yellow spring blossoms

Xie Lin sat on the bed and looked at Fang Ziqing, and they looked at each other all night. When the sky was about to dawn, Xie Lin finally couldn't stand it any longer, lay down, hugged Fang Ziqing in his arms, and fell asleep.Fang Ziqing was bound and unable to move, she looked sideways at Xie Lin's sleeping face, and finally did not wake her up.

She thought, Xie Rin was probably too tired.

Su Xiaoran hasn't talked to me for several days. Since Ziqing got sick last time and I came back late, she has decided that I'm a bad woman who doesn't come home all night and doesn't behave well.I thought I should talk to her sometime about these things, but she never gave me the chance.

"Su Xiaoran." It was another night, I called her by name, thinking that if this misunderstanding is not explained clearly, it will be more difficult to deal with in the future.

"Don't call me by my name." Su Xiaoran was studying in front of the desk without looking back.

"I'm not what you think. It was because of Ziqing's illness that day..."

"Why do you have to explain to me what you look like?" Su Xiaoran finally couldn't bear it anymore and slapped the pen on the table, stood up and changed clothes.

I was in a hurry and followed her.

"Are you going out?"

"Yeah, don't you want to go out and listen to you continue to chatter?" Su Xiaoran said I was about to leave.

"Don't go, can't I stop talking?"

"no!"

"Su Xiaoran... If you really hate me, you can move to another dormitory." As I said this, thinking that Xie Lin would not want to change dormitories with me, then Su Xiaoran and Ziqing would definitely be fine. ?

"Let me tell you, if you want to move out, you are the one who moves out! Why let me go?!" Su Xiaoran became even angrier when she heard my words, opened the door and went out.

I was deeply aware of Xie Rin's mood every time he said that I couldn't chat, and I hurriedly followed Su Xiaoran without thinking about changing shoes.You Ning said that the school is not safe at night, if something happens to Su Xiaoran...

Seeing that Su Xiaoran was about to walk down the steps, I grabbed her hand anxiously.

"and many more……!"

She obviously didn't expect that I would grab her, subconsciously waved her hand out, and I felt my feet vacated, and I fell heavily from the stairs.

"Fang Ziyan! Fang Ziyan!?!" In the last impression, it was Su Xiaoran's panicked face.I looked at her, trying to comfort her, but couldn't utter a word.I just felt that the world was all dark, and then I fell into this endless darkness.

Su Xiaoran waited anxiously in front of the hospital bed, and soon the ward was full of people. Except for Gu Youning and Xia An, whom she had met before, she didn't know much about the rest.But one of them looks exactly like Fang Ziyan, but his aura is completely different.

Gu Youning sat by the bed, gently stroked Fang Ziyan's hair, and asked the doctor about the situation.Fang Ziqing listened silently, then looked at Su Xiaoran: "You pushed?"

"It's her who insists on pestering me. What can I do?" Su Xiaoran replied with a guilty conscience. She straightened her waist and looked back at Fang Ziqing, and felt a chill: "Look at me! I'm I sent her here out of kindness! Others might not agree to it!"

Fang Ziqing did not speak, but looked at Su Xiaoran with deep and sharp eyes.Su Xiaoran felt terrified at the sight, and shrank back.I thought to myself, Fang Ziyan, that coward, how could he have such a powerful sister.Seeing that the atmosphere was not right, Xie Lin was afraid that Fang Ziqing would lose control, so he quickly blocked Su Xiaoran: "The doctor said that Ziyan is fine, so don't worry, Ziqing."

Fang Ziqing moved his lips, as if he wanted to say something, but finally held back.She leaned close to Su Xiaoran's ear and whispered in an almost inaudible voice.Xie Lin saw that Su Xiaoran's face turned pale, and her body trembled unconsciously.

"I...why should I listen to you!" Su Xiaoran stood up from the chair, rushed out of the crowd and ran away in a panic.

I felt like it was the deepest sleep I've ever slept, and it made me wonder if I'd ever wake up again.I felt as if I had returned to the grass outside the hospital. The sun was warming that day, but there was a girl sitting on the grass and crying.

I was startled, and felt that such a scene seemed familiar, as if I recalled it at Dr. Zhu Lin's place that day.

Is this... is my missing memory...

Through the blinding light, I saw my little self walking towards the crying girl.

"What's wrong with you? Why are you crying?" I asked her.At that moment, the bright sunlight receded, and I saw a bald head.

"I'm dying..." the girl cried and said, "I'm sick...it can't be cured."

"No, no, you have to trust the uncles and aunts in the hospital, they are all very powerful." I comforted her: "Didn't I also live in the hospital these two days, they cured me .I'll be out of the hospital soon, and I'm sure you can too."

"I'm so scared... I'm really scared... I'm afraid that I will die alone." I saw the girl trembling all over, so I stepped forward and hugged her in my arms, and said softly.

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid, I'll be with you."

"You...?" The girl cried and turned her head. I saw her red rabbit-like eyes and hurriedly took out the handkerchief in my pocket to wipe her tears.

"Yes, me." I said seriously: "My name is Fang Ziyan, and I hope to be friends with you."

"Friend..." The girl repeated the word repeatedly and stopped crying.

I saw a smile on the corner of her mouth, and said to me: "My name is Qin Yan, you can call me Yan'er, my parents always called me that when they were alive..."

"Yan'er." I smiled, feeling very happy.

This is the first formal friend in my life.

I bounced back home and told Ziqing that I had made new friends.Ziqing asked me casually, "What kind of person?"

"I met him in the hospital, but he has no hair." I recalled Qin Yan's appearance, and replied, "But he is very cute, and he is also very gentle. His name is Qin Yan."

After hearing what I said, Ziqing frowned slightly, and said to me, "Don't be friends with her."

"Why?" I didn't expect Ziqing to say that, and I was not very happy, so I asked her.

"No hair is chemotherapy, and she will die soon." Ziqing said calmly.

"You nonsense! Uncle and aunt will cure her! She won't die, she will grow up, just like us!" I yelled at Ziqing with my mouth flattened, as if I thought Qin Yan would be fine if I told her loudly Same.

"I'm going to die." Ziqing ignored my shout and repeated it again.

"No, no, no! Ziqing is a big villain! I hate you the most!!!" I was so angry that I cried, turned around and ran away.I think Ziqing is cold and impersonal, and he just talks about life and death so indifferently, which is not cute at all.

Even after I was discharged from the hospital, I would still visit Qin Yan from time to time.I helped her put on the wig and slipped out to the yard with her to play.I felt very happy when I saw Qin Yanxiao, and felt that I had played a big role.

"If only I could put on lipstick once and wear high heels once." Qin Yan sat in the open space of the hospital, wearing a straw hat to avoid the damage of ultraviolet rays. "But... now my grandparents have spent almost all the money in the family just to see a doctor for me... maybe I won't be able to wear them anymore."

"No way!" I heard Qin Yan say this, and felt sad in my heart, so I said to her, "I'll go home and ask my mother for it, and then bring it for you to wear, okay?"

Qin Yan's eyes lit up, and she asked me, "Is it okay?"

I nodded vigorously: "Yes!"

On the way home, I was thinking why I want to satisfy all Qin Yan's wishes.If what I do makes her smile, I feel happy.This is the so-called feeling of being dependent.This is...the so-called friendship.

My... first friend.

When I got home, my mother was not there, and only Ziqing was sitting in the living room reading a book.I squinted at her from the corner of my eye, passed by the living room with a snort, and entered my parents' room.He took out the red high-heeled shoes that his mother had kept in the closet, and took another lipstick, thinking that he had enough, and was about to go out, but was stopped by Ziqing.

"Why are you going?" Ziqing looked at me and asked.

"Yan'er said she wanted to wear high heels." I answered Ziqing confidently.

After hearing this, Ziqing refused to move away even more, and told me, "No."

"Why?" I was even more angry with Ziqing, why should she interfere in everything with Qin Yan.

"I didn't tell my mother, it was stealing." Ziqing said.

"What's wrong with me stealing!!" I was blushed by Ziqing's words, and shouted at her loudly: "If you have the ability, go and tell mom right now! I'm not afraid at all!"

Ziqing was stunned for a moment when he saw my red eye sockets standing in place.I bumped her away with my high heels and went out.

Qin Yan couldn't put it down when she saw the high heels. I put on a wig for her, put on the high heels, and carefully painted her lipstick. Then I helped her to the mirror. She looked at herself in the mirror and couldn't move her eyes.

"I really want to grow up, I really want to go to college, I want to wear nice clothes... and have a boyfriend who loves me." Qin Yan looked at the mirror and said so.I found that her eyes were red, and two lines of tears were streaming down her pale and thin cheeks, so I hugged her and said, "Yes, we will, we will go to the same university, which boy do you like?" I'll chase after you, kid."

Qin Yan smiled, and then said to me: "Ziyan, I've been wearing these shoes for a few days...is it okay?"

I froze in place, and suddenly recalled Ziqing's words in my mind.

If I didn't tell my mother, it was stealing.

"Is it not possible?" Qin Yan wiped away her tears, took off her shoes and returned them to me, and stood on the ground barefoot.

My feet seemed to have taken root, and I stood there motionless, not reaching out to catch my high heels.

"Ziyan?"

"You don't need to return it to me." I bit my lower lip and said, "Take it as a gift from me."

The smile returned to Qin Yan's face. She hugged me and said happily, "Thank you, Ziyan! Thank you!"

I buried my head on Qin Yan's thin shoulders, ready to face the storm.