Reluctant

His body was cold, and he was shaking slightly.

It seems to be snowing outside.

The white light coming in through the windows is beautiful.

Su She suddenly remembered what Lily said: If you can't get it, give it up.

give up.

it is good.

……

Bai Huan frowned when he woke up.

He felt uncomfortable all over... as if he had fought with someone.

After being completely awake by the wind blowing from the gap in the window, Bai Huan froze.

Su She's appearance... so miserable...

There are traces of raging all over the body, various bruise marks, and many bite marks...

Moreover, my own things haven't been taken out yet...

Pulling back gently, Su She raised her eyes to look at him, probably touched the wound, Su She trembled.

When Bai Huan caught his sight, his breath was stagnant, and he was at a loss, "...I was... drunk last night, sorry."

Su She heard this and looked at him with a smile, "Don't worry, I don't charge money."

Bai Huan froze for a moment, not knowing what he was talking about.

After a long silence, Su She suddenly said, "Help me get some clothes..."

Bai Huan hadn't reacted when he heard the words, "Huh?"

"I'm cold." There was still that smile on the corner of Su She's mouth, but tears kept falling.

Bai Huan suddenly felt that something was missing.

He picked up Su She and walked to the bathroom.

……

Su She slowly closed her eyes.

Bai Huan's semen and his own blood still flowed there...

It's so dirty.

Bai Huan was also soiled by himself who was so dirty.

……

Bai Huan looked at Su She in a daze.

Su She was leaning against the wall and stood up tremblingly. Once Bai Huan reached out to touch him, he immediately stepped aside.

Frowning, Bai Huan said in a cold tone, "I understand that you are angry, but there is no need to torment yourself. How can you be so brave after all this?"

After that, he stretched out his hand to help him.

Being sidelined by Su She, Bai Huan looked helplessly at Su She clutching the shower bracket with a pale face, "Don't do this."

Su She shook her head, pointed at the inner thigh, and there was still liquid flowing down.

He said hoarsely, "Dirty."

Especially, dirty.

……

Bai Huan was stunned for a moment, looking at Su She's vacant eyes... Inexplicably worried...

This person seems to be broken.

He has something, I broke it.

What did I say last night...

That person will be so sad.

……

After Su She finished speaking, she ignored Bai Huan, picked up the shower and began to clean up the marks on her body.

When cleaning the wound, his face was expressionless and calm.

Because the cleaning was too hard, more blood flowed from the wound, Su She remained expressionless.

The bright blood was dazzling under the light, Bai Huan frowned and grabbed Su She's hand that was about to force, "..."

He opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything.

Tell him not to be so cruel?

It seems that I am much crueler than him.

Make him treat himself better?

It seemed that he was only nice to that bastard named Bai Huan, and he forgot how to be nice to himself.

Whatever... can't make that person... laugh again.

No matter what you say.

This person is already desperate.

……

Su She glanced at the grasped hand with her unwavering eyes, and pulled it out, but found that she couldn't pull it out.

"Bai Huan." He shouted.

Bai Huan was stunned for a few seconds, "Huh?"

"It's dirty, don't touch it, I'm afraid, you will be unhappy." Su She said with a chuckle, "If you are unhappy, I can't be happy, but I found that the sadder I am... the more sad you are I'm happy..."

"Then I am so sad that I am about to die now, you will be happy."

"I hope you are happy."

Su She suddenly couldn't continue.

He seemed to be crying again.

I couldn't breathe from crying.

My whole body hurts from crying.

It's a pity that no one will care whether he is in pain or not.

nobody.

(twenty)

Bai Huan stretched out his arms to hug Su She.

The warm light and the water vapor mingled on the two of them, and Su She's crying sounded like a child's, intermittently.

At a loss, Bai Huan hugged him very tightly, and tried his best to organize his words, "...I don't...hate you like...as you think."

"I'm just drunk... I'm sorry..." Bai Huan looked down at Su She's tears, and suddenly felt a pain in his chest.

"I did not do it on purpose."

……

After cleaning up for Su She, Bai Huan carried him to the bed.

Tucking the quilt, he reached out to caress the man's red and swollen eyes.

Su She was staring at the ceiling with her eyes open, her eyes were dark gray and dead.

"Have a fever?" Seeing the abnormal flush on Su She's face, Bai Huan tried the temperature on his forehead, then frowned.

When he lowered his eyes and saw the ground under his feet, Bai Huan was startled for a moment, and suddenly stretched out his hand to stick to the ground...

It turns out...it's so cold here.

It was so cold that he felt a tingling pain in the palm of his hand pressed against the ground.

After a long time, Su She finally closed her eyes and let out a slight breathing sound after a while.

It's just that the way he frowns slightly, and...the way he curls up into a ball...

Bai Huan suddenly remembered that he seemed to have never asked this person...whether it hurts or not?

there has never been.

……

When Lin An heard that Su She was ill, his brows could not be further frowned.

Why are you sick again?Didn't he just leave the hospital?

"Do I need to bring any medicine? I happen to be in the hospital." Lin An thought for a few seconds and said to the other end of the phone.

Bai Huan was silent for a while, his voice felt a little erratic, "No, just come earlier."

Lin An responded, took the line and went directly to Xie Yang's company.

Then the two hurried to Bai Huan's house.

……

Bai Huan was drying clothes when he saw the two of them standing aside... a little helpless.

"Su She is on the second floor, Xiao An, go and have a look." He was shaking off a white shirt, Lin An nodded and was about to pull Xie Yang inside, but Bai Huan said again, "Ah Yang stays, I have something to do."

After Lin An left, Xie Yang squinted his eyes and smiled at Bai Huan, "It's really rare for Young Master Bai to do housework... By the way, is Xiao She okay?"

Bai Huan ignored his teasing, but adjusted his expression slightly, nodded to indicate that Su She was fine, and then said calmly, "Do you have anything to hide from me about Su She's back then? "

Xie Yang's smile froze for a few seconds, and he asked unnaturally, "Do you like him?"

Bai Huan narrowed his brows and eyes slightly, and said in a calm tone, "It has nothing to do with it, and it's useless to know the result."

"Then why are you so concerned about him?" Xie Yang stopped laughing, with a serious expression on his face.

Hearing this, Bai Huan suddenly shook his hands, and his expression became a little dazed.

How does he know why he should care about that person?

He will not like him.

will not.

also can not.

Those who have betrayed cannot be forgiven.

"He could have told me the reason for the videotape back then, but he didn't. He said he was drugged...drugged? He was at my house all the time, and there were several people protecting him at the time. How did he get drugged? Let him Don't go out, what is he going out for?" Bai Huan suddenly felt that he didn't know many things, and for the first time in so many years, he wanted to overthrow all the subjective facts he saw.

After hearing what Bai Huan said, Xie Yang suddenly sneered, "You just think he has been fucked by too many people, and you feel uncomfortable like a prostitute, don't you? Do you think you, Young Master Bai, are superior to him? The embryo is not good enough for you, is it?"

Bai Huan's face instantly turned pale.

He couldn't refute it, he didn't know how to explain it.

"A few days ago, I thought you liked him, and I was afraid that you would anger Xiaoan if you knew the truth, but now it seems that my selfishness hurt Xiaoshe..." Xie Yang smiled wryly, "I don't ask for anything else, I just beg you, after listening, Don't blame Xiaoan, okay?"

Bai Huan froze for a few seconds, then nodded.

Xie Yang told Bai Huan everything he had heard from Lin An.

After hearing this, Bai Huan thought to himself, because Xie Yang was afraid that he would take revenge on Lin An, so he kept it secret for a long time, nothing else, just to protect Lin An.

I just did that kind of thing to that person for ridiculous reasons.

……

Bai Huan.

Why are you... so messed up.

……

Lin An pushed open the door and found that the person on the bed was motionless, so he walked forward cautiously and lightly.

Halfway there, I suddenly heard someone shout, "Lin An."

The voice is so hoarse that the original timbre cannot be discerned.

Lin An frowned slightly, and stepped up to the bedside.

Su She was looking at him, her pale face was red and her eyes were gloomy.

Su She rarely called him by his full name, usually Xiao Lin... This was the first time he called him like this after they got acquainted.

Lin An hummed, her nose a little sore.

"It hurts so much." Su She looked at him and said suddenly.

Lin An's tears fell instantly, hitting Su She's palm outside the quilt, feeling warm.

Lin An reached out to wipe his face, but he couldn't wipe it clean.

He knew that this person had a bad life, but he didn't know that this person had such a bad life.

"It doesn't hurt, it doesn't hurt, Xiao Lin is here, Xiao Lin is always here." Lin An snorted and said intermittently, "I will kill anyone who bullies my Xiaoshe...No one is allowed to bully Xiaoshe...No..."

Su She laughed suddenly, reached out and grabbed Lin An's clothes corner, "You can't beat him to death."

Before Lin An could ask why, he said again, "If you beat me to death, I can't live..."

Lin An was stunned when he heard the words, and then stared at Su She with red eyes, "Are you fucking stupid?! He has done this to you!"

Su She shook her head, the corners of her mouth slightly curled up, and she tugged Lin An vigorously, and said in a coquettish tone like a child, "You lie on the bed."

Lin An snorted, didn't say much, took off his coat and trousers, and got into Su She's bed.

The legs in the single pants leaned against Su She's legs, Su She turned around and hugged him tightly.

Lin An only felt