I'm not

I didn't expect the boss to call me to the office the next day.

He sat behind a large lacquered wood table, politely asked me to sit down, and gave me a drink of water.I understand that this is a prelude to firing me. After all, the old employees should not be too ugly.

My heart was quite calm, and I even felt a sense of relief.

The boss said a lot, and I smiled and nodded, but in fact, my mind was already wandering.

"So what do you think of this treatment?" After the boss finished speaking, he took a sip of tea, "Our most important thing is talent."

I pretended to be thinking, and I began to recall what the boss said in my heart—it seemed that he wanted to give me a promotion and a raise?

Is the development that I didn't expect at all, is it compensation because I was wronged, or did you decide to promote me because I have done a good job in the past three years?

I fell into deep thought.

In the end, I fired my boss and walked out of the company peacefully.

I understand this is what I want.

"So you rejected the promotion and applied for Aike instead?" A Yu was shocked, "Should I say you are bold, or do you have pursuit?"

I called Ayu and Cheng Xingjian out to celebrate my success in firing the boss.

Cheng Xingjian did not express his opinion, but narrowed his eyes slightly, focusing on eating.

"People, you have to pursue something." I smiled, picked up the glass, and said, "Wish me success in job hunting!"

The three of us clinked glasses, but because Cheng Xingjian was driving, we didn't drink.Ayu was surprised by my decision at first, and then became happy. She never wanted me to be in the original company. Although I didn't go to her house in the end, Aike is indeed the leading large company in China.

"But you went to Beicheng, and you don't know the place where you live. I'm still worried about you." Ayu said to me, "Do you have any familiar friends?"

"Yes, remember the Bai Wanshu I told you before? My high school classmate, she works in Aike."

"Remember! It's that little beauty." A Yu nodded, "That's good, it's better to have someone I know."

Cheng Xingjian was uncharacteristically silent this time, and only occasionally joined our topic. Ayu must have noticed it, but ignored him.Before we left, Ayu and I went to the toilet. Ayu washed his hands and said to me, "Old Cheng, I definitely don't want you to go—look at how he looks today, he's so depressed."

"is it?"

"I figured it out, he's just stubborn, especially for you..." Ayu shrugged, "I think he might go home today and drink away his worries."

I don't know what to say, so I just don't say anything.

Cheng Xingjian sent A Yu home first, and then sent me. After A Yu left, I half-lyed in the back seat of the car, squinting my eyes, drowsy.There is light music playing in the car, and the atmosphere is comfortable and beautiful.

"Actually, you didn't tell Bai Wanshu about your promotion, did you?" Cheng Xingjian's voice came from the front seat, the voice was low, and I answered "Yes" in a daze.

The car drove very slowly, I feel that Cheng Xingjian did it on purpose.

"You probably know that I don't want you to go...but that would be too selfish," Cheng Xingjian's voice was soft, as if he didn't want me to hear, "Yu Su, I shouldn't have said that, should I?"

I sat up slowly and looked at Cheng Xingjian from the rearview mirror. The original boy turned into a man, but his bright eyes remained unchanged. He wrapped himself in a pile of soft cotton, making people unable to resist to get closer.

"I'm sorry," I heard myself say, "you're too kind."

"But you don't need my favor."

I felt that the car had stopped, and it was only when I saw it that I realized that I had arrived downstairs at my house.

"You're leaving, Yu Su." Cheng Xingjian lowered his head, I couldn't see his expression, "Can you not leave?"

"I'm sorry." I always seem to be saying sorry to him.

"I always wondered if you would see me," Cheng Xingjian said, "Now you are going to Beicheng, farther away from me."

"At first I was not convinced, but then I was still not convinced. I kept thinking about who that person is—if you don't tell me, I guess it's someone I know."

The night outside was dark and starry.Neither of us spoke, because nights like this, beautiful nights, are rare in the city.The nights when he opened up and spoke to me are also rare.

I didn't have the feeling of being exposed, but a feeling that the treasure that the thief had hidden for many years was finally discovered and was about to be judged.

I was almost sober, so I got out of the car and sat in the passenger seat so that I could hear what he said clearly.

Seeing my movements, Cheng Xingjian burst out laughing, and said, "Your heart is so big. I am a man who just failed to confess. You are not afraid that I will become angry and beat you up, and then sit next to me? Yu Su, I am so stupid!" I don't understand you."

I lowered the seat and said, "Let's fight, just calm down."

He laughed again, and I couldn't help laughing too.

"When are you leaving?" he asked.

"next week."

Cheng Xingjian turned to look at me, bent down, but just hugged me lightly, I didn't move, I knew he had something to say to me.

"The person who bought you the medicine must be Bai Wanshu," he said.

I, a thief, have finally been judged.I didn't panic at all, was it because the person who arrested me was Cheng Xingjian?

When he got up, there seemed to be a deep sea in his eyes, separating me from him.He stroked my hair and said to me, "Let's go."

For a moment, I felt that he looked at me as if he was looking at a child dotingly.

I closed my notebook, let out a sigh of relief, and passed the online interview. My mood was still ups and downs—fortunately, with my three years of experience in the workplace, I was barely qualified.

I found that I never seemed to think about what to do if the interview failed, maybe I never left myself a way out.

After booking a ticket to Beicheng, I called her to tell her the good news.She was very happy after listening, and kept saying that I really succeeded.Probably because she is very confident in me, but I don't know how much she has contributed to this matter.

"How many days are you coming? Send me the flight information." She seemed to be flipping some paper, "I want to write it down, my mind is getting more and more forgetful."

I told her the flight information, and then asked, "Is it easy to rent a house over there? I don't know the market in Beicheng, do you know where is closer to the company?"

I heard her pause on the phone, and said in a brisk tone: "Remember when I told you that I'm a roommate? It just so happened that my roommate moved out a month ago, and I'm looking for a roommate now. How about you Come live with me."

"Really? That's really great!" I thought about saving me the trouble of finding a house, but then I thought again, "I don't know if my salary when I first joined the company can afford the rent."

"Don't worry, when I first arrived in Aike, although my salary was lower than it is now, it was more than enough to pay the rent, and—" she said, "With me as a chef, your food cost will be greatly reduced."

"You are very confident in your cooking skills, miss!" I said, "I don't know if you failed to make cakes three times?"

"That's dessert, it's not counted. My cooking level is still okay."

"Then I'll just wash the dishes, I can't eat for free, I have to make a contribution."

"You said, I have already recorded it!"

"I said, are you still afraid that I can't do it if I just say it?"

"Finally someone washed the dishes for me—" she wailed, "The roommate before didn't say thank you every time I ate my meal. It hasn't been used for a long time. Looks like I have to tidy up the kitchen."

My heart was sour, and I said: "In the future, people will eat your cooking, so don't make me annoyed."

"No," she answered quickly, "I'll wait for you."

After I hung up her phone, I started to organize my luggage, packed my clothes and mailed them, took some important items with me, and some odd pieces of furniture I bought in the past three years, which I folded and sold to the next tenant.

Unknowingly, I cleaned up for several hours, my hair was messy and scattered, and my whole body was dusty, but I didn't feel tired at all. I haven't felt this kind of selfless immersion in one thing for a long time.

Even the dust floating in the air seemed to be my accelerator. As soon as I opened the curtains, the sunset was burning like fire, and the brilliance poured into the residence I had lived in for three years. Suddenly, I found that it was nothing like A home is just a small boat carrying me afloat—how long has it been since I have seen the magnificent sunset in this southern city?

I took a shower, washed off the dust on my body, and tidied my hair before I felt tired.I lay on the sofa and picked up a cardboard box under the table - I put all the memories related to her in it.

A whole stack of postcards, and the Polaroid I took with her before. In the photo, both of us are still very young, wearing school uniforms and making silly gestures of "yeah" under the tree. I saw my hand resting on hers. On the shoulders, is the cautiousness among friends, the unspeakable youthfulness.

A pressed flat paper medicine box, the medicine she went out to buy for me that year, I finished eating but was not willing to throw away the box, so I went home and secretly cut it open, pressed it in the box, and hid it at the bottom The sour, sweet mood.

I used to think that I would gradually forget those unclear details until I completely forgot them, but now I understand that under the wash of time, everything becomes clearer and more detailed.

The day I left Nancheng, the sky was clear, and the clouds were soaked in the blue sky like cotton, and my heart was as soft as the clouds.

A Yu and Cheng Xingjian came to see me off, and I took the car with them to the airport.A Yu has been nagging to call her, "Come back to see me once a year, otherwise, I will go to Beicheng to find you." She kept thinking.

I said sure, but you may annoy me in the future, and you don't want to see me, an annoying old classmate.

"It won't be—hey, in the future, it will really be a world in the south and a sea in the north."

"Don't worry, the earth is a village now, why are you afraid of the world?"

A Yu hit me with a smile, I grabbed her hand, "So fierce!"

Cheng Xingjian separated us and said, "Aren't you shy to still fight in the street at such an adult?"

A Yu said: "I am a girl who is forever young. It doesn't look like you are an old man. After working, I seem to have aged ten years. Is it Susu?"

I nodded my conscience and said yes, but to be honest, after working, Cheng Xingjian lost his greenness and became more attractive to a mature man. What is rare is that his eyes are still the same as when he was a student, focused and serious.

Cheng Xingjian was dragging my suitcase, wearing a casual sweater, jeans, and a duckbill cap. He was much more handsome than usual.

It was time for me to board the plane, and Ayu handed me a small box. I was puzzled, and she asked me to open it to have a look.I opened this delicate box, and inside was a pear-shaped pendant.

"I gave it to you. Does it look good?" Ayu pointed to this small, delicate pendant. "In the future, give it to someone who likes it. This pendant is very strong, so it will never be separated."

Ah Yu is such a cute guy, "Okay, remember!"

After speaking, I seriously put the pendant into my bag, and said to A Yu, "I won't hand it over easily."

A Yu nodded in satisfaction, bumped into Cheng Xingjian next to him, and asked quite proudly, "You didn't prepare any presents, did you?"

Cheng Xingjian smiled meaningfully, and said, "How do you know?" After that, he took out a pen from his pocket. It looked very worn, and it must have been used for a long time, so he handed it to me generously.

"You didn't just take it out of your pocket, did you?" Ayu showed a disgusted expression, "What is this?"

I took a closer look at the pen, old-fashioned hero, it looked familiar, it was—

"That's right, it's the one that was rewarded by the primary school teacher. The nib has been replaced many times. Although it looks a bit old on the outside, it's still usable." Cheng Xingjian said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I robbed you of your honor. Later, I always wanted to return it to you, but it was difficult to open my mouth. Today I finally returned it to its original owner.”

I was stunned, and then the corners of my mouth slightly raised, "It's not that you snatched it, it was originally yours."

A Yu was anxious at the side, and said: "There are stories I don't know at a glance, you really are! Tell me quickly."

In fact, it’s not a big deal. When I was in elementary school, I had nothing worth noticing, but my handwriting was good. The teacher always praised my handwriting for being neat and beautiful. be proud of.And Cheng Xingjian is the darling in that class, he studies very well, although he is mischievous, but only harmless and cute, the teacher has always let him be the class monitor.

At the end of one semester, the teacher asked everyone to select the best-looking student in the class and reward a pen.At that time, I thought it must be me, and I felt great joy in my heart—because I had never received such a great honor, and my whole body was immersed in happiness.

However, the final candidate was Cheng Xingjian. When I heard it, I felt like the sky was falling. Watching Cheng Xingjian go to the podium to pick up a pen, it seemed that people all over the world were looking at me and mocking me at that moment.That kind of grievance and shame made my tears pile up in my eyes, but I didn't want to cry in class, I was so suppressed that the world was blurred.

My friend told me after class that it was Cheng Xingjian who was voted for by others. Although there were also people who voted for me, but Cheng Xingjian's popularity is so good, how could it be possible to compare?

I was so angry that on the way home I saw Cheng Xingjian who was walking ahead laughing and making noise, my brain got hot and I rushed up and pushed him away.I remember that I yelled "Liar!" and ran home regardless, feeling full of fear and grievance.

The next day, I saw a wound on Cheng Xingjian's face, and I forced myself not to look at it. I felt that Cheng Xingjian would definitely bring her parents to find me, but after a few days, no one came to me, so I slowly took this Things fade away.

Unexpectedly, Cheng Xingjian always remembered.

"I'm sorry, I know you're very sad." Cheng Xingjian said slowly, "I'm sorry, it's my fault, and I won't defend myself. I just want you to know that you deserve the best."

I also put this pen in the bag, which suddenly became very heavy, and it contains the love of the best friends I have met in this life, and maybe meeting them has spent all my luck.

"Thank you." I hugged them one by one, holding back my tears, "I'm leaving."

I packed my suitcase and was about to leave when I heard Ayu calling me.

A Yu said in a hoarse voice: "Bon voyage!" Cheng Xingjian waved at me, opened his mouth and said four words silently, and I saw his mouth was "happiness."

Sometimes friends are my energy pool, maybe we become each other’s energy pool, walking in the dark in a foreign land or this messy world, we can only rely on ourselves most of the time, but when we are tired, we can lean on the shoulders of our friends Take a break in the morning, and when we were about to leave, although we were reluctant to give up, we could only say goodbye with a smile.

The clouds outside the window are very close to me, I seem to be able to grab a handful of clouds and spread them on my body, and surround my heart with clouds, not to protect myself from being hurt, but to relax when someone pillows on it Land, sleep peacefully.