everything about loving you

Lens freeze adjustment in hand

I'm directing and acting

you act absent minded

It's a familiar scene again

It's just that I'm no longer the protagonist

maybe i'm not suitable

maybe you don't want

everything about loving you

Once gathered under the shadow of street lights

Whose stay and concern

drop by drop

all about falling in love

It's a faded photo blown by the wind

The time and color of the lens recording

disappear in seconds

……

This lonely year is spent like this.

If he hadn't seen the anti-allergic medicine in the trash can, Lin Xiao would have thought that the end of the season just went out to buy medicine.

He was too careless.

Don't pay attention to all kinds of strange phenomena at the end of the season.

Forget that depressed patients love cranky thoughts.

Coupled with different degrees of torture, superimposed on the mental illness, it has become irreversible.

As early as the moment when Ji Mo was sent to Qin's house, Ji Mo's love was like a fallen star.Beautiful arcs across the sky, dim in the dark night.

A month later.

The end of the season is out of danger, but he falls into a deep sleep.

Not only resisting waking up, but also contradicting reality.

Like a quiet plant, unable to speak, lying lifelessly on the hospital bed.He would rather be isolated from the world by injecting nutrient solution into his body to maintain its functions.

Lin Xiao would set aside some time to accompany him every day.

At first it was just calling him by name.

After a long time, I would chat occasionally, talking to myself to myself.

At the end of the season, there is still no desire to wake up, Lin Xiao loses his temper, and is forced to suppress his temper, and turns back to being extremely gentle and coaxing.This kind of mood forms a cycle, which cycles once a week.

"This is not the result I want..." Lin Xiao brushed the broken hair on Ji Mo's forehead and ran it back.

Kissing the forehead of someone quiet.

Like a watchman waiting for his lifeless wife to wake up.

Soon, he excitedly shook Ji Mo's hand and said, "I promise you to let Qi Si go, what else do you want. Are you running away from me? Get up and tell me!"

"If you don't wake up again, I will kill everyone you care about one by one!"

Lin Xiao suddenly thought of it.

Didn't love him at the end of the season?

Panic makes the skin sweat coldly.

Threats in exchange for more guilty conscience.

"Let the patient's friends and people who care about him come and talk with him, maybe the patient will wake up when he hears the call." The doctor said helplessly, "The patient's heart disease is very serious, and there may be a knot in his heart that cannot be undone. , thinking that he could not get relief, and fell into a predicament."

"Heart disease..."

Lin Xiao recited the word that could not happen to the end of the season.

Does he have a chance to recover?

It's just that after this redemption, Ji Mo won't love him like before.Because Lin Xiao knew very well that he was an irreversible disaster at the end of the season.

Looking at the scenery outside the window in despair.

During the time spent with the end of the season, Lin Xiao washed away all his violence.He often sat in the ward, returning to the time when he first saw the end of Ji Ya in a trance, and his temperament changed drastically the moment he saw Ji Ya die.After committing suicide at the end of the season, he changed back.

Maybe the end of the season has magic to appease him too.

Thinking about the past, a familiar face walked into the hospital.

It's Qisi.

A gleam flashed in Lin Xiao's eyes.

How did he come here?

Maybe Xu Bei betrayed him.

Qi Si came to the door of the ward at the end of the season, struggling to get in.

Xu Bei told him that the end of the season was back.

It was brought back by Lin Xiao.

Walking in lightly, seeing Ji Mo lying motionless on the hospital bed, he covered his mouth to prevent himself from crying.

"I told you to leave him...I told you he would kill you, why don't you believe it."

"At the end of the season, this is not fun at all, I will be angry if you don't wake up."

"Is this the answer you've been begging for..." He leaned down and asked softly in Ji Mo's ear.

Qi Si didn't expect that the reunion would end like this at the end of the season.

I thought a lot before coming here.

Not a word was uttered afterward.

"..."

Lin Xiao watched indifferently.

It was this kind of attitude that it had nothing to do with him that made Qi Si's anger peak.

"How did it end like this at the end of the season! What did you do to him!"

Qi Si grabbed Lin Xiao's lapel, and the more he thought about it, the more angry he became, and he punched Lin Xiao directly.

"Are you satisfied? Why are you pretending to be a good person to save him?"

Lin Xiao didn't fight back, he was gasping for breath with blood on the corner of his mouth.

Qi Si and the end of the season are too close.

Coupled with the impetus of possessiveness.

The hostility that had also settled down for a long time was suddenly stirred up.

"Rather than being taken care of by you and living hard, it's better to let the end of the season die happily." Qi Si looked at Lin Xiao coldly.

Anyone can forgive and deserve sympathy.

Only Lin Xiao is different.

"No, he can't just die like this."

"The end of the season is not your pet, you have no right to control him."

"What he owes me will never be repaid for the rest of his life. What's more, he said he would replace Ji Ya."

Qi Si's voice was stained with anger, he lost his mind, rushed forward, and fought with Lin Xiao.

"The end of the season is the end of the season, he is not Ji Ya's accessory!"

The blood at the corner of Lin Xiao's mouth solidified, he just smiled, his eyes were creepy and deep.

"You and I both know very well that he can't live alone without me at the end of the season."

He patted Qi Si on the shoulder and drew closer to each other, without being too ambiguous in a low voice: "The end of the season cares more about me than you, please don't cross the boundary of friends, Mr. Qi."

Lin Xiao wants to carry out Ji Mo's life.

There must be him.

☆, 38

Open my heart, and you will find that Lin Xiao's name is written all over it.

Never ask me how much I love Lin Xiao.

That is the number of pi.

I moved forward all the way, chasing Lin Xiao's figure.Suddenly gray fog covered my eyes, I couldn't see Lin Xiao, and I couldn't see the original road when I turned back.

Lin Xiao and I.

From no moderation, to no room.

Lin Xiao treated me like this because he wanted me to feel the depth of the shock and grief that my killing of my sister brought to him.

There is a tender voice from afar, saying my name.

He asked me why I didn't wake up.

wake up?

Am I not awake all the time?

"Xiao Mo."

The scene changed in a blink of an eye. My sister was sitting in the garden, and she beckoned to me gently.

"elder sister……"

My sister patted the empty seat next to me, and I walked over and sat down.

"Xiao Mo, do you still remember the blue beard story I told you?"

"I definitely remember."

"Love doesn't necessarily mean being able to forgive each other unconditionally, and husband and wife, being able to be together doesn't have to be sex."

"Sister, what do you want to say..." I was full of confusion.

"Lin Xiao misses me so much, but he just thinks it's right to do so. He thinks he should love me, but he could have forgotten it." The elder sister's voice was ethereal, and her figure gradually became transparent under the light. She touched her hand on the ring finger.

I saw the wedding ring missing from my ring finger, leaving a scar.

"No, brother-in-law, he really loves you..."

"Lin Xiao loves me, so he won't wear a ring and make out with strange women. After all, what he thinks he is infatuated with is just mediocrity."

"Sister, I don't understand."

On the elder sister's peaceful face, there are a few traces of sadness between the brows.

"Sister, I'm sorry."

Covering his eyes with his hands, he broke down in tears after speaking.

"I killed you..."

"I'm not helping you at all, I'm such a piece of shit..."

I sat on the bench and choked speechlessly, lowered my hands, my sister disappeared, and everyone blocked my exit.

The leader Lin Xiao accused me viciously, I opened my mouth anxiously to explain to him, but I couldn't speak.He gestured vigorously, hoping that he could understand.

Xu Bei folded his arms and watched coldly.

Only Qisi pulled me to run in the opposite direction of them, but they did not catch up.

"Qi Si..."

"I know what you and Zemin are hiding from me."

I stopped and froze in a daze.

"If you want my forgiveness, wake up quickly, please..."

I looked up at the gray sky, and nothing was there.There is a wind bypassing us, evaporating a white mist, I stretch out my hand, but I can't touch the wind.

Water overflowed from the ground, and Qi Si transformed into Lin Xiao.

"Death to life..."

The water under my feet submerged my knees, Lin Xiao pinched my neck, pressed me into the water, and stopped breathing.

"don't want."

Hearing is overwhelmed by noise.

"The patient... has reacted to the outside world."

"Go and call the doctor."

Lin Xiao's outline is like a slide show, intertwined in my eyes.

"Cough cough..."

His throat was as dry as if it had been exposed to the scorching sun for a century. After pressing the power switch to turn off the sound, Lin Xiao handed me a glass of warm water.

"You've been asleep for three months."

For three months I had a short dream.

"Am I not dead yet?" The voice was extremely difficult to hear, like fingernails scraping on the wall.

Lin Xiao poked the almost healed wound on my wrist, and the slight pain spread to the nerves.

Ah, I'm still alive.

The doctor came to check that I was fine for the time being, and pulled out the nutrient solution tube in my hand, and the eye of the needle was swollen.

I found that I couldn't die, and I refused to eat, so I wanted to starve to death the organs in my body.Facing the delicacies made by Lin Xiao himself, he stared out the window in a daze without even looking at them.

"Are you going to use a hunger strike to protest against my saving you?"

After a long silence, the food was cold, so I picked up the chopsticks and stuffed a green vegetable into my mouth.He chewed mechanically, then swallowed, and finished a bowl of porridge without taste.

"I will live a good life and pay off the debts I owe slowly. Tell me, what do you want me to do for you next."

Lin Xiao yelled at me before committing suicide that I still owe him, I am afraid I will remember it even if I lose my memory.

"Go to sleep first, and remember to call me if you need anything."

Lin Xiao avoided my topic, took out a mobile phone from his pocket and put it in my hand, then gently kissed my forehead.There is no unnatural look, as if he has done this move many times.

I turned on the phone, and there were Lin Xiao and Qi Si's names in the phone book.

Qi Si...

Incredible.

Lin Xiao would allow me to contact Qi Si?

"If you told Qi Si the good news yourself, I guess he would be very happy." He saw my confusion, without the hatred from the past, it was more like a compromise that was impossible to give in.

It took me a while to understand what he meant.

Is he encouraging me to take the initiative to call Qi Si?

Wait, this can't be the Lin Xiao I know.

I dare not move casually, for fear of disturbing the tranquility before the storm.

"I won't find anyone, I will be obedient...you can ask me to do anything, don't bring in irrelevant people."

Lin Xiao's voice lowered a few tones, and he said in a strange voice: "I gave you the mobile phone to fear that something might happen to you, it has no other meaning."

I will not trust him, let alone be deceived by his acting skills.

……

Lin Xiao didn't have any extra explanations, especially the distrustful eyes at the end of the season.

It seems to be saying: don't hurt me, I'm already in so much pain that I can't take care of myself.

It made him suddenly stranded in a sense of powerlessness, reviewing everything he had perfunctory at the end of the season.

It's been three months.

He himself didn't expect to be able to persist for three months and watch the end of the season without missing a single day.

Rainy days come, sunny days come, traffic jams come, and idleness comes.

Sometimes when meeting Qi Si, his wonderful desire to control goes off the rails, and he gets so angry that he can't calm down.At that moment, Lin Xiao personally understood and realized that at the end of the season, seeing him with other women would have the urge to commit self-harm.

During the coma at the end of the season, Lin Xiao bought a bouquet of white roses to see Ji Ya.

He asked many questions to Ji Ya's black and white photos, but he still couldn't get a reasonable answer.

Lin Xiao concentrated on looking at the wedding ring on his finger, and muttered to himself: "Ji Ya, do I not love you anymore?"

With a surprised expression on his face, it took him a long time to realize what he had said unconsciously.

When he brought his lover home to do love affairs, the end of the season asked him abnormally: "Don't you love your sister...why do you do such a thing."

He didn't seem to answer.

It seems that I can't find any words to answer.

Like a fist hit on cotton, he is soft and hard to deal with. He has never tried setbacks, and he blames the end of the season for one crime after another.Just for peace of mind.

"I don't even know if I love you or not..."

Dusty tombstones overgrown with weeds, white roses set aside, blending with the dirt, commemorating unspeakable love.

☆, 39

Today's breakfast is millet porridge and whole wheat bread.

Splitting headache.

Appetite was wiped out at once.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Lin Xiao saw my expression change, and he was going to find a doctor.

"no need."

"Is it painful?"

Lin Xiao asked me to sit with my back on his chest.Then put my hands on my head and massage the acupuncture points with my fingers.

"Is this any better?"

"Well...comfortable."

It was so comfortable that I felt drowsy, but Lin Xiao wouldn't let me sleep.

"Isn't sleeping for three months enough?"

The deserted voice reached my ears, and I shivered.

"I saw my sister in my dream."

Lin Xiao's fingers obviously stopped for a moment, then moved again and continued to press.

"My sister disappeared without a trace after hearing my apology." I raised my head and asked Lin Xiao, "Will my sister never forgive me?"

"..."

"Brother-in-law, tell me the story of Blue Beard again."

At the same time, I recalled what my sister had said to me.

Love doesn't necessarily mean being able to forgive each other unconditionally, and husband and wife, being able to be together doesn't have to be sex.

Lin Xiao missed me so much, but he just thought it was right to do so.He felt that he should love me, but he could have forgotten it.

After all, in the final analysis, what he thinks he is infatuated with is nothing but mediocrity.

"what."

Actually laughed out loud.

Lin Xiao is more capable of deceiving himself than I am.

Hearing my laugh, Lin Xiao interrupted the story telling.

"Has Blue Beard ever loved his little daughter... why can he kill her without blinking an eye, and seal her body in the last door. In the days to come, Blue Beard will miss his little daughter temperature?"

"..."

"Will my sister be the youngest daughter? Did she spy on what is hidden in the last door of brother-in-law?"

"..."

I lay on Lin Xiao's heart, in the compartment of the suit, I couldn't hear his heartbeat.

Lin Xiao was speechless under my questioning, and took a few steps back.

I saw Lin Xiao's reaction when he heard it, and laughed in a low voice.

Ignoring his discolored face, he hummed as lightly as a wounded patient.

The wrist that was cut by the knife was pinched tightly by Lin Xiao. He stared at me strangely, and said uncertainly: "You are tired, go to sleep."

"Brother-in-law, it hurts so much."

I blinked, and took the opportunity to fall limp in his arms.

The hand that clenched his wrist was released quickly, Lin Xiao carefully checked whether the wound was open, and his tensed brows loosened.He was annoyed at his conditioned reflex for hurting me. In many cases, he had no choice but to get used to... the little happiness in sadism.

"Does it hurt? I'll call the doctor..."

I grabbed the hem of his shirt.

Lin Xiao's self-restraint behavior confused me. In the past, before I woke up, he would definitely treat me even worse.

Something big must have happened for him to please me like this.

"What happened? How can I help you?"

"No."

Lin Xiao responded decisively, holding my hand with a little more strength, making me firmly believe in his words.

I remained uneasy for the next few days.

But Lin Xiao took care of me as usual and didn't make any demands.

"I'm going on a business trip tomorrow, and I won't be back until a few days later. The servant will come over tomorrow morning."

"No brother-in-law, I think I'm pretty much better and can be discharged from the hospital..."

"No." Lin Xiaoheyue's expression froze, seeing that I had made up my mind, he was rather unwilling, and he bit his lip numbly and stiffly: "At least wait until I come back, do a full-body examination, and leave the hospital only after I'm sure I'm fine. "

I stretched out my hand and rubbed his facial expression, with a smile on the corner of my mouth: "Okay, I'll wait for you to come back."

Lin Xiao left with his front foot, and I followed with my back foot.I heard the nurses in the duty room discussing, when they chatted about Lin Xiao.When it comes to the words of being humble and elegant, I can't list a single defect with all my heart.

I made a call with the mobile phone that Lin Xiao had given me.

"Hello? Who is it?"

"Me, Keith."

The person on the phone hung up immediately after hearing my voice.

Qi Si came in a hurry, he gasped for breath, leaned on the wall with one hand and took a big breath.

"Come here?"

I stood at the elevator entrance and stretched out my hand to him, Qi Si slapped it away fiercely, and he walked up to me aggressively, almost gnashing his teeth and poking me with anger.

"Finally willing to wake up? Don't sleep anymore?"

"You still learn how to play suicide at a young age, you are really capable at the end of the season!"

"What do you do when you wake up? Go on sleeping if you can!"

I hurriedly held his hand affectionately: "Did you wake up without hearing your call of love..."

"I haven't settled the accounts with you yet, come, come, let's settle our old and new grudges at once."

I looked at Qi Si who was chattering, and if I could exchange my life for three wishes, the first wish was that Qi Si could shut up.

Skillfully took out the cigarette case from his trouser pocket.

"Hey, patients are not allowed to smoke, besides..." Qi Si pointed to the warning sign in the hospital, which said "No Smoking".

"Let's go for a walk."

The smoke lingered in the mouth, and the heart hanging in mid-air was at ease.

"Three months ago, I heard from Xu Bei that you committed suicide." Qi Si said something incomprehensible, and he grabbed the cigarette between my fingers and took a puff. Do something."

Hearing Qi Si's nagging complaints, he felt that he had returned to reality.

Lin Xiao is good at flickering, it is an uncatchable phantom, false and very unreal.

"I'm talking to you!"

Seeing me distracted, Qi Si raised his voice and glared at me angrily.

"Ah... I'm listening, I'm listening."

"Isn't it? Lin Xiao is the only word you care about." Qi Si said resentfully, then lowered his head as if there was nothing he could do. "To be honest, I hate Lin Xiao. I hate that every time he appears, you will turn into a weak and incompetent coward."

"When you met Xu Zeming, didn't you drop everything..."

"What's the matter?" Qi Si mentioned Xu Zeming and immediately became energetic, "That bastard and you are two different types. By the way, I almost forgot that you and Xu Zeming were hiding it from me."

Qi Si rolled up his sleeves, and when I saw this, I immediately covered my chest and coughed desperately.

"Ahem... I... I'm a patient, you can't treat a patient like this."

"Patient?" He repeated, "Exactly, they are going to the hospital anyway."

……

Lin Xiao looked at the document in his hand absently, and the tablet placed on the desktop was live broadcasting the fight with Qi Si at the end of the season.At the end of the season, his face was ruddy and in good spirits, not at all like the sickly white in the hospital.

It appears that he is nothing more than a season-ending addictive contraband.

Once you stop eating, you will repeatedly pursue endlessly.

What if I quit?

☆, 40

Lin Xiao was peeling an apple with a fruit knife.

I watched him second by second, like every frame of an animation.

"Doctors say eating more fruit is good."

He cut a small piece and handed it to me, took a bite and made a crisp sound, spreading the sweetness on the tip of his tongue.

Countless questions popped up in my mind, does Lin Xiao care about me?What is his intention to save me?

Lin Xiao was unwilling to answer.

That can only force him to submit by means of destruction.

Can I hear the answer I want from Lin Xiao's mouth?

When I committed suicide, I never thought I would survive.

When you survive, you will no longer think about suicide.

I will take Lin Xiao's awakening by default as a new chance for me.

"Brother-in-law, I still want to eat."

"it is good."

Lin Xiao washed the grapes and tore off the purple skins.

"feed me."

"it is good."

I deliberately sucked his fingers, and used my tongue to skim over the remaining grape juice on the fingertips, sweet and a little sour.Licking her lower lip, with the scent of grapes, she grabbed Lin Xiao's tie, pulled him closer and kissed him.

Give me a little more tenderness.

Destroyed at the last second at 59:[-].

"I'll come and see you tomorrow."

Lin Xiao walked out and came back again.

"Forgot to give you this."

He stuffed a candy in my hand.

sugar……

Tell me how to be calm.

I can't suppress the bits and pieces of the past, which makes me sink deeper and deeper.

The words "Do you love me?" came out of my mouth.

"Xiao Mo, it's late, you should go to bed."

"why do not you answer me?"

"I'll come back tomorrow..."

"Why don't you look me in the eye."

"..."

Lin Xiao dodged every question I had, and put on his coat.I can't let him go, Lin Xiao didn't say the answer I want to hear, I can't let him go.

"I can do what you want."

"Enough." Lin Xiao expressed his impatience with the question I asked a thousand times, and he didn't want to chat with me any longer. "You are also tired today, go to rest early."

Grab the knife that Lin Xiao had used to peel the apple, and put it on his neck.

"Please, do you like me?"

"Xiao Mo, don't be so willful anymore, you are an adult now."

The handle of the knife fell off the palm of his hand and fell to the ground with a "bang".

capricious……

My headache was about to burst, and countless people around me shouted: "If you are more self-willed, you will kill more than just my sister!"

"It's all your fault. If you weren't too selfish, my sister wouldn't have ran out to find you!"

"Could it be that you still want the people around you to suffer?"

No no, I can't be willful.

Lin Xiao definitely doesn't like my waywardness either.

"Yeah...I'm an adult now, I can't be so self-willed anymore." I lay back on the bed, feeling tight in my chest, and covered myself with the quilt enduring my headache.

Looking at him affectionately, clean up the emotions that shouldn't stay on his face.

"Good night, brother-in-law."

Lin Xiao took a few steps forward, and seeing my strangeness, he clenched his fists and took a few steps back.

"Good night."

After speaking, he fled in despair.

"It's okay, you will admit that you like me sooner or later."

Lin Xiao, no one dares to love you except me.

Three days later, the examination report came out. Except for some mental weakness, I was fine. The doctor wrote a note and allowed me to be discharged from the hospital.

"The patient's mental condition is not optimistic. As a family member of the patient, you should pay more attention."

"Okay, doctor."

Lin Xiao nodded quickly, holding several bags of medicine that I will take in the next few days.

For extreme people, extreme measures have to be taken.

I just wanted to test it out.

In the early morning and night, when Lin Xiao relaxed his vigilance, he crept up to the balcony railing and sat there, his legs dangling in mid-air, and the vehicles and pedestrians on the road became small.

I will continue to use death to challenge Lin Xiao's boundaries, to prove that it is not a good choice for me to exhaust my energy to pursue someone I can't get.

"Xiao Mo, come down quickly, it's dangerous!"

After Lin Xiao found out, he yelled at me impatiently, but he didn't dare to act rashly.

"When I got home, I had a very strange idea." I pointed to the colorful road: "These are real, I'm not dreaming, right?"

"Correct."

In the south in February, it was too cold to lose consciousness.I was only wearing a long sleeve, and I shrank my frozen arms, but I still couldn't feel the temperature.

"Don't move around." Lin Xiao took off his coat, and moved closer to me step by step.

"do not come!"

"Blowing the cold wind, you will catch a cold. Just after you got out of the hospital, you thought about going back?"

"I can't tell if it's real or an illusion constructed by my brain, including you."

I faced him negatively and hopelessly, maybe I was abused too deeply by my obsession, and I didn't even want to believe the fact that I woke up.It needs to be proved by the biting cold that Lin Xiao, who is kind to me, is a real person.

It's like Zhuang Zhou's Dream of Butterfly that Shen You read in the book.

"So, you are real too, right?"

Lin Xiao sighed lowly, moved one meter away from me, and sat on the guardrail like me.

I turned my head to look at him in a daze, speechless for a moment.

"Sister, brother-in-law?"

"Don't you want to verify whether this is true?" Lin Xiao said lightly, "I will accompany you to verify."

"No!"

I was completely flustered.

"The end of the season."

"Ok?"

"We've been consuming each other since six years ago to see who burns out the fastest."

"..."

Six years ago... the year my sister died?

I heard the meaning of Lin Xiao's words, and smiled sourly, you chased me too much, and forgot that Lin Xiao hated me to the peak.

If it wasn't for my sister's promise.

If I were Lin Xiao, I was followed and watched by a crazy and extreme fan, and begged to love him to death.

I would definitely send him to die without hesitation.

It wasn't that Lin Xiao dismissed it, or didn't bother to pay attention to it, he never cared about it at all.

I'm a walk-on with no lines.

Funny and shameless to add drama to yourself.

Standing in the corner and coveting the male lead, I can't stand the female lead and supporting roles he has come into contact with.

Thinking about it this way, I figured it out.

"It won't happen in the future...My sister's last words are void, I...swear I will never bother you again."

"No." Lin Xiao quickly refused, and he stared at me with piercing eyes.

"I'm serious, I will go far away, I won't sneak back, I won't look at you with that disgusting look, I won't say those words that disgust you, or even do things that make you unpleasant... …sorry."

While talking, tears flowed down without saying hello in advance.

I try to smile, but it must be ugly.

Wipe your eyes with your hands, more and more.

It's strange why my heart doesn't hurt at all, but my eyes are bitter as hell.

"Stay with me."

what?

My whole body was frozen as if I had been acupunctured, and I was speechless in a daze. If it weren't for the tears falling down my chin, I would have thought I was living in a movie.

Auditory hallucinations.

never existed.

I must be overly stressed, or the effects of the drug have produced faulty signals in the auditory center.

"Would the me in your dream say this?" Lin Xiao covered me with the coat in his hand, his voice was soft, and he helped me tighten the collar.

The Lin Xiao I dreamed about in my dream... hated me until death was deeply ingrained in my brain.

"So you still think you're hallucinating?"

"..."

"Never do this dangerous behavior again next time."

Lin Xiao pursed his lips tightly, he got off the guardrail, dragged me down by the way, picked me up and walked back to the room.

He was furious, and I was in shock.

The temperature of the heater in the room rose, and Lin Xiao pressed my hands, biting my shoulders until my chest.He was very angry, angry at me for being self-willed, and didn't understand the overall situation.

"You just said...that sentence."

The wild instinct buried in the bones was awakened by the heat along with the cold skin.

"Hush." ​​Lin Xiao put his index finger on his lips, "Now is not the time to talk about that."

The sound of overlapping bodies spread out on the bed, as if the confinement was lifted, eager to merge with the lover.The hands tightly clutching the sheets were forced to intertwine with the fingers of the person on the body.

I finally got... the answer I wanted to hear.

☆, 41

When I woke up, I habitually reached out to hug the side, but it was empty.

Opening my eyes and staring up, the ensuing loss eats away at me.

After taking a shower, I wiped my hair and went to the living room, and saw that the balcony door was locked.

It's funny that Lin Xiao is overly vigilant.

A note and a warm breakfast were placed on the dining table, and the words "wait for my return" were written on the paper.

I was left alone at home with nothing to do, even put away the knives in the kitchen.

This home is still so alienating.

He wore a shirt casually, and huddled in Lin Xiao's room after breakfast.

"Ha ha……"

Laughed recklessly.

It's not in vain for me to play a series of suicides, which made Lin Xiao have to say the words that have been hidden for so long.

He was killed many times, but fortunately he was able to save his life.

I didn't lose the bet.

Lin Xiao likes me.

Even if I can't see the dawn of the next day, I will never let go of Lin Xiao until I have Lin Xiao.

Winning or losing at the beginning and the process is not important, life is used as a bargaining chip.

The role of being good at playing the underdog has been brought into full play here.

As long as Lin Xiao has a soft heart, I will intensify the exaggeration into guilt.

Then this guilt will become an excuse to stay by his side in the future.

No, not an excuse.

It's a legitimate reason.

Lin Xiao came back only the next day.

The sound of the key opening the door sounded, and I got out of bed and stumbled out.

"Haven't woken up yet?" Lin Xiao came in with a cowhide bag, his tone a little accusing, "Why are you wearing so little?"

"I thought I was dreaming again..." I nestled on the sofa and laughed lowly.

Yesterday I had a dream in which I was sitting on the balcony.And, you said you like me.

"Ever eaten?"

I shook my head, I wouldn't say that I've been sleeping in his bed since yesterday.

"Why is the phone turned off?"

Speaking of which, I really forgot about having a mobile phone, I sat on the sofa pitifully, "I forgot..."

Lin Xiao paused, "Are you waiting for me?"

I nodded, hunger reverberated in my stomach, I clutched my stomach, the stomach ache, it came without warning.

"Sorry, I didn't expect it to take so long." Lin Xiao put down the leather bag in his hand and turned into the kitchen.

"what is this?"

I glanced at the cowhide bag on the ground, and there was something moving inside.

Lin Xiao came out, feeling uncomfortable, and said vaguely, "It's for you."

I unzipped it, and a fluffy cat's head popped out.

"Lingling?"

"Meow..."

Lingling hasn't seen me for a long time, she seems to miss me very much, and has been refusing to leave by my side.

I was puzzled and asked him: "How could Lingling..."

"I want to come back from Mr. Zhong."

Lin Xiao...

Knowing that I can't let Lingling go, you went to find Zhong Chengli on purpose?

He raised his head and kissed the corner of Lin Xiao's mouth.

If it wasn't for Lingling lying in my arms, I'm afraid I would give Lin Xiao a bear hug.

He cares about me.

This kind of happy mood overflows the whole heart.

He just treats you a little better, and he can erase the bad things he did to you in the past.

In love, there is a person who suffers more and doesn't care about anything.

Lin Xiao glanced at the cat in my arms, and walked back to the kitchen with a slumped face. I teased Lingling, only to hear Lin Xiao's impersonal voice from inside, "Put on clothes. If I catch a cold, I'll send it to you. go back."

"Brother-in-law, I'm hungry."

Lin Xiao stopped what he was doing, and he took Lingling and put it on the sofa.

Then walking into the room, he opened the closet and found a baggy coat.Wrap me into a zongzi, it's hard to move an inch.

"You are not in good health, don't be cold." After finishing speaking, he took out a box of stomach medicine from the drawer, "Next time I break my promise, don't wait for me."

"I'm afraid I won't even have the chance to wait next time."

Lin Xiao stopped to look at me for a long time, until the sound of breathing was frozen in the air.

"You have, it's a privilege."

"Then... all I can exchange is myself."

When I was hungry, my appetite increased greatly because of Lin Xiao.

As long as he doesn't dislike this body that has been played with by others.

Biting the zipper on the crotch with her teeth, using the tip of her tongue to slowly swell her desire through the panties.

"Don't mess around, I'll make you something to eat."

Lin Xiao pressed my shoulders and pushed me away, with the patience remaining on his face after being confused and fascinated, he walked quickly towards the kitchen.

"Does brother-in-law dislike me like this?" I knelt on the ground, "Or... I make you boring?"

Lin Xiao turned back, he no longer judged himself by the so-called moral standards.

Released nature and instinct.

Lingling didn't know where to go.

Lin Xiao closed the door with his back heel, and I was pressed under him in a blink of an eye, and after a while, I let out small gasps.

stay on the neck