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Tonight's night is very blurry, maybe it is hazy by the smoke from the fireworks, and a little bit of warm light is revealed from it.I closed the curtains, and there was still a cluster of saltpeter smell on the tip of my nose.

She was wearing a light beige sweater, with her legs crossed and her hair loose, sitting on my bed.

"Sleep?" I asked her.

"I'm not sleepy yet," she said, lying down in a comfortable position. I saw her face flushed from the heat, and suddenly felt like a cockatiel. "Or, let's watch a movie."

"Okay, what are you watching?" I kicked off my slippers and went to bed, "Horror movie?"

"Tell me, I trust your taste."

I flipped through the movie catalog, and the two of us are not very scared of horror movies, so we were flat on the proposal.

"Tomie?" I said, "Don't you like Ito Junji very much? Have you seen Tomie's movie version?"

"Yes," she really became excited, "Then let's see Fu Jiang!"

It was two o'clock after the movie, and we both got under the covers and got ready for bed.But after watching the movie, my mind is very active, and I always think about the plot of the movie.

"What do you think of the film?" I lay on my back with my eyes closed, and she rolled over.

"The plot is average," she said, "I don't like this woman, Fu Jiang."

"why?"

"I don't like her—the way she treats other people's feelings is so contemptuous," she said. "It makes me uncomfortable."

"Maybe Fu Jiang just likes to see others go crazy for her." I said, "Oh, woman."

"Speaking of which, I also have tear moles." She suddenly leaned over, "Look."

I turned to look at her face - I knew she had a tear mole, under the left eye, a small mole kissed her fair cheek.

"How do you see it so dark?" I said to her, "You turn on the light on your phone."

She held up her mobile phone and shone the light on the left side of her face. Her black eyes looked at me and blinked. "Is there?" she asked me.

I stretched out my hand and tapped the mole under her eyes lightly. Feeling the fine fluff on her face, the warm and elastic skin, I couldn't help but smile.

"Yes," I said, "it's beautiful."

The next day we both got up very late, after breakfast or lunch, she answered a phone call and told me she was leaving.

I really wanted to ask her, but in the end I didn't ask.In the end, I just said that I will go to the station to see you off.

On the first day of the new year, there were almost no people at the station. The white coat she wore when she came came, but she changed into a red one when she returned, which was the same color as mine.

I hate sending people off, it makes me feel powerless, I'm not upset, I'm just sad.

"Let's go on a trip during the summer vacation." I was thinking about the next time we meet, the time we can meet is really too little.

There was a look of hesitation on her face, and my heart gradually became cold.

"My mother bought a house in Beicheng." The corners of her eyes lowered. "I will live in Beicheng from now on, and I probably won't come back in the future."

I understand what she means. She wants to live with her mother. Her mother has settled in the place where she went to college. In the future, she will also work, marry and live there.

"Then I won't be able to see you," I said, "but it will be very convenient for you in the future, which is fine."

Her future may be without me.But that's fine—she's good, and deserves the best.

The time was running out, she said, "I'm leaving." Then she hugged me, my hand stopped in mid-air for a few seconds, and it was still lightly placed on her back.I hope that time will pass faster, so that this moment will not seem too long, and let me not look so embarrassed.

"Remember to call me more in the future." She said, I understand that she is comforting me, and also understand that this means that I will gradually disappear in her future.At first, we would chat and make phone calls as often as we do now, and then when we were juniors and seniors, we were all so busy that we might not be able to find time to chat for a semester, and after work, we would not even remember the last time When to contact the other party.In a few years, we might meet at a class reunion and she'll think, this is a good friend of mine from high school but can't remember the name, and she'll talk to me about her family, her kids.

I don't know what will happen to me, maybe I will really forget everything, but at this moment, I only have silent heartbreak.

"Okay." I couldn't say anything more, obviously yesterday she was still holding up her mobile phone, showing me her tear mole.

She got in the car, this time it was the car to Beicheng.Hearing the sound of the train fade away, I walked out of the station.

I looked up and found that the sky was extremely gloomy, with dark clouds over the city, and there was even a little sign of rain. It rarely rains here in winter.The wind began to whip up the dead branches wildly, and even the colorful lights on the trees were shaken by the blowing.

I took out the mask and put it on, trying to cover the dust that was rolled up, so that no one would find that I was crying.

If only she was Tomie, I could have a small, tender desire that I love.

There is nothing wrong with liking someone, I think, but how can it be so difficult to like.

In late spring, the cold spring is over.The cats in the school began to have sex endlessly, and at night there were always bursts of creepy meowing from the downstairs of the dormitory.So the cat-loving organization in the school began to arrest those male cats that had not been neutered, preparing to let them "enter the palace".

One of my roommates is a member of the mysterious organization that collects cats, raises cats, captures cats and neuters them. She likes small animals very much, and often buys cat food by herself to feed those chubby cats basking in the sun.

But recently, things about catching cats are not going well. Those cats seem to know her intentions clearly. The cats who usually surround her hide away and give her contemptuous and arrogant eyes.

"Please, Susu. They don't know you, so go and lure them with cat food." She tirelessly said, "Help me, just once, just that orange."

I couldn't be bothered, so I agreed to help her catch the cat, that round, flexible, fat man.

After squatting for 10 to [-] minutes, the orange figure finally came out from the corner of the building Shi Shiran, lowering his head to eat the pile of cat food.I looked at its wagging tail, and suddenly remembered that she had always wanted to have a cat, but because of allergies to cat fur, she could only be envious of other people petting cats.

Since the beginning of school, I have kept in touch with her every two weeks-so that she will not forget my frequency.

If she was there, she would probably stand far away, but stare at this furry cat without blinking.I will also mutter to myself while taking pictures with my mobile phone——

"Crack."

I turned my head in confusion, and saw a boy in a basketball tracksuit holding up his mobile phone to take pictures. Seeing me looking at him, he put down his mobile phone, revealing a vigorous and handsome face.

"I just thought the way you fed the cat just now was pretty," he said with a smile, "if you mind, I'll delete it."

I didn't know if he was pretending or if he really forgot about me, so I called him, "Cheng Xingjian."

He sighed softly, "I didn't fool you, Yu Su. I thought you forgot me." After that, he came to me, squatted down with me, and raised his hand as if to touch the orange's head Give it a shot.

However, Juju turned around and ran away very shamelessly.

I will not forget him, this guy is my elementary school classmate and junior high school classmate, barely considered a bamboo horse, but he is the kind of character who is good at sports, handsome, and has a bad temper, and is sought after by girls, and I am The kind of ordinary girl who has zero relationship with the opposite sex and has no other bright spots except for her studies.

The main reason why my relationship with Cheng Xingjian has always been good is that we live in the same community and we always run into each other on the road.But after junior high school, I haven't seen him, and I heard that their family moved out.I haven't had any contact with him since.

I'm not the kind of person who likes to be on the phone, except for her.

"Why are you in this school?" Cheng Xingjian asked me, "I haven't seen you before."

"Because I passed the exam, I'm in this school." He asked all kinds of questions.

I didn't want to talk to him, so I took the cat food and started to lure the orange to come over. It wagged its big tail and walked slowly, but it didn't come to eat the cat food, but rubbed against my hand, and I scratched it gently. head, it narrowed its eyes.

"You've changed a lot. You weren't this tall before." He kept talking, "You've also grown your hair longer."

I ignored it, knowing that the boy who usually played cool in the class was actually a talker, so I let him talk and stuffed the orange into the cat box.

"Which high school did you go to later? Is it No. [-] Middle School? I contacted my classmates later and heard they said that you went to No. [-] Middle School. I wanted to call you to ask you, but your phone has been disconnected... I didn't expect What a coincidence that we are in the same university! What are you studying now? I study finance—”

"I learn English." I picked up the cat box and prepared to go back to the dormitory. "Let's go, goodbye."

"Hey wait!" He called to stop me, "When we meet old friends, please leave me a phone number and WeChat."

Cheng Xingjian took out his mobile phone and handed it to me, grinning, showing his white teeth.I understand why this boy is liked by girls. You can feel a kind of vitality in him, a kind of upward vitality. His eyebrows and eyes are always clear, and sometimes a little bit of evil looks cunning because of his handsome face.

"Then, Yu Su." He waved his hand, "Goodbye!"

I don't know if she likes such a boy, but she won't hate him anyway.Thinking of this possibility, I felt a little pain in my heart.

I know it's wrong to do this, it's wrong to think of her in everything, I want to get rid of this bad habit slowly, if possible, I think.

The roommate was very happy to see the orange in the cat box, and repeatedly said that he would treat me to dinner, "You are amazing! I love you! Treat you to hot pot!"

"Is this an excuse for you to eat hot pot?" The upper bunk said, "I don't know who measures the weight every day."

"I've already lost five catties!" My roommate angrily said, "It doesn't matter, I just want to eat hot pot this week!"

"Then we have an appointment in our dormitory this weekend?" I said, "Ah Yu doesn't need to invite me."

"Yeah!" Ah Yu was very happy, she hadn't gone out for a month.

I smiled, sat on the bed and picked up the phone, saw Cheng Xingjian sent me a friend request, and clicked to agree.I hesitated for a moment, clicked into his circle of friends, and found that he had posted a new one, which was a photo of me and Juju just now.

In the photo, I was squatting on the ground, watching Juju eating cat food seriously, the sun was shining on Meow and me, looking peaceful and beautiful.Matching words - "I met an old classmate today, it's fate~"

After refreshing it, I saw that there was an extra like in this circle of friends.

is her name.