Fearless

"When you just left seven years ago, I couldn't find you anywhere." Now talking about the past at that time, Lin Yanzhi is very calm, "At that time, I was very...depressed all day long, and I didn't think about anything Fuck, don’t want to watch anything, I’m in a bad state.”

"It was okay at first, and I lasted for a while, but I couldn't take it anymore, and finally I was hospitalized, and almost died half of my life. At that time, my parents knew about my condition, and then my mother before After looking for you, she knew it was your reason."

"Heart disease needs heart medicine, but you were too good at hiding at that time. They sent people and almost overturned S city, but they didn't find you. It happened that it was almost summer vacation at that time, so they discussed letting me go out for a walk. It might be better to relax."

"Of course I didn't want to, but at that time I really didn't think it was interesting, so I went out. I traveled a lot in one summer vacation, met a lot of people, and saw a lot of scenery. Finally, I went to City H and heard that A temple is very effective. Of course I don’t believe in this, and you also know that most of these temples have a high reputation and have no real skills, but I still went there that day as a scenic spot.”

"Now that I'm gone, I still sincerely hope that you can come back, but I was also very worried about you at that time, because I knew... what you do, so the first wish I made was to hope that you would live well. Just as I was about to leave after making my wish, a young monk suddenly came to the monastery and told me that his master was looking for me, saying that if I want to see the person I want to see again, I should go and meet him.”

"At that time, I went there with the attitude that I would rather believe it than believe it. When I went in, I saw the big monk standing there holding a Buddhist bead, and then I stood opposite him, and he told me that you have done too much evil in your life. Too much must be short-lived, if I want you to live I must do what he says."

"Of course I don't believe him, but I have to believe what he said next between us that no one knows, and the few words of advice he gave me. It wasn't until this time that I was sure that I seemed to be I really met some amazing people.”

"He told me that the person you love will not live long in this life because he has committed too many sins in his previous life and this life. The only way is to let me spread blessings in your name, and then put the blessings on me Ze transferred to you, this may not save your murderous intent, but it can give you a glimmer of hope of being alive after the death line."

"I thought his words were highly credible, and it really didn't do him any good. He didn't need to lie to me, so I naturally did what he said. Eat light food, live a simple life, go to the mountainous area to support education in your name, and start a business. I established the Word Foundation and helped many, many people. By the way, the Word Foundation, Yan is my name, and Yu is your jade character embedded in it, trying to make my own blessings deeply affect you."

"So when I heard the news of your death, I was really in pain, but I had a glimmer of hope thinking that my hard work in the past few years would definitely not be in vain, and that monk would not lie to me, so I firmly believed and convinced myself , I finally waited for you."

Lin Yanzhi finished talking about these things in a flat tone. He didn't mention a word about his hard work in the middle years. Get something from yourself.

There was a stifling silence in the air.

"...Why did you do this?" Meng Huaiyu opened his mouth after a long, long time, looking at Lin Yanzhi with dark eyes, but he didn't intend to ask Lin Yanzhi to answer, "Why did you do this? Do you think Will I appreciate you if you behave like this?" Meng Huaiyu raised his eyebrows and looked at Lin Yanzhi, his tone out of control, "Aren't you insulting yourself like this?! Do you believe anyone who says it?! If I If you're not here, who will you show your affection for?"

The more Meng Huaiyu said, the more angry she became, "It was also before! Why did you kneel down at my funeral that day! Who did you kneel down and make a gesture for? If I didn't see it, your behavior would not only cause trouble for yourself What can I do!"

But Lin Yanzhi just looked at him, didn't speak or move, just looked at him like this, there was no grievance or accusation in his dark pupils, just looked at him, but Meng Huaiyu felt his heart tremble, what did he say next? I can't even say it.

He hadn't felt this way for a long time.In fact, he didn't understand Lin Yanzhi's behavior. He really didn't understand. He also loved Lin Yanzhi, but if he said that it was impossible for him to do this for the other party, he could love someone, and he could also treat someone People value more than their own lives, but there must be a prerequisite for this, that is, the other party also loves him, otherwise he will never give so much.

He thought everyone was like this, and everyone he had met so far was also like this, but he didn't expect such an accident as Lin Yanzhi.

"I don't need anyone to see me." Seeing Meng Huaiyu stop talking, Lin Yanzhi took the initiative to speak, and even smiled rarely, "I don't need you to feel that you owe me, and I don't need your guilt. What should I do? , That's all my business, nothing to do with you." These words were completely sincere, and he looked straight into Meng Huaiyu's eyes, "I think I'm happy to do this, so I did it. I'm not for you I'm glad I did it for myself."

These words were really not like Lin Yanzhi's style, and they were too shameless, but they were quite in line with Meng Huaiyu's usual speaking style, and Meng Huaiyu instantly understood what Lin Yanzhi meant.

There are many things that he did not expect, and he would never think in that direction. For example, Lin Yanzhi lived a frugal life with almost no decorations in his home. For him, it was for him that Lin Yanzhi was ridiculed and donated so much money... Even he himself laughed at Lin Yanzhi's changed temperament...

"Besides," Lin Yanzhi changed the topic, his tone was still calm, as if he was talking about other people's affairs, "If you ask me what I love about you now, I can't answer it, because there are indeed many people in this world who are better than you I can't explain why I fell in love with you."

"However, since I have taken a fancy to you, then I have taken a fancy to everything about you, good and bad, self-willed. I love all your advantages, but I also love all your shortcomings."

Hearing Lin Yanzhi's words, Meng Huaiyu suddenly raised his head with an unspeakable expression.

Even if he exhausted his life's imagination and met countless people, he still couldn't imagine that there is actually someone in this world who can do this for that thing called sex.Especially this person is still Lin Yanzhi, and the person he treats like this is called Meng Huaiyu.

He is simply an idiot who makes the whole world envy and hate.

This time Meng Huaiyu was silent for a long time.Lin Yanzhi just hugged him in this position for a long time.

Finally, Meng Huaiyu spoke, "Lin Yanzhi." It was the first time he spoke to a person so tenderly. Although his voice was a little hoarse, his voice was unbelievably soft.

"Huh?" The man holding him made a single sound.

"I will treat you well." He said this seriously. Meng Huaiyu doesn't know what love is, and he may never be able to treat someone like Lin Yanzhi in his life. However, there is one thing he understands better than anyone else. He also implements it better than anyone else, and he treats whoever treats him well.

As for people like Lin Yanzhi, it's not just a matter of liking or being moved. It can't be said that Meng Huaiyu fell in love with him because he was kind to him, or fell in love with him a long time ago but never had such a deep relationship. Things can't always be so clearly distinguished, and in fact there's no need to be so clearly distinguished, but the final result is there clearly.

The phrase "I will treat you well" has already represented all Meng Huaiyu's attitudes.

This time, Lin Yanzhi was silent.In the end, he hugged Meng Huaiyu tightly, "Yes."

"It's alright, alright, you can't just sit here forever, right? Get up, it's getting late, let's talk about something tomorrow." After everything was said, Meng Huaiyu still felt a little embarrassed, maybe he had never done this before. Having talked to someone frankly, coughing lightly, Meng Huaiyu glanced at the clock on the wall, it was one o'clock in the morning.

"Well," Lin Yanzhi obediently responded, and when Meng Huaiyu stood up, he also stood up, looked at Meng Huaiyu sitting on the sofa, then stood still, looked at Meng Huaiyu, and smiled obediently.

Meng Huaiyu originally felt a little uncomfortable at first, he had lived half his life, and it was the first time he really understood what it meant to be alone when everyone was dead. He was still pretending to be calm under Lin Yanzhi's gaze. , but in the end he couldn't help but kicked Lin Yanzhi into the bathroom, "I'm just looking around here, hurry up and go to bed! If you don't sleep, I'll sleep!" The voice was annoyed, But there was a smile in his eyes that couldn't be concealed.

Even if Meng Huaiyu was killed, he would not admit how relieved he was when Lin Yanzhi stood there watching him just now.

Cut, an idiot.

...He's also an idiot, in love with an idiot.

The author has something to say: Why does a crow look like a writing desk?

because I like you. (From "Alice in Wonderland")

Probably eleven wants to express such a meaning ww

So it's time to sprinkle sugar qwq