old age

Zhang Yun refused Ji Kaiyang's support, leaned on the wall, walked to the bathroom precariously, closed the door, and after a while, painful and suppressed cries came from inside again.

Yi Chen's three souls and seven souls were all gone, but he just stared blankly at Ji Kaiyang's back, his back was still straight, and amidst such crying, he showed a bit of hunching.

As if aware of something, Ji Kaiyang turned his head and silently mouthed, I'm here, don't be afraid.

Yi Chen couldn't hear the sweetness in such words, I'm not afraid, what about you?Are you afraid?

He concentrated and wanted to see Ji Kaiyang's expression again, but Ji Kaiyang's face seemed to be blocked by fog, and Yi Chen couldn't distinguish anything.He rubbed his eyes aggrievedly and anxiously, but he saw the panic on his face on the window glass against the light outside.

When Zhang Yun came out, she had washed her face and combed her hair again.

"Kai Yang, pack up your things and go with me now, and never see him again, I can pretend nothing happened."

She was trying her best to maintain her calm, but what she showed was begging, which was more sad than scolding.

The corners of Ji Kaiyang's lips trembled twice, and his nails dug into his flesh, "But I can't, Mom, I can't pretend nothing happened. I don't want to make you feel bad, but I can't..."

I don't want to, I can't... Yi Chen chewed on Ji Kaiyang's words word by word, but he felt a deep fear, what could I do?he thinks.

"You don't want to make me uncomfortable?" Zhang Yun sneered, "You want me to die."

The tear stains on his face could be washed away, but the red and swollen eyes could not be hidden, as if they were full of blood.

"Ji Kaiyang, if I walk out of this door, you won't have a mother. You can't pretend that nothing happened. If you think I'm embarrassing you and hurting you, then I can only pretend that nothing happened to you."

She didn't even give Yi Chen any more out of the corner of her eye, but just took a deep look at Ji Kaiyang, her gaze was filled with moisture, it instantly condensed into ice, turned into a tangible entity, and plunged into Ji Kaiyang heart.

The door was closed, so lightly that it seemed to be closed by something else.Ji Kaiyang froze for a second, grabbed the wallet on the table, and chased after the door.

He passed in front of Yi Chen, raised his hand and pressed his shoulder, "You rest first, I will call you later."

Yi Chen grabbed his wrist, and he wanted to ask, "Are you coming back?"

But in the end, Yi Chen let go without saying a word, because he heard a faint voice in his heart, saying another sentence, don't come back, forget it.

Zhang Yun was furious, and was going back to City N that day, Ji Kaiyang couldn't hold her back no matter what, so he had to buy a plane ticket and go back together.

Yi Chen asked for leave from school for him, and he didn't feel like going to work or class, so he simply asked for leave and just waited at home.

Ji Kaiyang didn't reply to the message, and the phone couldn't get through.Yi Chen wanted to go back to N City several times to find him, bought a ticket and arrived at the airport, but didn't have the courage to board the plane.

What is he going to do?What can he do?

He didn't have the courage to face Zhang Yun's disappointment and tears.He stole these years as an ostrich, but even if the sand is removed now, he doesn't want to look up.Yi Chen tore up the ticket and threw it into the trash can at the airport.

Ji Kaiyang sent a message on the third day, saying that he was fine and told him not to worry, he would be back soon, but it was already a week later when he actually came back.

Yi Chen couldn't sleep at night, and could wake up with just a little noise.Hearing someone open the door and rushing out of the bedroom, Ji Kaiyang was changing his shoes.

"Woke you up?" Ji Kaiyang looked tired, but his tone was as gentle as ever.

Yi Chen looked at him and didn't speak, the redness and swelling on Ji Kaiyang's face subsided, but Yi Chen felt his heart was gouged out as long as he recalled the blood foam he spit out from his mouth that day.

Ji Kaiyang stood up slowly and put his hands on the ground.

"What's wrong with your leg?" Yi Chen hurried over to help him.

"It's okay." Ji Kaiyang took a breath, and he knew that this was not convincing, so he held Yi Chen's hand instead, trying not to make his face more ugly, "I remember there is Yunnan Baiyao at home, you go Hold it for me, do you know where I put it?"

Both of his knees were bruised, Yi Chen applied a hot towel and sprayed him with medicine, and remained silent the whole time.

"What's the matter?" Ji Kaiyang still smiled and said in relief, "It's not serious, it just looks scary."

Yi Chen took the good medicine, sat next to him, and asked hesitantly, "Mom..."

"It'll be fine." Ji Kaiyang paused for a second, "I'll take care of it, don't worry."

That means there is still something to do, Yi Chen translated this sentence in his heart, bowed his head and smiled wryly.

"Don't be like this." Ji Kaiyang rubbed his hair, "It will be fine, be good, it's fine."

Yi Chen grabbed Ji Kaiyang's hand, pursed his lips and just looked at him.

Ji Kaiyang sighed softly, turned his head to kiss him, Yi Chen hesitated for a second, and began to cater to his kiss, reaching his back to touch his waistline...

With the lights off, they were kissing, stroking and claiming each other's body in the dark... Ji Kaiyang's movements were heavier than usual, but Yi Chen didn't push away. If the pain comes from the other party, it's never a terrible thing , he just bit Ji Kaiyang's shoulder and hugged his back even tighter...

Tears, sweat, unpleasant sexual intercourse... But this at least proves the existence of the other party, and they can still rely on each other, in the most accessible place.

Yi Chen finally heard Ji Kaiyang whisper I love you.

He rarely said these words directly, although he practiced these three words every day.

Yi Chen didn't answer, stretched out his hand to hook Ji Kaiyang's neck, found his lips, and sent him a soft kiss that seemed to use all his strength.

Those days were in turmoil, Ji Kaiyang called Zhang Yun, but she never answered.Ji Kaiyang can only run to N City every Sunday, take the train on Saturday night, and arrive all night.Zhang Yun didn't bother to go, he was kneeling in the living room, Zhang Yun just pretended not to see him, at best he just said, if you don't break up, you don't have to come back.

School classes cannot be delayed, and work in the studio must also go.As soon as I came out of the station on Monday, I ran straight to school.Running back every week, after all, wasted a lot of time, so I could only squeeze in from other places, reading and writing notes every day until late at night.Yi Chen accompanied him, and sometimes he couldn't hold on, and fell asleep on the table, and then woke up, lying on the bed by himself, and Ji Kaiyang had already gone to the studio or school.

He was getting thinner and thinner, his cheeks sunken.But with all kinds of anxiety in his heart, he always said in front of Yi Chen that it was okay, it would be resolved, and it would pass.But when will such a day be the first?Looking forward, Yi Chen felt that it was far away, Zhang Yun was such a gentle person, it seemed that all his persistence in his life had been spent on this matter.

Yi Chen really didn't want to see Ji Kaiyang so tired anymore, between the fear in his heart and the worry about Ji Kaiyang.The latter still prevailed over the former.He made a sneak trip to City N under the pretext that the internship unit was going on a business trip, but Zhang Yun didn't even let him in, and stood at the door, "Kai Yang said he started it first, and he wanted to be with you. That's my family, I'm sorry." is you."

Yi Chen called her mom with a pale face.

"I can't afford to be your mother. I don't know my son anymore because of you. Why do you call me mother?" Zhang Yun grabbed the door frame, her tone was cold, but there was no hatred in her eyes, more pity , "You should have pity on me, you separate. What is the result of two men being together, do you know how difficult it will be in the future? Being special is never a good thing, why do you have to go this way? You obviously have great benefits Future, do you have to practice it because of your innocence and impulsiveness? Let’s break up, I won’t agree, I definitely don’t want my well-behaved child to live under the eyes of others..."

Yi Chen forgot how he left, and returned to S City in a daze.As soon as he landed and turned on his phone, a lot of text messages popped up, reminding him that he had a missed call, it was from Ji Kaiyang.He called back and gave a hello, and a strange boy's voice came over there, "Is it Yi Chen? Your brother passed out at school and is now in the hospital. Come here."

"I've reminded you a long time ago, rest more, rest more, it's all right now, I'm young, and my body is so poor. After studying for so many years, I have learned the common sense in the stomach of a dog, I don't know at all Notice."

When Yi Chen arrived, Ji Kaiyang had already woken up and was receiving an IV in the emergency room. A gray-haired man stood in front of him with a folder in his hand.

Ji Kaiyang saw Yi Chen, called him over, and introduced, "This is Professor Su. Teacher, this is Yi Chen. I..."

"Brother." Yi Chen interrupted him, and then greeted Su Cheng, teacher.

"Are you Kaiyang's younger brother? Cousin?" Su Cheng asked, seeing Yi Chen nodding, he frowned again, "Why do you two look so bad, even worse than an old man like me."

He sighed, shook his head, and closed the folder, "I'm still busy there, and I'll leave when your brother comes. The remaining picture in your hand will be handed in two days later, and you can go back and rest by yourself. Pay more attention, Don’t take your body seriously just because you’re young, you’ll know you’re at a disadvantage when you’re my age.”

Su Cheng walked to the door, turned around and said, "Young man, don't put so much pressure on yourself. Architecture is hard work, and I didn't become like you when I was studying. I'm not very old, and I frown and worry every day. How can I be in good health?" ?”

"What's going on?" Yi Chen leaned against the wall, "Why did you faint?"

"Maybe I didn't sleep well yesterday, and I didn't feel dizzy, but I was suddenly not sober." Ji Kaiyang hooked the corner of his mouth, and changed the subject, "How is it? Did your first business trip go well?"

Yi Chen looked at him coldly and didn't answer.

"It's really not serious." Ji Kaiyang still had a very gentle tone, "I didn't..."

"It's okay, it's okay. You fucking know it's okay! I don't know if you're okay? Do you think I'm a fool?!" Yi Chen yelled out.It's not just that Ji Kaiyang didn't sleep well yesterday, he hasn't had much rest for almost a month.After finally lying on the bed, I often toss and turn restlessly.

"Don't yell in the hospital and disturb the rest of the patients." A nurse reminded them.

"I'm sorry." Ji Kaiyang apologized, and after she left, he chuckled at Yi Chen, who was still dark-faced, "Aren't you just stupid?"

Yi Chen raised his eyelids to look at him, gritted his teeth, his eyes were a little red.

Seeing that he looked like he was going to cry or not, Ji Kaiyang sighed and waved to him, "Come here, why are you standing so far away?"

Yi Chen glared at him, but Ji Kaiyang was still smiling and not angry.He took a deep breath and finally walked over.There were people coming and going in the emergency room. Yi Chen stood beside him, looked down at the needle on the back of his hand, and said for a long time, "You fainted in the classroom. What if you fainted when you went downstairs? What if you get dizzy while crossing the road?"

"Don't scare yourself all the time, I remember you are writing news, not making up stories." Ji Kaiyang patted the back of his hand, "Aren't I in good shape now?"

Yi Chen glanced at his almost morbidly white face, the black eyes under his eyes, and thought, "You are also called good? You won't even believe a liar."

Ji Kaiyang pinched his fingers twice, lowered his head and continued, "It's okay, Mom's attitude has improved, I'll go back a few more times, and it will get better."

His tone was so firm, if it wasn't for Yi Chen who had been there once in person, he would probably have believed it.

Yi Chen's fingers gradually cooled down in Ji Kaiyang's warm palm, spreading all the way to his whole body, and his heart became cold.

He heard Ji Kaiyang finally say that he can make it through.

Yi Chen looked at the hair twirling on the top of his head and thought sadly, "But I don't want you to hold on any longer."