our town

City S is still cold, and people shiver in the cold.I still shrink my neck when I go out, reminding myself every time: straight head!I'm afraid I'll get neck shrinkage when I'm old, how ugly that is.

Sanbao and I seem to be in the state of an old husband and wife. We just want to spend our old age in peace, and we don't want to be entangled.What he thinks is what I think, maybe we were a little tired at that time.

Sanbao's friends asked him to play, and everyone knew what to play.

Sambo didn't go, and said to me: "Actually, I was asked to play here several times, but I didn't go. Once, the pipe was inserted into my mouth, and I refused. As long as you are not around, I don't want to go." Play."

I thought about the meaning of this sentence, Sambo is really concerned about that matter~~ It won’t work without the d product, if it is gone, the time is very short.

When Sambo came into contact with this for the first time, he was excited by the super long standby time. He didn't expect such a good thing in the world. Since then, he has been touching it frequently until he met me.

In fact, he hasn't broken it in the past few years. I know it. I have always turned a blind eye to it. The joy of the two of them made me choose to indulge.We hugged each other and fell, dawdling in the cracks, trying to absorb the warmth of each day, and only when we are closely bonded can we realize the existence of each other.We bind each other in extremely twisted ways.

Fall together, fall together...

This is a rare sunny day with the sun.When Sanbao said this, I saw the light on his face. As long as he leaves me, he will shine, and he doesn’t need to prolong the time for me. He knows that most of my love is due to this.

See, don't say he ruined me, I ruined him too.

We are like children, thinking that if we are more aggressive, the other party will be afraid to surrender, and we think that if we grab candy, we will have a good time, but we don’t know that growth is companionship, growth is tolerance, growth is help, and we squeeze while we cooperate.

If the Three Treasures are distorted, then my connivance and encouragement are the real distortions, my perverted distortions.

The soul that I can't grasp is manipulating the three treasures in the unknown space. On the surface, the three treasures beat me and imprison me, but in fact I guide him and imprison him.If he is the devil, I am the contract.

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I looked at Sanbao and said calmly, Sanbao is playing life and death in H City!The three treasures who once tricked the delivery man for a little thing and used his ID card as collateral to get the goods!The three treasures who would go out even if they fought for fun!Three treasures who deceive me in every possible way!Nowadays, he can talk lightly about the things he doesn't play, as if it's just a glass of plain water, and it doesn't matter whether he drinks it or not.

I looked at Sambo, and I didn't expect that there would be such a day that Sambo would quit!Originally, this is a soft drug. The physical dependence is not high, but the psychological dependence is terrible. As long as there is no temptation environment, it can be stopped at any time.

But Sambo refused under favorable circumstances. It was the first time I found out that Sambo had changed, and it turned out that he could change if he left me.

Sanbao bought me small wontons. I don’t like pork very much, but the ones bought by Sanbao are delicious.I have been fine all night, I watched a few episodes of the wonderful TV series, tears came out of laughing.There is no air-conditioning in the room, because I bought a heater when I came here, and I stretched out my feet to bake on it from time to time.It was cold again in less than half an hour, and Sanbao's long johns were still thrown on the bed, and he didn't wear them when he bought them. He didn't know why he bought them.

Sambo didn't come back until after four o'clock. I had slept a long time ago, but now I woke up feeling refreshed.Sambo was carried back by someone. His colleagues said that he drank like this because he had a dinner with another place. After they put him down, I took off his coat, shoes, and pants for Sambo, and put him sideways on the bed. Drunk and unconscious, I was very worried, calling Sambo's name, afraid that something would happen to him, Sambo was woken up by me, opened his blood-red eyes, and saw that it was me, just said "sleepy" and fell asleep When it was over, I saw that Sambo could still speak, so I felt relieved.

God-sent opportunity, I started to look at Sambo mobile phone, this is simply a good opportunity God gave me, I skillfully opened all kinds of software, WeChat, QQ, space, circle of friends... I even click on the good-looking men in the circle of friends to see his post If you don't retweet, he won't pay attention. If you don't retweet, I will start looking up this guy's past activities...

In less than 5 minutes, I found the chat records between him and Wang Qi in WeChat. Wang Qi, I heard from him that the business manager of another bar has been here for many years and is quite capable. They Because of business relationship, I often cooperate with each other. Last time I came to the station to pick up my car, I also asked him to borrow it. I also bought my bracelet from him. I scrolled up, and the three treasures have been deleted. Evening is also a party with him.

I have a false premonition in my heart, why I haven't seen Wang Qi for so long?Why don't you take me to the party tonight?Three Treasures and Wang Qi are involved too much, not like ordinary friends...

I couldn't suppress my inner thoughts anymore, turned on Sanbao's mobile phone to silent, and sent a message to Wang Qi directly: "I drank too much, have you arrived home yet?"

Wang Qi quickly replied: "I'm okay, you insist on blocking the drink for me, you said I'm fine, it's just a big time, you get up and drink a glass of water, if you want to stay, you have to go, stop everything I can't stop it, if I didn't know that you are single, I would have thought there was someone hiding in your family."

My head was numb all at once, my heart started to beat faster and faster, my hands began to shake, and I started to feel cold, my heart seemed to be stabbed by someone, the pain was torn, I resisted the instinct of madness, and gave myself Do psychological construction: "The two of them must be fine, it must be a work relationship, maybe they are P friends, this is a foreign land, it is normal to be lonely occasionally."

I forced myself not to think that they must be meeting their physical needs.

I don't believe in myself, and I don't believe in Sambo either. Seeing that I didn't reply, Wang Qi continued to send me messages: "I saw that you didn't wear long johns today. Why, the ones I bought don't fit? Do you want to exchange them?"

My head is completely crazy, Sambo has been lying to me, has been fooling me, even the long johns that I haven’t worn for many years are bought by others, how good are they? Is it because they are together every night when I am not around? ?Sambo lied to me again, this time I didn't make trouble, didn't go crazy, didn't eat grass, and didn't even wake him up, I replied to Wang Qi: "I'm his boyfriend, he fell asleep, how long have you been together?" gone?"

Wang Qi didn't reply for a long time, and another message came: "We have been together for a few months, did you know each other here?"

I sneered, a few months, that is, I started with Sambo as soon as he came, good, good.

I went back to Wang Qi: "We have been together for three years, and I came from City H."

Wang Qi never came back. This night, among the three of us, two of us are destined to be sleepless.

The lighting in the room is not very good, and the three treasures are pale, and the nasolabial folds on the face are also exposed under the incandescent light. I don't know what makes him float like this, and what makes him play without any scruples, shouldn't he be so ignorant at his age?

I looked at Sanbao, who was soundly asleep, and I touched his face. He was still awake, and his eyelashes blinked under the light, which was very cute.

I touched his belly again, it was hot, he felt itchy, so he frowned, just frowned, but didn't relax.

I looked carefully at Sanbao's eyes, and Sanbao already had fine lines, and his cheeks were not sagging because there was no flesh, and the deep groove under the nose became deeper under the light and shadow.Sambo's eyelashes are very black, which makes his small eyes look very energetic.Sanbao's mouth is full of flesh, and I made it a little bit upturned when I played with it. I looked at this cute little mouth and couldn't help but kiss it.

I shed a lot of tears that night, crying for my own youth in the past few years, crying for my repeated stupidity, crying for Sambo’s ignorance, crying for the helplessness of reality, no matter what purpose Sambo is with him, at present, it seems that he already has feelings .

The last time he cheated on me, he lied to me that he was cheating money. I exchanged my self-esteem for his return. I thought that he still had love when he turned back. Later, I accidentally discovered that it was because he hit the other party, and the other party stayed away from him. He looked for the other party countless times afterwards, but the other party hid, did he turn back because he couldn't find it?Or was it my guarantee that made him come back?Thinking about it now, Sambo's relationship may have left earlier than I thought, and my heart is slowly getting cold...

I sat on the bed and smoked one after another until my stomach felt like vomiting, until there was no more cigarettes, and I slowly fell asleep with my exhausted body.

I woke up in Sanbao’s gentle wash, the weather was fine today, there was a little sunshine outside, I suddenly remembered that we went to eat Da Lao Liu one day, because I love the sauerkraut in it, Sanbao specially found it The waiter asked for a convenience bag and packed a small bite for me to take back.

I still remember him drinking in the kitchen during Chinese New Year. He said that he is also an alcoholic when he gets old.

I still remember that he wanted to go out to play, and he talked all kinds of good things in front of me, saying that as long as he was allowed to go out to play for a while, he would come back and let me dispose of him.

I still remember when we were poor and only had less than a hundred dollars left, I wanted to drink Coke, and he wanted to drink Sprite, but in the end he only bought Coke, and he said, I will make you drink Coke every day in the future.

I still remember that his friend came to play at home and accidentally stained the floor that I had worked so hard to mop.

I still remember when we first got together, a large group of people chatted in the room, we all pretended to be serious, and when his friends left, he immediately came to hug me.

I still remember that we went to the zoo together to feed the monkeys. The monkeys stretched out their hands, the surface was black, and the middle was white, which was really cute.He started calling me a little monkey at that time, and I also turned into a little monkey and acted like a baby in his arms.

I remember a lot about him...

Just don't want to think about it.

Sanbao knew the chat records between me and Wang Qi, but I didn't delete them.

After the three treasures washed up, they asked me what to eat. I said three treasures, can we talk about it?Sambo said yes, but I have to buy breakfast first, for fear that I will be hungry.I agreed.

After Sambo left, I started looking for cigarettes, but there was none.There are cigarette butts all over the ground. I threw them around last night. The feeling of popping out the cigarette is better than pressing it out. Watching the cigarette butt with sparks draw an arc in mid-air, I enjoy it very much.

Life is already so bitter, why can't I flick a cigarette wantonly?

Sambo came back soon. I didn't even brush my teeth, so I took a big sip of soy milk in Sambo's hand. No sugar was added. It was my favorite taste.

Sambo is so careful, remembering everything you like, and giving you the love you need, but you can't be specific.

Sambo asked me to brush my teeth, and I put on my pajamas. I don't plan to go out today.

After breakfast, I started looking for cigarettes. Sambo took it out of my pocket and said, "I knew you would look for cigarettes. I was ready."

I saw that Sanbao took care of him in every possible way. Why is he so unmotivated?

Why can't he be single-minded?

What am I doing wrong?

Do you want to cheat again and again like this?

Is there something wrong with your brain or something wrong with my genes?

Is it because you have to cheat to live or am I born with a scum-absorbing physique?

Why can't you be more sensible when you are so old

You have a son, do you know that?

Interested in doing this?

I am puzzled and speechless.

I don't want to be noisy and tired.The freshly sated appetite combined with the stimulation of the cigarettes made my stomach a little queasy.

I told Sambo, you can tell yourself.

Sambo said: "He and I are just friends. I am with him for the sake of performance. He has been here for many years, and he has a good reputation and contacts. I rely on him to attract customers. Sometimes our business is not good. Go to him as a gift, I have no feelings for him, you believe me, I only love you in this life, and I will only love you forever."

Sanbao looked at my face while talking, I just sneered and refused to comment.

Sambo went on to say: "His family is urging him to get married. He will be 35 next year. His family said that he will finally be allowed to play for another year, and he must come back to get married in the next year. So how can it be possible for me and him? We are just playing, you Look at that bracelet, it’s not that you cheated without spending money.”

It turned out that the bracelet was also a gift from him, and he lied to me that he bought it.ok, good...

"Go on." I didn't refute and let him continue talking about his love.

"He is just a romantic fantasy. He has nothing to do all day long and only knows how to write and write. I can't stand his little affectation. If it wasn't for performance, I would have ignored him. There are many good clients who often introduce me, saying that he left everything to me. Am I doing it for him? I am doing it for his clients. You don’t know how good he has a client. The money is generous, and he came to join him every few days, he said that next time he introduces us to have dinner together, if this client invites me, I will definitely be more attentive than Wang Qi, and he will definitely only know me and not Wang Qi."

I looked at Sanbao's expression immersed in his own story. How did he manage to be a bitch and set up a chastity archway at the same time?I'm really wondering.

In his eyes, human nature is all interests, and he thinks about calculating others all day long. Am I also a part of his calculation?

"What's with the long johns?" I couldn't help but want to know more.

"Long johns are the last time we went to the supermarket together and saw them by accident. He insisted on buying long johns for me. I don't want them." Sanbao explained helplessly.

Okay, very good, and we went to the supermarket together, how intimate it must be.

"Do you often go to his house?" I didn't expect to gain more and more. The more he talked, the more my heart died, so I said slowly.

Sambo started to smoke, took a puff after lighting it up, and put it in his hand: "No, sometimes he just goes to the party after drinking too much. He wants me to go there every day. I'm not a duck, so why should I satisfy him?"

I looked at Sanbao's more and more stubborn face, and for the first time felt that our feelings were not so strong.I have a hunch that our relationship is probably coming to an end.

Sambo said a lot more, nothing more than lies about not liking him and liking me, I pretended to believe it, and spent another day there.

The next day I bought a ticket and hurried back.

After I went back, I sold the bracelet for 700 yuan, which was less than I expected.

But it's a comfortable sell, and finally I don't have to disgust me anymore.

I told Wu Le that I broke up with Sanbao, completely. Wu Le just nodded to show that he knew. I told Lao Wang that I broke up with Sanbao, but Lao Wang told me that when we are in love, we should talk about it carefully. Always breaking up and breaking up.

I'm speechless……

Wu Le and Jiu'er got closer and closer, and they tended to live in her house.

I didn't break up with Sambo, after all, I have to rely on him for living expenses.I held my breath, neither spitting nor swallowing.

I decided to make an appointment with Xiao Yan, as I said before, if I break up with Sambo, I will definitely accept Xiao Yan.

I've made up my mind, I'm going to find Xiao Yan, and I'll start with C.