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Lu Mo said she couldn't be with me.

I asked her why.

She said she no longer had the same feeling as before.

She said that after such a long delay, she was going back to the United States.

I found that I had no position at all, and no capital to keep her.

Leonard Cohen said: "I'm not a pessimist. The pessimist stands there worrying about the rain, and I'm already drenched."

Turns out I was always the one standing in the rain.

I don't know why Zhou Yuchen came over, he hugged me, but I didn't have the slightest strength to push him away.

Couldn't even open his mouth to speak.

He said, forget about her.You are not in the same world.

He said, please believe him, he will be good to me and make me happy.

I can't reach Eric and Brian.

I have been to Muxue many times, and every time Shao Zhe was absent or inconvenient to see me.

So one night I waited there until the sky and the moon were turning white, and I finally saw him.

But he told me that Lu Mo had been back to the United States for a long time, and hoped that I would stop looking for her.

For a long time I didn't realize what was going on.

I have been distressed, cried bitterly, grieved, and shed tears.

I remember a person, miss a person, miss a person, love a person.

I went back to those days of powerlessness and despair, and this time, there was no return date.

Yet life must go on.

I still have to face my studies and work. I am busy with graduation, busy with internships, and busy with an unclear future.

My mother's heart attack has recurred several times. The doctor said that there should be no mood swings, and her life may be in danger at any time.

Whenever I cried hoarsely outside the intensive care unit, Zhou Yuchen would always pat me on the back and tell me that he would always be there.

For nearly a year, my life has returned to the same routine, as if "Lu Mo" had never appeared in my life.

The Zhou family has been paying high treatment and medical expenses for my mother, and I don't know how to repay their kindness.

Zhou Yuchen's mother said that their family, especially Xiaochen, liked me very much.

My mother said that she liked Zhou Yuchen very much and hoped that she would live to see me get married.

I told Zhou Yuchen that there is still someone in my heart who is on the other half of the earth, and I cannot accept him.

He said, in fact, you just can't tell the difference between love and friendship, it doesn't matter, he can wait, after all, he has been waiting for so many years.

I have come to understand how hopeless it is to wait for an indefinite period of time.

My mother's longer and longer coma nearly overwhelmed me.

That day, Zhou Yuchen proposed to me in front of my mother who finally woke up again.

I said yes to him.

After all, there are always people coming home, and there are always boats leaving the shore.

On the day of the engagement, Gu Qin said, the two of you have finally achieved a good result. You said before that you grew your hair because of Zhou Yuchen, but you still didn't admit it.

In this world, I am afraid that only I know who this is for.

Shao Zhe found me more than a month later, and he handed me an exquisite black packing box.I opened it and saw the ink leaf I picked up when we first met.

A ginkgo leaf bookmark is placed next to the ink leaf, and a piece of letter paper is pressed under it. On the letter paper, it is written in Italian italics:

"You are the apple of my eyes."

You are the love of my life.

That night I went to Muxue again and sat in the original seat.

The scene is exactly the same, this life is full of luxury, singing and dancing, day and night.

A long-haired woman on the stage was singing Lana Del Rey's "young and beautiful", and the low to slightly hoarse female voice asked over and over again:

"Will you love me when I am no longer young and beautiful"

"Will you love me when I got nothing but my aching soul"

When my youth is gone and my face is gone, will you still love me for as long as time goes on?

When I am covered in bruises and have nothing left, will you still love me forever?

I know you will.I know you will.

I clenched the ink leaves in my palm and cried loudly.

I can no longer run across that person here.

I can no longer return this key fob to its owner.

I don't have Lu Mo anymore.