Reluctant

Lin An has been together for so many years, and he always knew that he and Su She had a good relationship, but he never knew why?

His wife is not a bad person, how could she be so kind to a person?

"Did you like Su She before?" After deliberating for a while, he asked a mild question.

In the end, he was punched by Lin An.

"...Get out of your paralysis!" There was also a yell from his daughter-in-law.

Xie Yang blinked, indicating that he didn't mean it.

As a result, the daughter-in-law's comfort was not exchanged, but the daughter-in-law's tears were exchanged.

"You bastard!" Lin Anhong glared at him.

Xie Yang looked at Lin An in bewilderment, still reluctant to let his daughter-in-law soften her tone, "...Okay, okay, I was wrong and I won't say such things in the future."

Lin An suddenly turned his head to look out the window, his voice choked up, "I will treat Su She well in my life."

Xie Yang was slightly startled, stopped the car and turned around to face Lin An, "Why?"

Lin An sniffed, "If it wasn't for him, then you would have received the videotape that Bai Huan received."

Xie Yang turned pale when he heard the words, "What did you say?"

"When I was in college, my dad's partner kidnapped me for money. Those people may have kidnapped someone for the first time, so they didn't take my mobile phone. In a hurry, I sent a text message to Su She to say where I am I beg him to save me..."

"There's no way he can save me...Why didn't I fucking think of it...Bai Huan disappeared at that time, and my sister wasn't here...He was afraid that something would happen to me, so he knelt down and begged his adoptive father to save me...He knelt down and begged ...He doesn't even know that my dad's partner is that pervert..."

Lin An's voice slowly dropped.

"The pervert brought him to me later, and told him that you were kneeling and begging me to fuck you, so I let this man surnamed Lin go."

"..." Lin An suddenly choked up and couldn't speak.

Xie Yang reached out to hold his hand, "Stop talking."

Lin An shook his head, "Xiao Shezi...he begged that pervert to go to him...that pervert let him take off his clothes and spread his legs...begged him...you know...there were more than a dozen people in that shabby house at the time ...A dozen people...Look at him, watch him take off his clothes...I, I regret...I shouldn't have let him go..."

"After that pervert finished... still, he beat him... He, he couldn't even move and still comforted me not to be afraid..."

"...A Yang, A Yang... That pervert made all those people come...all come..." Lin An said while sobbing, Xie Yang wiped his tears for him and suddenly felt a little cold on his face.

"Also, it's also recorded... Say, male prostitutes are like this... Male prostitutes... Later, the police came... I was rescued... He, he is dying, you know? He is dying? If he doesn't come... If he doesn't come, I will be the one to be raped!" His tone suddenly rose, and Xie Yang put his arms around Lin An.

"Don't be afraid, A Yang is here, A Yang is here. We will take good care of Su She and him in the future." Hugging Lin An tightly, Xie Yang wiped his face.

Suddenly remembered the beginning when Bai Huan hated Su She.

It was because of a video tape.

(ten)

I have a favorite.

When he laughed it was like firelight in winter.

But he never smiles at me.

He always turns his back to me, and he always treats people kindly, except me.

He is someone I like.

He hates me the most.

……

Because of his illness, Bai Huan simply took a long vacation for himself. He took care of the yard leisurely at home, watered the flowers and weeded the weeds, and walked to the supermarket to buy vegetables and went home wearing home clothes.

Before Xu Yue came home, he planned to clean up.

He was holding a bucket and frowning at the floor, when he suddenly saw a blank sheet of paper at the door of the room where that person used to live.

Bending down to pick it up, glanced at it, and sighed.

Gently fold the paper into two layers and put it in your pocket.

Bai Huan planned to help that person clean the room.

……

After the white wooden door opened, Bai Huan was stunned.

The morning sun shines in through the window, bringing with it a rare warmth in autumn.

Outside the window, the big tree that was at the same level as the house was blown by the breeze, with its branches shaking slightly.

The room was furnished very simply, with a small bed in the corner and a desk shared by their university.

Then, the white walls are covered with paintings.

Various types of painting, watercolor, sketch, ink.

The paintings are all the same person.

Smiling, squinting, looking up slightly, expressionless, sitting, standing, running, holding someone's hand, kissing someone.

There are many, many backs.

It's all him, it's all the Bai Huan that Su She likes.

The Bai Huan who gave him back, embarrassed him and made him despair.

Bai Huan suddenly remembered the piece of paper he had folded up, which said, "When he smiles, it's like firelight in winter. But he never smiles at me. He always turns his back to me, and he always treats people gently." , only I was left out.”

……

There was a sudden pain in the chest.

Why...why do I feel this way...

Reach out and caress the paintings hanging on the wall, each with a date and some words written on it.

——February NO.12, today is my birthday, he is having dinner with Lin Tao, he looks so pretty in the white mist when he smiles, but unfortunately I can only hide in the corner and watch him make Lin Tao happy.

He is smiling in the painting, sketched in gouache, vivid.

——March [-]rd, it seems to be Ghost Festival... I'm a little confused.He seemed to be afraid of thunder, and it was raining heavily outside. With the sound of thunder, I tucked the quilt for him and sat beside his bed, listening to his sleep talk. It was so cute.

The sketched sleeping face, I don't know if that person kept watch in front of his bed all night to comfort him.

——June [-]st, there are so many children today, they are so cute, playing tricks on their parents.He's always been a good guy... I know, look, he's so pretty when he frowns and feeds sweets to kids.

In this painting, he is bending over and frowning slightly to peel candy for a child.

— On December [-]rd he fell ill.

—January [-], he cared about me for the first time today!

——On May [-], he said that he would never like me in his life.

There are also many paintings with no annotations but only dates.

I don't know... What mood did that person draw these pictures and write those words that made it hard for him to breathe...

How did that person love him with the only emotion he had.

……

Su She raised her hand to wipe off her sweat, then gripped the handle of the cart again, and with a skillful application of force, a cart full of yellow sand piled up next to the steel.

The dust all over the sky blinded his eyes, and the huge construction sound was booming in his ears. Su She pushed the cart back and thought about the wages.

"One hundred a day...Liu Liu needs to eat about twenty a day...I have eighty left, and it's only less than three thousand for a month..." Su She frowned while thinking about it.

How long will it take to get the money back to that person.

Will he think that I deliberately hold him back... so that he can wait for the opportunity to pester him...

He hates me so much... Will he hate me even more...

The noon sun was a little bit harsh, and people on the construction site took the meals sent by their families to the shade to have lunch, chatting and laughing.

"Hey! That newcomer...don't do it! It's time to eat!...The sun at noon is very uncomfortable, come to our side, come here."

Hearing the sound, Su She glanced back, put down the steel in her hand, and smiled at those people.

"No, I'm not hungry...Thank you."

"How can you not be hungry after working all morning?! Don't just save money, your body is the capital! Come, come, we invite you... No money, no money." The people under the shade said.

Su She shook her head, "No, no, you can eat, I still have a little more, I'll go home after finishing it...Thank you for your kindness..."

Those people didn't force it after listening, they just laughed and joked that young people nowadays are really humble and polite.

Su She leaned over and picked up the steel and walked into the rough room, suddenly laughed out loud.

... so good... so good.

It turns out that there will still be people who care about me... There will still be people who care about me...

After moving the steel a few more times, her stomach made an untimely sound. Su She dropped the steel in her hand, covered her stomach and said softly, "Don't bark. You have to remember that you are not hungry, you are not hungry... I ate it in the morning, Don't call any more!"

One meal a day is enough, you won't starve to death and you can save a lot of money.

Liuliu can't be hungry, Xiaolin has already delivered all the winter things last time... um... I can only rely on this to save money...

In this way, we can find some money to pay him back.

It will make me disappear in his world sooner.

……

Bai Huan sorted out the scattered drawings on the desk, and stretched out his hand to open the window.

The lighting in Su She's room is very good, he has always liked sunshine.

The cool wind blew over, and Bai Huan narrowed his eyes.

"Ah Huan?" An abrupt voice sounded from behind, Bai Huan glanced back, it turned out that Xu Yue came back from class.

With a soft reply, Bai Huan took the book from Xu Yue's hand.

"Do you like Su She, don't you?" Xu Yue looked at Bai Huan's outstretched hand. The knuckles were long and the nails were neatly trimmed.

Bai Huan paused for a few seconds when he heard this, took the book, and said coldly, "I don't like it...why are you asking this?"

Xu Yue blinked, looked at Bai Huan and frowned slightly, "You are really cold-hearted."

Bai Huan remained silent noncommittal.

"He's so stupid." Looking at the paintings all over the wall, Xu Yue couldn't help but sigh.

Bai Huan didn't answer after hearing this.

Xu Yue continued talking on his own.

"Hey, when I saw him for the first time, I hated him quite a bit. He looked weak and incompetent. I felt that his liking was nothing more than a beggar's dead beggar."

Finger brushed the window sill, Xu Yue shook her head, "Later, he talked to me a lot, and I found out that I was wrong."

Bai Huan raised his eyebrows as if he knew it clearly, and kept holding the book in his hands without bothering him.