gentle night

Holding the quilt tightly with both hands, his shoulders slowly collapsed.He was certainly nervous when Cheng Xian approached him, but once Cheng Xian really left, it was as if something had been sucked out of him, and he was so indescribably empty, so empty that it was unbearable—how could this be?

Cheng Xian slammed the small light motorcycle, drove against the wind to the stationery store on the street, locked the car and entered without saying a word.

Over there, Aunt Zhou was wrapping up a thick scarf and banging on the cash register machine.Seeing Cheng Xian coming in, she subconsciously looked towards the door, hoping to see Yue Junsheng.When she found out that Cheng Xian was alone, she couldn't help asking: "Why didn't your brother come? Don't you always go in and out together?"

Cheng Xian started to load the goods as soon as he entered the door. Anyway, he knew which goods should be placed where.When I left yesterday, Aunt Zhou said that she would come to deliver the leftover goods. When I came here today, the goods were still piled on the ground intact, which shows that this old woman is full of politeness.Cheng Xian didn't say anything, just let go of his arms to work, and ignored Aunt Zhou's questions.But he underestimated the indomitable spirit of a woman like Aunt Zhou. He saw Aunt Zhou's scarf dangling all around his head, and her croaking voice floated above his head, "Is nothing wrong with Junjun? He was still there yesterday." All right... is he okay?"

Cheng Xian cut open a box of draft books with a knife, and threw the knife on the shelf, "He stays at home, it's too cold to wake up." He buried his head in loading the goods, without looking at Aunt Zhou.

"Oh——" Aunt Zhou was quite disappointed with this simple and clear answer, but at the same time, she also knew that it would be difficult to dig out more things from Cheng Xian's mouth.This fierce beast is obviously only here to work, and has no interest in anything else.

Aunt Zhou returned to the counter resentfully and continued to tap on the machine, while Cheng Xian was still quickly unpacking and loading goods in front of the shelves.He was wearing gauze gloves, and his hands took turns to code neatly. Books of paper and tubes of pen refills flew onto the shelves through his hands.He tossed about these originally inconspicuous things, things that he probably would never deal with in his life.These things are too elegant and refined, too incompatible with his rough animal spirit.

However, these things are the dream of the little stupid dog. The little stupid dog has told him so many times that he wants to open a stationery store for the two of them, because he doesn't want Cheng Cheng to work too hard, because he wants Always be together.These paper and pen drawings entrusted Yue Junsheng's hopes and the future of the two of them in Yue Junsheng's mind.Under the gentle insistence of that little idiot, Cheng Xian couldn't help but help him no matter how disapproving he was of opening the store, trying and working hard together with him.Yesterday's soft words are still in my ears, but today's friendship has changed beyond recognition.He was the one who led him to the stationery store at the beginning, but now he is the only one who unpacks and loads the goods here, sweating profusely in the winter.

The last box of goods was also put on the shelf, Cheng Xian trampled on the empty box with his feet, and threw it outside the store as garbage.After finishing all this, he turned around and waved his hand at Aunt Zhou, "I'll go back first, come back tomorrow!" After finishing speaking, he left, regardless of whether Aunt Zhou should answer him or not.

In fact, Aunt Zhou couldn't say anything, the word "oh" got stuck in her throat, and Cheng Xian had already turned around on the small Qingmo and drove to the opposite side of the street.When the figure was gone, Aunt Zhou rolled her eyes, slowly took out the scissors, and began to trim her nails.

Cheng Xian kicked Xiao Qingmo downstairs, locked the car, and went up the stairs in three steps at a time.His heart was beating lightly and rapidly, with each beat beating more terror.This fear is not without reason.

Rushing up to the fourth floor, Cheng Xian fiddled with the key to open the door——he hoped that it wasn't too late for him to come back, and he wanted to at least allow him to see his little stupid dog one last time.He was tightly strangled by this sudden thought, turned the key suddenly in his hand, and slammed into the door with a "bang"! ——Yue Junsheng was leaning over and sitting at the table, and when he saw him come in, he was startled, and the pen in his hand fell on the table!

Cheng Xian stood there for a while.He frowned, looked at Yue Junsheng silently, and slowly saw from Yue Junsheng a packed backpack on the ground next to him.The backpack was bulging, and it looked like it contained a lot of things, and this backpack with cartoon pictures of cats and mice was bought when Cheng Xian took Yue Junsheng to the mall earlier.

Cheng Xian snorted coldly from his nostrils, and suddenly he strode over to the table, opened Yue Junsheng's hand covering the table, and snatched the paper that the little stupid dog was covering with all his might.

Under the incandescent light, I saw these words written squarely on the paper: "Cheng Cheng, I'm leaving, take care. I'm not gay, and I don't want to be gay. I..." "I "There is nothing after the word, and a note is broken here.

His mind seemed to be stunned, and Cheng Xian looked at those two lines of words in a daze.It wasn't until Yue Junsheng stood up and tentatively called him "Cheng Cheng, Cheng Cheng" that he raised his head slowly and looked at Yue Junsheng.

Yue Junsheng felt apprehensive when he saw him looking straight at him, but he was no longer that stupid little dog with a mind of only six or seven years old.Six or seven-year-old Junjun regards Cheng Xian as the most important, dearest, and most indispensable, but 20-year-old Yue Junsheng should not think so.Now, 20-year-old Yue Junsheng just faced Cheng Xian directly, his fingers nervously tugging at the hem of his trousers.In his heart, he was reluctant to do this, but his reason told him he had to do it——I don't want to be gay, do I?

Cheng Xian kept looking into Yue Junsheng's eyes, he thought everything was clear.Although the appearance of the eyes in front of him has not changed, it is certainly not the eyes that the little koala who is full of attachment to him would have.The little koala looked at him with tenderness in his eyes, and the young man in front of him looked at him with anxiety and defense.

Cheng Xian half-closed his eyelids, and stood silently facing such gazes for a while, then moved his palm, rolled up the piece of paper and threw it on the table, "Have you recovered? You remember all the things from the past Already?" His tone was very flat.

Hearing this, Yue Junsheng seemed even more uneasy.He frowned, glanced at Cheng Xian with a complicated expression, and gave a soft "hmm".

Hearing the "hmm", Cheng Xian heaved a sigh of relief.This "hmm" crushed all his hopes and retreats, and instead made him feel unscrupulous.So——Yue Junsheng burned back to 20 years old, just like he went back to six or seven years old when he had a fever.This kind of thing sounds absurd, but at this moment Cheng Xian has no time to make a fuss and get to the bottom of it.It’s nothing to be surprised about. This kind of thing that can’t be understood by common sense may be true or false. Maybe it’s just like the person who was in a car accident on TV and got amnesia, and the memory came back after a while; All kinds of things are just Yue Junsheng's disguise. By now, people are tired of playing and don't want to continue to pretend——

"Heh!" Cheng Xian sneered in his heart.If all the situations in the past six months were just a disguise, then Yue Junsheng's ability is too great, even he, an old Jianghu, has been deceived.If those are all disguises—— Cheng Xian's eyes darkened, and he looked at Yue Junsheng secretly.

Yue Junsheng was poked by his gaze, and he was startled again, almost jumping up from the ground.

Cheng Xian wiped his face with his hands to wipe out all the ridiculous thoughts in his mind.He took a deep breath, and asked Yue Junsheng as calmly as possible, "Have you remembered? Have you remembered everything? Including what happened in City Y before I brought you here, have you remembered everything?"

Yue Junsheng looked at him, his eyes suddenly fluctuated, "Yes, I remember them all, especially remembering that you and my brother were in my brother's car..."

Cheng Xian's pupils shrank suddenly, and he blurted out, "Junjun!"

Yue Junsheng's lips twisted, and he said with difficulty: "I remember, my brother looked at you very ambiguously, and you saw him also very ambiguously. The two of you were still touching on the front seat. Later, you, you And kissed my brother..."

Cheng Xian rushed up to grab him, "Junjun!"

Yue Junsheng was awkward with him, not letting him catch him, his emotions became more and more agitated, thin tears glistened in his eyes.

"I, I still remember that my brother mentioned some video, saying that you don't want me to see that video." His voice became softer and softer, his eyelashes blinked, and two tears fell down.He pursed his lips and looked at Cheng Xian with a flushed face, waiting for his answer.

Cheng Xian looked at him, and with Yue Jun's words, the fear in his heart began to surge like a tide.The tide soared to a high place, turned into countless evil waves and fell down in a reverse rotation, and the waves hit the ugly reef below.In a blink of an eye, the tides collided with each other and receded cleanly and completely, leaving behind those ugly rocks, arranged conspicuously on the beach, like those past events that he didn't want to look back, quietly smiling at him.

Cheng Xian's gaze fell from Yue Junsheng's tear-eyed face to the ground, and his mouth was dry and astringent.He stared at the dark tiles on the ground, and after a long time, he heard himself say in a dry tone: "I slept with your brother, when your brother was in high school, the video your brother said refers to It's the video of us having sex... You know how men sleep with men, right? It's not just a 'comfortable thing' between me and you."

As he said that, Cheng Xian glanced at Yue Junsheng quickly, and he saw Yue Junsheng's tears flowing more and more fiercely, and he opened his mouth to sob silently.He looked at it for a few seconds, then suddenly raised his hand to hold Yue Junsheng's face, and wiped away his tears with his thumb from inside to outside.Unexpectedly, just as his hand touched Yue Junsheng's face, he was suddenly blocked by Yue Junsheng's raised hand and hit him with a "slap".

It's over, all