Disgusting

After T University started school, Qiu Xiaolu found out that Lin Mo had changed.He would always tell Qiu Xiaolu excitedly after he came back that he ran into a handsome young man again today, and he wanted to chase after him.

Qiu Xiaolu didn't take it seriously, and was even happy that he was finally starting a new relationship.Until Lin Mo started to stay away from home all night and all night, and would get drunk when he came back.At night, the mobile phone can't be connected, and the voice on the other side is very noisy. Even after being connected once, Qiu Xiaolu heard a voice that must be unique to the [-]th ban. He was so shocked that he almost dropped the phone.

Afterwards, Qiu Xiaolu got used to running around gay bars at night, pulling back Lin Mo, who was flushed with shame and shamelessly flirting with strange men, and repeated this until autumn, when Qiu Xiaolu finally couldn't help it, and felt After silently saying "I'm not his parents" three times, it turned into preaching.

What promiscuity is unhealthy and easy to get sick, you should not be so indulgent when you are young; why you can’t fall like this for a man, good men are yet to come, you don’t want to miss them because your private life is too indulgent; what are you looking at You can communicate, but it's really not good to change every day...

Lin Mo hiccupped after listening to him say this, and waved his hand: "Okay, then I will move out."

Qiu Xiaolu hurriedly stopped him, saying that he didn't mean that, Lin Mo smiled again: "I want to go to school, brother, I'll find a house closer to the school, besides, Qiu Xiaolu, we are both gay, don't you Do you think it's dangerous for us to live together?"

Qiu Xiaolu retorted subconsciously: "I'm not gay..."

Lin Mo was taken aback for a moment, then burst out laughing.

"Are you kidding? I knew you were a shou the first time I saw you. I only do shou. I will neither let you nor laugh at you. Don't worry..."

As he spoke, he waved his hand boldly, and then he picked up a bag and went out the door.

Qiu Xiaolu stood in the entrance, the door was not closed, Lin Mo took two pieces of his clothes by mistake, after Lin Mo moved out, he had to pay the rent as a matter of course, but he hadn’t found a job yet, and his savings would only decrease or not increase...

He couldn't care less about these.

Qiu Xiaolu only had one thing on his mind——

Is he gay?

how could be?

When Lu Ziang graciously admitted that he was gay and gave a detailed introduction to the other three in the dormitory, he didn't think he was gay.

The man pressed on him and teased him in every possible way. Although he felt refreshed physically, he still couldn't accept it in his heart. He didn't think he was gay either.

Where did Lin Mo see it?

Is there any obvious difference between normal people and gay people?

Qiu Xiaolu tightened the corner of his clothes, but speaking of it, in the past three years, apart from the occasional thought that he would feel a little hot in the past, he seemed to really have nothing to do with that kind of thing. There are always female clients in the place where he works. , he saw it and could handle it calmly without blushing...

But when he saw the male customer, he was very calm and didn't think there was anything wrong...

What, is he bent?

Qiu Xiaolu squatted down, feeling a little flustered.

Lin Mo's words made him re-examine himself. He had never considered whether he liked men or women. He took it for granted that he would blush when he saw it.But thinking about it now, every time he faces a man, his face will be very red, and after screaming and releasing it, his face will be even redder...

Qiu Xiaolu covered his face, trembling - he remembered those episodes from before.

Is it really normal for me to have no sexual interest in anything and only get hot when I recall those clips?

Qiu Xiaolu was not sure.

That night, Qiu Xiaolu secretly sat in the corner of the gay bar where he often went to get Lin Mo out. For the first time, he didn't dodge his gaze, and looked at everything around him cautiously and curiously.

There is a pair of elite men in white shirts over there, they have already kissed and their mouths are stuck together, and they are inseparable.Qiu Xiaolu hurriedly turned his gaze away, and accidentally saw a pair next to him, a thin and well-behaved boy who looked like a boy was riding on a tall and thick foreigner, his body was already twisted into twists before he took off his clothes...

Qiu Xiaolu was so frightened that he quickly closed his eyes, not daring to look around.

Seeing this scene, the bar owner Henly felt novelty and came over with a wine glass.

"First time?"

Qiu Xiaolu opened his eyes and looked around, and saw a man with colorful hair and jewelry standing in front of him holding a wine glass.

Although he couldn't understand the other party's attire, Qiu Xiaolu, who finally got some attention, heaved a sigh of relief.

"No... I've been here a few times before..."

Henly took a closer look at him and recognized him: "Oh, you're the man who always drags Lucky out?"

"Lucky?"

"It's just your lovely friend. Everyone wants him. We all say here that whoever can spend a night with him is blessed by the goddess of luck, so we call him Lucky."

Qiu Xiaolu realized that he might be talking about Lin Mo, but he didn't expect Lin Mo to be so popular in this circle...

"What? You too..." Henly rolled his eyes, but didn't say that word.

Qiu Xiaolu lowered his head in confusion: "I, I don't know... I thought I wasn't..."

"Haha, most people think that they are not before they are. I am Henly, the owner of this bar. Take your time and find me if you need anything."

Unexpectedly, this unattractive man turned out to be the boss, Qiu Xiaolu was a little surprised, and nodded gratefully.

Not a while after Henly left, someone came to strike up a conversation. It was the first time in his life that Qiu Xiaolu felt flattered to be struck up, but it would be nice if the person who came was not a burly man with a beard, but a gentle, slender woman with a scent.Afterwards, there really was a gentle, slender and fragrant person who came to strike up a conversation, and Qiu Xiaolu was shocked again——

Forget it, men, it’s more normal to dress up like a man...

Qiu Xiaolu felt unimpressed, got up and was about to go home, when his waist felt hot, someone wrapped his waist.He turned around in surprise, and a very handsome man stared at him with a smile.

"Little cutie, what's your name?"

"Chou, Qiu Xiaolu..."

As a newcomer, Qiu Xiaolu, who didn't know much about the world, didn't even think of getting a name in the circle, so he honestly told his true destiny.

"What hatred and what way?"

"People have nine enemies, the way to walk."

"Where is home?"

No matter how ignorant he was of the world, Qiu Xiaolu knew how to come out to play, so he probably wouldn't investigate other people's accounts in such detail.

So he shut up and broke free from the man's arm.

"Sorry, excuse me."

Qiu Xiaolu managed to squeeze out of the noisy and crowded crowd, and then ran into Lin Mo head-on at the door.

He was picking up two tall men, looking drunk, walking unsteadily and talking nonsense.

Seeing Qiu Xiaolu, Lin Mo's eyes lit up: "Xiaolu, why are you here?"

Qiu Xiaolu took him smoothly and dragged him outside: "Let's go home."

Lin Mo leaned in his arms, maybe the sound in the bar was too loud, and the lights were too dazzling, Lin Mo hugged Qiu Xiaolu's head and kissed it, whistles sounded all around immediately.

When the incident happened suddenly, Qiu Xiaolu was taken aback, and when he realized it, he quickly dodged. Lin Mo was dissatisfied, and cursed, "Why are you hiding? It's your blessing to kiss you, so why the hell do you hide!"

As he spoke, he didn't care who was in front of him, and hugged and kissed again.

Qiu Xiaolu finally saw the chaos in this circle, but he didn't realize that this was just the tip of the iceberg.

Lin Mo kissed twice and stopped, with misty eyes: "You are too short, that thing must not be big, I don't want you!"

Qiu Xiaolu who was pushed away suddenly blushed.

When I came back to my senses, I went to pick up Lin Mo.

"Give way, let him go, he is my friend, I want to take him home."

A big man turned his head fiercely: "We are all his friends, and we all want to take him home!"

Qiu Xiaolu: "..."

In the end, Henly came out to help out, and Qiu Xiaolu took him back.

After finally putting Lin Moan on the bed, Qiu Xiaolu sweated a little.

I don't know if it's because of the alcohol in the bar, or because of Lin Mo's kiss, but Qiu Xiaolu just feels hot all over his body, and the long-lost impulse surges into his heart.He bit his lip and struggled for two seconds, but still reluctantly went into the bathroom.

He turned 30 this year, but the number of times he did this kind of thing can be counted on the fingers of his memory. For a [-]-year-old single man, he is not even good at relieving himself. Anyone who thinks it is a very difficult thing.

Qiu Xiaolu bit his lip and felt aggrieved. He has always kept himself clean and restrained himself, he is not ugly, and his family is not very poor, but why can't he find a suitable person to be with for a lifetime.

He closed his eyes, a tear dripped from the corner of his eye at the last moment, and at the same time a familiar smiling face flashed past in his mind.

Qiu Xiaolu shook his hand and sat down on the floor.

He held his head and sobbed softly.

Someone broke into his life violently and forcefully, and he felt scared, so he avoided it.However, in the long years that followed, he discovered in despair that his whole life was just like this...