expectations from the future

This is the scene of junior high school graduation group photos.The friends who have been together for three years gathered together for the last time according to the school's requirements.

"Hey, Youzhen, how did you do in the exam? Did you do well in the English exam? Don't you like the class teacher the most?" Xu Jiao laughed and said the moment Youzhen stepped into the classroom.The beautiful facial features are even more beautiful with light makeup, full of the lively beauty of a fourteen or fifteen-year-old girl.

"..." Qi Er's short hair has gradually grown to shoulders, Youzhen, who was still silent as if in another world, immediately blushed.The always dim eyes widened in disbelief, and then burst out with fear.She felt that the malice of the whole world was pressing on her body, and those unfamiliar or familiar eyes were cutting her flesh and blood like a blade.

very scary……

It's terrible, it's terrible...

"Ah! My drink!" The fearful backing girl accidentally knocked down another girl who was about to enter.The girl in the short skirt frowned and pushed Youzhen hard.

"..." I'm sorry... I didn't mean it... Pale lips opened and closed, but I couldn't spit out fluent sentences.She's been locked away for too long.

"Are you dumb?! Can't even say an apology?!" Handing the tissue in her pocket to her friend, Xu Jiao accused with raised eyebrows.

"..." Taking another step back, the girl who tripped over the podium pursed her lips.Looking at this strange class in fear.

"Xu Jiao, forget it! Isn't You Zhen crazy, what are you fussing about with her? Don't know when you will be revenged with sulfuric acid someday! Hahaha..." A boy who has been pursuing Xu Jiao rolled his eyes, He thought it was playful and said.There was a large burst of unexplained laughter.

"The teacher will come to issue the graduation certificate later, Xu Jiao, don't be scolded on the last day of junior high school." Someone in the crowd tried to dissuade her.

"Hmph, crazy! Just wait!" Xu Jiao pouted unhappily, and pulled the girl in the short skirt back to her seat.

"..." Holding her schoolbag, Youzhen staggered forward in fear.

"Let's go, crazy. What's the matter? You don't have a knife hidden in your schoolbag, do you? Pervert!" A boy with a cigarette in his mouth pushed the girl. □□Arrogant tattoos are tattooed on the outstretched arms.

Being robbed of her schoolbag, You Zhen hugged herself even more fearfully.She has never been so surrounded by crowds, and she has never experienced walking with teenagers and girls of the same age.

And, through her thick bangs, she looked down the dark alley.Even in the daytime, it still looks gloomy.It's like a world where ghosts are prevalent in exorcism novels.

"Hurry up and apologize to my friend! Are you crazy?! It's been a long time since you've been displeased with me, and you're acting like something. You keep a gloomy face every day and ignore people! Why? You're so good at studying?! "Xu Jiaojiao drank, and pushed the girl again dissatisfied.

"Jiaojiao, you are so sweet, that cup of milk tea is very expensive! You can't afford to pay for her, just let me admit my mistake to my sister!" The girl in a short skirt hugged her friend's arm, and looked at Da Xia with disgust. Youzhen in long sleeves.

"Hey, Jiaojiao, don't worry! This kind of trash, dare to make you angry again, I can beat her with one punch and can't take care of herself!" In order to show his strength and strength in front of his sweetheart, the tall and strong teenager He even bent his arms deliberately, showing off his well-developed biceps just like the TV.

"Hey! Our boss and sister have spoken! Why don't you apologize quickly?! How dare you make such an arrogant face?! Who do you think you are!" The little followers who came together also chattered Start clamoring.Some even waved the sticks they picked up casually.

"..." Yes, I'm sorry...the eyes are full of fear.But this emotion cannot be accurately conveyed through the eyes.Youzhen shrank back again, and fell into the smelly trash can behind her.

"Damn! Jiaojiao, does this person have any infectious diseases?! Dirty!" The leading boy covered his nose and turned to ask his girlfriend.

"Damn it! Crazy! I, Xu Jiao, have said that I want to support my sisters, and you still screw me! I think she just wants to be beaten!" Taking a stick from a boy behind her, the slender The delicate girl slapped Youzhen's exposed leg hard.

"Ah!!" Struggling violently because of the pain, Youzhen finally crawled out of the trash can with a wide opening.Or rather, she finally tipped over the entire trash can.

"I'm going! It's disgusting! Forget it, Jiaojiao, let's go, we won't be able to eat lunch anymore. We still have to go shopping in the afternoon." The girl in the short skirt couldn't bear the smell flooding in the air any longer. He touched Xu Jiao's arm.

"Yeah. We don't have the same knowledge as psychopaths. Let's go." Xu Jiao also seemed to lack interest.He threw away the stick casually and followed his best friend out.

"Hey! You kid! Why did you overturn the trash cans!! Where's your adult?! I want to find your adult!" After an unknown amount of time, the staff member pushing the cleaning cart frowned and scolded.

"..." Youzhen, who had been lying on the trash heap with her head in her arms, glanced at the voice.She felt that the whole world was starting to feel unreal.The stench from her nostrils seemed to be the only thing that confirmed that she was alive.

But, after a long time... I can't even smell the smell...

"Youzhen! What's the matter with you kid?! You are so annoying?! You made yourself like this! Where did you go with someone?! Ah?! Let you not learn well! I let you not Learn well! You are not allowed to eat tonight!" After hitting the girl on the head several times, You Chunhua cursed and brought the leftovers that were warm in the pot to the table.Dishes collided with the table, making a harsh sound.

"..." Youzhen only felt a splitting headache.

Is this world real or imaginary?

In this world, am I alive or dead?

I... in the end, why am I alive...

Why, on earth, am I breathing?

"Hurry up and come over for dinner! Then give me a good study at home! Don't you know that high school courses are difficult?! If you don't study well, you can only be the garbage of society, do you know?! You won't be able to find a job in the future, I think Where are you going to cry at that time! What are you doing in a daze?! Hurry up and change your clothes! Then clean it up for me!" After long-windedly changing into work clothes, You Chunhua closed the door loudly.She also has to work the night shift in the back kitchen of the hotel, and has no time to educate her ineffective daughter.

I got that disease at a young age!What can a small child think? !What troubles can children have? !What a worry-free girl!Sure enough, children are debt collectors!

The daily medical expenses cost an unknown amount, and she could not earn back the money for the imported medicines even if she worked overtime for several hours at night.Then I learned not to speak!I don't know who I learned from.

School teachers are nothing, what can children know!No common sense at all!In the end, the students have to go home to study by themselves!Seriously, wonder if studying at home would be worse? !At that time, our children will not be able to enter the key high schools, so we will give places to rich students, right? !The school is really black hearted!

Thinking about this in her heart, the woman whose spine was bent by the years and life took the key and locked the door.She always felt that the world was too oppressive, and the society had placed too much indifference towards single mothers like her.It seems that if you don't pay attention, you will be swallowed by the monster that drilled out of the ground.It is also possible that there are already various demons around her, all with mocking smiles, waiting for her to contribute her soul with tears of tears.

She was worried about her daughter being alone at home, what if the child ran out to play and made bad friends.Her daughter is a good girl who is going to a key high school and a key university!

Tick, tick.

Tick, tick.

The only sound in the silent room was the sound of the clock.It was as if he could see time passing by in front of him bit by bit.

Youzhen put on her clothes silently, the place on her leg that was hit was terribly painful.The place where the body was knocked also conveyed pain.

Loose long sleeves cover all scars.These are the old clothes that You Chunhua asked for from others.

The girl frowned, as if she could still smell someone else's scent from her nose.The fabric attached to the body seems to have spikes, like an artifact that refuses to be manipulated by someone other than the original owner.But the girl put it on anyway.Ignore object protests.

All she has are these clothes.All her clothes were obtained from charity.

Grades, well-behaved.

That's all her mom showed off.

Therefore, for the vanity and obsession of adults, she must have excellent grades, accept all arrangements obediently, and work hard for expectations.

No one ever asked her wishes.

No one ever paid attention to her needs.

No one ever cared about her longing.

It was as if she had been born a machine.Living for the expectation of the mother, walking forward under the control of those hands.

However, that doesn't matter anymore.

The girl finally took off the clothes that did not belong to her.

She goes to the bathroom.

It's so cold. It turns out that even in summer, the water will be very cold.

However, that doesn't matter anymore.

Youzhen relaxes herself and lies down in the bathtub filled with water.

The sharp white blade in his hand was dyed a warm bright red.

It doesn't matter anymore, study or something.

It doesn't matter what to expect.

It doesn't matter anymore, the future or something.

It's all, it's not important...

The girl's black hair rippled in the water, like green algae at the bottom of the lake.

Against the backdrop of the water waves, the dull face looked extraordinarily soft.

Her brows stretched out,

Her eyes close gently,

Her eyelashes are curled Enron,

The corners of her lips curl into a smile.

The bright red blood gushes out continuously, seeps into the clear water, and blooms swaying manjusawa.

The girl's face gradually paled, and the smile on the girl's lips was faint.

The author has something to say: I have seen news about school violence recently.Unilateral abuse between girls.In the dormitory, no one called the police.Very distressed.

The author has never experienced such indifference and terror in his growing years.So the author is still willing to believe that those are just children who don't understand anything, and they don't understand how terrible what they have done.At the age of fifteen or sixteen, I yearn for straightforwardness and pleasure.Almost all people who are different from themselves exude a strange atmosphere, which makes them involuntarily disgusted.

At that age, the world view has just emerged but has not yet formed, knowing everything and knowing nothing.

But the author hopes that they can understand that an inadvertent bad word may hurt others, and an unconscious word or deed may change the life of others.I hope they can understand that the encounter between people is a wonderful fate, which needs to be cherished.

I hope those children can grow up well and live a good life.Learn to love, learn to respect, get warmth, and get happiness.

above.Thank you guys for your patience in reading. ↖(^ω^)↗The world is beautiful, and today is also great.