old age

This Spring Festival has passed while dealing with funeral affairs.

Issuing various certificates, preparing funerals, dealing with various things, and dealing with various people, all trivial matters have become more complicated because of the special time of the Spring Festival.Zhang Yun's former colleagues, students, and even Yi Bochuan also came...

Chu Jingnian cried all night in her thirties, and woke up the next day as a strong woman again, and helped Ji Kaiyang send Zhang Yun off for the last time.

"I'm leaving." Chu Jing put a bunch of white hyacinths in front of Zhang Yun's tomb.Zhang Yun and Ji Ziwen were buried in the same cemetery. "Come to see you again in Qingming, when you are free, come and see me in your dreams."

She bent down, gently touched Zhang Yun's portrait on the tombstone, turned her head and said to Ji Kaiyang, "I'm on the plane back today. Kaiyang, I also told your mother that if you have anything to do, we will do it for you." You can find me, the same as Yi Chen."

She glanced at Yi Chen next to her and continued, "As for the two of you, I don't care too much, it's too complicated, and I can't care. You are not children anymore, just do what you want."

She looked down at her watch, "Okay, it's too late, I'm leaving."

"I'll see you off." Ji Kaiyang said.

Chu Jing waved her hand, "No, you can stay with your mother again. It's enough for Yi Chen to take me to the airport."

Yi Chen took the bag from her hand, "Let's go."

The matter of Zhang Yun's departure has never been real to Ji Kaiyang.He has dealt with everything seemingly gracefully for so many days, dealing with his grief with forbearance and restraint.In fact, it was all run by a set of automatic programs that I didn't know when it was started. The memory still stayed in the time when Zhang Yun talked to him before he left, and it has been blank since then.

Now everyone else is gone, those who said condolences to him, those who comforted him with sympathy, have disappeared.Only the ethereal wind in the mountains drifted over the cemetery.

Ji Kaiyang looked at the tombstone in front of him, on which his mother's name was engraved stroke by stroke.Only at this moment did he really realize that Zhang Yun was really gone.

What is the way to die, the body is the same as the mountain.

When people are gone, they are really gone, and they will never be seen again.There are so many people in the world, but there is no mother in the world, and there will be no more in the future.

"Young man, the door is closing, let's go." The old man guarding the grave came over and slowly swept the fallen leaves on the ground.

Ji Kaiyang straightened the flowers for the last time, knelt down and kowtowed.Turn around and walk out of the cemetery.

The cemetery guard behind him hummed an unknown libretto, "I've been calling for thousands of times today, and I can't return. It's hard to find in heaven and earth..."

Yi Chen had been waiting at the gate of the cemetery, and raised his head when he heard his footsteps.

"Ok?"

Ji Kaiyang nodded, "Auntie left?"

"I watched her come back through the security checkpoint." Yi Chen walked to him, "Going down the mountain? Shall I call a car to come up?"

"Let's take a walk." Ji Kaiyang said, "I want to take a walk."

They walked down the mountain road, it was very late, and the moon was out.Yi Chen also said a few words at first, trying to make it look like an ordinary walk.But Ji Kaiyang didn't answer, but just pulled him in when a car passed by.So Yi Chen didn't speak any more, and remained silent all the way.

About two kilometers away from the foot of the mountain, there was a small pavilion. Ji Kaiyang went in and sat down, and Yi Chen followed in tacitly.

The pavilion was built on the edge of the cliff, Ji Kai looked out and was fascinated by the lights on the upstairs in the distance.Yi Chen looked at his side face, the lines were clean and beautiful.Every time he wakes up, if Ji Kaiyang is still asleep, he can't help but stick it up and kiss him.

"Yi Chen." Ji Kaiyang suddenly called his name softly.

"Ok?"

"Last time you said to break up, I didn't agree. Now I take my words back. That's it, we're done."

Yi Chen was stunned, and went through every word in his mind, feeling that his throat was dry and it hurt to speak, "You said that you want to grow old forever."

"Well, I said it. But, I'm sorry, it doesn't count." Ji Kaiyang still looked into the distance, his voice was very quiet, "I've been thinking all this time, if I found out about this a month in advance, if I Didn't make her so angry, could she have been checked earlier, wouldn't she have died?"

"It's not your problem. Mom never..."

"Yes." Ji Kaiyang cut off his words, "She has always tolerated me, and even said that we should be together."

He sighed and turned his head, "But do you think it's really okay?"

Yi Chen was speechless, it didn't make sense for him to think it was possible, he only knew that Ji Kaiyang didn't want to continue anymore.

What Ji Kaiyang said was that we are over.

Isn't it over?It's not over either!It's over.

No questioning, no asking, he was just stating the fact that they couldn't go any further.

"Do you blame me?" Yi Chen asked him softly.

"I only blame myself." Ji Kaiyang said.

Yi Chen raised his head, but there were no stars, only white spider webs hung on the dusty roof of the pavilion.After a long time, he asked, "Will it be easier for you if we separate?"

"Yes." Ji Kaiyang nodded, "Yes."

Yi Chen then smiled, "Then separate. If I can't make you happy, then at least I shouldn't make you too sad, right?"

In fact, Ji Kaiyang was already prepared for Yi Chen's noise, and even thought about how to deal with it.Ke Yichen agreed, even though the corners of his eyes turned red so quickly, he didn't cry, but took two light breaths and raised his head a little.

"I'm sorry." Ji Kaiyang rubbed his head.

"The one who should say sorry was never you. Why are you still spoiling me at this moment? In the future..., forget it, there will be no future." Yi Chen's fingertips slid on the rough wooden board, feeling a little painful , "Can I kiss you one more time?" he asked.

Ji Kaiyang turned sideways in silence, and pressed Yi Chen's cold lips.

They kissed each other, like two small animals that depended on each other in winter, ended their own tomorrow, so now they seem so fragile and precious.

"I'm leaving." Yi Chen let go of Ji Kaiyang's hand, stood up, and quickly leaned over to kiss his eyes, "Brother Kaiyang, goodbye."

Ji Kaiyang looked at Yi Chen's back, he walked slowly at first, but gradually started running again, melting into the darkness.Ji Kaiyang thought, his boy has finally grown up.He didn't cry or make trouble, and accepted everything calmly and rationally, but the price he paid for such growth was too great, and it seemed too late.

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Friends, are you okay... Don't worry, what I said before still counts, we will definitely not take the route of reunion after years of separation.