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Since then, I have been very worried that Cheng Xingjian will gradually alienate me because of this, but obviously I was too worried. The relationship between Cheng Xingjian and me has not changed at all. If there is anything to say, the friends around me are gradually turning away from us. It's a joke.Under Cheng Xingjian and I's candid interactions, they seemed to see that the two of us really have no fun for others to find, and we can't spark any sparks.

Occasionally chatting on WeChat, bumping into each other to say hello on campus, and going out to play, we always call people we both know. Most likely they are roommates in the other dormitory. Over time, our relationship between the two dormitories is very good.The third child in Cheng Xingjian's dormitory, Lu Zheng, we call him brother Zheng, confessed his love to A Yu a year later.A Yu was shocked at first, but then happily accepted.

As for me and Cheng Xingjian, we have always maintained the relationship of classmates and friends. Cheng Xingjian occasionally wanted to ask how I was doing with that "him", and once even enthusiastically wanted to advise me and encourage me to confess my love.Naturally, I refused to agree to it, and expressed my strong opposition to his troubles, so Cheng Xingjian had no choice but to stop.

The relationship between me and Cheng Xingjian, Ayu is the one who hurts me the most. She looks like she hates iron and steel—"You and Cheng Shuai didn't make it, and we won't be able to get benefits in the future..."

I laughed, and said: "If you want to get benefits, I'm the one who got benefits. When you and Brother Zheng were together, you lied to us for a whole month. I was so stupid that I didn't see that you were having an affair. You forgot about both of you." Afterwards, did you invite guests to apologize?"

A Yu blushed, "It's not that I don't want you to know...well, I'm worried that you're overreacting."

"We didn't. It's because someone has a guilty conscience. Who said that he would definitely not fall in love in college."

"Okay, okay...my fault, my fault." A Yu said, "But it's a pity that you and Cheng Shuai are so destined, and I always feel that Cheng Shuai still likes you."

I paused, I told our dormitory about Cheng Xingjian's confession to me, and I also said that we would only be friends.

Seeing my uneasy expression, Ah Yu hurriedly comforted me, saying: "It's okay, it's okay... Actually, it's not. A few days ago, I heard that someone confessed to Cheng Shuai."

"I just...forget it." I said, I don't want Cheng Xingjian to be troubled by me.

Cheng Xingjian hasn't mentioned anything about our relationship since then, as if the confession that day was just a dream, he and I are still the same as usual, this couldn't be better, I think.

The days passed by so unsaltedly, and we, as well as the people around us, seemed to be pressed to speed up.The classmates who usually meet each other suddenly changed their hairstyles. After asking, they found out that it had been a month since they changed. Everyone was busy with their studies and worked hard to survive in this bizarre world.

I still keep in touch with her, most of the time on the phone, occasionally video.She is thinner than in high school, but her eyebrows and eyes are more beautiful, and the buds of the past are blooming. Her beauty is soft, and there is toughness in it.

She looks busier than I do and sometimes has heavy dark circles under her eyes.Every time I see it, I will find an opportunity to hang up the video, she needs to rest.

I was revising the thesis with a notebook in my hand, and when I was tired, I always looked up at the wind chimes hanging by the bed, which were sent to me by her on my birthday.Beicheng is close to the sea, and she made it by collecting shells on the beach. It is very simple, like an elementary school student's handicraft class homework.

She wrote on the postcard she sent together, "It was hard to sleep at night, remembering that my friend's birthday was approaching, so I wore the stars and the moon, rode the waves and drank the wind, and found two or three exquisite, colorful stones, which were made with thousands of hammers and chisels. Honor is more important than righteousness, and you see this as my face, and cherish it." On the back is a photo of her treading water on the beach.

I was so sour by her words, so I simply sent her a postcard, "Qingqing Wanshu, the gift has arrived, it's really ingenious. However, every night, there are occasional ding-dong sounds, desolate and quiet, and I can't sleep alone , I just hope that the beautiful woman will fall asleep and talk to each other to relieve loneliness."

Afterwards, she actually sent me a doll the size of a palm. I knew it was made of her at a glance. She was wearing our high school dark blue school uniform, with slightly frowned eyebrows showing an aggrieved expression, holding a doll in her hand. A cluster of jasmine flowers is truly lovely.I was reluctant to tie it to my bag, so I found a box to put it in, and occasionally thought of taking it out to have a look.

She called me: "I made it specially, and I have one for you. You take mine, and I take yours. If you do something bad, I'll stab you."

I laughed: "Did you forget that your real body is also here with me?"

She moaned and said, "It doesn't matter, don't stab me!"

I almost died laughing.

We often send each other things, and I have received all kinds of weird things in the past few years.She looked at a delicate girl who was Wen Wenjing, but in fact she had a lot of ghost ideas, which were always unexpected.She is very sincere in dealing with people and serious in doing things, so both teachers and classmates liked her very much in high school.

Presumably the same is true in college.

I can't help but wonder what she was like in college?As if knowing about her in college, he could make up for the time he was away.But I don't ask her much, she always tells me.

I don't want to bore her.

The longer this time lasts, the calmer my heart becomes. I even feel that my feelings have been washed away by time. Sometimes when I hear her voice on the phone, what I feel is not the regret of not being able to meet, but being able to meet her She communicates contentment.

Time is a grand and plain flood, I was diluted by her and disappeared in the water.

I really thought so at the time.

It wasn't until a long time later that I realized that I was soaked in the water of time and didn't disappear, but was slowly fermenting.

"Hurry up!" Ayu called me, "Why are you not excited at all!"

I straightened the academic cap on my head, and Ayu happily held up the camera in front of me, and I said, "Why are you in such a hurry?"

"It's the first time in my life to wear a bachelor's uniform! Of course I'm anxious, I want to take pictures!" A Yu stuffed the camera into Brother Zheng's hand, then dragged me over, asking Brother Zheng to take pictures for us.

A Yu held my arm intimately, smiling brightly, and I couldn't help being in a good mood, showing a bright smile.

"Okay!" Brother Zheng pressed the shutter, and after taking the picture, Ayu asked me to get the camera, and said, "Take a picture of me and him too!"

I took the camera from Brother Zheng, and I saw Ayu playing with her boyfriend, looking like she was going to play tricks.

"Let's take a special photo—Susu!" A Yu looked at me and blinked.

I comprehended them and brought them into the frame. When Brother Zheng was confused, Ayu turned his face and kissed Brother Zheng's face. I seized the opportunity to take a picture of this scene.

"Let me see!" Ayu dropped Brother Zheng and ran over. She looked at the camera and couldn't help laughing, "Look at Lao Zheng's expression, hahahaha, it's like seeing an alien."

The sun wrapped us warmly, the breeze was blowing gently, the lawn was full of laughing people, and the air was filled with pure, bright happiness.

"Take a picture with me?" At some point, Cheng Xingjian leaned on my back and looked at me with raised eyebrows.

"Okay!" I replied, and called Ayu to take a photo with Cheng Xingjian and me.

The two of us stood next to each other, and this big boy, who supported me no matter what, also graduated from college today.

"One, two, three—" A Yu said, holding up the camera and pressing the shutter, "Okay!"

Cheng Xingjian came over to take a look, and smiled with satisfaction, "Remember to send it to me."

A Yu responded, and I also took a look at the camera. In the picture, I smiled and looked forward, making a gesture, while Cheng Xingjian slightly tilted his head and looked at me, his eyes full of smiles.

A Yu seemed to want to say something when my cell phone rang suddenly.

"Hey--"

"Susu! Happy graduation!" It was her voice full of joy.

"You too!" I squinted my eyes, imagining her current appearance, "Have you finished taking pictures?"

"The filming has just finished, and now everyone is very excited, saying that they are going to go out together at night." She said, "It's finally over."

"Yeah, we are finally taking the first step in life..."

"How do you call it the first step?" She gradually changed from noisy to quiet, and she probably came to a secluded place. "At least one-sixth of life has been completed."

"You think, after we graduate, we have to find a job, and then we have to work non-stop to save money, buy a house, find a boyfriend, get married, have children and raise children... just think about how many things there are."

"You're so exaggerated, it makes me feel depressed...According to what you said, the abyss of life is only after graduation?"

I laughed at her being led astray by me like this, and said: "But it is because of this that we should cherish the relaxation now even more. After all, there will be many bad things in the future, so enjoy yourself in time!"

We chatted like this, Ah Yu, brother Zheng and Cheng Xingjian came over and asked me if I wanted to go out to celebrate.

I nodded and said to her, "I'm going out, enjoy yourself! Goodbye!"

After hanging up the phone, Ayu and I went to change clothes and met Cheng Xingjian and the others at the door.

Walking on the road, Ah Yu kept chatting with Brother Zheng, Cheng Xingjian and I walked behind, we followed unhurriedly, Cheng Xingjian asked me: "Who did you call just now, you laughed so hard all the way. "

I was a little startled, only to realize that the corners of my mouth had been raised upwards.

"No more..." I wanted to hide it, "Call Bai Wanshu, she came to wish me graduation."

Cheng Xingjian pondered for a while, as if he was considering his own words, before he spoke for a long time: "Do you remember that time when we ate in a hot pot restaurant and played the game of kings when we were freshmen?"

"what happened?"

"That time you wanted to confess your love to me. You said you liked me because I stayed with you for a long time and remembered what you liked—and bought you medicine."

"Yeah..." I was a little shy, "Why did you say this suddenly? I was joking."

"You're right, but—" Cheng Xingjian smiled softly when speaking, "I never bought you any medicine."

"...Really?" I didn't understand what he was trying to say.

Cheng Xingjian stopped, shook his head, put his hands in his trouser pockets, "You really know how to make up lies, you big liar."

I was ashamed and angry, and said: "You memorized a sentence for so long, you are narrow-minded!"

"Maybe," Cheng Xingjian kicked the stones on the side of the road, "You must know that narrow-minded people have good memories."