most young and lonely

Back home, Yi Can looked at the mirror for the first time and carefully observed his own appearance: it was a standard oval face, with a high nose bridge, lips that were neither thick nor thin, two eyes that were not big, but quite energetic, with curved eyebrows , short hair.There is a shallow dimple on the right side of her cheek, coupled with her sunny smile, the overall look is very comfortable.

She has never cared so much about her appearance before, and playing with boys is also "morality" first, and she doesn't care what they think of her in their hearts.

It is different now, Yi Chan finally started to care about her image, she started to look a bit girly.She stopped talking and laughing loudly with her boy friends, and occasionally blushed quietly when her classmates accidentally mentioned a name.

These changes are happening quietly, no one guides them, and no one stops them.The love grows secretly, making the heart of Yi Chan, who once seemed to be fearless, soft and shy.

Like the fragrance of tuberose at night, it belongs to Yican's deepest secret.

But when the days returned to study, the two of them lost contact again.Yi Can was embarrassed to look for him, so he could only sit in his seat and watch him silently from a distance.

Every day when class is on and off, Yi Can raises his eyes to look in his direction. He is still holding the English book in his own way and hardly turns his head, but Yi Can feels at ease looking at that thin back.This state has almost become a habit.

However, just when Yi Can was so excited and didn't know what to do, Ah Bing suddenly disappeared.He changed schools, no one knew why, and he never left any news.

Alas, poor Yi Can who is in love at the beginning, his first love died just like that.Sometimes, Yi Chan would still look in that familiar direction—an empty table, and suddenly feel empty in his heart.

In the next few months, Yi Can became much quieter, and she became crazy about reading. Looking at the courage of the hero and heroine in the novel who would risk everything for love, and the unforgettable love-hate entanglement, she occasionally guessed, At that time, did Ah Bing like her a little bit?

She is a child with avoidant attachment, and she comforted herself in her heart: It’s okay, it’s no big deal, it’s just a transfer, and it’s not like I won’t see him in the future; besides, what’s important about him to me, only two or three things It's just a small matter, don't be sad anymore, let's concentrate on studying.

Look, at that time, Yi Can was so good at comforting himself, no matter how sad things were, after he persuaded him, it seemed that there was nothing difficult to get through.Therefore, Yi Chan did not allow himself to be immersed in sadness and helplessness for a long time.

She also often comforts her good friends.For example, later on, whenever Ah Hong quarreled with her boyfriend, Yi Can was always the first to rush over to persuade Ah Hong, sometimes to persuade her to break up, sometimes to persuade her to make peace, it all depended on Yi Can's own opinion.But gradually, Yi Can also understands a truth: emotional matters, such as drinking water, knowing whether one is warm or not, and others are not suitable to help you make up your mind.So she just listened to Ah Hong's complaints and decided on her own.

Yi Chan has such a theory: when a girl goes shopping with a good friend, if the good friend sees an expensive dress and is very confused about whether to buy it, you just pull her away. If you easily pull her away If it is, it means that she also has this intention; because if she really wants to buy it, you can't pull her away.

Isn't that true for many things?

What a person sees and hears is what he wants to see and hear.That is not necessarily a fact, but a "fact" chosen by man himself.We all only live in this wishful "fact", happy or sad.No one can see the real world unless he has nothing to do with the world.

After that, Yi Can, who had no distractions, "rehabilitated" and began to study hard. In the second semester of the second year of high school and the first year of the third year of high school, Yi Can made rapid progress, and jumped from a middle student in the class to a top student; Those young feelings and memories are pressed in the bottom of my heart, but when I recall them occasionally, I still feel unfinished.

Ah Bing and his shining earrings have become the unreachable stars in Yi Chan's heart.

The fantasy dream when I was young was always so unrealistic. Looking back later, I must find it funny.But the bitterness and joy, sourness and sweetness at that time, as well as the care, missing, helplessness, and pain brought about by them, were so real. Never forget.