Falling in love with you through the clouds

"Well... what do you think, Sister Tao?"

She took a deep breath and sat down. "I think it's better not to keep this child."

Not surprisingly.But just hearing this answer gave me a chill down my spine.

"Of course, it's a different matter if you really, really want to give birth to him, but you have to face many problems later... I don't think you have talked about this with your family, and the school is the same, you It is very likely that you will not be able to continue your studies, and of course there will be problems with childbearing and education in the future...but the most important thing is your mentality."

My chest suddenly tightened.

"Are you ready to be a mother?"

I……

Sister Tao gently stroked my face, wiping away the tears from the corners of my eyes with her fingers. "If not, it would be a good thing to give up; although I have never been pregnant, I have seen many women with newborn babies during my travels. I can feel the feeling of a new life growing in my body. You must be very happy now." Hesitation, after all, when you were married, you loved him and you were together; if you could face it together, it might be an accidental happiness, but this is not the case now, he left you, let You face this conundrum alone.

"Maybe time is running out, you have to think about it; whether you want to give birth or take it, you have to make a decision." She finished the sentence in a calm and gentle tone, then put on her coat and explained to me After saying "I'm going to buy breakfast", I left the room.

Sister Tao's words hit the point.

For the sake of my future... I sat on the edge of the bed blankly for about 5 minutes, until the phone in my hand vibrated again.

It's him.

Sister Tao's words are still in my ears—"He left you and let you face it alone..."

I stared blankly at the screen for a few seconds, I didn't know where the courage came from, I slid to answer, and slowly moved the receiver to my ear——

*

He really came to move things.

When I came here this time, Ivy was by my side. Even in the cold weather, she was still elegantly dressed, and her miniskirt was also very sexy. Apart from her wrinkled face, she is definitely a beauty that makes men fall in love with her when they see her. .

However, I always feel that Lu Hanjun is not interested in her, but covets her connection with Plato's boss, and regards her as a ladder to get more opportunities and get on a bigger stage.

A handsome and proud ladder with maybe a thorn in it.

As for whether Ivy is willing to become his ladder, that's another matter.

I don't want to, and I don't bother to delve into it.

I opened the door and asked him to pack all his belongings away; I thought that there were not many things, but I didn’t expect that in addition to the most conspicuous guitar and clothes, there were shoes, razors, music scores, handheld video games...etc. Miscellaneous things can actually fill up two large garbage bags.

Sister Tao came back from buying breakfast and saw these battles, as if she was supporting me, and she was not in a hurry to enter the door; Ivy stood outside the door with nothing to do, and only let him and another member of Banella's team enter my room to get things take away.

Sister Tao asked me if I would go in and take a look, and I said "no", he would not steal my things, and besides, the beauty next to him would not allow him to leave any souvenirs of when I was with him.

After finally packing, he carried one of the bags and came to me, hesitating to say something, I guess it was something like an apology or comfort?I shook my head, now I don't need it at all.

He's long past the time to say it.

I asked him to reach out, and then slammed the guitar necklace into his palm.

"Xiaoning..." This is the first time since yesterday that I have found a trace of reluctance in his eyes, and it should be the last time.

"Mr. Lu, from now on, we will not owe each other."

They carried things downstairs, I straightened my back, and watched them disappear from my sight coldly.

A warm hand rested on my shoulder from behind, "They're gone, Xiaoning."

Yeah, gone, forever.I looked at Sister Tao, her face was instantly blurred in my sight, I felt an unprecedented sense of emptiness in my chest, she patted me, and I was emotionally broken again in Sister Tao's arms.

left.

I thought I would raise my head and laugh happily, thinking that when I threw the necklace back into his hand just now, I could regain a little lost face.

But no.

I still lost, lost this love, lost everything, except for the wound in my heart and the child in my stomach, I got nothing.What's more, I know very well that sooner or later I have to decide to give up on this child.

"Sister Tao...thank you."

"Don't say that, I didn't do anything for you."

Enough already.

I closed the door and went back to Sister Tao's room with her.

Now I may need a little more time to calmly face that empty suite.

***

I brought the pillow over here, and other things I usually use; my computer is a desktop, so I can’t move it, except that it’s more convenient to go back to my room when I need to take a shower, and I’m like a parasite the rest of the time Also rely on sister Tao's side.

I started a semi-cohabitation life with Sister Tao in such a logical way.

This decision was probably made because of Lu Hanjun, right?He completely moved out of my life, and I just walked into someone else's room with an empty, vulnerable heart.

Sister Tao didn't mind this at all, even though she didn't say anything, I even vaguely felt that she welcomed me... This inevitably made me a little bit delusional, after all... I'm straight!

But if I asked, Sister Tao would definitely think that her kindness had been misinterpreted...so I didn't say a word, anyway, I actually enjoyed Sister Tao's company and care.What's wrong with being gay?She is still the gentle and mature good person... It is she who makes me not have to face a deserted room for the time being. As long as she doesn't go out to travel, I can go back to a room where someone welcomes me, and I don't have to stay alone in the room.

Loneliness can drive a person crazy.

Especially after getting acquainted with someone to accompany you.

On Monday, I still have to go to school; I haven’t eaten or slept well in the past two days, my complexion is bad, and I have lost a little weight. This can’t be hidden from Yiting, who is tired of being with me every day. She asked me the reason, and I just smiled skip.

"By the way! Are you still chasing the mermaid lately? Or... have you become a fan of Ah Jun's new group?"

This unintentional question easily hurt me, my face turned pale, and I shook my head, "No, not at all, for the time being... I won't listen."

"Really? It's a pity, the new members of the mermaid fish are not bad... that is to say! Ah Jun recently released a new song! It is tailor-made with his own characteristics! The reputation on the Internet is not bad. For your girlfriend..."

"Yiting!" I interrupted her forcefully, she was stunned, I pursed my lips and took a deep breath. "Please, don't mention his name in front of me in the future!"

She leaned back, as if frightened. "You, you... what's the matter?"

I turned my head away, "I'll tell you slowly later... In short, don't mention it again, please."

"Oh... well. I guess I know..."

Yiting knew how much he knew, and I didn't go into it. After all, I can't care so much now, I just want to completely cut off contact with him.

Even if I came to class, I still couldn't concentrate on the class and my homework; Sister Saya and other people who knew the inside story still wanted to comfort me, but I declined. After all, I don't know whether they are accomplices or bystanders in the whole thing Or... not to mention that it is particularly difficult to adjust psychologically after realizing that she is already pregnant.

Unable to concentrate, I decided to skip school.

Christmas and New Year are approaching quietly. Walking on campus, even though the treetops are bleak, most people’s faces are still happy, full of festive atmosphere. Use your brains to plan the rest of the holidays... as the last carnival before the exam.

What can I do now?

I don't know, so I can only withdraw myself into the shell.

Back in Sister Tao's room, she was not there; I remember she said that she would not come back until evening today because she had to discuss work matters.

'You can use everything but my camera. 'She said that to me...that means I can use the computer?How generous.

As a woman, Sister Tao has surprisingly little things; remember when she moved into this house, she alone was enough to move all the luggage; is it because of the backpacker relationship?There are so few things that they come and go freely.

correct!Sister Tao said that when she returned to Taiwan this time, someone was going to help her publish a book... Her computer was not taken away, could there be some clues hidden in it?I still don't know where she went and what kind of content she wrote.

I immediately dismissed this idea... Yu Xiaoning, you can't be so despicable, people trust you wholeheartedly, how could you have the idea of ​​secretly prying into other people's privacy... Ugh!

For no reason, a burning sensation rushed from the stomach into the esophagus... I felt uncomfortable, accompanied by nausea and nausea... I threw down the bag and rushed to the bathroom, and vomited into the toilet!

I didn't eat Chinese food... The only thing I can vomit is probably half of the rice ball I ate for breakfast, but even if I vomit it all, the nausea that keeps coming up still bothers me; I continue to retch a few times until my stomach The burning sensation slowly disappears... OMG!What a pain!I gasped for breath while holding on to the toilet, finally getting up to rinse my mouth.

Wait a minute...is this morning sickness, isn't it?

I immediately forgot about the struggle just now, and turned on Sister Tao’s computer to look for any signs of "morning sickness" and solutions... This is a sign of early pregnancy, after four weeks... So, the beginning of "morning sickness" means that the child is already pregnant About four weeks or even longer?

How much time do I have to hesitate?

After being dumbfounded for a while, I typed another string of words on the search bar with trembling hands...