old age

Sitting outside the ward, Yi Chen heard a faint noise inside, and hurriedly stood up to look in, Zhang Yun woke up.

The nurse had just gone to buy food, Ji Kaiyang hadn't come back from the doctor's office, and Chu Jing went back to the company the day before yesterday, and he was probably still on the plane to N City at this moment, and he was the only one here.

Yi Chen pushed the door open, but didn't dare to go in, so he stood there stupidly, thinking whether he should call a nurse.

Sensing someone at the door, Zhang Yun turned her head with some difficulty, saw Yi Chen, hesitated for a while, "Come here."

Yi Chen received the instruction while hesitating, and immediately, as if he had received amnesty, he walked over gratefully and shook the bed a little, put a pillow behind Zhang Yun, helped her sit up, and pulled the quilt up for her.

After finishing everything, before he breathed a sigh of relief, he suddenly realized that Zhang Yun didn't say to sit up.

Yi Chen scratched his hair, "Well, are you still sleeping?"

"That's it, I'm tired after lying down for too long." Zhang Yun looked at Yi Chen's bewildered look and sighed, "You sit too."

Yi Chen mopped the chair and sat down, not knowing what to do.This is the first time Zhang Yun has been alone with Zhang Yun since he entered the hospital for more than a month.He took an orange from the bedside table, and felt that it might not be a problem to have a sad face, so he smiled at Zhang Yun and began to peel the orange in his hand seriously.

"Do you still want to be together?" Probably because she was too weak, she didn't speak loudly, and she couldn't even hear her original objection.

But even so, Yi Chen was so frightened that the orange in his hand almost fell, he caught it in a panic, and after a while, he raised his head, "I'm sorry."

Zhang Yun frowned and said nothing.

Yi Chen lowered his head and tore apart the orange veins bit by bit, "My brother didn't start it first, it was me, I insisted on being with him..."

"I know." Zhang Yun said, "Kaiyang's character is not capable of doing such a thing, and your mother has told me all about it."

"I was ignorant at the time, and I don't really understand it now. You and my brother protected me when I was young. Thinking about it now, I have always been an asshole. I was panicked when you left. It’s just the feeling of wanting to catch something, I, I know it’s not good, I shouldn’t drag him into the water, and I haven’t thought about the way out, but I’m just impulsive and selfish, I feel that apart from being together, there is nothing else Don't want to..."

"Your mother told me that you had a fight some time ago. You said you want to break up?" Zhang Yun interrupted him, "Then what do you mean by sorry now?"

"Because I'm gone, there seems to be no way to solve the problem." Yi Chenju thought about it carefully and suddenly said, "I didn't actually love him that much before, I mean when we first got together."

Yi Chen raised his head to look at Zhang Yun, she had no expression on her face, so he continued, "I loved myself more at the time, but in fact, I knew that being together might make him difficult in the future, but I still had to do that, because no matter how we balance it out, Being together was a better choice for me at the time. But there is no way now, if he is a little bit embarrassed, then I..., my mother said that I was doing everything for myself , it seems to be true. It’s just that now he occupies a more important position, and all my emotions must be based on his emotions. I want to break up because I think it will make him feel easier, but it doesn’t seem to... ..."

"So, if he wants to go on, then I will accompany him." Yi Chen threw the last bit of orange in his hand into the trash can, and said again, "Mom, I'm sorry."

Zhang Yun didn't correct his address, "Your mother persuaded me that day, saying that children and grandchildren are only blessed by children and grandchildren. But I thought about how you will gain a foothold in this world in the future. Even if I die now, I can't feel at ease."

"Mom..." Yi Chen was shocked when he heard her mention death.

"I am old-fashioned, but most people in this world are still old-fashioned like me. You have never met me before, and you don't think this identity is so inconvenient. You will meet in the future, but what should you do?"

Yi Chen wanted to say something, but it touched Zhang Yun's worry, which was more embarrassing than anger. What he could say, he had already said.In addition, he was not sure what Zhang Yun's attitude was now, so he could only remain silent again.Zhang Yun sat for a while and didn't speak anymore. She was still not in good spirits. Yi Chen helped her to lie down again, and tiptoed to the door, only to find that the orange was still in her hand.

He slid down the wall, squatted on the ground in a daze, and didn't raise his head until a pair of familiar shoes stopped in front of him, "Mom just fell asleep."

Yi Chen raised his head and spread his hands to Ji Kaiyang, "Do you want to eat?"

They sat in the safe passage and shared the orange. The smell of disinfectant was everywhere in the hospital, but the unique fragrance of the fruit seemed to offset some of it.

"A little sour." Yi Chen said.

Ji Kaiyang hummed, and put another petal in his mouth.Yi Chen didn't say anything else, and the two of them finished eating the slightly sour orange quietly.

The sun had already set, and the lights in the safe passage were dim.On the way, Ji Kaiyang went back to the ward to see Zhang Yun. After the nurse arrived, he went back to the steps of the stairs and sat down.

"Are you still sleeping?" Yi Chen asked.

Ji Kaiyang nodded, and suddenly said, "It's time for chemotherapy again tomorrow."

He paused for a while, Yi Chen knew that he hadn't finished speaking, and patiently waited for him to continue.

"This is the third time." Ji Kaiyang stared at the shadow on the ground, his voice was full of uncertainty, "Do you feel better?"

"It's better." Yi Chen said dryly, "It's better."

"Really?" Ji Kaiyang lowered his head and pressed his hands hard on his face twice, "Yi Chen, I'm a little scared. I never thought that I might lose her so early."

"Mom's illness will be cured." Yi Chen grabbed his hand, wanting to give Ji Kaiyang a little comfort, but in fact his own palm was also cold, so even if Ji Kaiyang didn't move and let him hold it, their The hands have never warmed up.

In the past few minutes, Yi Chen would say over and over again, but only one sentence would make it better.No matter how many times you tell a lie, it won't be true. It's not that you don't want to believe in miracles, but it's the privilege of children at that time, and they are no longer teenagers.

Finally, Ji Kaiyang broke free from his hand lightly, "It's getting late, go back to sleep."

He got up and walked upstairs, Yi Chen was surprised to find that his back was a little bent.

"Brother Kaiyang."

Ji Kaiyang turned his head, "What's wrong?"

Yi Chen moved his lips. He originally wanted to say, don't be afraid, I will always be with you.But he has already deserted once, and the future is so illusory. He can say some things to Zhang Yun, but he seems to have lost the qualification to promise again when facing Ji Kaiyang.

"Good night." Yi Chen finally said.

"Good night." Ji Kaiyang continued to walk upstairs.

They all knew it was going to be another sleepless night.