gentle night

The ceiling, the eyes are shining with the look that is no longer the look of a six or seven-year-old child.

In the living room, Cheng Xian was sitting alone, eating stuffily while listening attentively to the movement in the bedroom.After a while, he seemed to hear Yue Jun's voice getting out of bed, and went to the bathroom and closed the door.After a while, the sound of rustling water from the shower came from the bathroom.Cheng Xian was sitting in a concave corner near the kitchen, from his angle he could only see a corner of the bathroom door.The chopsticks in his hand stopped in the bowl, he didn't speak or move, he didn't even chew in his mouth, he just listened to the sound in the bathroom with a mouthful of food in his mouth.However, there is only the sound of water, the even and continuous sound of rustling water.Cheng Xian listened quietly to the sound of the water, the light in his eyes brightened for a while, dimmed for a while, and gradually faded into his deep pupils as the sound of the water stopped.

When he heard the bathroom door open, Yue Junsheng's back flashed in the corridor and entered the bedroom.Seeing the person disappear behind the bedroom door, Cheng Xian remembered that there was still a rice ball in his mouth, and slowly chewed it twice.He took a few mouthfuls of food indiscriminately, hastily filled his stomach, then got up to clean up, and ended the night meal in a hurry.Then he also took a shower, standing under the shower and rubbing slowly.

The wind was whistling outside the window, and under the dim light of the light bulb, Cheng Xian pressed his back against the tiles, grabbed the lump under his body, and rubbed it violently.Every muscle in his body tensed up, and the clump beneath him was as sullen and angry as his face.The water from the shower splashed on him, he closed his eyes slightly, and alternated his hands to speed up the rhythm.This is not an enjoyment of masturbation, Cheng Xian just wanted to make a quick decision, and wanted to use this masturbation to relieve some depression.His body gradually bowed, and his head bent down as if looking at something. Not long after, the wind outside suddenly blew out a shrill whistle, and when he fell down, puddles of water on the ground became white and turbid. .The water above rushed down, turning white and turbid to the drain.Cheng Xian was stunned for a while, staring at the drain with rather helpless eyes.After a long time, he rinsed from head to toe in a leisurely manner, dried himself, put on his clothes and went out.

When he walked into the bedroom, Yue Junsheng was sleeping straight in bed.Hearing him come in, the little straw bag hurriedly moved inside until it was stuck to the wall.

Without realizing it, Cheng Xian sat down on the edge of the bed, pressed his body, reached out to test his forehead, and asked, "Is it still burning?"

Yue Junsheng was shocked again, trying to avoid his hand but couldn't dodge, "Okay, it's much better..." He stammered in response.

Cheng Xian withdrew his hand and glanced at him, "It seems that he still has a little fever."

Regarding this, Yue Jun murmured something in a low voice, Cheng Xianyang raised his eyebrows, but he didn't know if he heard clearly.The small lamp at the bedside diffused an umbrella-shaped light lowly, and Cheng Xian seemed to be sitting on the bedside like a beast, with two legs stretched out, his broad feet swaying twice under the light.He moved in, and asked casually, "Have you had enough to eat at night? Then a small bowl of porridge, isn't it enough?"

Yue Junsheng hid half of his face behind the quilt, and said sullenly: "I'm full."

Cheng Xian smiled, "Are you really full? Are you really full? You have always had a big appetite."

Yue Jun was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help saying in embarrassment, "I'm really full!"

Cheng Xian still had a smile on his face, he threw off the quilt abruptly, lay down and said, "Okay! I won't watch TV tonight, I'll just feel sleepy!" "What are you doing hiding in?" His eyes were as dark as water, and he focused on Yue Jun's voice.

Yue Junsheng's face could also see some redness in the shadow, he opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything, there were countless gleams flickering in his eyes looking at Cheng Xian.

Cheng Xian tugged him for a while without moving, his dark eyes collided silently with the glimmer of light in Yue Junsheng's eyes.The two were in a stalemate for a while, and Cheng Xian let go of his hand first, "Forget it, let's go to sleep!" He casually pulled a corner of the quilt over his body, raised his hand and turned off the light, and the room was suddenly pitch black.

The north wind is still blowing hard outside the wall.Cheng Xian opened his eyes to the ceiling, without any sleepiness.The little stupid dog next to him still didn't move, except for a little faster breathing, which could be heard clearly in the dark.Cheng Xian stared at the ceiling for a while, his mind was in a mess, he just felt that there was nothing to say, nothing to get angry, it was superfluous to even lament the good fortune to trick others, and he just wished that this darkness would last forever, bury the endless past, and let everything go to waste .

Just as he was ridiculing and hating, he suddenly caught a familiar voice in his ears, "Cheng Cheng?" It didn't sound like a baby.

Cheng Xian hoarsely said: "Well, why don't you go to bed? It's still burning, go to bed early!"

Not wanting to throw a warm body into his arms, he was hugged tightly by Yue Junsheng.There was soft breathing in his ears, the weight he was used to resting on his shoulders, and even the feeling of those short hair poking his face was exactly the same as usual.Cheng Xian was startled, then hugged him, without saying anything.Light and shadow moved slowly on the ceiling, and a car drove past downstairs.Cheng Xian's gaze followed the light and shadow, and he felt that the person he held in his arms was both familiar and strange, close and far away.He counted down the moments of this tight embrace, and he seemed to see the rest of their days in one fell swoop.

Sure enough, after a while, Yue Junsheng got out of his arms and fell asleep by himself. "Good night, Cheng Cheng." The voice was very soft, obviously so gentle, but to Cheng Xian's ears, it sounded infinitely desolate—desolate beyond words.

"Well, good night." He clenched his fists and replied as calmly as possible.

33,

Early the next morning, the sky was gloomy.The wind died down and the temperature dropped back below freezing.

When Cheng Xian opened his eyes, the hour hand on the clock had moved past eight o'clock, but because of the dim light outside, he thought it was still early.Dazed, he reached out his hand and wanted to lift the little stupid dog to his side for a hug, but just as his hand touched his shoulder, the body of his subordinate shrank suddenly, and moved away as if avoiding the plague.

Cheng Xian's hands froze in that position, and he was completely awake.He slowly withdrew his hand, a look of sternness flickered in his eyes.Immediately, he closed his eyes for a while to suppress the momentary surge of anger in his body, and when he opened his eyes again, he returned to his normal appearance.

He turned to look at Yue Junsheng.

Yue Junsheng was secretly on guard, but when he suddenly saw him looking over, he was startled and stuck to the base of the wall again.

Cheng Xian glanced at it, and didn't look any further. The quilt was thrown off the ground, and he put on his underwear hastily, "How do you feel? Is it still burning? Don't go to the stationery store to help today. I will go by myself. You Rest at home!"

When he said this, he didn't look at Yue Junsheng, but he could feel that Yue Junsheng was relieved.Yue Junsheng breathed a sigh of relief, but his heart was getting tighter and tighter.

Cheng Xian cleans up and washes up quickly, and heats up two siu mai for breakfast.He filled the pot with water again, poured in the leftovers from last night, and put the pot on the stove to cook slowly.After swallowing the siu mai in a few mouthfuls, the pot over there slowly boiled, and the unused minced meat, vegetable leaves, and diced carrots from last night were poured into it, and the big spoon stirred it along with the water.After a while, put seasoning and a little oil, salt and monosodium glutamate.After a while, he turned down the flame, and Zhang Yan saw that the sky outside was brighter.

The lukewarm siu mai lingered in his stomach. Cheng Xian poured a glass of water and drank it before striding into the bedroom, "The porridge is stewed on the stove. If you're hungry, make some yourself. I'll go to the stationery store to see what else is available." Why do you want to help, come back soon, or say - I won't go, I will take leave to stay with you at home?"

Cheng Xian who asked this question did not have any hope.In the past, he didn't need to ask this question at all. In the past, even if Yue Junsheng was separated from him for ten minutes, he would pout his cheeks, look at him with full eyes, and asked obediently and persistently: "Where is Cheng Cheng going?" Where?" "What are you going to do?" "Can't I accompany you?" Even when Cheng Xian takes a long time to take a bath, this little stupid dog will knock on the door and call him: "Cheng Cheng, Cheng Cheng, you Are you okay inside?" And even if Cheng Xian replied "It's okay", the worried little stupid dog would always reluctantly push the door open a crack, put his head in, and fiercely face Cheng Xian's naked body in the heat. voila.Then, the little stupid dog will cover up without words, "Cheng Cheng, you took a shower for a long time today..." or, "Cheng Cheng, have you taken your pajamas?" The steaming mist covered it decently Live the blushing cheeks and bright black eyes of the little stupid dog.Several times, Cheng Xian deliberately said: "Well, Junjun also took off his clothes, wash with me, okay?" Yue Junsheng's face became redder and eyes brighter, but his mouth retreated very dishonestly, "No, No need..." On the pretext of fearing that Cheng Xian would be in the cold, he hurriedly closed the door and fled.

"No, no need..."

Yue Junsheng sat up on the bed and put on a sweater.Hearing what Cheng Xian wanted to leave, he quickly declined, his voice was short and crisp, without the slightest bit of obedience in the past.He seemed to be holding a heavy heart, several emotions were fighting on his face, and he was very confused by these emotions.But one thing is certain, that is, he has decided to avoid Cheng Xian and reduce the contact between them.Every time Cheng Xian approached him or spoke to him, he became visibly nervous and flinched.Cheng Xian saw this, so he didn't want to make fun of it.

Received the expected refusal, Cheng Xian nodded, turned around and was about to go out, but before closing the door, he rushed towards the bedroom and warned, "Don't forget the porridge in the pot, make it yourself when you're hungry!" Flicking the key, "Patter" locked the door and went.

He didn't see Yue Junsheng in the bedroom