hot summer gl

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In fact, in a family like ours where two women live together, there is very little garbage to sweep, and the most troublesome thing should be mopping the floor.Because of this, after a few days of running the machine at home, it was gradually neglected by me.In addition, the weeks before the start of school were very busy. After Ji Zi was transferred back to the first year of high school, he still chose to continue teaching chemistry.But at this time, she was not so relaxed, and she was far more busy than when she was teaching two subjects at the same time last semester.

So, for the most part, we're doing our own thing right now.It was at this time that I started chatting with Lu Zhun again. Sometimes she spoke humorously, and sometimes she spoke sarcasticly.But she is who she is anyway, a girl with character.

I suddenly found myself more interested in socializing with people who are younger than me, such as my little nephew.

Are you there?Reply now.Lu Zhun said.

not there.I replied with a smile.

So who typed it?

automatic response.I said.

She sent me a roll-eyed emoji.Okay, stop kidding, I have something serious to ask you.Let me show you a photo first.

After a while, I received a picture, a piece of paper that took up most of the space, and from the content point of view, it was a chord diagram.There is no text, just letters and arrows. It can be said that people who don't have a little guitar foundation can't understand it at all.

and then?I asked.

Is this song good?she says.

So many horizontal presses, you are amazing.However, I haven't heard the tune, how do I know if it's good?

Don't you have a guitar yourself? Play a song yourself.I made up this song, you are right.

I subconsciously glanced at the guitar bag in the room, and used the words I used to evade: I quit the guitar.

Lu Zhun was silent for several minutes, and finally said: I really can't do anything with you, wait a minute, I'll get the guitar.She must have gone to pick up the guitar in the few minutes just now, because the music was passed on as soon as she finished speaking.

Good to hear.My heartfelt compliments, you just said you wrote this?

Yes, it's that bastard president who said that the anniversary is approaching and there will be an event, and we must each play a song on stage, and we are not allowed to borrow others.

I seem to be able to see her angry expression through the screen.Suddenly, a hand stretched out and took my phone away.The owner of the hand is Ji Zi.Ji Zi glanced at the screen twice, then returned the phone to me.

Who have you been chatting with recently?Always smirking at the phone.she says.

Just a netizen.I said.

☆, false

Ji Zi looked at me, pursed her lips, and her eyes revealed her little emotions. In any case, I was too embarrassed to chat with Lu Zhun any more—to be looked at by her like this.

Just chatting for a while, I said again, why are you looking at me like this?

You don't accompany me recently, she said, I am so boring by myself.

Have it?I feel guilty for no reason.

Ji Zi nodded briefly, and it started recently, I can feel that you are alienating me.

Is there... I smiled stiffly, turned off the phone, put it in my pocket, and stood up.you think too much.I said to her, and picked up the robot vacuum that had stopped working because of a dead battery.So what, I'll charge it.

I can imagine Ji Zi's expression without looking.

Of course, this is not the cause/fire/cause, although the whole thing did start because of it, but it is not because of Lu Zhun, nor should it be her.Things seem a little complicated on the surface, but in fact they are still old contradictions.

Each of us has a person in our hearts that cannot be easily told to outsiders.Obviously, the person in Ji Zi's heart is more secretive, but also more dangerous.Ji Zi probably thought that there was no contact between us, but it was not.

One month after she came back, yes, that's when I subconsciously wanted to alienate her.The depressed friend that Ji Zi talked about is real, but what she didn't say is that the tattoos on her body that are exactly the same as hers mean more than just a thought.

I should have known.

The mobile phone was emitting a faint light in the wide and thin pocket of the pajamas. I put down the machine and took out the mobile phone to check. It turned out that Lu Zhun couldn't wait for my reply.

Something happened just now.I replied, anyway, haven’t you already made up the music, then use this and practice hard.

Easy to say, what about the word?she says.

Continue editing.

Nope.

I stayed for a moment and replied: neither will I.Good luck to you.

then what do I do?Just made up a song and all the brain cells died.

I seemed to see her crying face through the screen, and couldn't help but smile to myself.It was at this moment that inspiration suddenly struck.

Write a sentence for you, and the rest will be done by yourself.I said, staring at your face through the screen, the world is pink.

I am ashamed to write it out, no wonder I have not created a decent song for so many years.But what I don't know is that someone has been silently speeding up to catch up with my progress, at least she has already written a lyrics.

When it was almost eleven o'clock, I turned off all the lights in the living room and went back to the room.Unsurprisingly, Ji Zi was still awake.Recently, she has been too busy preparing lessons, because she inadvertently took over a class of students who were particularly poor in chemistry.

Everyone is gone... Do you want to let go and let you fend for yourself?is this okay?

These are the exact words my teacher once said, and I can still feel her helplessness and pain in retrospect.

I walked over and put my hand on Ji Zi's shoulder. Ji Zi, who was typing on the computer, stopped, turned his head to look at me, and didn't speak.

very late.I said, take a break.

Um.She said weakly, rubbed her eyes again, and finally complained before going to bed: The students in your school are so annoying, they laughed at me.

ah?How to say?

As I said before, Ji Zi is a mixed race. Although this label has been downplayed by her, she is also an outsider.There are too many people speaking dialects in our school, and there are more than one kind of dialect. The accent is so heavy that she can't understand it.Those bad-hearted students who haven't gotten rid of the childish thinking of junior high school students deliberately use dialects to talk to her.Ji Zi didn't understand, but it didn't mean she couldn't observe the reaction on the scene.

It doesn't matter.I chuckled, and soon you won't be seeing them for a long time.

This time it was her turn to ask why.

Because of the holiday, it will probably start from April [-]st.I said, according to them, this is the longest holiday ever, longer than the National Day.

real?Ji Zi started to get excited, is it the busy farming holiday again?

No, Qingming and March [-]rd happened to meet once, so they released them together.Oh, the third day of the third lunar month.

I can understand Qingming, what is March [-]rd?Is there this show?she didn't understand.

I couldn't help laughing, don't forget, Guangxi is the Zhuang Autonomous Region, and this is a traditional festival of the Zhuang people.However, when I was in school, I didn't have the idea of ​​holidays, and it was only implemented in recent years.

Ji Zi seemed to understand, but I went on to say: The most important tradition on March [-] is to eat black rice.

That is, glutinous rice, as the name suggests, is made by dyeing the glutinous rice into a black color with the juice of a plant I don't know, and then steaming it in a pot.

I know this!Ji Zi said suddenly, I've seen it on TV, but they can be dyed in several colors.Jin, can you do it?

In the end, she also threw me a difficult problem. Of course I can't do it, but I have a way. The tenants on the first floor can do it.

It's just that when we got the black rice from the tenant on March [-]rd, we didn't have the mind to discuss it as we do now.

This vacation was literally the worst I've had in 26 years.If I could choose, I would rather not take such a long vacation, because without the pressure of teaching, the days become extraordinarily long, and the sweltering weather in April makes people feel irritable.Under such external factors, I was drowsy every day, and I pretended not to see the gap between us widening step by step.

Sometimes I doubt whether Ji Zi's return is meaningful or not.Her "depression friend" probably put pressure on her again, and the smell of gunpowder is about to fill my place.

But that wasn't the trigger, it was my indecision and her confidence that ultimately drove us apart.Actually, I still love her.However, there is another kind of love called, the depth of love is afraid of sinking.

Zhang Ning, whom I hadn't contacted for a long time, appeared one evening during the holiday. Of course, she just contacted me online.At that time, I was watching variety shows on Jizi's computer--I have often done this since the holiday--and suddenly a window requesting a video popped up.

Requester: Banbai

I was stunned for a long time, isn't this Zhang Ning's pen name?If she hadn't changed it.Just guessing this possibility, I don't have the courage to accept those two words.What's more, Ji Zi was still making a fruit platter in the kitchen not far away.

My depression infected her, she is trying to coax me recently, how can I bear to continue to hurt her like this?But Zhang Ning seemed to see through my mind, she sent a message saying: Teacher, you don't need to feel guilty, I just want to know if you are here.

I suddenly laughed out of anger, a real Zhang Ning seemed to appear in front of me, the one who was no longer sad.

What on earth are you trying to do?I said.

She didn't say anything, but sent me a photo. The handwriting on the plain white paper was still cursive.

She said: This is the lyrics I wrote, just treat it as the lyrics.Anyway, I could have sung it, but then I fell asleep and forgot.Teacher, I think I've run out of talents, and I would like to ask you to help me.

I couldn't laugh or cry because I thought of Lu Zhun.Did the two of them agree?

how?You want to take it to the competition too?I said, but Ji Zi's voice suddenly came: Jin, did you drink all the yogurt?

no!I yelled back, and then took the unopened cup of yogurt next to the computer to her.When I came back, I saw Zhang Ning wrote:

Maybe I was too strong and wanted to do everything well, but in the end I didn't do anything well.This time too, I originally wanted to surprise the teacher, but in the end I still had to trouble you.

don't say that.I read silently, and began to read her song seriously. This unfinished song has a strange name: "Apprentice"

I came to this forgotten lost city

Everyone is so busy

I keep walking just to find a reason to fall

You said you knew I was tired, please sit down and drink this cup of scented tea and rest in the room for a while

There's still a lot to do and we can't stop here

I keep walking to find a reason to continue

My prison is to walk the world alone

finally i came to your room

Heavy footsteps disturb the dust of the past

I said I had to stop begging you not to let me go

Have you seen through the world

All happiness is but another form of tragedy

Do you still believe in this world

it doesn't provide you with shelter

I drank the cup of scented tea and rested in the room for a while

There's still a lot to do and we can't stop here

I leave this forgotten lost city

Everyone is so busy

I keep walking just to find a reason to stay, a reason to stay

After watching it, I can't tell what it feels like, I can't see it clearly.In the end, by a strange coincidence, I agreed, and before Jizi came in with a fruit platter, she poured the yogurt she had saved on top of the fruit. She said it was fruit salad to be more accurate.

I glanced at the computer with a black screen in a daze.In the next few days, I actually arranged the music. Of course, I just used a few simple chords.When Zhang Ning changed it again and again until it was perfect, she was not able to play it for me on that special day in the first place.

Because at that time, she could no longer find me.

The author has something to say: In fact, I am still very self-aware.

☆、Half people have been abandoned

Roughly speaking, Ji Zi and I have known each other for half a year, and we have been together for more than four months.In this short period of time, we are still sweet, and even the first time we quarreled, we reconciled naturally.Perhaps that's why, after the second fight, there was really nothing I could do about the rift between us.

I forgot how it started, but it was the day when I sent Zhang Ning the compiled song because of old conflicts.But this time I became speechless because of being misunderstood.

Why do you call me, I said coldly, you and her contacted behind my back!

Ji Zi froze, and uttered a puzzled tone.

I read the name of her "depression friend" almost word for word.However, I regretted it as soon as I said it, but unfortunately there is no room for redemption.

Ji Zi's body trembled slightly, she clenched her fists tightly and stared at me almost rigidly.I stubbornly looked back at the past, feeling unavoidably sad. Just at dinner, we were chatting and laughing about variety shows, but now we have to face this ugly situation.

She is looking for you?After what seemed like a long time, Ji Zi said.

you do not believe me?

I didn't... She tried to explain something, but in the end she couldn't say anything.I'm just a little surprised she promised me.She murmured, but she didn't know that this sentence had already hit my thunder point.

After all, you still don't believe me.I used to trust you so much, but what about you?I screamed uncontrollably, I thought it had left me, but I didn't expect it to be hidden in my heart all the time, like a bomb, this thing that needs to be controlled with drugs.

Ji Zi was silent.I went on, chattering like a different person.

You have been lying to me from the beginning, even if there is really something between you, just tell me no, why did you lie to me?You know how I feel hearing her talk about you guys?You gave up physics to study chemistry for her, you accompanied her to tattoo, and at the beginning of this year, she was at your house, right?Since you care so much about her, why come back!

It wasn't until then that Ji Zi realized that something was wrong with me. She rushed over and hugged me who was trembling like Han did back then.She shouted in my ear: Jin, calm down, calm down!trust me okI don't want that either.Ji Zi's tone gradually slowed down, and she said bitterly: Yes, I admit that I lied to you at first, but later I felt that there was no need to add trouble to you.What I agreed with her was just between me and her. I didn't expect her to come to you... I, I don't believe you.

So far, Ji Zi's story has finally been forced to be revealed. Her story is simpler than I imagined, but the protagonist is not simple at all.We lay in bed for most of the night that night, talking to each other with our eyes open.

She and her acquaintance was in the university, a university in Guangdong.At that time, Ji Zi went with her mother. Although Ji Zi ran around, he never failed in his studies.They are in the same dormitory, but different majors.Originally, this choice was to work in the same organization in the future, but they did not expect that the relationship between them broke down before they graduated.

After the girl's music dream was shattered, while she was desperate day after day, her temper also increased day by day. At the beginning, it was only verbal violence, but in the end it turned into physical violence, and half of her life was disabled.

When I heard this, I couldn't help but glance at Ji Zi, her side face was almost expressionless in the blurred light.She hit you?I said.

Ji Zi shook his head and said: It doesn't count, she just throws things often.Sometimes I hate her so much, the things she broke can no longer be measured by simple value.But I can't blame her because she doesn't know what she's doing anymore.

Jin.She called me suddenly.

Ok.

No matter what happens in the future, I hope you will not become like her.She stretched out her hand to hold mine and said in a low voice: Just now, I was very worried about you.

I pursed my lips and still hummed.She sighed and went on with the story.

At that time when I went home, the most common thing I saw was her sitting in front of the window in a white dress, drinking.She never wore a dress before, and she didn't do anything decadent except drink, everything was the same.I was really happy for her at that time, thinking that she had come out of the trauma.But they completely failed to notice the unimaginable torture that alcohol can bring to a person's spirit.

As time went by, she seemed to be a different person.That period of time was really the most chaotic, we quarreled almost every day, we were exhausted but couldn't stop.Still later, after things were irreversible, I took her to see a psychiatrist.You should know what happened after that. When I first came to Guangxi, she was still receiving treatment. I had no choice but to break up with her, so it dragged on until December.

Ji Zi took a deep look at me again, I don't know how much you know, she said, she did run back to Guizhou in January, and she knew where my home was.But please believe me, nothing happened to us.

Um.I said it again, broke away from her hand, turned over, and shrank aside.After being silent for a while, Ji Zi cautiously leaned over and hugged me cautiously.

I only love you now.she says.

But I think, no matter who she loves or not, there is still a gap in my heart, just like how she felt towards Zhang Ning back then.I didn't expect that I would encounter such a thing one day. In this feeling of helplessness, I chose to talk and escape.I'm even more alienated from Ji Zi, and sometimes I can't say a word for a day, even though I know in my heart that it hurts her.

I said you two, why are you stubborn?After Lu Zhun knew about this incident, he commented like this: It would be nice to apologize to each other.Hearing you say that, you still care about her very much.

I secretly glanced at Ji Zi who was half lying on the bed watching a movie, lowered my eyes, and replied to her: You don't understand.

I don't understand something.She said, women's mind is really hard to guess.

I thought about it and said, the key is not to apologize, but that she misunderstood me.Here's the thing...

Around my birthday, I received three couriers just like last year. Except for the two that Han and Lan Lei couldn't touch, the last one was from Zhang Ning.I don't know how she found out about my birthday, anyway, the reason she wrote that song was to give it to me as a present.Although I wrote the song, she changed it a lot and it is not as monotonous as the original song.

The courier she sent contained a memory card and a few pieces of letter paper, on which some words were neatly written.She chose express delivery because I couldn't find someone because I didn't surf the Internet.

After I read the letter, I realized that I hadn't been online for a long time.I don't know what kind of mood she will feel when she can't find me.I clicked on the software and saw her message without any surprise.

I didn't pay much attention to it before, sorry, just saw it now.I replied.Zhang Ning replied as if he had guessed that I would go online today.

It's okay, it's just a pity.She came over with a smiling face. Although she said it in the letter, she still wanted to say it again, wishing the teacher a happy birthday.

Who told you that?I kept an eye out, I never took the initiative to tell others, even Ji Zi, after a quick look at the date, she still forgot my so-called birthday in the cold war.But I don't blame her.

It's written in your profile, isn't it?She seemed innocent enough to ask.

I was stunned at the moment, and immediately clicked on my personal information, and the birthday date clearly written on it was really correct.I just remembered that since I filled in the real information for the first time, I have never changed it.Time passed and I forgot about it.

All right.I said, the song is very nice.

Just as you like.After that, she said, there was deathly silence, Ji Zi was in class, and I was the only one in the dormitory.It seemed like a long time, but in fact it was only two or three minutes before Zhang Ning tentatively said: Can I call you later?

I agreed.It was this inadvertent answer that completely tore apart the relationship between me and Ji Zi.But it wasn't because of Zhang Ning, it was really a very accidental and inextricably linked coincidence.

About one month before the college entrance examination every year, that is, at the beginning of May, there is the third mock exam.And on the night of the [-]th, I received an interprovincial call.An unknown number, I hesitated for a moment, but still answered.

Hello?Hello.What are you?

Teacher, it's me.A dull female voice came from the other end of the phone.Your previous Section Representative.

I suddenly realized, um, got it.Aren't you a senior in high school? Are you about to take the college entrance examination?I asked casually, but she choked up, and I quickly asked what was wrong.

The results of the three models came out, and I... did not do well in the exam.

Maybe you are too nervous, I try to comfort you, have confidence in yourself.

I don't know, she said, teacher, I'm so confused now, I don't know what to do.

I sighed, how can I say that I have also taken the college entrance examination, I know that feeling, sometimes I really feel overwhelmed and out of breath.

If you really don't know what to do, why not take a few days off and relax.I said, think about it, you have been reviewing for so long, you will definitely understand what you should understand, the most important thing in the month before the exam is to adjust your mentality.

While chatting, I heard Ji Zi's door opening, and after a while, she walked into the room and stood less than one meter away from me.I suddenly felt a strange feeling, so I sped up the conversation.

okay.I said, just treat it as an ordinary exam, don't be nervous.

How long are you going to talk to her?Before I hung up the phone, I heard her say with implied anger.

What do you mean?

What do I mean, she smiled angrily, Lin Jin, I haven't asked you what you mean, where did you put me by talking and laughing with her every day?

I frowned, stop making trouble for no reason, and speak clearly.

good!Then let me ask you, do you still have contact with her?

I... I was speechless for a moment because what she said was the truth.

Do you know, every time I come back and see you chatting happily with her, but you have a cold face to me, how heartbroken I am.

I stared at her, not having looked at her face carefully for a long time.Ji Zi was unbelievably haggard, with a sharp chin, drooping blond hair, and dull eyes.

Seeing that I didn't speak, she laughed mockingly and murmured: "They're all the same, they're all the same!"

Anger arose in my calm heart, what was she implying?At this critical moment, Ji Zi's cell phone that was originally on the table suddenly lit up, and her expression suddenly changed. This time, I clicked on the text message before her, and it read:

Ji, when do you plan to come back?I will pick you up.

What else can you say?I held up my mobile phone and suppressed my anger to ask, but I forgot to clarify my matter.

Ji Zi's face turned pale, but I didn't.She said weakly, I don't want to leave you, but she, I really don't trust her.

Ah.I closed my eyes, not wanting to see or listen anymore.you go.I heard myself say, since you are so worried, just go, lest she endanger you by committing suicide.

Jin, how can you say that... She is a patient.

She is a patient, why am I not?I said silently in my heart.

At this point, there is no room for relaxation of the matter, and the development of the matter is unexpectedly fast, but it is not unexpected.There was a tacit understanding between us and we did not propose a formal breakup, even though both of us understood that it was no different from a breakup.But even so, Ji Zi did not leave Guangxi, she just moved out her things and lived in the house she rented before.

It was only when I moved that I realized her stuff had taken up half the space.I hugged the sweeping robot and wanted to bring it to her.

No.She stopped packing the clothes, gave me a pale smile, and saved it for you to clean.I'm not here, you have to take good care of yourself.

I bit my lip to keep myself from crying.Why bother?

Ji Zi continued to pack the clothes, and I stood aside and looked at her, my head was almost blank.When Ji Zi left, he hugged me lightly, and I left, remember what I said.Also, I hope she can give you happiness.

As soon as she finished speaking, the tears I suppressed for a long time suddenly fell.

Why are you crying so much lately?She said softly, wiping away my tears with her index finger.What can we do if this goes on?

I shook my head, took a step back, and whispered: In the future, it won't happen.Maybe it was because my expression was too realistic, Ji Zi actually believed it.She smiled and said again: I'm leaving.

Ok.

After seeing off Ji Zi, I returned to the room in a daze, and my eyes fell on the guitar on the table.I took it off, adjusted the strings, and almost subconsciously, I played the "Act":

There's still a lot to do and we can't stop here

I keep walking to find a reason to continue

My prison is to walk the world alone

After the last sound disappeared, Ruoda's room seemed empty.Not another pillow on the soft bed, another pair of slippers under the bed, everything becomes singular.I closed my guitar bag and laughed alone.

I opened the old-fashioned standing wardrobe with heavy red paint, put the guitar in it, and closed myself in it.Time seemed to stand still.

"Hey, are you free!" She said eagerly, making the other party nervous.

"what happened?"

"I can't find a teacher!" she said with tears.

"What do you mean? What happened to Jin?"

"We have been in touch before, but in the past few days I called her cell phone, either no one answered it, or it was turned off. Also, I went to the school to find her, and the teachers said that she had resigned, and nearly half of them Yue didn't come to school, and they couldn't find anyone!"

"How could this happen!" Han couldn't help exclaiming, and she realized that she hadn't contacted Jin for a long time.

"I don't know where the teacher's house is, can you tell me the address? I want to visit her house."

Han thought for a while, and habitually touched her raised belly. She was almost seven months pregnant.Baby, baby, bless your Aunt Jin is okay.

"Don't worry, I'll let my husband drive us there later. You wait for us at the school gate. "

"Hmm!" Zhang Ning hung up the phone, clenched the corner of his clothes with sweaty palms.

After an unknown amount of time, I suddenly heard footsteps and the shouting of a familiar voice.Are they calling my name?The sound goes from far to near, and from near to far, and finally returns to emptiness.I don't know if it's dawn outside. In a trance, someone opened the door of the closet a crack, and the light I haven't felt for a long time touched my eyes. I opened my eyes and saw her.

Can I believe that she can provide me with shelter.

The author has something to say: ——End——

The next chapter will send sugar, the ending is still happy, don't worry.

☆、Zhang Ning

Except for weekends and holidays, Zhang Ning will start from home every day between [-]:[-] and [-], sometimes walking and sometimes riding.She doesn't usually have breakfast at home, even if her mother is.At this time, she will have two choices, one is to go to the canteen to buy bread and ham sausage, and the other is to eat a bowl of noodles.

And this situation changed again when she lived in school in the second year of high school. She no longer went to the school cafeteria for breakfast, because the school breakfast was simply unpalatable.Zhang Ning understands why so many students bring their own spicy and fragrant bean paste.

Although she chose to live in a dormitory, she would go out with a boarding card every night after school, ride her bike back to take a shower, and then go to bed.No one will make small reports, firstly, everyone is not so naive, and secondly, they also need the school badge sometimes.

Zhang Ning chose to stay here just to have more chances to meet her teacher, Lin Jin.She knew that even if she could really go back to the first year of high school, the teacher would not make fun of her future, and she was reluctant.Zhang Ning admitted that he was shameless like this, but he didn't feel guilty about it.

Originally, it was difficult for a student to pursue a teacher, not to mention Cheng Yaojin suddenly appeared.When Zhang Ning finally got his wish and waited for Lin Jin at the school table tennis table, she was beside her, and they behaved intimately, as if no one was around.She has no reason and no way not to be jealous.

They were still playing at that time, and Zhang Ning had the urge to smash the racket into Ji Zi's face, but she held back and turned her anger onto the table, into tears.She was blaming herself, the unchangeable fact.Many times she couldn't help thinking: If she was not her student, if she was the same age as her, would she accept herself?

Whenever Zhang Ning thinks of this, the desire/desire to cry is the same as usual, but she can hold it back every time, only when she faces Lin Jin's eyes that seem to be concerned, her patience will be wiped out.Several times, she cried in front of her, and suddenly kissed her fiercely.It seemed that only by touching her lips could she feel her presence.

But now, no matter how strong Zhang Ning's imagination is and how realistic the pictures are, she can't feel Lin Jin's existence anymore.Just because she left the school she was in.

On the day Han got married, she told Zhang Ning a reality she didn't want to face: Lin Jin was really with Ji Zi.

It was during that time that Zhang Ning encountered the first trough in her life.She worked day and night, and the articles written by her painstaking efforts were judged as worthless by others.It was as if she was watching someone else throw her text into the trash can.Helplessness, confusion, and self-denial tormented her deeply, and at this moment, Han Lai told her that her teacher was finally with that person.

She can't take it.She thought that her psychological endurance had never been good, so she ran away.That night, she ruthlessly wrote a sentence on the returned English dictation paper, and the pen directly scratched the paper.

Do you want me to copy it for you?

Her messy handwriting failed to give people a glimpse of her pain, and she had been torn apart by her and lifted into the air.She ran out of school stepping on the bell, and went home crazily on the bicycle that had accompanied her for two years.Tears have already dried in the cold of the evening wind.Her eyes looked like they were about to explode. She had cried too many times, and she used her eyes too much, so her eyesight changed from standard to mildly myopic.

Sometimes, she forgets that she is just a 16-year-old girl.Since her grandfather passed away and her parents settled in the city, she was the only one left in the family, and no one cared about her anymore.She can only rely on the alarm clock to get up, and then go out in a daze.Sometimes she walks like she can fall asleep, she is so tired.

But on the other hand, she was reluctant to part with the little things here. For her, seeing Lin Jin every day was enough.She deliberately ignored the existence of the other person. She pretended to be indifferent, as if she was not listening in class, but she was actually paying attention to her teacher secretly.

I don't know when, the first time she came to the classroom was no longer reading books or coding, but wasting her time on her mobile phone.She watches many movies or variety shows, plays many games or chats with many people.She fell day after day, fell into the mire and couldn't extricate herself, lost herself in the accumulated despair, and continued to collapse under Lin Jin's unintentional eyes.

This situation did not ease until she came to the new school.After falling out with her parents, her uncle became the only one who understood her.He always said: I really have the style of my year!

Uncle is different from her father. Compared with her father's conservative and stable, uncle is more far-sighted. He resolutely went to other provinces during the college entrance examination. It was not until the last few years that he really returned to Nanning to develop. At this time, he had already started his career. To be successful, you only need to start a family.

Zhang Ning didn't stay in Yinghua for long, it wasn't suitable for her after all.Relying on his connections, my uncle easily changed her to another school, this time it was a public school.She also slept out again, living in the house behind her as the background when she left the video to the teacher.But all this comes at a price. She was forced to abandon literature and pursue science for the simple reason that there are many majors and schools to choose from for science.

She knew that uncle was doing it for her own good.In fact, for her, what to study is not to study, and it is not that Western University does not recruit science students.

Thinking of the agreement with the teacher, Zhang Ning felt that a kind of belief was supporting her and turned into a driving force to push her forward.However, there is a qualitative difference between science and liberal arts after all, and she has fallen too far before.

Zhang Ning has always had a mentality of not admitting defeat since he was a child. In class 290, everyone was lazy and did not take study seriously, and their grades were similar. The spirit of learning to compete with each other has long since disappeared.But in the new school and the new class, Zhang Ning started to work hard, hoping that she could still catch up.

On the one hand, even in the busiest and sleepiest time, Zhang Ning and Han Bao