Roommate split personality how to do?

In the end, because I was lazy for a while, I didn't expect to find a doctor to confirm it again.I guessed it too.A person like you, who has successfully deceived so many girls, has long been overwhelmed with complacency, right?In addition, you think that even the two so-called experts, me and my junior brother, have been fooled.You feel that you are invincible and slack, and this is how you show your flaws.No one else will be fooled by you in the future. "

Dong Nanxi turned his head away, his face was gray, and he didn't intend to argue.

Xie Lingyun shook her head, wiped away a teardrop that slid down her cheek, and whispered, "Nancy, you let me down so much."

She saw Dong Nanxi with other girls with her own eyes, and she didn't leave immediately.Her feelings for Dong Nanxi are real, and so is her trust in him.

But this sincerity was crushed by Dong Nanxi again and again.

"I originally thought that even if you were really sick, I could stay with you, and at worst, I would treat you well in the future." More tears poured out of her eyes, and she calmly wiped them away, "But Now, I won't be a fool again, there's nothing left."

She looked away, didn't look at Dong Nanxi again, nodded to Cheng Yan, and hurriedly left the ward.

Dong Nanxi stretched out his hand and shouted feebly: "Xiaoyun..."

Xie Lingyun didn't look back.

This time, she really won't look back.

Seeing Dong Nanxi's heartbroken expression, Cheng Yan said without sympathy, "It serves you right."

When they come out to hang out, they always have to pay back. Sooner or later, all deceitful people will betray their relatives. Cheng Yan still thinks that it is too late to expose the day.

He thought the matter had settled down, but Li Dongxing suddenly looked at Dong Nanxi and said, "Is the story you told yesterday true?"

Dong Nanxi clenched his hand tightly.

"Dong Xing, he's a liar." Cheng Yan turned to look at Li Dong Xing, "How can a single word he says be trusted?"

Li Dongxing said in a low voice: "But I think it was different when he said those words."

Is that the case?

Because of this story, the younger brother, who has always been extremely sensitive to people's emotions, believed Dong Nanxi's words without thinking?

Cheng Yan turned to Dong Nanxi.

His right hand began to grasp the red rope on his left wrist again.The color of the red rope is no longer so bright, as if it has aged.

"Brother Dongxing is right." After half a minute, Dong Nanxi raised his head, his eyes and face were empty, "The story is true."

Cheng Yan seemed to hear the sound of the last mask cracking on his face.

"The story is true, but what I said was false," he said. "I'm not the one being bullied."

The answer was there, and Cheng Yan felt as if he had thought of it before: "You are the one who bullies others."

Dong Nanxi said in a daze: "Yes. At that time... I may not have been a good person since I was a child. The cruelty of a child is really cruel. It is because he is different from us and does not fit in... I feel like, Bullying him was a lot of fun. I'm such a fucking asshole."

Cheng Yan recalled that story, and vaguely realized that the real ending might be even sadder than what Dong Nanxi said yesterday.His throat tightened, and he asked, "Your classmate went to drive the tractor. What happened to him?"

Dong Nanxi shuddered.

He suddenly bent down, pressed his stomach, retched, and trembled all over his body.

Cheng Yan said angrily, "Okay, stop acting, it's time to recruit."

"Brother, he's not acting." Li Dongxing said, squatting down in front of Dong Nanxi, and pulled out his left hand from between his lower abdomen and knee.

Dong Nanxi's left hand was covered with blood, as was the fingers of his right hand.

He picked out a large piece of flesh from his wrist, and the fresh blood seeped into the red rope tightly wrapped around his wrist, as if pulling back time more than ten years ago.

"He's dead." Dong Nanxi closed his eyes half-closed, sweat rolled down his forehead, "I killed him. I can't help it... The tractor overturned and fell on him, so I ran over Looking for him, I found this bracelet..."

Cheng Yan asked a little nervously, "What about his mother?"

Dong Nanxi stared blankly at the wall and said: "His mother was seriously ill, almost blind, and her mind was confused. I couldn't bear it, so I went to see her secretly. It was very cold that night, and I wore She was wearing a thick padded jacket, she couldn’t see anything, touched my stomach, and suddenly laughed, called his name, and said, “Baby, have you eaten more secretly again?” I was petrified at first, thinking He really came, came to ask for my life, I was so scared that I didn't dare to move... After a while, I found out that his mother regarded me as her son..."

Cheng Yan frowned and said, "Then you..."

Dong Nanxi nodded: "then I really pretended to be her son. I don't know what I think, I think I really did a big mistake, I'm sorry for him, I'm sorry for his mother , I’m in so much pain, I can’t sleep at all every night…” He scratched his hair, and the blood dripping from his wrist was rubbing all over his forehead, ticking, but he didn’t seem to notice, “Until I became another person, I became him, and I came alive... I went to see his mother again and again, acted him vividly, spoke in his tone, and even liked girls he would like... By the way, doesn’t he like girls? What he likes and can’t do, I will do it for him. I can’t stop, I can’t stop more and more, I become another person after another, I don't know which one is the real me..."

The past flashed through his empty eyes like dim lights and shadows, one after another, like withered water plants, but his face was covered with water, his face was pale, his limbs were stiff, like a corpse lying in the abyss The floating corpse that was just salvaged for more than ten years.

"Probably myself, I really died more than ten years ago."

☆、Life in the Play ([-])

Dong Nanxi's illness is actually not much lighter than multiple personality.

Even Cheng Yan, a non-professional, can more or less see that these past events have become a deep psychological trauma for him. After years of fermentation, he finally developed a serious psychological disorder.At the same time, interacting with many girls is a winner in life in the eyes of ordinary people, but it is close to self-punishment for Dong Nanxi.It’s as if someone feels that their hands are covered with dirt, so they wash their hands over and over again, but no matter how many times they wash, they still don’t feel clean; Nancy Dong keeps playing girls with different relationships, which may also be a similar compulsive behavior .He subconsciously used this method to alleviate the guilt in his heart, but repeated many times, he couldn't really wash the blood off his hands, and his conscience would never be relieved.

After listening to Dong Nanxi's narration, Li Dongxing still only said three words: "It will be fine." He told Dong Nanxi to come to the mental health center for diagnosis and treatment. He would re-evaluate the boy's mental state and recommend him a more suitable one. attending physician.

Dong Nanxi slowly recovered from the collapse, treated the wound on his hand, and said that he was going to meet Bai Lu and confess to her what he had done wrong.Cheng Yan and Li Dongxing accompanied him up to the fifth floor and found that Bai Lu was sleeping at that time.Dong Nanxi stood outside the ward for a full 5 minutes, then he cried and said many "I'm sorry."

I'm sorry not only to Bai Lu, Cheng Yan understood that he probably also wanted to say this to Xie Lingyun and those other people who had been hurt by him.

A mental disorder doesn't make him any less innocent.What he did wrong more than ten years ago is irreversible, and he should never have dragged more people into the water.The person who caused today's situation is himself, and he still needs to bear these responsibilities.

Dong Nanxi agreed with Li Dongxing that he would cooperate with the treatment later, and then he would come to see Bailu when the center teacher thought it was appropriate, confess to her, and help her recover.

Li Dongxing agreed.

Seeing the boy's back going away a little bit, he was so much more slumped than when he first met, Cheng Yan also had mixed feelings in his heart.

Is this the real Dong Nancy?Is that boy who can comfort Tian Zhujun with witty words and seems to have no haze in his heart, is it just a phantom created?

Perhaps everyone in this world wears a mask, more or less, as if by doing so, they can cover up their minor or serious injuries that are not humane.

After Dong Nanxi left, Li Dongxing went to the doctor to update the information, and was going to discuss with the counseling group to deal with Bai Lu's matter.

Cheng Yan went back to the office first, and was full of worries along the way. When he arrived at the small red building, he happened to bump into Xue Zhan. He smiled and said hello: "Why, come to help Wang Shasha run errands again?"

Xue Zhan's expression is not very good. I don't know if he has lost his job recently, and he is listless.The weather was already hot, and he was wearing a work vest, the dark blue cloth was stained with oil.He put one hand in the pocket of his vest, his fingers were tightly condensed, and he pushed the bag out into a ball, as if he was holding something tightly.When he heard Cheng Yan calling him, he raised his head, shook his head hastily, looked around, and whispered, "I'm looking for Li Dongxing."

Cheng Yan was a little strange. He knew that Xue Zhan and his junior were classmates, but the two of them never got along very well. Generally, they might not call each other to greet each other.He looked at Xue Zhan's face and said, "Dongxing still has something to do in the school hospital, why don't you go back to the building with me first?"

Xue Zhan glanced back at Xiaohonglou quickly, tightened his shoulders for some reason, as if shivering, then looked at Cheng Yan, and moved his hand in his pocket.

Cheng Yan thought that Xue Zhan had something to give him, so he stood there and waited patiently.

However, Xue Zhan just took out a crumpled tissue, blew his nose loudly, dodged his eyes, grinned at Cheng Yan's slightly crooked thick lips, muttered "wait until next time", and hunched over trot away.

Cheng Yan reckoned that it was because of Wang Shasha's instruction that Xue Zhan must pass on the message to his junior, so Xue Zhan dared not disobey.It must be nothing serious, he didn't pay much attention to it, then went upstairs and returned to the office.

Sitting at the table for a while, without reading a few lines of documents, he suddenly realized that Dong Nanxi's matter was almost over.

Cheng Yan's mind has always been like this. Most of the time, all thoughts are well organized and arranged in order of one, two, three, four according to importance.When he is concentrating on one thing, other things can be temporarily sidelined, which will not affect his decision-making.And once the priorities are over, the things that were temporarily forgotten before will pop up automatically, so that he can no longer ignore them.

For example, what happened between him and Li Dongxing.

If Li Dongxing didn't have feelings for him, he must have given up thinking about it long ago, and he would never say a word in his life.But now?Those actions after drinking, the kiss in the alley outside the billiards hall, Cheng Yan was neither deaf nor blind, and there was a limit to his dullness, he really didn't believe that Li Dongxing didn't have any other thoughts about him.

Cheng Yan sat at the table for 15 minutes, stood there for another 15 minutes, took dozens of deep breaths, and confirmed that his brain was as rational and clear-headed as he had been every day for more than ten years. With excess self-confidence, it doesn't feel like he's being self-indulgent.

Five minutes later, he drank a cup of strong tea, strode out of the small office, and sat down in front of Mu Mu, who was immersed in his work.

"Did Wang Shasha confess to you?" He said without thinking.

Seeing that his expression was serious, Mu Mu thought it was a big deal at first, but just gathered up his energy and prepared to listen carefully, but when he came to this sentence, his eyebrows and nose frowned, and he yelled, "Hey, why do you still care about my business?" Where is the son?"

"Oh, I'll just ask." Cheng Yan's tone seemed to follow his mouth to ask the time, "Do you need to do any preparations when you confess your love?"

Mu Mu was stunned for five seconds.

Then she jumped up suddenly, almost knocking over a table, both hands fell heavily on Cheng Yan's shoulders, shook it a few times, and shouted excitedly: "Great!"

Cheng Yan was a little dizzy from being shaken, brushed her hand away, and said coldly, "What are you yelling for? I'm asking you something, isn't it done yet?"

"Oh, my Young Master Cheng, you are planning to take the initiative, what's the difference between this and success?" Mu Mu blushed, "I still don't know what you are? With one kick, you won't step out of your own restricted area at all."

Cheng Yan found that he couldn't refute.

He leaned back in the chair, tapped his fingers on the armrest, turned his head to look at the scenery by the window, and said, "Are you right about this?"

Mu Mu didn't quite understand: "What's wrong?"

Cheng Yan lowered his head and said, "Dongxing and I will do this."

Mu Mu: "Why do you have so many personnel affairs? You only have to think about whether you want to fall in love. What's the matter?"

Cheng Yan raised his eyes and said seriously: "You know, winter travel has been difficult." He raised his fingers and tapped his temples, with a smile on his lips, but his brows were slightly frowned, "I like it but I like it very much." Easy. A thought, a little urge, dopamine, adrenaline. I don't want to...don't want to add any burden to him because of this."

Mu Mu asked bluntly: "Are you planning to sleep with him?"

Cheng Yan was taken aback and said, "Of course not."

...Although it cannot be said that there is no such idea at all.

Mu Mu: "Then it's over. I don't know you yet? You're not that scumbag Dong Nanxi, you love the other when you see one. Let me think about it. I made a bet with my roommate when I was an undergraduate. I said, don't look at Cheng Yan as a school girl, but with that stinky personality, you might end up alone in the future."

Cheng Yan was speechless.

Mu Mu looked at him firmly: "In short, it's obviously not easy for you to fall in love with someone, so don't blame hormones."

Cheng Yan was silent for a while, not intending to argue with Mu Mu.Maybe some words have been held back for a long time, and he really wants to find someone to talk to: "You are right, I have never cared so much for a person in my life. Maybe because he is my junior brother, and he is really special. It's miserable; maybe it's because I kind of liked this guy from the first sight. Seriously, I really hope he's better off. I swore I'd do everything I could to help him, even if it only made him Life will be a little smoother in the future. But what I am going to do now, in a sense, seems to be leading him to a new wrong path. He may have a chance...and a chance in the future, really Live an ordinary life."

As he spoke, his voice became lower and lower, his expression was far from calm, but his fingertips holding the handrail were trembling.

"Cheng Yan." Mu Mu called out to him, also suppressing all joke elements, "You know, for a long time, I really thought you were a pervert."

Cheng Yan: "Thank you for the compliment."

Mu Mu: "You are indifferent to anyone."

Cheng Yan: "En."

Mu Mu: "You don't even care much about yourself."

Cheng Yan: "En."

Mu Mu: "And you still have serious alexithymia, even if you really care about it, you won't admit it."

Cheng Yan: "..."

"So such an annoying person suddenly became a great lover, and said a lot of confession to others in front of me, I really..." Mu Mu took an exaggerated breath, half-truthfully He took out a tissue and patted his face, "I was about to cry with joy."

Cheng Yan glanced at her, his face was written all over, let's stop acting.

Mu Mu raised his head, but his eyes were really red.She grabbed Cheng Yan's forearm, clenched it tightly, and said, "Cheng Yan, I'm telling you the truth. Think about it for yourself, how much have you changed since you met Dongxing? How much has Dongxing changed? You Before returning to China, I have never seen him speak so reassuringly and smile so sincerely. You all lived too tired before, and now you have a new start. You said that this road is not easy to walk, but if If you don’t walk around, how do you know if it’s a bumpy road or a Yangguan road?”

Cheng Yan stared at her for a long time, and said for a long time, "You are indeed a gold medal psychological counselor. It makes people suddenly enlightened and enlightened."

"Okay, didn't I just say what you wanted?" Mu Mu waved his hands, "The teacher is not here, I'll make sure for him, you hurry up and spoil the younger brother, I will pretend I didn't hear or see."

Cheng Yan: "..."

What a waste, do you really think he is a pervert?

He stood up and planned to go outside.

Mu Mu shouted from behind: "By the way, I have a flower shop phone number here, do you want it?"

Cheng Yan stopped in his tracks.

"There are also aromatherapy, candles, and balloons..." Mu Mu said a lot excitedly, "Top 10 restaurants that are the most suitable for confession in Jiangcheng, come and have a look... By the way, there are also auspicious days! Do you want them?" Pick an auspicious day!"

A vein popped on Cheng Yan's forehead, and he regretted from the bottom of his heart that he told his senior sister who was reliable for less than a second.

☆、Life in the Play ([-])

When Cheng Yan wandered home, the lights in the room were already on.

Following the movement, he walked into the kitchen, and saw a casserole on the stove, and Li Dongxing was wearing the green apron again, standing in front of the cutting board in a daze.

Cheng Yan smirked unconsciously, leaned against the door and looked at it for a long time, then called softly: "Xing Dong."

Li Dongxing didn't seem to have heard Cheng Yan come in at all, he was slightly startled, and with a movement of his hand, the cutting board on the stove and the knives and spoons on the side all fell to the ground with a bang.

"I'm sorry." He mumbled something, and quickly squatted down to pick up something, keeping his head down, without even raising his head to look at Cheng Yan.

Cheng Yan frowned, feeling something was wrong.The younger brother is not Mr. Tian Zhu, he has never been careless, and this time he is clearly in a bad mood, so it is almost written on his face that he is out of his mind.

He then bent down, and while helping to clean up the spilled spoons and chopsticks, he asked casually, "Bai Lu's business is not going well?"

Li Dongxing quickly replied, "No, it's pretty good."

Cheng Yan murmured in his heart, he seemed to be fine this morning, why did he get angry when he sent Dong Nanxi away in the afternoon?

He thought for a while, and then said softly, "Is it because I didn't tell you about Dong Nanxi's suspicion in advance? Then...that's my problem. "

Of course it's his problem.Mu Mu used to teach him a lesson, saying that he always regarded himself as a lone ranger, that he kept everything in his mind, and refused to reveal anything when he was not sure.To put it bluntly, this is called being calm, but sometimes in the eyes of others, this is called not trusting others, and always likes to show off.

Looking at Li Dongxing now, Cheng Yan always felt that his chest was filled with marshmallows, soft and sweet enough, and he didn't have half of the bad temper he had before.He thought, if the younger brother didn't like it, he would have to correct these bad habits.He will let Mu Mu know that the bet she made back then that he would die alone will be a joke in the future.

"If I have any ideas in the future, I will tell you first, so as not to keep you in the dark." He continued with a smile, "Oh, and, I promise, I will never mess up those dangerous things again, like last time The situation at Jiang Shangxian's house will never happen again in the future."

Nonsense, now that he finally has someone in his heart, he is afraid that he will not live long enough to spend more time with this person, and it will be too late to regret his life in the future.

Li Dongxing stared at him blankly, but there was no joy on his face. He didn't even know if he had heard it. Still in a daze, he blocked Cheng Yan's hand picking up the chopsticks and said, "Brother, don't be too busy, come first." Go outside and wait for a while, I'll be fine in a while..."

When Cheng Yan heard it, he felt that the problem was not as big as usual, so he was willing to go out obediently, so he stretched out his hand to pull Li Dongxing in a panic, and asked, "What's the matter?"

Li Dongxing retracted his hand subconsciously.He was still holding the kitchen knife he had just picked up, Cheng Yan didn't hold onto his wrist, his fingers slipped, and his palm just happened to rub against the blade.

Blood gushed out immediately, forming a thin red line on Cheng Yan's palm.

With a "bang", the kitchen knife fell to the ground. Li Dongxing stared wide-eyed. Looking at the wound on Cheng Yan's palm, he seemed to have been greatly frightened for some reason. He let out a hoarse exclamation, and sat on the ground quickly He backed away until his back touched the wooden door of the cupboard.

"Winter trip?" Cheng Yan didn't care about the pain, and moved forward a few steps, "Are you okay?"

Li Dongxing curled up against the cupboard, covered his head with his hands, kept shaking, and said, "I...it's all my fault..."

Cheng Yan glanced at his hand, the slit that was rubbed out looked a little scary, but it was actually very shallow, it didn't hinder anything at all, how could Li Dongxing be stimulated like this?

He felt strange, and said comfortingly: "It's no big deal, I was not careful, I'll just find a band-aid and put it on later."

Li Dongxing turned a deaf ear to him, he didn't seem to be looking at him, his eyes were wide open, as if he couldn't breathe, he said intermittently: "Brother Yan...it's me, I'm the one who hurt people..."

Cheng Yan was startled: "Xiao Wei?"

The little boy hasn't come out for a long time.

In the past, Xiao Wei just smiled when she saw him, but now she ignores him, her brows are tightly frowned, and there are big tears rolling down her eyes.He kept murmuring: "Brother Yan, don't die, don't die, don't die..."

Cheng Yan wanted to touch his head, but remembered that his hands were covered with blood, so he put his wrist on Xiao Wei's shoulder and said, "I won't die, Xiao Wei, look, Brother Yan is fine."

"Is brother Yan okay? No, no, brother Yan is dead. Xiaowei saw it with his own eyes, a lot of blood...I saw it with my own eyes. I did it, it was me." Xiaowei cried so hard Yes, the whole person trembled, and then suddenly, his expression changed, from fear to bewilderment, the light in his eyes no longer seemed to have been stuffed with two clumps of ashes, "It's always us, isn't it? We are evil spirits. That woman is right, I killed my parents, I also killed my uncle, and everyone who treats me well. Mrs. Tian, ​​Teacher Fan... whoever gets closer to me, who It's going to be bad luck. Brother...Senior Brother, Senior Brother..."

He kept shouting, his voice getting hoarse, the tears on his face were like streaks of blood, silent and heart-piercing.

Cheng Yan was right in front of him, but he couldn't see him.

Li Dongxing's hands were trembling, his brows were furrowed, his tone was that of Zheng Heping, he hung his head and said, "We can't go on like this anymore, we can't go on like this anymore. Dongxing made a mistake. There is a price to pay. Look at Dong Nanxi, how uncomfortable he is? Dongxing is no better than him... It's too painful... Why should we live? Why are we the ones who live? Die, only die, die It won't hurt anyone anymore."

Vaguely, Cheng Yan seemed to have guessed something.

He once read a sentence in a book on psychoanalysis.There are so many mental disorders in this world, and each has its own story behind it, but quite a few of them start with death.

Dong Nanxi's histrionic personality disorder stems from his inner guilt for killing his classmate.What about winter trips?

He used to spend so much time thinking about why Li Dongxing suffered from dissociative identity disorder.Every time he talked with Xiaowei, he imagined that such an eight-year-old child suddenly split into other people because of what incident?He thought it might be Li Dongxing's aunt's abuse that caused the child to split into another personality in an attempt to protect himself.However, judging from Li Dongxing's abnormal performance today, the truth may not be that simple.

Is it because... Is it because the eight-year-old Li Dongxing also felt deeply guilty because of one incident?

Zheng Heping's self-blame and self-injury tendencies may not be the result of Li Dongxing's aunt Li Dongxing's constant abuse.

Just as Cheng Yan was thinking, Zheng Heping, who had been talking non-stop, suddenly stared, let out a low growl, and flung him aside.

The kitchen knife that had just landed was still lying on the ground over there.

Cheng Yan was in a hurry. He could tell that Zheng Heping had really lost his mind, or that Li Dongxing had lost his mind.The person in front of him might really pick up the kitchen knife and slash his own neck.

He didn't dare to delay, so he rushed over, grabbed Li Dongxing's waist from behind, and pressed Li Dongxing's wrist holding the knife handle with the other hand.

"Let go, you fucking let me go!" He couldn't even figure out who that person was now, and whether he had become A Dong.The crazy Li Dongxing had amazing strength. He pressed the man's back with all his strength, as if he was trying to tame a wild horse, and was almost thrown to the ground several times.It took him a full 5 minutes of tug-of-war with the man before he finally snatched the kitchen knife, and threw it far away from the kitchen at the first time, without checking whether it hurt other furniture.

Li Dongxing was still struggling, and Cheng Yan was pressing on him, wishing he could pull out the belt to tie his hands.

"Dong Xing, Dong Xing!" Cheng Yan called out his junior brother's name loudly, twisting his arm with one hand and pinching his chin with the other hand, "Look at me, I'll tell you to look at me!"

No matter how shallow the wound was, it couldn't stand the wrestling. After the fight, Cheng Yan's hands were covered with blood, wet and sticky, covering Li Dongxing's face, mixed with the tears that hadn't dried yet. The one on the right looked extremely hideous.

I don't know if he was attacked by the strong bloody smell, Li Dongxing gradually became quieter, and looked at Cheng Yan without blinking his eyes.

"You... aren't you already dead?" After a while, he said slowly in a hoarse voice.

If it weren't for the fact that his junior brother looked so weak and pitiful with wet eyelashes from crying, Cheng Yan would have liked to slap him on the face.

Who the fuck is dead?

"Look for yourself, see clearly." Cheng Yan lowered his head, afraid that Li Dongxing might not be able to see clearly, and got so close that he almost pressed his face, "Do I seem to be dead?"

Li Dongxing's eyeballs moved slowly, and his eyes flicked across Cheng Yan's face, not willing to miss an inch.After seeing his brows frowned slightly, and his eyelashes trembling with moisture, Cheng Yan thought he was going to cry again, but unexpectedly, the corner of his mouth curled up, and he whispered three words: "That's great."

With just this simple sentence, Cheng Yan's heart felt as if it had been washed down by a high-pressure water gun, and all of a sudden, there was no anger or dust left.

"Yeah, that's great. It's great to be alive." He said softly, driven by an urge to come out of nowhere and maybe be there already, he lowered his head even lower, "I don't I will die casually, don’t you, I still want to spend my whole life with you.”

After he finished speaking, he did what he should have done a long time ago, and leaned forward to swallow the slightly parted lips of the person below him in surprise.

The taste of this kiss was actually not very good, Li Dongxing's lips were cold, mixed with the salty smell of tears and the fishy smell of blood, it tasted like the sand on the seabed.But it was a real kiss again, not like the casual kiss in the alley outside the billiard hall.

Cheng Yan never understood before, why do human beings use kisses to express love?

Probably the moment he bowed his head and kissed Li Dongxing, he figured it out.

Because love itself is a longing for closeness.When he loves someone, he will want to prolong the time with that person endlessly, and at the same time want to get closer to that person, and get closer.

They taste each other's lips and tongues, just like sharing breath, and sharing breath, just like connecting life.

After kissing for a while, Cheng Yan raised his head out of breath.

Below him, Li Dongxing was looking at him, his gaze was steady but with a trace of eagerness.This is the usual eyes of the younger brother, just like the sea surface at midnight in summer, deep, warm, humid, quiet, and it can set off a storm at any time, swallowing everything that belongs to Cheng Yan.

After being hugged and chewed by Cheng Yan for a long time, Li Dongxing really returned to his usual appearance.

There was only one thought in Cheng Yan's drowsy mind, it was going to be over now, the candles and flowers he was thinking about were all useless.He tried his best to organize his words, struggling to make amends: "Dongxing, I..."

Li Dongxing still looked at him calmly, and interrupted him calmly: "Senior brother, I love you."

His tone was like "Senior brother, the result of this experiment is very good", or "Senior brother, come out to eat", but it still made Cheng Yan's head slam.

Cheng Yan was stunned for about three seconds, thinking, well, this is really over.

It wasn't his turn to say the confession, he just hugged Li Dongxing and continued to kiss like a broken can.

This time Li Dongxing couldn't help him nibbling one-sidedly. Soon, Cheng Yan had an extra hand on the back of his neck and another on his waist. Five minutes later, Cheng Yan rolled to the ground, and the two switched positions.

Cheng Yan's body and mind were getting hotter and hotter. When he was kissed so viciously, he was distracted and thought about two crucial questions.

The first one is that his junior is indeed an all-round and multi-angle academic master, and this set of movements does not look like a novice at all.

And the other is, why does this development process seem to be different from what he imagined?

It's agreed... is it because he has evil intentions and intends to spoil his junior brother?

Li Dongxing was really not polite to him at all.

"Ah!" Cheng Yan didn't expect his junior brother to get straight to the point with him, and rolled around on the ground a few times. His clothes were already disheveled and his whole body was weak, so he could only scream. He had to admit that according to the situation, he was probably ruined. he.

The ideological struggle only lasted about half a second, and Cheng Yan's body was subdued before his will.

Who the hell wants to hold back for ten years like him?

Cheng Yan closed his eyes, and he had already accepted his fate in his heart.After all, he can let go and love someone well, so what's so difficult about changing his position to love?

Unexpectedly, Li Dongxing actually stopped because his expression was too tragic.

He was obviously in a tense state, but that guy actually didn't move, not only his hands, but also his expression became cautious, and he asked very seriously, "Brother Yan, is someone bullying you? Why are you crying?"

Cheng Yan was stunned for a second, and when he confirmed that the person in front of him was not planning to have sex with him but was serious, the next second he was so frightened that he rolled a few meters and stood up while pulling up his pants.

"Xiaowei? Xiaowei, cough, cough, cough, turn your head away first." Cheng Yan searched for a shirt for a long time, his face and body were even redder than before, if there was a seam in front of him, he promised that he would be able to get into it immediately Go to the Southern Hemisphere.

This is even more embarrassing than being broken by his own son, because he, the father, is working hard to do it, and it's not someone else.

Xiaowei sat on the ground with a confused expression on his face, most of the buttons of his shirt were unbuttoned, he looked down, and suddenly said: "Brother Yan, Xiaowei is not feeling well."

"Well, yes, ah, no, it will be fine in a while." Cheng Yan was about to cry, he was not feeling well, okay?He had no choice but to lower his head to dress the boy, and he also had to control his eyes, trying not to look at the place he had touched a few times just now.

Xiao Wei leaned her head over, rubbed her cheek against Cheng Yan's forearm, and muttered, "Brother Yan, it's so hot."

Hot, he is hot too.Don't rub it if it's hot, okay?

Cheng Yan was tormented from the inside out, and he couldn't get away, so he had to sit down with the boy in his arms, thinking about the anatomy diagram of the brain to calm himself down, and patting the boy's arm to wait for him to cool down naturally.

After all, the boy got used to Cheng Yan's closeness, and he was probably tired from the fuss, so he fell asleep leaning on Cheng Yan's shoulder after a while.

Hearing the soft snoring, Cheng Yan turned his head, looked at the face that made his blood boil, smiled wryly, and leaned over to kiss the man's forehead, and said to himself in a low voice, "Forget it, who asked me to ask for it?" .”

He, the person who is most afraid of trouble, actually found the most troublesome thing in his life.

Fortunately, there are still many days, even if the journey is still far away, it probably doesn't matter.

☆、Innocents ([-])

Cheng Yan woke up at five o'clock in the morning, his mouth was as dry as swallowing a few handfuls of sand, and it was burning.His mind still maintained the excitement of the night before, and he was no longer sleepy at this point, so he didn't plan to go back to sleep. He got up and walked outside, ready to make a cup of tea.

As soon as he went out, he saw another person on the edge of the balcony.

Li Dongxing was facing away from him, sitting barefoot and cross-legged by the wide open window, wearing the old man's vest that he usually wears when he sleeps.Cheng Yan suspected that the vest must have been worn for at least seven or eight years, but it didn't have the usual sweat stains on boys' clothes. It should be white or white, but the fabric was much thinner after being washed, and it was several times.