Disgusting

The weather is getting colder and the pedestrians on the road are in a hurry. Everyone wants to go back and lie down in a warm bed earlier, instead of wandering in the cold wind blowing streets.

Qiu Xiaolu was no exception.

He wrapped his coat tightly and hurriedly took it, he would get up soon after going back to sleep, and he still had a night shift to work at night.

It can't be compared with the previous nine-to-five office work, and the salary is even pitifully low. Fortunately, the places where I work are all small shops, and there is no need to sign a contract, and the salary is paid directly in cash instead of punching the card.

This means that Qiu Xiaolu hardly needs the ID card.

He seldom goes out in this small city, his wages are low and prices are low, so he has saved some money in the past two years.The weather is getting colder and colder, Qiu Xiaolu is considering whether to quit his night shift job, and wait for the next spring to get warmer before looking for a new night shift job.

But this winter was extremely cold, and Qiu Xiaolu really wanted to spend money on installing a heater, which was a lot of money, and made him reluctant to quit any job.

"Ahem, ahem, ahem—"

Qiu Xiaolu came back to his senses and saw a man sitting paralyzed by the side of the road. It was a young man whose face could not be seen clearly. It was too cold and he was wearing too little clothes. He was coughing one after another until his whole body trembled.

Qiu Xiaolu took out two banknotes from his pocket, and when he got closer, he realized that there was no bowl or anything like throwing money in front of this person, and when he looked at this person again, he stared at him fiercely.

Surprisingly, it turned out to be a good-looking man, not very old, and his face was a little immature, which directly caused his staring expression not only to fail to scare others, but to be a little funny.

"What are you... sitting here for?"

Although there is no thick coat, the clothes inside are very clean, and the hair is a little messy covering the eyebrows and eyes, but there are no attachments such as dirty garbage.

Qiu Xiaolu blushed a little, he might have misunderstood.Maybe someone is sitting here waiting for someone, but he treats him as a beggar, no wonder he will be stared at.

"I'm sorry I read it wrong," Qiu Xiaolu took a few steps back, and took back the two small denomination banknotes, "I'm sorry."

Unexpectedly, the man who was staring at him just now had red eyes, and in the blink of an eye, big teardrops rolled down.

On such a cold day, tears would freeze. He was so grown up crying like a child, seeing Qiu Xiaolu was very distressed, so he quickly squatted down to comfort him.

Who would have thought that it would be fine if he didn't reply for a long time, but the other party wiped away his tears after crying, then stared at him again, very rudely: "Where do you live, I'm cold, I'm sleepy, I'm hungry!"

So in the middle of winter, when everything was sluggish, Qiu Xiaolu picked someone up and came back.

That person is Lin Mo.

At that time, Lin Mo had just graduated from University for a year, and hadn't started to spend his days and nights. He would secretly blush when he had to squeeze into the same quilt with Qiu Xiaolu, and would try his best to ask his family members about his life experience in Qiu Xiaolu. During the experience, I kept a straight face and said nothing.Qiu Xiaolu had the illusion that he had picked up an adolescent son.

This is a young man with a story, Qiu Xiaolu thinks like this, he will sit under the window, looking at the sky outside in a daze all day long, he will wake up in the middle of the night screaming nervously, and he will also eat, including Weep with food.

His name is Lin Mo, he is actually the reincarnation of Lin Daiyu, right?Qiu Xiaolu sighed, he had to work two long-term jobs every day, and he had no time to care for the mental health of this young man, so he could only offer food and drink, praying that he would come out of the shadows one day.

Everyone has shadows more or less, and Qiu Xiaolu also has them, but as time goes by, his fear of that shadow gradually fades away, and instead he feels nostalgic for it.

Then one day after the beginning of spring, Lin Mo told him with a calm expression that he was leaving to go to T city to study.

This is a good thing. He came out, planned what he was going to do, and found his life goal.

This is a good thing, but Qiu Xiaolu suddenly felt a little bit reluctant. He is a person with few friends. After coming here, he has even fewer friends, so he smiled and told Lin Mo: "Go, come back and see me when you have time, after all we Are you friends?"

Lin Mo glanced at him, "You can go with me."

Qiu Xiaolu shook his head subconsciously, thinking of that man almost immediately.If he went to T City, he would be easily found.

"Who are you hiding from?" Lin Mo smiled, "It just so happens that I want to hide from someone too, let's go together."

Qiu Xiaolu hesitated for a long time, but couldn't stand Lin Mo's soft and hard words, and seriously considered Lin Mo's question "Are you going to die of old age in this place?", and finally agreed to go to T city together.

Seeing that he is almost thirty, if no one knows him and no one remembers him, can he also find someone to cuddle with and spend the rest of the time?

After all, people are creatures that are afraid of being alone.

Lin Mo went to T University. In his words, when he returned to T City, he would be under Lin Xiaoye's world, and no one could bully him anymore.Qiu Xiaolu saw the flamboyant and bright smile on his face, and he also became happy in his heart, happy that he finally passed the dark period.

On the first night in T City, the two of them bought wine from outside as if they had made an appointment.

"We should buy another table of hot pot." Lin Mo felt a little regretful, and didn't bother to go out to buy it again.

"I bought a few cold dishes. It's not very hot yet, so drink less."

"I know, Mother Qiu."

Qiu Xiaolu was a little short of breath and couldn't say anything, so he took a sip of his wine.He doesn't drink well, he only dares to drink beer, but Lin Mo bought a lot of red and white beer.

"Lin Mo, where did you get your money?"

"what money?"

"Money to buy a house."

Lin Mo shook the wine bottle indifferently: "I bought it at home when I was in university at T University, and I didn't spend any money."

It's an ordinary single apartment, but it's near T University and the center of T City, so the price is definitely not cheap.

It would be nice to live in a university dormitory, and even bought a house specially. Lin Mo's family must love him very much, but they have never heard him mention it.

"Our family is very rich." Seeing Qiu Xiaolu's expression of disbelief, Lin Mo patted the floor angrily, "Really, my dad is a rich businessman."

Qiu Xiaolu still doesn’t believe it, because whether it’s clothes or accessories—Lin Mo doesn’t even have a decent watch, doesn’t use a mobile phone, and has never seen him make a phone call. Clothes and the like are also street goods...

But the illegitimate child of a rich family will have a more difficult life than ordinary people for a while, and will make a fortune for a while...

"My dad, I'm so mad at you."

Qiu Xiaolu's mind shook and he became more sober.

"When I graduated from university, despite my family's opposition, I insisted on being with a man. My father was so angry that I had a cerebral thrombosis."

Qiu Xiaolu stuttered: "Cerebral thrombosis is not a serious disease, can it be cured?"

Lin Mo shook his head: "After finishing my father's affairs, even though I felt very sorry for him, I followed that man to his city to work and live. I always thought that as long as I live well, I owe less to my father. A little, but..."

Lin Mo took a sip of wine, and Qiu Xiaolu remembered the downcast young man with thorns all over his body when he was picked up.

"and after?"

Lin Mo pulled his lips and smiled, "Later he got married."

"what……"

"It's nothing. My dad doesn't accept the relationship between men, and of course his parents won't accept it easily. I can understand, but you know, Qiu Xiaolu, do you know what my heart hurts?"

Lin Mo pounded his heart one after another, as if the pain on the flesh could cover the pain inside.

Qiu Xiaolu grabbed his hand, almost crying: "I know, it's not easy, it's not easy..."

"He called me his secret lover, and when his wife found out, he said that I seduced him!" Lin Mo said hoarsely, "I seduced him? Young master, I seduced him? He is poor and worthless. Would you seduce him without my master?! Haha, what a fucking joke!"

Qiu Xiaolu hugged Lin Mo into his arms, patted his back and coaxed him like a child.

The gay circle is not as innocent and beautiful as the fairy tales say. Under the pressure of reality, there are more scum with distorted personalities and damaged views.Who said that men are lower-body animals who want to be happy for a while.

Later, Qiu Xiaolu gradually found out that the reason why Lin Mo was in such a mess that day was because he was caught and raped by the man's wife in bed, dragged and wrestled with his clothes and kicked out before he could finish his clothes.

The man is a civil servant in the local government of this small city, and his wife is the daughter of his immediate boss. Whether he can be promoted or not, and how much he can be promoted depends on his father-in-law, so even if there is no love, the man still marries his wife and gets married.

The man stood aside that day, his timid expression that didn't even dare to look at him chilled his heart.

"I actually had a hunch," Lin Mo drank a little too much, his eyes narrowed, "so when I was leaving with him, I told him by accident that I was so mad at my dad that he didn't leave any money for him. I……"

"Qiu Xiaolu, tell me, if he knew I was rich, would he still marry someone else?"

Qiu Xiaolu took the wine bottle from his hand: "You are drunk, go to sleep."

After putting Lin Mo on the bed, Qiu Xiaolu leaned against the head of the bed, unable to fall asleep.

Alcohol can both paralyze and excite.

Qiu Xiaolu hugged himself tightly, and suddenly thought of a man in another city thousands of miles away, a man with bright brown hair and deep silhouette.

He actually treats him very well, Qiu Xiaolu thought, but, he is an ordinary man, he likes ease, plainness, and the same.But that man is just the opposite, he likes romance, surprise, and his vividness, even in bed, he likes to push the limit.

So in the final analysis, it's not because of any conflict, it's just that the two people are not suitable.

Qiu Xiaolu closed his eyes, planning to start looking for a formal job tomorrow—after three years, the man might have forgotten that he found a new and satisfying lover. So presumptuous.

He reached out and touched the cold ring on his heart, the love that was once so passionate will eventually pass.