everything about loving you

A cigarette afterwards.

I remembered everything.

I really am not a nice person.

About four years ago?Still almost five years.

On the day of my 19th birthday, I woke up thinking about the spring/dream I had last night.Sex/longing around the corner, screaming/crying to be caressed.I thought of the object in my dream, Lin Xiao.

Stretch your hand into the pants/crotch, imagining that it is Lin Xiao caressing.

My sister and Lin Xiao celebrated my birthday. He brought candy and quietly pushed the candy into my mouth when I was free. I remembered the sweetness at that moment.

It was like a dream that he returned to a few years ago, he was still the college student with a faint book taste, and the corners of his mouth were gently bent.Helplessly said to me: "You did this question wrong."

In order not to have such naive illusions anymore, I quickly called Qi Si to come out to breathe.

Go to a bar and indulge.

The mood becomes impetuous.

I forgot how much I drank, and I was completely drunk. It was Lin Xiao who brought me home.

I cried and said a lot of things I shouldn't have said to him. I was young and frivolous and couldn't control my mouth, saying whatever came to mind.However, youth is no excuse for wanton behavior.

"It would be great if you weren't my brother-in-law!"

Playing his temper on the road in the middle of the night, Lin Xiao's expression was not very good.

"Stop making trouble, Xiao Mo, go home first, Ji Ya is very worried about you."

"leave me alone!"

"Xiao Mo!"

"I'm an adult now." I pushed him away, laughing like a kid who keeps proving he's an adult.

"..." Lin Xiao ignored my yelling and directly stuffed me into the car and sent me home.

Seeing my sister, I was inexplicably angry, it was the ghost of jealousy, which messed up the jealousy I had suppressed for a long time.Become hypocritical, mean, shameless.

"I've had enough of this life, I don't want to suffer anymore..."

I slammed the door and ran out onto the road, foolish enough to make people laugh.

In order to chase me, my sister didn't see the car approaching at high speed.I turned around and saw blood slowly flowing out from under the car.

Lin Xiao chased me out, the way he looked at me at that time, I think I will never forget it in my life.

The fact that my sister died because of me has become a lingering demon in my heart.Every day is spent in condemnation, even if I know that no matter how many good things I say, my sister will not be able to come back from the dead, just to make myself feel less guilty.

I was very stimulated, and this memory was blocked in a certain area of ​​​​my brain.

If forgiveness could solve the problem, there wouldn't be so many troubles in this world.

It is my fault.

Lin Xiao wants my life, please feel free.

I owe him.

☆, 32

At noon, I found an excuse to avoid having dinner with Qi Si. I don't want to watch them show their affection, and Xu's warning eyes.

The only continuable topic between me and Qi Si is the discussion around Lin Xiao.

He doesn't like Lin Xiao.

Even though I spent all my thoughts and sarcastic remarks, I couldn't force me to let Lin Xiao go.

How does Qi Si understand the mood of a person who longs to be loved.

With Xu Zeming behind him, he can become fearless.

But I can't.

I can only rely on myself.

Sneaking up to the rooftop to smoke a cigarette, a familiar image flashed in my mind.

"Mr. Lian, it's a bit windy right now. I'll contact you again in a few days."

"Well, okay, I'll think about it."

I cut off the call, put my hands in my pockets, the weather was so cold that even my clothes became decorations.

The cold wind blows on the face, and there is a stinging pain from scratching the skin.

It's a pity that there is no snow in most places in the south.

"Qi Si was looking for you everywhere down there, but I didn't expect you to come here."

Always meet Xu Bei in places where they are impossible to meet.

"What about you, which lovely young lady to hide from?"

Xu Bei held his chin and thought for a moment: "Should it be the new beauty from the Propaganda Department? Or the charming little sweetheart at the front desk?"

I couldn't help rolling my eyes: "Congratulations to Mr. Xu for becoming a new generation of women's friend of our company."

"Wrong." Xu Bei lit a cigarette and put it in his mouth, "I am the harvester of the Flower Pickers."

He approached me, pointed to his crooked tie and asked, "Why haven't you worn that tie I gave you lately?"

"Just take one and wear it."

"Miss Qin's matter..."

"Even you suspect that I killed it?"

I looked straight at Xu Bei.

"I'm just worried that Mr. Qin won't let you go."

Xu Bei's words seem to imply that, just like when he reminded me to be careful of Qin Zilan, he seems to predict what will happen next.

But I also expected that Mr. Qin talked about how to kill relatives righteously, but in private he was very pampering Qin Yulan.

Otherwise, Qin Zilan wouldn't have that temper anymore.

"Since I don't intend to explain it openly, I won't think about whether to let it go or not." I touched the new tie on my collar, "Mr. Xu, leave the extra concern to others."

"I really have no chance at all?" Xu Bei held my hand with enough strength to express his reluctance and a little melancholy. "You and Lin Xiao can't have forever, but I, maybe I can fight for a future for you..."

I shook off his hand, the cigarette fell to the ground, and looked at him with unfamiliar and vigilant eyes: "Why me."

Xu Bei couldn't answer, he was a articulate guy, but when faced with my question, he became at a loss.

"Tell me, what kind of person do you see in me? Have you ever understood?"

"I don't want to use the past to kill the original you."

"Take back your love, I don't need it."

Xu Bei looked at me with a sad look in his eyes.

I can't answer him.

A person's heart can contain many people, but some places are too small and can only be reserved for one person.

As soon as the elevator door opened, Qi Si saw clearly that it was me, and hurriedly dragged me into the office

"Come in with me."

"what happened?"

He turned the computer screen over to show me that the forum was full of postings by trolls attacking me.

What is Qin Zilan's conspiracy theory about being involved in a murderous murder of a wealthy family, what is having an affair with the noble lady Dong Gumeng, and even picked up the misplaced kiss that I was teased by Xu Bei before.These gossips suddenly raised the heat of discussion.

Entertainment merchants keep consuming my value, scrambling to publish posts about me.

For me, these swear words have little effect, but they will affect the image of Qisi Company.

At this moment, the phone in the office was ringing non-stop, and the business manager was running in high heels, making restless noises on the ground. She knocked on the door and walked in, obviously flustered.

"Boss, several customers have told us today that they want to cancel their orders..."

"You go out first, I will come to you later."

I took the place of Qin Zilan and took the honorable position where people were the target of criticism.

Mr. Qin did this because he wanted me to feel the same way as his daughter?

"What? Do you want to use this to question me and make me leave Lin Xiao? Or, do you think I'm an eyesore and use this method to force me away?"

As long as I live, Lin Xiao will definitely not miss the opportunity to torture me.If Qi Si is with me, it will suffer.

"You suspect that these posts are sent out by me to deliberately slander you...?"

"Mr. Qi is really interesting."

Now, I really want to thank Mr. Qin for allowing me to separate myself from Qi Si.

Qi Si froze because of my unfamiliar address.

After a long time, he said bitterly: "We have known each other for so long, and you actually think that I did these things..."

"It's because I've known you for so long that I know you can do anything."

"Can't you see it? Our relationship gradually started to deteriorate as early as the moment you told me to leave Lin Xiao."

"I said that I like Lin Xiao, but you just keep urging me to let go quickly. I don't like you when I'm with Lin Xiao? Why, is it possible that you also like Lin Xiao? That's right, after all. Last time I was in the hospital, I had enough of your flirting."

"Please don't be so self-righteous in the future to help me choose. To be honest, I hate it, especially if the other party is you."

I said everything I had been holding back for a long time.

"Snapped."

Qi Si was too angry to speak, and slapped me.His eyes were reddish, and he was shaking with excitement.

"At the end of the season, how long are you going to be confused?"

"I'm confused? You're meddling too much. Mr. Qi, you think our relationship is too important."

"say no more!"

"Thank you, I wish for it." I bowed to him, with a smile on my face, as if getting out of this ghost place was the result of my dreams.

Today is a special day.

I hurt two people at once.

I should be happy.

in the parking lot.

"Do you regret it?"

Xu Zeming stood beside my car and stopped me.

I handed him a USB flash drive: "Here are the materials and works of the upcoming new designer, as well as some drafts, you can just send them as usual."

"Well, all the information about you on the official website has been removed, and a press conference will be released tomorrow to announce that you have nothing to do with the company." Xu Zeming nodded.

"Thank you for telling me Lin Xiao's next step in advance."

"No, I just don't want Qi Si to be implicated."

Qi Si didn't know any of this.

After I finished Qin Zilan's affair, Xu Zeming found me within a few days and told me that Lin Xiao would not let me go easily.In order to prevent Qi Si from being drawn into this complicated and disordered relationship network, he gave me a document, first asking me to irritate Qi Si, and let Qi Si kick me out of the company.I took out this information again and spread the news that the Qin family was behind the scenes, including the collusion between the Qin family, Lin Xiao, and Dong's group.

As for this information, I have no idea how Xu Zeming obtained it.

I asked him these things and couldn't tell Qi Si.

"Are... are you really sure you want to do this?" Xu Zeming, who was always decisive, hesitated this time.

"I'm leaving."

I opened the car door and sat in, pressed the window and said to him: "If you don't want your baby Qi Si to get involved, just follow the original plan."

Xu Zeming looked down at the USB flash drive in his hand and said, "You're going to lose him."

"He should have been disappointed in me long ago."

I raised the car window, the temperature inside the car was a little scary, and the steam from my breath evaporated on the car window.

I thought I lost everything, and I still had Qi Si.

But a greedy appetite always kills me.

There are several recordings in the phone, showing me talking with Lian Qiao, Qi Si's enemy.

Lian Qiao and Qi Si were good friends before, but they turned against each other because of the interests of starting their own companies.

It records how I sell company secrets and make huge profits from it.Of course, many of them are clichés.

An exquisite gift box was placed on the co-pilot.

That was my New Year's gift for Lin Xiao.

There are many festivals throughout the year.

I look forward to having one, and I can spend it with Lin Xiao.

The last chance is also New Years.

In the future, maybe there will be no more me in his life.

I remembered that important document, which I forgot somewhere.

"Hey, brother-in-law, I'll let you go this time."

Driving on the highway, looking at the bright lights ahead, I smiled brightly in the rear-view mirror.

Turn on the music in the car.

"Onthatlonelynight, yousaiditwouldn'tbelove, butwefelttherush..."

on the road to perdition.

☆, 33

The unheated room is as cold as an ice cellar.

Lin Xiao will definitely like this gift.

night.

Lin Xiao put the briefcase on the sofa, his face was solemn under the winter cold.

"You resigned?"

"Ah."

I flipped through the book in my hand, staring at the words on it absent-mindedly.

"Brother-in-law, will you count down the New Year with me?"

Lin Xiao ignored me.

"I got a copy of your relationship with Mr. Qin and the others."

"Are you threatening me?" Lin Xiao lowered his face and his voice was extremely stiff.

"It's just a deal, you can see if it's worth it."

"make a deal."

I am very satisfied with Lin Xiao's reply without thinking.

In fact, I didn't even think about sending out that document.

Why?Still need to ask why?

The next day, Xu Zeming issued a clarification announcement, saying that he had nothing to do with me for a long time, and threw all the dirty water on me.

I like to read all kinds of tricks on the forum to scold me.

Some still make me laugh out loud.

The comments on the news video quickly exceeded [-]. They abused and discussed without restraint, even saying something that had nothing to do with them, or even commenting on someone they didn't know.

I think I have a sense of justice, but I just happen to see a platform to express my dissatisfaction.

I closed my computer and went to an art exhibition by a lesser-known artist.

However, very few people came to see the exhibition.

I stopped in front of a picture.

The painting is a broken heart, but its name is complete.

"Maybe... this is the complete heart."

I blurted it out so unconsciously that I didn't realize it myself.

"Do you think so too?"

A college student suddenly stood behind me and answered my words.

"Ah."

I glanced back at him. He was wearing a pair of glasses, a baggy coat, and fair skin.It feels very comfortable and will not feel oppressive.

"Great, you are the first person who shares my thoughts." His eyes brightened immediately.

"Hi, my name is Zhong Chengli."

"My name is Ji Mo."

Zhong Chengli seemed to have found a bosom friend and asked a lot of questions.

"Why do you think this is the complete heart?"

I looked at the broken heart.

The opening of the blood vessel was brutally cut open by the owner, and even the edges were worn away.

I don't know how to organize the language, so I can only say bluntly: "Because...every heart will always be injured continuously. It is obviously the most fragile organ, but it controls the most important operation."

"So, you think it's weird?"

"No." After I denied it, I fixed my eyes on him, "I'm afraid of it."

I poked the spot of my heart.

He saw that my fingers were covered with scars of different shades, and asked in a surprised tone: "What about your hands..."

"Nothing." I lowered my hand, not wanting to mention it.

Zhong Chengli followed me and kept asking me all kinds of strange questions.Many of his questions are very interesting, more about my feelings.

Makes me nostalgic for the time when I learned to paint.

The time was almost over, and I was at the exit ready to go to the parking lot.

"At the end of the season, that... can we make friends?"

Zhong Chengli shrank his head embarrassingly, as if asking others for their contact information had never been done before.

"No, I won't be living here soon."

"Then will we have a chance to meet?"

The look in his expectant eyes made me hesitate.

"There will be a chance, if the owner of this art exhibition still holds it in the future."

Zhong Chengli said to me seriously: "Then we will definitely meet."

The degree of seriousness seems to be a promise.

I drove away from the art exhibition and soon followed a handsome man. Now I have plenty of time to follow Lin Xiao.

But just follow him and pass him by as a stranger.

It's a neurotic approach.

No, no, Lin Xiao is mine...

Qi Si company began to operate normally without me.After Xu Zeming issued the announcement and held a press conference, the shrewd Qi Si quickly and sensitively noticed that something was wrong.

Before he came to see me, I sent the recording of the conversation with Lian Qiao to Xu Zeming.

"Send this recording to Qi Si, but don't make it public. Once leaked, Lian Qiao will think that we deliberately dug a hole for him to dance."

"When did you contact Lian Qiao?" Xu Zeming on the phone was surprised.

"Some time ago, I was afraid that one day Qi Si would find out the truth and discover our plan. So in order to make him more convinced that I really changed, I contacted Lian Qiao."

As long as Lian Qiao is mentioned, Qi Si absolutely hates it.

The content in the recording is enough for Qi Si to classify me as He Lianqiao.

New Year's Eve, January 1th in the new calendar.

Lin Xiao was not at home.

His dishonesty was just to make me have a gap in my heart and get joy in vain.

In other words, he didn't care whether my information would be published.

I cooked a table full of dishes, all of which Lin Xiao likes to eat.

The mobile phone showed that Lin Xiao was located in a certain high-end restaurant.

It was almost twelve o'clock, and the food was cold. I sat on the chair and didn't get up for a long time.Lin Xiao's positioning moved to a certain street, but it was definitely not the way home.

The hour hand, minute hand, and second hand point to twelve o'clock together.

"Happy New Year." I said slowly facing another empty chair.

The fireworks outside are in full bloom, lighting up the loneliness.

"It's hard work, and I won't get you in the new year."

I put that New Year's gift at the door of Lin Xiao's room, and I didn't dare to give it to him face to face, for fear that he would throw it into the trash can in front of me.Sending it like this, you are not afraid of seeing it yourself, and you are not afraid of being sad after seeing it.

The gift is the document and the key to the house used to threaten Lin Xiao.

"Instead of pestering you and making you unhappy, I might as well take the initiative."

I packed up the things I was going to take away, and saw in the drawer the pure black gold clip pen that I gave Lin Xiao for Christmas.

After Lin Xiao received it, it appeared in the trash can within a few days.

It's a pity that the person who received the gift doesn't want you anymore.

I secretly picked it up.

Distressed stuffed into the suitcase.

"It's okay, Lin Xiao doesn't like you, I won't abandon you."

I don't have much cash on me, and I don't usually have any savings.

Completely wiped out in Lin Xiao's world.

I went to another small city, rented a house, and started a new life.

A life without you.

You are my wishful thinking all my life.

☆, 34

one year later.

I left without saying goodbye, Mr. Qin learned that I lacked the protective cover of Lin Xiao, and took the trouble to ask people to check my whereabouts.It's just a pity that I bought a ticket to the north in the name of the end of the season, and then secretly bought another ticket to and from this small city from an outsider at a high price.

They all thought that I went to a very distant place, but in fact I didn't, and this city was just adjacent to them.

It is easy to use underworld forces to find someone, but Xu Zeming taught me how to eliminate the whereabouts as much as possible.

Lian □□ and all the information that can contact me are all cancelled.

I'm having a hard time finding work because of my hands.

I spent more than half a month looking for paintings by some unknown painters, and then used what little savings I had left to open a small gallery.

Once upon a time, an art exhibition was my dream.

It always kills me when an old injury to my finger recurs.

Becoming busy, trying to get Lin Xiao out of my life.

The elegant three-dimensional carved wallpaper is hung with large and small wooden frames, and each frame houses a painting from the painstaking efforts of the painter.

Because the name of the end of the season has become a street rat in the circle, unless I have to show my ID, I call myself Ji Wuming.

I am doing very well now, the kind of luck that I live by.

Today Wednesday, the gallery is as usual cold.

A Chinese pastoral cat rubbed against my feet, and I held it in my arms and smoothed its fur.

"Lingling, I brought you some canned food today, did you take a good look at the shop?"

"Meow."

Lingling is a stray cat, and it was an unexpected surprise to find it. On the way home, I happened to see a kitten that was abused and covered in blood. I was so scared that I immediately took it to a pet hospital for rescue.

Later, after I was almost discharged from the hospital, I took Lingling home. She was particularly afraid of me because of the harm humans did to her.

I have no common sense about keeping cats and bought a lot of books to no avail.In addition to the new opening of the gallery, I had to take Lingling to the gallery to stay.As a result, many college students came that day. They had experience in raising small animals and taught me the common sense of how to raise cats.

After getting along with me every day, Lingling gradually stopped being defensive towards me. It would stroke its little furry head for me, and it especially liked to snuggle in my arms.Coupled with frequent trips to the hospital to change her dressing, Lingling's fur has grown back and she is a very beautiful three-coloured cat.

The gallery's ability to retain its popularity is mostly due to Lingling.

"I heard this gallery is very good..."

A very familiar voice ran into my ears, I looked up, and the other party just happened to look over.

"The end of the season!"

"Mr. Zhong?"

Half a year had passed since the last time I saw Zhong Chengli. He had grown a little taller than last time, and his facial features became more distinct, but the youthful temperament of a college student was still there.

"What a coincidence, we finally meet!"

"Ah."

The cat in my arms is not afraid of seeing strangers, Lingling tried to break free from my hand and jumped onto Zhong Chengli.

"What a cute kitten, what's your name, sweetheart."

"It's called Lingling."

There were several other people who came with Zhong Chengli, and because of my acquaintance, I invited them to the lounge.

"Sorry, there's only black tea and coffee here."

I took out a plate of cookies and put them on the table, and Lingling called "meow meow" a few times.

"no problem, no problem."

"Yeah, we can do whatever we want."

I grind coffee beans into powder, put them in a coffee pot, and pour water to make coffee.

Lingling walked around at their feet, and would rub her head against others from time to time. Everyone rushed to play with Lingling.

Zhong Chengli came to help me. When he rolled up his sleeves, when he exuded gentleness and concentration, he looked like a person.

A person who disappeared long ago.

"Didn't you say that you would come if the artist had another art exhibition? It turned out to be almost half a year." Zhong Chengli complained a little, "It made me wait for a long time."

"Something happened, so I came here." With a little apology, I wiped my forehead with the back of my hand.

"Then why did you come to this... remote place?"

"It's nice here, it's quiet, I like quiet."

Having had enough of playing, Lingling ran to my side, I hugged it, and stroked Zhong Chengli's hand with its small paws.

"Don't be angry, don't we meet now? This shows that we are destined, Lingling, are you right?"

"Meow."

Zhong Chengli rubbed Lingling's ears, wanted to be angry but said helplessly: "For Lingling's sake."

"Why did you come here?" I sat on a chair with a cup of black tea and asked him curiously.

People who are used to life in big cities will never go to some small, unremarkable cities, and it is still an unknown gallery.

"I heard from a friend that there is a gallery here. The owner of the gallery has a good vision, and the gallery is full of treasures collected by him." Zhong Chengli paused, "I just didn't expect that the owner of the gallery is you."

He looked around the gallery environment and said with satisfaction: "My friend is really right."

"Praise me." I put down the teacup, Lingling jumped onto my lap, I picked it up and said to Zhong Chengli, "Come on, I'll take you around."

"Okay."

In the following time, Zhong Chengli often came to my gallery every few days.Lingling likes him very much, and loves to be close to him.

"Hey, you have a new love and don't want an old love."

Teasing Lingling's chin, she sighed silently.

I was reduced to jealousy with a person because of a cat.

"Meow meow."

Lingling opened her watery eyes, and innocently stuck out her tongue and licked my fingers.

I saw the news about Lin Xiao on the computer, and the memories entrenched in my heart have been unclear. When I thought that my brain blocked a certain person, after years of precipitation, I would not be able to speak when I mentioned him, and I would never remember such a thing. one person.

Heart-wrenching pain, like a scar on a finger.

It woke me up unconsciously, pointing to the past and not allowing me to forget.

Three months passed after that.

The gallery has another old man.

I looked at the person motionless, and Lingling felt that something was wrong with me, so it pawed me a few times.

"Xiao Mo, I'm glad to see you all right, but there are a few things I want to tell you."

"Sir, the gallery is closed."

I was about to close the door, but Xu Bei blocked the door.

He is serious.

"If this gentleman is in a hurry, please come visit again tomorrow."

"Old Mr. Qin knows your whereabouts."

"..."

"Let me talk to you a few words."

"sorry sir……"

"Lin Xiao is looking for you."

Yilun couldn't afford the slightest turmoil, and immediately became distracted in the next second.

Lin Xiao's name, my heart disease.

☆, 35

There are only me and Xu Bei in the gallery, I hold Lingling tightly.

"Old Mr. Qin and Lin Xiao have never given up looking for you. When they learned that you had gone to the north, they rushed to attack Qisi. With the help of Xu Zeming behind Qisi's back, he escaped the danger. I thought They would stop there, but they were just slowly weakening Xu Zeming in secret. I came to you rashly this time because I wanted you to leave quickly, Lin Xiao...will come to you soon."

"You came here to tell me this?"

Xu Bei shook his head quickly.

"Two years ago, did you ask a private detective to monitor Lin Xiao and investigate the women around Lin Xiao?"

"how do you know?"

My reaction was half a beat slow, and it took me a long time to think about it.

"The person talking to you on the phone is me..." Xu Bei leaned against the wall decadently, and took out a cigarette, "You don't mind if I smoke a cigarette."

"I used to work for Lin Xiao. The task was to keep an eye on you. I didn't expect you to come to me and ask me to monitor Lin Xiao. Lin Xiao paid three times the price and became my biggest boss."

"Xue Xue learned about Lin Xiao's money laundering activities, and threatened Lin Xiao to marry her. Lin Xiao didn't agree, so he asked someone to kill Xue Xue, and wanted to put the blame on you."

Just I was kept in the dark and let the audience play around.

"Is it fun?"

"what?"

"You guys like to play emotional games."

"Xiao Mo, I didn't mean to..."

"You don't need to tell me the so-called truth, just pretend that I... have no right to interfere. Until now, you have told me that you actually know everything, conceal everything, and approach me purposefully."

"What exactly do you want... Lin Xiao treated me like this, even you treated me like this, what did I do wrong. If falling in love with Lin Xiao is the root of my mistakes, it should have taken my life from the very beginning." I was so excited that I was incoherent, and I couldn't figure it out.

Soon, my grief and indignation subsided.

"And you, would rather watch me be tortured to the point of submission."

"No, Xiao Mo, listen to me."

"Sorry, I'm confused right now, please leave me alone."

"Including the fact that you tricked Qin Zilan into coming to the house and broke the roadside camera, Lin Xiao knows." He covered his face, "I'm sorry, I did violate my conscience at first, but later I found out that I feel sorry for you .”

Like me, Xu Bei fell into the vortex of self-blame, begging for forgiveness for what he did wrong.

I forgive you.

Who will forgive me?

I think so, is it a bit unreasonable to make trouble.

"enough."

I stopped what he was going to say next.

Is there anyone I can trust among the people around me?

Or I'm the only one who is so unlucky that no one can believe it.

"I'd rather you lie to me all the time and never tell me the truth."

"I regret it."

He was so emaciated that he was no longer the unrestrained Xu Bei I knew.

I have found that apology and regret are the most compelling words.

It can both deceive oneself and make the heart feel better.

It can also clear up mistakes.

"What's the use of you talking to me now."

Xu Bei touched my face, with his fingertips drawn from the corner of my mouth to my cheeks, there was self-blame in his eyes.

"I don't want you to be found by Lin Xiao."

"Really? Then I'm bothering you."

A man pushed open the gallery door.

Wearing a black striped suit and a dark red tie, Lin Xiao's smile was cold and sinister.

This heart suddenly stopped beating when it saw Lin Xiao.

In the next second, my heart beat faster, and the overflowing emotion was unprecedentedly strong.

When it heard Lin Xiao's call, I was sure that my love survived.

"Come with me, Xiaomo."

The allure brought by Lin Xiao's words can make me desperate.

"Don't go there, he is Mr. Qin's running dog now."

Seeing this, Xu Bei pulled me behind him. He stood in front of me, anxiously wanting me to wake up.

"Xu Bei, aren't you also a member of us? Don't forget, but you told me what you did at the end of the season."

"If you hadn't left Xue Xue's evidence and planted it on me, making me a scapegoat, I wouldn't be at your mercy."

"It sounds good, but in fact you care more about your face." Lin Xiao looked at me and said coldly, "If you don't come here again, don't blame me for being cruel to Qisi."

His anger was written on his face, and he had to use his last trump card to threaten me.

"I will go back with you. Before that, I want to see someone."

Xu Bei's sadness froze for this second, he hated himself for being incompetent.

I patted him on the shoulder and said softly, "It's not your fault."

I'm so glad I didn't give up loving Lin Xiao. If I hug Xu Beitou and start my second relationship, I'm afraid I'll be sad again after knowing this.

I would rather be hurt to the end by Lin Xiao once, than to be sad for the second time.

Apart from Lin Xiao, nothing can crush me.

I took Lingling to find Zhong Chengli.

"Lingling is in your hands. I will come back to visit it when I have time."

"Are you leaving again? Where are you going? Don't you want me...and Lingling?"

"I'll be back soon, and the gallery also asks you to take care of it when you have time."

I pulled his hand away and put a key in his palm.

Lingling didn't know anything, and was rolling on the sofa where Zhong Cheng left home.

It's so good it doesn't understand anything.

Lin Xiao was waiting for me outside the door.

I haven't seen each other for a year, and I can't find a word to start with.

"Why don't you run away?" Lin Xiao broke the silence first.

"If this is the answer you want, then why should I run away?" My mouth was so bitter that I couldn't say any beautiful words, "You know, I've always been what you want."

Lin Xiao asked me instead: "Since I got what I wanted, what's the meaning of leaving a year ago?"

Take a deep breath, I have quit smoking for more than a year.

I haven't smoked for a long time, and I made an agreement with myself that if I think about Lin Xiao once, I will punish myself not to smoke a cigarette.It's also funny to quit smoking without knowing it.

But now, it seems to have fallen short.

"I'm a selfish person. When I see you with other women, I keep thinking of taking you as my own. I know it will make you hate me more... I don't want to be with your The relationship has gotten to this point."

"It's not that I'm avoiding you, I just hope that one day I can face you like a normal person."

Yes, like a normal person.

A normal person who is so normal that he can no longer be normal.

Lin Xiao said how could he like a person with evil intentions.

Moreover, this person is not only impure in mind, but also a homosexual with a mental illness of depression.

"It's really not a good thing to be liked by you." Lin Xiao casually kicked the gravel beside his feet.

"Yes."

I also agree with Lin Xiao's words.

The streets at dusk are gradually less crowded, and white pigeons are waiting to be fed on the eaves.

Lin Xiao and I walked side by side along the road to the lake, where there is a ginkgo forest.As it was approaching November, the leaves of the ginkgo trees on both sides turned yellow, scattered and withered on the ground.

We have no intention to keep this beautiful scenery. We are a couple who share the same bed and different dreams. The relationship is so close, and there is a distance between the two sides of the strait.

I begged him to give me a day to stay here.

Enjoy the last few hours of freedom.

"Don't hurt Qi Si, he is innocent."

"You worry about yourself more."

I walked in front of Lin Xiao, stopped suddenly, turned around and wrapped my arms around his waist, raised my head and kissed him.

Before he pushed me away, I turned back disapprovingly and continued to walk ahead.

Quietly rejoicing at this hard-to-get kiss.

☆, 36

As soon as I left the airport, someone waited for me outside the gate for a long time.They rudely pushed me into a car, I did not resist, and Lin Xiaojiu