Reluctant

Yeah, people like you who don't have a sex life won't understand! "Lin An yelled over there, and Su She took another sip of porridge, "Get down to business. "

Lin An: "Xiao Sheshe, you are so serious."

Su She: "..."

"Ahem, I just want to say..." Lin An paused, as if organizing his words, "When are you going to be hospitalized?"

Su She stopped suddenly, a little dazed.

After a few seconds of silence, he said, "I don't want to live."

Lin An was also silent for a while, coughing came from time to time, Lin An suddenly said seriously, "Do you not want to live?"

Su She was startled, speechless.

He didn't know how to answer Lin An's question.

"Don't delay, this is fate, not love." Xie Yang's voice suddenly came out from the phone, low but solemn.

"Love can't give you what you want, but life is fine, as long as you live. Although living is painful, it's better than having nothing. Listen to Xiao An's advice and treat your illness well."

Su She suddenly found that the porridge had changed its taste, very salty.

Not tasty at all.

Lin An is really annoying, why do you care about him so much.

The same goes for Xie Yang, what does his death have to do with love, why should he be persuaded...don't get involved anymore...I, I can't afford it.

I love Baihuan so much that I feel cheap in my bones, so much... I don't want to live anymore.

Yes, I don't want to live anymore.

So, stop caring about him, stop caring.

He no longer wants to live.

Live, too tired.

It hurts too much.

(thirty)

As the porridge cooled down slowly, Su She realized that it was the tears flowing into her mouth that made her feel salty, and the salty taste bitter.

If... I could not be so humble to like...

Perhaps, the result will be better than now.

However, his liking has nothing but the lonely courage he once had.

Even that lonely courage has disappeared for a long time.

No more self-pity, no more trouble

Don't want anything.

No more.

……

"Boss, how much is it?" Standing up to go back to the company, Su She took out a handful of change from her pocket. It was left in her pocket when she went shopping with Bai Huan last time. She forgot to take it out when she was doing the laundry. Did not take it out.

As a result, there was no response for a long time, and Su She walked into the porridge shop with some doubts.

He found that the boss had been staring at him.

"... Is there something on my face?" Su She was a little embarrassed, after all, the other party was a girl.

The female boss came back to her senses and quickly explained, "No, I think you are very beautiful."

Su She frowned slightly, can beauty describe a man?

The female boss didn't seem to be aware of the problem, and continued, "It's just too thin, as if it's almost gone."

The tone was filled with deep regret.

Su She laughed softly, "Why, are you interested in me?" Speaking in Xiao Lin's tone, I feel... pretty good.

The female boss laughed, "I have a boyfriend."

Su She blinked and smiled slightly.

"Are you broken in love?" The female boss asked suddenly.

Su She was taken aback, then shook her head, "I don't have a lover."

"Then you just...why?" Just now when she looked out from the glass window, the young man was sitting in the corner with tears on his face, which inexplicably made her feel... very sad.

Su She understood immediately when she heard the words, and also understood why the other party suddenly chatted with him, probably out of sympathy and curiosity.

After being silent for a while, Su She handed her ten yuan, pointed to the price on the menu and said softly, "Because I'm dying."

……

Bai Huan looked at the man who walked into the ward with a gloomy expression, frowning.

Seeing the expression on his son's face, Bai Jinglin couldn't help turning cold, and he stopped walking forward.

"Why don't you rush to the hospital because of your family business?" Bai Huan looked at his father coldly, with a slight expression on his face.

Bai Jinglin snorted softly, looked at Bai Huan's gauze-covered head and said coldly, "Let me take care of the idiot who committed suicide for a man."

Bai Huan pursed his lips, "What's wrong with the man?"

"What's the matter? Can the man help you have a baby? Can you take him out? It's fine for fun, are you really trying to piss me off?!" Bai Jinglin raised his voice.

Bai Huan suddenly smiled at him.

He was startled.

"Having a baby? Just for fun? You married my mother just to have a baby and then throw it away for fun, right?" Bai Huan raised his eyebrows, with a smile on his lips, "I like men, and he also likes men. Can't have kids, but at least he won't make me sad."

Bai Jinglin's face turned pale when he heard Bai Huan mention his mother, his hands trembled slightly, and he was speechless for a long while.

Bai Huan smiled, and looked at his father coldly, "Now he looks good for me, why didn't you see me when I was dying? What right do you have to hinder me? Don't you think... Is it ridiculous?"

Bai Jinglin opened his mouth, but couldn't speak.

Bai Huan said again, "You are free to do whatever you want, and don't leave your family property to me in a pretentious name. I don't want your money, and I will pay off what I owed you back then. As long as you don't touch Su She..."

"I can still be your good son in front of others." With a low smile, Bai Huan's expression became colder.

Bai Jinglin suddenly felt that Bai Huan was very similar to his mother.

They are all decisive.

It's all... brutal.

"...Do you think that the person who was bruised all over by you will still want you?" Bai Jinglin was silent for a while, and then said a word.

Just one sentence, but it made Bai Huan freeze like three feet, and his whole body was frozen.

"Although I don't like that child very much, I sympathize with it very much. I finally took some money left by my adoptive father and donated it all to the orphanage. He is so kind and like a savior. Unfortunately, he even saved himself. No." With a slightly sympathetic look, seeing Bai Huan's dazed expression, Bai Jinglin paused.

Lin Xiu didn't follow him, saying that she must make Su She give up Bai Huan, Su She is such an unclean person, not worthy of Bai Huan, he is still a man.

Although the words sound uncomfortable, but indeed, how can his son be with a man?

It's just that when I investigated the child's information, the grief in my heart was real. The child will not live soon... I can't bear it, but there is also some.

Bai Huan actually didn't quite understand what Bai Jinglin said, he knew that Su She was stupid, so stupid that he would give his life to others.All day long, he thinks he is a savior and spreads sympathy everywhere.However, he couldn't save himself, what was it?

"I don't care what he does." Bai Huan stretched out his hand and rubbed his aching temple, and said in a calm tone, "I just like him."

Bai Huan likes Su She, that's enough.

Nothing else is needed.

He likes him and everything will be fine.

……

When Secretary Ruan told a lady Lin to look for her, Su She said calmly, "Please come in, thank you."

He knew that Lin Xiu would come to find him.

In the conversation in the coffee shop back then, although Lin Xiu said "I thought you died, I'm so sorry" on the surface.

But Su She knew her too well, and he didn't dare to trust her anymore when he realized the hatred that radiated from his flesh and blood.

Bai Huan is her child now, how could she let a filthy thing touch her child?

Especially, it was a dirty thing that she wanted to strangle to death with her own hands.

Su She poured two cups of tea, one was placed in front of Lin Xiu, and the other was in her hand.

Taking a sip, Su She said, "Ms. Lin is here today because of Bai Huan?"

Lin Xiu glanced at him upon hearing this, pushed away the tea, with a look of disgust on her face, and said in a cold tone, "I never thought that people like you could still live in this world."

Su She's hand trembling while holding the tea, he had already tried his best to restrain himself.

However, he was indeed, very afraid of Lin Xiu.

That kind of fear, engraved in the bones, is unforgettable.

"But it's okay, you're going to die anyway. Although it's not as disgusting as your gay father's death, it won't be too easy to die from leukemia." Lin Xiu said again, with a look of joy in her eyes.

Su She blinked after hearing this, he is a big man...why does he always want to cry.

"...Lin Xiu." He shouted softly, his voice trembling, it was the first time he was so bold, seeing Lin Xiu's downcast face, he smiled helplessly, his voice gradually lowered, "I am also... your child. "

I also long for you to bully another person in order to protect me.

"So what? Since you know it's my child, you should die." Lin Xiu's tone was a little offended.

Su She froze for a few seconds, then nodded, "Okay."

Yes, dead.

"Don't pester Xiaohuan, just like you, don't be disgusting." Lin Xiu said condescendingly, "Don't tell me how many men you've been raped by, and you always cause trouble for him, anyway, you're going to die soon, Don't dirty his eyes in front of him."

Su She paused for a few seconds, recalling the scene of Bai Huan telling him to die.

Nodding, a little bit reluctant.

Su She smiled slightly, "OK."

Don't dirty his eyes.

……

"What are you doing?" It was almost evening when Bai Huan had time to call Su She.

There was a noise from the other end of the phone, and there was a faint sound of vomiting, then the sound of water, and finally came Su She's voice, "Hello."

Bai Huan responded, "What's wrong with you?"

Su She paused for a few seconds, "I ate too much."

"..." Bai Huan pursed his lips, he wanted to laugh, and suddenly remembered the scene when Su She and him went to a restaurant for dinner for the first time.

Wiped a pile of mustard and took a big bite, then vomited while crying, and said in a crying voice that he didn't want to eat any more.

At that time, he didn't know that Su She liked him