Hiding Deep: Overwhelming Gao Fushuai

Even if I am suffering in the abyss of the sea of ​​suffering, finding someone I don't love to marry, for me, it will not make me suffer any more. "

"I want to find a woman with a clean family background and a simple exchange of interests to marry. We don't need extra affection. I give her status and money, and she keeps her duty. That's all. I think such a woman in the world should be very happy. It's easy to find. But at that moment, Xiang Wan suddenly found me and confessed to me."

"I don't understand. We met at most three or four times because of his father, and we didn't talk too much, because she looks like you. I always feel uncomfortable when I face her. I don't know that she likes Where am I, why did I confess my love to a man who didn't understand anything? At that time, I was very upset, almost world-weary, and I felt meanly that she was just trying to cling to the rich and powerful."

Lu Chen closed his eyes, and said in a low voice: "I simply confessed to her that I don't like her, and I also told her about our relationship. I even signed an agreement with her. The marriage relationship is only three years. After three years, we will announce the divorce to the outside world on the grounds of personality incompatibility, and she can pay as much alimony as she wants. But after getting married, I realized that this is the worst decision I have ever made in my life."

Lu Chen sighed: "At that time, I thought that as long as it wasn't you, it would be the same to marry anyone. However, I hurt you and her in the end. I found that Xiang Wan is actually a very innocent and lonely girl. She is very interested in fame and wealth, and has no interest in money. She treats me very well, but she is still very concerned about my affairs. As long as it is about me, she will not let the servants intervene. It is my favorite food, and the clothes are all ironed without a single wrinkle. To be honest, she is the person who cared about me the most since I was a child, although I don’t know why she recognized me. Taking care of my mother has no complaints and is meticulous. I feel very guilty for her, she is a very good girl, but was delayed by my mistake."

"I really can't understand why she was willing to marry me when she knew everything and tolerated that agreement. She cherishes every day as if it was her last. But I don't want to accept her My good, because I have always hoped that she will exit from my life as soon as possible, and her treatment of me and my mother will only make me feel more guilty and helpless."

"I want to treat her like a younger sister and compensate her a little bit. But, she doesn't need anything, and what she wants, I can never give, nor can I respond." Lu Chen hugged Shen Hao and wiped away his tears , sighed: "I have identified a person so long ago, and I have given all my love to him. If he doesn't want it, my love will die."

"I've never met Xiang Wan's. I'm psychologically repelled from doing that kind of thing with anyone other than you..."

Lu Chen smiled bitterly: "But you also know that when Xiao Yun touched her on the day of the wedding, she mistakenly thought it was me and was very happy. I felt very guilty, and I was afraid that she and your second uncle would be provoked, and at that time Xiao Yun had already I couldn't be responsible to her because of the marriage contract, so I had no choice but to hide it. I didn't expect that she was pregnant. I boasted that I have clear grievances and grievances in my life. Shen Qitian helped me when I was in the most difficult time, but I lied to him. Let this happen to his daughter..." Looking back on the past, Lu Chen also felt dumbfounded, he couldn't make sense of the mess, there shouldn't be a bad person among them, but it made everyone feel uneasy.

Seeing Lu Chen's frowning and uncomfortable expression, Shen Hao quickly hugged him and comforted him, "Okay, okay, it's all over...don't think about those things."

Shen Hao thought about those nine months. He was immersed in the grief of Lu Chen's marriage and childbirth. He felt that his love was at the end of the day. There was a feeling that the world was dark, his heart was ashamed and his life was hopeless. He almost shut himself up. Get up, treat everything outside, everything about Lu Chen indifferently.In those days, Lu Chen got along with him cautiously and worrying about gains and losses, took the trouble to serve the indifferent and ignorant him, and had to bear the grievances and responsibilities of a wealthy family, and felt guilty when facing Shen Xiangwan, and did not care about things in the company. Iron Man couldn't hold on without stopping, and Lu Chen's illness was like a ticking time bomb.If the same situation had happened to him, he would have said goodbye to the world long ago.

Thinking of this, Shen Hao felt very sad in his heart. They felt that they loved each other deeply, but by mistake, they failed to comfort and strengthen each other during the most difficult time, which made each other worse.They wanted to be each other's armor, and each thorn on the armor was also to protect each other from external harm, but when wearing this pair of armor, the sharp thorns accidentally pierced through the other side, forcefully piercing each other's body , and every point of pain suffered by either party will be returned to the other party several times in the end.

Shen Hao's state of mind has finally changed now, he has never understood how to love someone, he is always self-righteous in his actions and behavior, thinking that he is good to others, but in fact others may not think so, Zifeiyu knows the joy of fish.Between the two of them, they missed a lot and made a lot of mistakes, and this is obviously not the responsibility of Lu Chen alone.

They have all changed, and a person's change is often either because he wants to understand many things, or because he has been hurt too deeply.As time has passed, he also knows how to be mature and responsible. When you love someone, you should feel empathy for everything about him. Blindly uncovering the scars of the past to investigate right and wrong will only exhaust each other physically and mentally. This is probably why Lu Chen never wants to be with him. He pursued the past.

Shen Hao rested his chin on Lu Chen's shoulder, looked depressed, and sighed: "I know, Xiang Wan must love you very much. Xiang Wan has been withdrawn and quiet since she was a child. She has no one who cares about her except her second uncle. She has no friends and has always been very lonely. Lonely..." Shen Hao bit his lips and said, "I think meeting you is the best and most unfortunate thing in her life."

Shen Hao hugged Lu Chen tightly, looked at his increasingly guilty expression, and sighed: "I only hope that she will be safe and well and recover soon... I also hope that she can accept your brother. Although I know she loves you ...but..." Shen Hao pinched Lu Chen's arm, and said aggrievedly: "I can't make you fall in love with someone else. I thought that you might like Xiang Wan before. I feel so distressed that I want to die... Love is such a thing. Things are so selfish, how can I be beautiful as an adult..."

Shen Hao wiped his tears on Lu Chen's clothes, and muttered: "You don't believe me, you fool. I have never changed my mind, let alone abandon you. But for so many years, the one who secretly made things difficult for you, It's my father and brother again, how can I excuse myself... When you just returned to City B, you caused turmoil in the business world, and I went to socialize for the sake of the company. You thought I was trying to pimp and betray you Hue mixed with those people? I'm not as capable as you, and I can't stand by and watch, all I can do are those things that don't come up on the table..."

"And drug use, it's really not what I thought... I was also forced to help, I swear, since I promised you, I really haven't touched those things in those years. I hate those things. But that time, I was the target of public criticism, and there was really nothing I could do about it, but I promise I only took a small bite... Unexpectedly, those people have already been targeted by the police."

Shen Hao looked at Lu Chen's calmed facial expression, and Lu Chen's long and narrow beautiful eyes became bright again, like shining stars, Shen Hao was excited in his heart, and confessed: "You don't even know, after you leave, Why do I miss you, wait for you, and look for you day and night, I never dared to forget you, even if I wait until I die, I will wait..."

102. You can still chase after you come (1)

Shen Hao looked at Lu Chen's calmed facial expression, and Lu Chen's long and narrow beautiful eyes became bright again, like shining stars, Shen Hao was excited in his heart, and confessed: "You don't even know, after you leave, Why do I miss you, wait for you, and look for you day and night, I never dared to forget you, even if I wait until I die, I will wait..."

Lu Chen suddenly became agitated, his eyes were gentle and vivid, he held Shen Hao's face, pressed it up, kissed and licked it, Shen Hao exchanged a long and intense kiss with him, feeling his lips and tongue were numb, he saw Lu Chen's eyes were a little bit Wet, Shen Hao knelt on the bed, straightened up and kissed Lu Chen's eyes, his heart was as soft as a puddle of water.

Shen Hao seemed to understand something now. He always felt that he loved this person so badly in his heart. In order not to let himself lose his value so badly, he wanted to hide this overly intense emotion, and then he would get along with Lu Chen. During this time, he unconsciously got used to Lu Chen's devotion, Lu Chen's compromise and Lu Chen's kindness to him, but he rarely took the initiative to give anything, so he felt that Lu Chen also loved him very much. I feel fair in my heart.

And as long as Lu Chen treats him a little coldly, he will wonder whether this person doesn't love him anymore like a neurotic, and he will behave even more awkwardly and coldly, as childish as a child. One step, he just took one step awkwardly, but when Lu Chen took one step back, he had to take two steps back resolutely.In this relationship, he was too worried about gains and losses, cared too much, and was frightened by himself, and wanted to pretend to be indifferent to this person.

However, seeing his appearance, Lu Chen must have felt uncomfortable, right?Lu Chen blindly backed down and compromised, but in the end, it would be tiring.Raising him is like raising a child who won't grow up, Lu Chen must be very helpless.

Lian Cheng was right, Shen Xiangwan