look back and see him

Compared with Ding Yu, who used to be quite enterprising and regarded movies very noblely, Lu Xiaoman now seems quite easy-going when it comes to making movies.He is more open to work such as attending events, programs or shooting commercials, so after earning money, he is actually picky about making movies—if it is not a movie he particularly likes, he is too lazy to leave his life. City to shoot.In the past, he didn't think he was the kind of person whose love was greater than the sky, but now, the focus of his life has changed.

Fortunately, at this moment, Lu Xiaoman was found in a low-cost movie "Late Night Convenience Store", which was shot directly in the studio.The movie tells the story of a group of men trapped in a blackout convenience store on a thunderstorm night. To pass the time, they tell stories to each other. Soon their lives are at stake.Lu Xiaoman's role is that convenience store clerk.The clerk was actually the mastermind behind the plot.Initially, the clerk has to be unremarkable, occasionally bleak and evil along the way, and in the end, the audience has to feel sympathy for the mentally ill man who can't get the one he loves, but thinks it's his girlfriend.Lu Xiaoman, who has always preferred to play complex villains, likes this role. The most important thing is that he only needs to work in a nearby studio every day, which is exactly in line with his objective needs at the moment.

Since Yan Yan disappeared out of thin air for several days, it can be said that there is no job after that.The agent reprimanded Yan Yan for his willful behavior, but for Yan Yan and Lu Xiaoman, they were quite satisfied.They've been very tired recently, and it's more important than anything else to be able to spend more time together.

Every day, Yan Yan would secretly pick Lu Xiaoman to and from get off work, and sometimes they would make fun of each other for not being popular when they were seen but not recognized, and then they would seriously explain that they were so low-key and refused to be popular because they wanted to have a good relationship.In addition, they would suddenly go to watch the sunrise, or chat all night without doing anything.

Later, when Lu Xiaoman recalled this period of time, he had to admit that this was the happiest time, and at the same time, it was like an illusory dream.Maybe there is a voice in their intuition telling them that they must cherish it, because happiness is often fleeting.

On the night when the movie "Late Night Convenience Store" was finished, Lu Xiaoman, who went to dinner with the crew, received a call from Yan Yan.

"Can you come out?"

Yan Yan's voice sounded pale and weak, and when talking on the phone with Lu Xiaoman, he was never so straight to the point, Lu Xiaoman vaguely felt something was wrong.After talking to the director, he was going to take a look outside the hotel. Unexpectedly, when he walked out of the box, he saw Yan Yan standing in the corridor.

It's easy to be recognized here, but Lu Xiaoman didn't point out this problem, and he pulled the distraught Yan Yan directly to the fire escape stairs to the side.

Yan Yan, who came to find Lu Xiaoman specially, didn't say a word when they were alone and had a chance to talk.Lu Xiaoman had no choice but to ask: "What happened, Yan Yan?"

Yan Yan didn't answer for a while, he lowered his head and rubbed his face with his hands, leaning his back against the wall as if he had no strength.Lu Xiaoman didn't urge him, but just waited quietly until Yan Yan opened his mouth after inhaling. "What happened that day," Yan Yan's voice was extremely suppressed, and his wording also stumbled, "Well, the woman, I was at that time, I made her pregnant."

Even though Lu Xiaoman was a little vigilant because of Yan Yan's abnormal attitude, however, this fact still made him subconsciously take a step back.

He thought that Yan Yan would be looking for a man that day, but the fact is obviously completely different from what he thought.

The most important thing is that even if the other party is a woman, even if the other party is pregnant, if it is just a woman engaged in a certain service industry, or a stranger who is particularly open to one-night stands, as long as they work hard, the other party is likely to accept the persuasion Pay compensation and give birth to the child and give up custody - but the reality is obviously not the case.Yan Yan's desperate performance indicates that the matter cannot be resolved that way.

Lu Xiaoman tried to calm down after a pause: "Who is she?"

Yan Yan wanted to explain, "She is the daughter of a family friend of the Jin family, we are friends, that's why I drank with her after meeting by chance that day, I didn't expect that I would be drunk like that, at that time I just wanted someone to accompany me so I just drank with her, I don't want to be alone..." Because the explanation was not clear, she chattered endlessly.

"...what did she say?"

Lu Xiaoman asked after a long silence.

Yan Yan was vague: "Now both her family and the Jin family know about it."

Those who can become family friends with the Jin family must also be rich, so the two families are suitable for marriage, let alone having children first.Lu Xiaoman didn't need to ask the other party and the Jin family what their plans were.

Yan Yan suddenly raised his head at this moment and raised his voice slightly: "But anyway, although I know it's irresponsible to do so, I'm also irresponsible to her if I marry her, I am," he wanted to use a firmer tone , but actually not so sure, "I will not get married."

"...she likes you?"

"It's not at all! Although we often meet, they are all family gatherings. I have never had any intimate contact with her."

"But now she wants to marry you?"

"She, she..." Yan Yan struggled with his words for a long time, and finally couldn't express, "I shouldn't say bad things behind my back, but it's not a 'bad thing'. Tuck it in, Miss Dante has a family hereditary mental illness, she is very paranoid..."

Later, Yan Yan said a lot of words, but Lu Xiaoman could no longer hear them.

When he heard Yan Yan say "Ding's family", he still wondered if it was a coincidence—although there are not so many rich families with the surname Ding, Lu Xiaoman still unconsciously thought about the possibility of luck, but Yan Yan It is said that Miss Ding's family has a mental illness inherited from the family - the Ding family that Ding Yu knew had several mental illnesses successively.

Lu Xiaoman didn't realize that his voice became more rigid: "What's the name of that Miss Ding?"

"Ding Yijing." After Yan Yan answered instinctively, he noticed Lu Xiaoman's abnormality. He looked over worriedly, "Xiaoman, do you know her?"

In fact, Lu Xiaoman knew more than her.

Yan Yan's expression became more and more worried, "Xiao Man, what's wrong with you?" A coincidence made him pause, "You are all surnamed Ding... But, you should be okay? If you are from the Ding family, how could I not?" know you?"

"I'm not from the Ding family." Lu Xiaoman replied without thinking. However, to clarify his relationship with Ding Yijing, one more sentence must be added, "But she is my half-sister by blood."

Lu Xiaoman really almost thought that what Yang En told him was the truth, but Yang En lied to him.Coach Wu's death must be his fault, that's why he suffered such retribution.

This could not be more ironic retribution.

Speaking of it, Ding Yu actually got rid of the guilt of being an illegitimate child very early.Although his mother was the object of his biological father's extramarital affairs, it was not his fault, especially since his mother was never recognized by his biological father. When he was recognized back to the Ding family, the Ding family also treated him as an outsider—this It was the main reason why he didn't even know about the relationship between Ding's family and Jin's family—these treatment made him feel that he and Ding's family had no room to talk about who owed whom, so when his mother passed away and he left Ding's family, he thought I have nothing to do with the Ding family anymore.

At that time, he never imagined that when his mother had an extramarital affair with Ding Yijing's mother's husband, now he himself might be the culprit for the fact that the child in Ding Yijing's womb could not have a complete family.

Yan Yan at the side is still struggling with the truth, he is obviously unwilling to accept the fact that Ding Yijing is Lu Xiaoman's younger sister. "This is impossible! If you are Ding Yijing's brother... I know Ding Yu's background! Online, online..."

"Those are all fake. In order not to get involved with the Ding family, I have not provided completely true information since I signed the brokerage company." Lu Xiaoman explained, and he continued to explain more things unconsciously, "I didn't expect Ding Yijing is actually mentally ill, but I’m really worried about myself, that’s why I see a psychiatrist so diligently.” He didn’t realize that his explanation was far-fetched, “I’ve never liked Ding Yijing, she doesn’t like me because of her reasons, including her mother, but I don't know why I don't like her?"

"Xiaoman," Yan Yan grabbed Lu Xiaoman's shoulders worriedly, "Calm down."

"What?" Lu Xiaoman couldn't help laughing, "Are you worried about me getting sick? Don't worry, in fact, everyone in this world has mental illness. Otherwise? You can't make everyone keep calm forever."

"Xiaoman, I'm sorry..."

"It's not your fault. At least, after I forgave you before, it's not your fault anymore, it's the fault of both of us." Lu Xiaoman finally felt overwhelmed by Yan Yan's guilt. He softened his tone slightly, but his thoughts were still in a mess, "Actually, I just want to say sorry, Yan Yan, if it's just anyone, I will face it with you, we can try to talk to each other... But...my mother destroyed her mother's marriage once, and I can't do that again...I don't know, Yan Yan. I need to be quiet."

Lu Xiaoman started to walk down the fire escape stairs. He never thought that there was still a group of crew members who thought he would go back. When he found himself being held by Yan Yan's wrist, he broke free gently: "I will go to the hotel. Yan Yan, It's best for all of us to calm down and think about it first. Please don't look for me yet."

He continued to walk down, and he could feel Yan Yan's eyes closely following his back. If he could, he really wanted to turn around and tell the other party not to worry about anything, they can definitely solve all the problems together ...

—But actually, they can't.