most young and lonely

Finally, when the summer internship is over, Yi Can looks for Ruoqing full of excitement.

Holding the box of wishing bottles, she came to Ruoqing's dormitory, and Yi Can told herself: What you have to do is very simple, give this box of wishing bottles to Ruoqing, just turn around and walk out, just treat it as a gift. A gift, no need to say anything.After all, if A Juan knew, she would definitely be shocked.

Standing in front of Ruoqing's dormitory door, Yi Can felt like her heart was about to jump out.She paused for a few minutes, taking a deep breath.Then she knocked on the door and Ruoqing opened it.There is only Ruoqing in the dormitory, sitting at the desk.

Yi Can thought: God helped me.She walked up to Ruoqing, put the box on Ruoqing's desk, and looked at her carefully, as if she was engraving her image in her heart stroke by stroke.

Ruoqing was startled when she saw Yi Can's fiery eyes, what should come is still here.

The last time she came back from Sioux City, Ruoqing already knew Yi Can's feelings for her, and also realized that she was also moved by Yi Can.

However, she didn't dare to think any more.She grew up in a different environment from Yi Can, with too many burdens on her shoulders; and the traditions and limitations of her thinking environment since she was a child, she can't do what she wants to do willfully; moreover, she is not as fearless as Yi Can , The courage that is not afraid of the earth, she is afraid!She is afraid of the eyes of outsiders, the incomprehension of her friends, and the refusal of her family.

She is much more rational than Yi Chan, and her fear is not unreasonable.The general environment of Chinese society is so conservative, only a few people in the previous generation can accept and face up to homosexual love, and the most difficult hurdle of parents makes it difficult for Ruoqing to speak.

And Yi Can is too idealistic, thinking that with fearless love, he can resist all the prejudices of the whole society, but he never thought how difficult it would be to walk on this road.

Therefore, Ruoqing thought and considered for a long time, and finally had no choice but to give up this relationship.However, Ruoqing forgot one thing: how can love be considered with an absolutely rational attitude?

Ruoqing thought of countless reasons for rejecting Yi Can.The simplest is "I don't like you".

She knew that as long as she said this clearly, Yi Can would never pester her again.However, she couldn't say it anyway.

Facing Yi Can's affectionate eyes, Ruoqing's heart was in a mess.

Yi Can just looked at Ruoqing quietly like that, his mind went blank, he couldn't say anything even though he had so many things in his heart.It took a long time before I asked, "Ruoqing, do you like me?"

"I——Yi Can, what are you kidding?" Although Ruoqing was prepared, she still couldn't look into Yi Can's eyes.She hurriedly changed the subject: "Um, you came just in time, I bought a lot of snacks here..."

"Don't change the subject, Ruoqing. You just said whether you like me or not?"

"Why bother?" Ruoqing took a step back and sighed softly.Under Yi Can's questioning, she seemed so helpless.

"Is it hard to answer? Don't you like me at all? Last time you went to Sioux City—" Yi Can stared at her closely.

"I—" Ruoqing was forced to the wall, she lowered her head, still not daring to look into Yi Can's eyes.

"Why don't you want to admit that you like me?"

"But it won't work for us both together—"

When Yi Can heard this, she was very happy. Although she was embarrassed, at least Ruoqing liked her.She shook Ruoqing's hand excitedly: "Don't be afraid, Ruoqing, we will think about the future. The most important thing is, I love you, we are together, we will go to work together, cook together, and clean up together It belongs to our little family; when we come back from work, we chat together on the bed; when you are unhappy, I will tell you jokes—"

Ruoqing felt like she was about to give in.Why doesn't she yearn for such a life!

The nails have dug deeply into the palm of the hand.But how could she let herself indulge in it?

In the end, Ruoqing made up her mind: "Stop talking, Yican. I——I've already reunited with Xu Yang." Xu Yang is Ruoqing's ex-boyfriend.

"What? Why are you with him again? Didn't you say that you are not suitable?"

"He came to see me—"

"He came to look for you, did you agree? When did this happen?" Yi Can couldn't believe it.

"Don't you believe it? I'll call him." Ruoqing forced herself to say indifferently.She understood that she was about to soften her heart.If this conversation is not over, she is afraid that she will surrender.

"No need, I believe it. It turned out to be like this. I'm sorry to bother you." At that moment, Yi Chan felt that all the strength in his body was drained.

What a fool, he imagined his future life countless times before asking what he meant.Yi Chan scolded himself secretly.

Since this is the case, what is the point of writing her a box?Yi Can turned around slowly, picked up the box on the table, and walked out of Ruoqing's dormitory.At this time, Yi Chan's tears welled up.She didn't want her to see herself crying.

Relying on intuition, he went downstairs and put the box next to the trash can. Yi Can didn't bother to wipe away his tears, just like that, walked into the gorgeous sunshine.She had never felt that the sun was so glaring before, and she couldn't stop crying.Let the sun dry up the tears!

Yi Chan returns to the dormitory like a walking dead.Sit quietly until dark, until An Ran returns.

In fact, Ruoqing's side is not much better.Xu Yang came to look for her, but she didn't get back together with Xu Yang, that was just an excuse for her to make Yi Chan give up.

To personally reject the person she likes, she has to be cruel to herself to do it.

She watched Yi Can walk out of the dormitory, and followed after a few seconds. She watched Yi Can dump the box next to the trash can in the corridor, and then walked back to the dormitory step by step.The sun shone on her body, making her dazzled by the beauty.In the past, Yi Chan and Sunshine always complement each other, but now she is so afraid of Sunshine.

She felt as if she had been severely grabbed by herself, and she might never forgive me again.Ruoqing leaned against her desk, letting tears flow down her face.It took a while before I remembered that box, it must be a gift that Yi Chan wanted to give himself.Hastily ran downstairs.Fortunately, it is still there.

On her own bed, Ruoqing unwrapped the wishing bottles containing Yi Can's sincerity one by one, and opened every small note with various words.

"Ruoqing, let me soothe the sadness between your brows, okay?"

"Ruoqing, my cooking skills have improved a lot"

"Ruoqing, I will make you very happy"

"Ruoqing, can you give me a cup?"

"Ruoqing, I love you"

"Ruoqing, you will always be number one in my heart"

"Ruoqing, let's go to the Ferris wheel together."

"Ruoqing, you are the angel God gave me"

"Ruoqing and Yican, haha, we are a match made in heaven"

"Ruoqing, in fact, I have already fallen in love with you at first sight."

……

Ruoqing didn't read it all, so she hugged the quilt and burst into tears, not suppressing the trembling of her body at all.

Perhaps, this is the only time she has allowed herself to cry so presumptuously since she grew up.

Everyone is someone else's love strategist, why don't you understand anything when it's your turn?Why can't two people who love each other be together?

If Ruoqing could choose again, she would rather choose to be bravely with Yi Can and face all the accusations and criticisms of the world together, rather than go through such heart-wrenching pain and loneliness in the middle of the night.