, he lost his balance, and threw his whole face into the bed.

He knew who Ding Sha was talking about.

Dou Xin, a schoolgirl who is a year older than Ding Sha, Ding Sha has liked her since his sophomore year and has been chasing her ever since.

Her name also has Xin, no wonder, no wonder Ding Sha heard her own name just now, and said "Xin" is a good name.

As soon as Ding Sha's feet touched the floor, Yu Xin grabbed his wrist.Yu Xin looked thin and small, but his strength should not be underestimated. He exerted so much force this time that Ding Sha's wrist was almost dislocated.

Streaks of blood emerged from the white bandage.

Ding Sha stopped in place, frowning, watching Yu Xin kneeling and crawling on the bed, her whole face buried in the quilt, but she just clenched her hands tightly and did not let go of herself.

Ding Sha tentatively said, "Why don't I introduce some of my friends to you? I know some comrades, and they are all better than me..."

Yu Xin's muffled voice came from under the blanket: "I want you. Right now."

Ding Sha was completely at a loss. He returned to the bed, gasping for breath and breaking away from Yu Xin's hand: "Okay, I'll close my eyes. I'll give you 5 minutes."

"You let me go in 5 minutes." Ding Sha added.

After speaking, he took off his underpants, threw them at the foot of the bed, covered his eyes with a towel, and sighed resignedly.

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