hot summer gl

Tell me, her delivery is a piece of clothing.

After a while, the clerk came out carrying three packages, one was a box, one was a book, and the other was a small box.I quote the number, and when I sign, I identify the sender.Han and Lan, I guessed right.After all, only the two of them care about my birthday, and even my uncle doesn't care about it. In fact, in the final analysis, we just don't bother celebrating my birthday.

The last one is a small box that I do not know the identity of the sender for the time being. It was sent directly from the online store, with my name and number written on it, and the address filled in is the school.

I thought, there is really no such coincidence in the world, otherwise I should really buy a lottery ticket.

I left Zhongtong with Zhang Ning holding these couriers, and she took the two packages naturally, because the boxes sent by Han were a bit big and heavy.When I had time to open it, I found that it contained a "nut gift bag", which was expensive.

Comparing the books that Lan sent, the difference between the two becomes clear at once.

There are not many people on the street, and it feels a little lonely in the early summer afternoon.April and May can also be regarded as the rainy season. There was just a heavy rain this morning, and the air is very fresh at the moment.

Zhang Ning walked beside me silently.The weather in April has warmed up a bit, and I have to change back to the long light coat, and she does the same.I first discovered that we all like to wear loose clothes with long hem.Never tucked up, even though it looks better that way in most people's eyes.I am delighted with this little discovery.

We walked slowly along the copper fish road, and there was still time left for class.Zhang Ning helped me deliver the courier to the big office, where there is enough space for storage.

It was at this time that I opened Han's big box, and besides the nuts of the three squirrels, there were also a lot of dried fruits.I picked up a bag and gave it to Zhang Ning. She didn't want it at first, but then I said, anyway, I can't eat so much by myself, and you can share it with your classmates.Don't like this bag?I'll change it.

Zhang Ning stopped me, took a look at the time, and took it.Thank you teacher, then I will go first.she says.

I said before that there are fewer teachers in the big office, but now there are only Teacher Lu and a male teacher I don't know sitting in the corner.After Zhang Ning left, Teacher Lu came over and asked me curiously: Who is that person?

Of course she didn't know Zhang Ning.

my student.I said, and counted the presents from Han. They were really generous, and there were always about twenty packages in different sizes.

oh.Teacher Lu said with a strange expression.So I asked her, what's wrong?

Nothing, I just haven't seen that teacher treat students so well.

My heart skipped a beat, but I also knew that the expression on my face was quite calm.What's this?Why don't you give me a pack of nuts?If you want it, I can give it to you.

Teacher Lu looked at me fixedly, I didn't mean this.she says.

What do you mean?It was suddenly difficult for me to speak.

I just find it strange, she said slowly, scratching her heart like a cat's paw.How did you end up together.

I was so shocked that I couldn't speak.

Teacher Lu was probably also surprised by my expression, and hurriedly said: I mean why did you come here together.Don't you think it's weird?Is there a teacher who will come to school with the students?

I looked back at her and breathed a sigh of relief.I should have thought that with the barren and fixed imagination of the people here, they wouldn't think in that direction.

I ran into it when I went to pick up the courier, she helped me get the things back, what happened?

oh.This time Teacher Lu showed an expression of enlightenment, and I knew that this test was over.I heard her say again: Who sent these?So rich?

friend.I resumed my normal tone and said that I suddenly wanted to open the small box. It was about the length of a palm and the width of a finger, and it looked a bit like a mobile phone box.

Yo?Boy friend?Teacher Lu joked, and at the same time opened a bag of cashew nuts that I put on the table.

No.

That friend is so generous, and even gave you things for no reason.She asked persistently.

I grabbed a cashew nut and put it in my mouth, looking at her sideways.Today is my birthday, what do you think?

Teacher Lu was taken aback for a moment, really?You didn't say it earlier!She looked like a missed opportunity.I waited for her to continue.

After this birthday, you will be 25, right?I'm really old.Teacher Lu changed the topic and became caught off guard.How did you think about the thing I told you last time?

It took me a few seconds to understand the meaning of this sentence, I thought my behavior had made it clear.

I reject.Teacher Lu, don't waste your time on me, I know my own affairs.I'll be honest, and I don't want to talk about it right now.

Teacher Lu moved her lips, and finally sighed like iron can't be made into steel. She didn't try to change me any more.

In the end we shared the bag of cashew nuts in the office, and when the first class in the afternoon was over, I received a text message from Zhang Ning.

Teacher, most of the bag of nuts was snatched by those shameless people, I am not happy.

After watching it, I couldn't help laughing, but when my eyes fell on the set of models on the table, I lost my smile again.There is a set of exquisite musical instruments in the small box, which is more than enough to form a mini band. The small drum kit can even produce precise sounds. The guitar and bass are completely scaled down. Pop up the tune.I secretly guessed that the price of this set of models was about the same as Han's nut gift pack.Apart from the model, there is no written form at all.

Who on earth is it?The only thing that was certain was that the man knew me.

After thinking about it, I replied to Zhang Ning: You gave me that set of musical instrument models?

Zhang Ning's reply jumped out quickly, as if he was waiting for my text message.

Teacher, why do you think so?

I can't think of anyone else but you.

Besides, Lan and I talked on the phone, so there's no need for her to lie to me.I added in my mind.

After waiting for about 2 minutes, when the first bell rang, Zhang Ning's text message was long overdue.

I sent it.She said, I was afraid that the teacher would disagree, so I made my own decisions.

For a moment, I didn't know what expression to make, and stared blankly at the phone, my mind went blank.I replied almost incoherently: Why did you send me this?Why today?I also want to ask her, do you really know that today is my birthday?But this sentence was bitten by me, and I didn't ask it.

Saw it by accident, thought you'd like it.Zhang Ning said.Not counting today, I just happen to have saved enough money.Moreover, I didn't know that the teacher would pick up the courier just now.

I sighed at the empty office, not knowing how to face her later.To be honest, no one has ever been able to affect my emotions as easily as her.She is still a child, didn't she get the money from her parents?What reason and morality do I have to accept!

On the way to the classroom, I texted her back: I can accept the gift, you give me the account number, and I will return the money to you.

Zhang Ning didn't reply, probably because he didn't look at his phone after class, or maybe he just pretended not to see it.

In the following class, I was a little restless, and several times I turned my probing eyes to the girl whose face was mostly covered by the pile of books, but I only saw indifference and a little bit of sadness in her eyes.

I probably broke her heart, though I did it more or less on purpose.

I kept my phone on silent all the time, and suddenly felt that I was extremely hypocritical.He rejected her verbally, but he still had expectations in his heart.These two contradictions breed and entangle each other in the heart.So-called, angels and demons.

I didn't get a text message from her until before going to bed at night.At that time, I was in a daze, and the glare of the screen light of the mobile phone made it hard to keep my eyes open.

You don't have to, but don't do this to me.she says.The face of the indifferent girl I saw today appeared in my mind, not only sad but also stubborn.

A second text message followed.

Because it is not given to the teacher by the students, if you don't like it, you can throw it away.

☆, Zhang Ning 5

I still took the last set of musical instruments back to the dormitory, and placed them in the most conspicuous place in the living room, so that anyone who came could see them at a glance.Of course, Zhang Ning is the only one visiting my dormitory at present.

I did it on purpose, I was waiting for her.There is no reason to believe that she will come.Although I haven't noticed anything unusual about her in class these days.I should have known that if you really love someone, you will not give up hope easily.

It's just that when I really waited for her, something went wrong.The story arranged by God should also end.

On a Saturday morning of a certain week, at about seven o'clock, Zhang Ning called. At that time, I was still in bed in a daze, and I pressed the hang up button without seeing who was calling.He went back to sleep with the quilt in his arms.

I didn't think about it until I actually woke up and saw the missed call, which was over 40 minutes later.I hesitated for a long time, and finally called her back.The dozen or so seconds of dialing were unusually long, and I couldn't help biting my lips.

Hello.Zhang Ning said with a slight gasp in his tone.

...I didn't wake up just now, so I accidentally hung up the phone.I explained, and asked her again: Are you... what's wrong?

Is the teacher at school?As usual, Zhang Ning did not answer my question.

exist.I said, and sat up with the quilt in my arms. The clothes I changed last night were randomly thrown in a corner at the end of the bed. I don't think I'm a tidy person.

I am also in school.She said, does the teacher want to play together?

Ok?

I mean, is the teacher coming down to play?

I sat on the bed in a daze for several seconds, obviously my body couldn't keep up with consciousness.What kind of ball do you play?I ask her.

Everything is fine, basketball, table tennis, badminton?

I snorted, why didn't you say air volleyball?

Zhang Ning laughed on the other end of the phone, "I don't know how to do it."she says.

OK, but you have to wait for me.I laughed along with her, I just woke up.

oh?It turns out that the teacher is still on the lazy bed, have you had breakfast yet?

What do you say.I asked lazily, but at this time I didn't realize that there were many smiles on my brows and eyes.

Let me buy it for you. What do you want to eat?Zhang Ning said very naturally.The school in the morning is actually not so quiet. There must be other students playing on the other side of the court, I heard it.Of course, I also understood what was going on with those gasps at the beginning.

No.I said.

Zhang Ning still insisted, if it's not troublesome, just let me follow the road.

I was slightly taken aback, didn't you have breakfast too?

Well, I came early, waiting for you.She said nonchalantly, at that moment, I could feel a trace of pain passing through my heart unmistakably, and sighed over it.

Silly boy, what if I'm not at school?I ask her.

If that's the case, I'll just go home and wait for you.she says.

Fifteen minutes later, there was a knock on the door.And I was still brushing my teeth at that time, because I didn't expect Zhang Ning to be so fast, and when I hung up the phone, I was in a daze for too long.I responded, spit out the foam in my mouth in a hurry, wiped my face indiscriminately, and went out.

Zhang Ning stood at the door, wearing black jeans and a dark blue T-shirt with English letters on it, looking very youthful.And she was holding two black bags in her right hand. The hot air and the unique spicy taste of sour bamboo shoots overflowed from the mouth of the bag, and the disposable chopsticks next to it were clearly visible.

I wasn't sure what to say for a while, but I saw her eyes suddenly a little weird.I was curious, and asked myself that there was nothing shady about this outfit, at most it was just a little messed up hair.At this time, Zhang Ning stepped forward and raised her hand to wipe the corner of my mouth. She suddenly smiled, as if she saw something worth laughing at.

toothpaste.She held up a finger covered in white foam and said.

My ears instantly burned red and felt hot.This is the first time I have encountered such an embarrassing thing when I grow up so big, and the object is not someone else.Embarrassed, I looked down at my feet in slippers.

Cough, come in.

For some reason, I always feel that she is still smiling.But I didn't hear the sound, and I didn't bother to go back to verify it.I asked her to put away the rice noodles first, and then I ran back to the bathroom to tie my hair.

When I came out, Zhang Ning was already sitting on the wooden sofa waiting for me. In front of her were two bowls of the same Guilin rice noodles, but they were not quite authentic.I approached, and Zhang Ning moved a place for me.

I bought this because I didn't know what the teacher liked.She said softly, her gaze never shifting to the band model.In fact, it was right in front of her eyes, how could she not see it.But right now, filling your stomach is the most important thing.

We didn't eat separately without communication, but like a common chat, I asked her: Why do you suddenly want to come to school?

It's boring at home.She replied that after she came, she found that playing alone was boring.

Where's the ball?

Put it on the field.

I smiled, aren't you afraid of being taken away?

She said no.At the end, I added another sentence, anyway, it is not mine.When she said this, she had a very indifferent expression on her face.

I couldn't help laughing to myself. To be honest, every time I get to know her more, I can always find different characteristics in her body. This is probably one of the reasons why she attracts me.Sometimes I think, if we are just pure friends, we won't have so many worries.Isn't that set of instrument models reminding me?

What about the teacher, is he always at school?After a while, she stopped her chopsticks and turned her head to look at me.

Ok.

What ball does the teacher like?

pingpong.I bit my chopsticks and said.

What a coincidence.Zhang Ning smiled brightly, and so did I.But people at school don't seem to like it very much.

He Qi is familiar with these words. By the way, I also said it before, and I couldn't help but smile at Zhang Ning.

...I seem to have forgotten one thing.She said it suddenly, which startled me, and I just heard her continue: I forgot to make an appointment with the teacher, and I came to practice guitar on the weekend.

Never mind, I forgot too.I half joked.

While Zhang Ning was picking up the trash, I took the musical instrument model and looked at it carefully, as if I could see flowers from it.The self-provided wooden drum is small in the palm of the hand, and the sound of "dong dong" can be heard if you tap the drum surface lightly.Once again, I feel that this thing is expensive.

At this time, Zhang Ning came out of the kitchen.Naturally, she saw my fugue appearance, so she sat beside me and stared at the model for a few minutes.

Does it look good?She asked me, the voice seemed to float from a distant time and space.

Is it expensive?I didn't get what I said.

Zhang Ning did not speak.

Don't do this in the future, you won't get paid for nothing.I say it all hypocritically, and I hate this terrible weakness in my heart.

Zhang Ning moved her gaze to my face, looked into my eyes, and I saw her lips move.It does not matter.she says.

Why is it not important?Her words seemed to hit my minefield, and it exploded at once.However, Zhang Ning didn't wait for me to explode, she turned around suddenly, and put her hands on my shoulders, light and heavy, and I calmed down slowly.

It really doesn't matter, sir.That gift is my heart, liking someone is worthless.She leaned forward slowly until our foreheads touched.I could feel the warm breath in my breath, the faint beating of her heart, and the deep sadness inside.

If you're uncomfortable because of the price, you don't have to.She said, as if she had read my mind.It was earned by myself, without spending a penny at home.I... She paused for a moment, lowering her eyes in a sense of helplessness. I originally wanted to rely on my words, but I don't have the ability.So in the past few months, I have been working hard to find a part-time job.

I'm sure anyone would be moved to hear these heartfelt words, but I just looked at her, speechless.

Zhang Ning didn't care either, maybe she just needed to talk, or maybe not.

On the night of the Spring Festival, didn’t you ask me what I said?She suddenly lowered her voice, hoarse, as low as dust.I said at the time, can I give you a gift?In this way, when you see the gift, you will think of me, your former student.

I trembled slightly, and a burst of unspeakable sadness welled up in my heart, for her and for myself, for this emotion that shouldn't exist.

We all stopped talking, maintaining this intimate posture, something stopped my thinking, in fact, since just now, my reaction has been slow.

Zhang Ning's hands moved away from my shoulders, caressing my cheeks, then ears, chin and lips.Her hands trembled violently and were also very hot.Zhang Ning's hands are not slender, but thin, with distinct bones.She rubbed her fingers lightly, and the strange feeling on her lips made her lose her strength.

I looked into her eyes, and there was a little me reflected there. The little person was trembling slightly, wanting to run away but didn't take any definite action.Damn indecisiveness.

Zhang Ning still stared at me, his slightly drunken eyes were as blurred as water, and the calm emotions in the past also surged up, surged up, and tumbling like sea tide.Zhang Ning paused, and lifted my chin up.She closed her eyes and leaned forward with all the uncertainty.

When I realized it, there was only one breath away between us, and her breath was about to become stronger.The whole world is only left with each other again, and the ball in the unknown corner is also forgotten.

If I hadn't been woken up by the notification sound of the text message on my mobile phone, I think we would have actually kissed, and then it was out of control.

I tilted my head, and her kiss ended up only on the corner of my mouth.With such a light and soft touch, the sadness of wanting to cry is overwhelmed, making people almost breathless.

Sorry, I……

☆, analysis

We said that sentence almost at the same time, followed by an eerie silence.I don't know why I said that, it's weird isn't it?What am I explaining to her?

After a long time, maybe just over a minute, the concept of time became blurred again.

Zhang Ning hugged me again, like any time before, the touch on the neck was like a heat source, burning me, but this time she didn't cry.

Sorry, I just can't help myself.She said the voice sounded even... how should I put it, even a little pleasant.What did the teacher want to say just now?

I was motionless and stiff, not just embarrassment.You let me go first.I said calmly.

She said in a low voice, let go of me obediently, but sat sideways, still staring at me, with a faint smile on her face.And I have long understood the meaning behind this, namely satisfaction.

You go, I'm not in the mood to play.As I said, I closed my eyes tiredly, physically and mentally exhausted.I knew that I was in a quagmire, and I was about to be the same as Han.The only difference is that the girl next to me is not as aggressive.But at the same time, I also understand that it is only temporary.

I do not go.Zhang Ning said softly, while holding my hand hanging by my side.Her palms were dry, soft and gentle, such a warm touch that one couldn't bear to take them away.

I let her hold it and listened to her whisper.

It took me a long time to get up the courage to come to you. I was afraid that if I left, I would lose everything.

I turned my face to look at her, and her eyes were full of stubbornness.I sigh, it's useless for you to stay here.I said, kicking off my slippers and curling myself up.

The weather close to May can already make people feel the scorching heat of summer, and the living room is full of sleepy temperature very early on.The ambiguity of the seasons also makes me trance, last September and now seem to coincide.But at that time, Zhang Ning and I just met for the first time.

I was a little skeptical that it was right to come back.This suspicion is really unreasonable, because the road is my own choice.

No, Zhang Ning said, presumably she was afraid that I would not see if she shook her head.I feel that as soon as I leave, the teacher will think wildly.Just like that night, you stayed in the corridor to blow air, for a long time.

you……

Zhang Ning smiled, as if mocking himself.Unexpectedly, I ended up getting sick myself.She said, I could feel her pulling me, and said in a different tone: Teacher, let's go for a walk, don't stay alone all the time, it's not good for your health.

I suddenly became irritable, as if the anger I had never vented in the past twenty years was concentrated in my chest. I wanted to yell like a barbarian, but my literacy stopped me.I just shook off her hand violently, jumped off the floor, stood barefoot with no shoes on, and looked at her coldly.There seemed to be an unshakable anger bursting in my heart.

Do you want me to say it again, I am your teacher, teacher!Do you understand this concept?Not only that, we are so different, how old are you?There is such an idea!Also, I just like to be alone, who are you to me, why do you care about me!I spoke indiscriminately and incoherently, and I also had the urge to cry, feeling like a vexatious child.In the end, it almost became a meaningless repetition, with a low voice, almost begging.

What position do you have to control me...you go...I don't want to see you again.

The smile on Zhang Ning's face disappeared little by little, and I knew I had hurt her again.When you don't love someone, no matter what she does for you, you will feel that it is unnecessary.this is the truth.

Yeah?She asked softly, stood up and walked towards me.Almost whispering: Then why are you crying?

I was stunned, and then I realized that I had already burst into tears, and the tears fell silently.

Zhang Ning lowered his head slightly and kissed my eyes and my tears.alright.She looked at me and said, her eyes were full of gentle light, as if looking at a wayward child.do not Cry.she says.

I finally couldn't help it, grabbed her clothes and buried my head in it, crying.There are only tears but no sobbing, but despite this, in my impression, such acts of venting emotions are rare, and more often I will only choose other things to divert my attention, such as wine, or smoke.

In fact, I don't know why I cry, just like Zhang Ning said, I just can't control myself.People are always complicated.

When I finally regained my senses from the sudden tears, I realized that Zhang Ning's hand was patting my back lightly, soothingly, once in a while, I couldn't see her expression.

We didn't actually get to the court until later that afternoon.We had lunch together at noon.But I was not in the mood to cook, and in the end Zhang Ning did the cooking himself.I was amazed by her skillful technique, and she gave an explanation: her parents are often not at home, and she usually cooks.

Only then did I understand her family, although it was only the tip of the iceberg.In fact, Zhang Ning's family moved to Qinzhou City a long time ago, but she stayed here when she chose high school.Sometimes she would go to Qinzhou on weekends, while her parents ran on both ends.

why stay here?I ask her.

Can't pass the exam.She simply said, I looked at her stubbornly, and the expression on Zhang Ning's face loosened.Well, the truth is that I don't want to live with my family, and I don't want to live on campus, so I just stay here.What's more, many of my junior high school classmates are studying here.

I knew that, judging from her grades, even if she failed to enter the No. [-] Middle School, other schools were more than enough.There's no need to stay in this little place.Although the school teaching can still be said in the past, but the facilities can not keep up.

You have no ambition.I smiled and said that I have returned to normal by this time.To be honest, crying in someone else's arms is beyond my imagination, let alone she did that.

The moment her lips touched her eyes, I forgot to even blink.I don't think I can really hate her.In fact, I also have a hard time hating someone.

Not too ambitious, Zhang Ning replied, Dingqing looked at me, if I didn't stay, I wouldn't meet the teacher.So, it's still worth it.

I picked up the rice, avoiding her sight.

After eating, the sun was shining brightly, we gave up our plan to go out, and the poor ball was once again forgotten by us.

Zhang Ning was lying on the wooden sofa, holding the book I put in the living room yesterday, occupying most of the space.She glanced at me, smiled at me, and then turned her gaze back to the book, showing no sign of leaving.Her skin seems to have thickened a lot, but I can't help it.I went into the bedroom without looking back, and kept thinking in my heart, how did I go from refusing to let it fend for itself?

I don't know the answer.

I called Han, and the phone connected after two rings.

Hey Jin, what are you calling me for?Han Huan said happily that since she rejected the boy, she has changed back to the cheerful person she used to be, at least on the surface.

chat with you.

Han exclaimed, I don't believe it, when did you take the initiative to chat with me?

Now.I said coldly.

Han choked on me, and said sullenly, you won, tell me, what are you talking about?

I want to ask you something.I leaned on the bed and said that the conversation after this must be very lengthy, so I asked her if she was free, and she said yes.

To be honest, it seemed a little immoral to talk to Han about her and that boy, so Han's silence was also expected, but she was silent for too long.

If you don't want to say it, don't say it.sorry.

fine.Han finally spoke, but I'm curious, why are you suddenly interested in this matter, Jin?Could it be...

Stop, don't guess.

Why did I guess wildly?Han snorted, I reasoned this out with serious reasoning.

I didn't speak, I bit my lip subconsciously.Anyone who knows me well knows what this movement signifies, namely, tension.

Is it that girl?The one Linhu came back with us last time.At the beginning, I felt that the way she looked at you was wrong, and you were the only one who didn't know anything.Han has a well-thought-out plan, and he didn't forget to scold me at the end.She continued: "Don't you think I didn't know anything when I was in the car.Now you come to ask me this, is it possible that a girl confessed to you?Oh my god!Jin you just follow it.I think that girl is pretty, you don't suffer.

Resisting the urge to roll my eyes, I smiled and sighed.Well, you have a great imagination and you get what you say.I pretended to say it casually.And Han likes me the most. She knows that I never lie, but she doesn't know the definition of a lie in my heart.

Sure enough, Han asked hesitantly, isn't it true?

Not saying no, it's just that my situation is different from yours.

Just because the other party is a woman?

I fed her to signal her not to talk nonsense.But when I really wanted to figure out what was different there, I realized that the language was barren to the point of outrage.Han urged me twice.

Anyway, it's different.I said like a rogue, suddenly reacting.Hey, let me ask you a question first.I said it out loud.

Alright alright, let me tell you, let me organize the vocabulary first.

I almost laughed out loud, it turns out that the two of us have such a tacit understanding.I suddenly realized how important it is to have a cheerful and happy friend.I felt I was pessimistic enough, I didn't need another pessimist.

Suddenly, something flashed through my mind like lightning.

Okay, Jin, are you still there?Han's voice sounded at the right time, pulling back my thinking, I hummed and waited for her to continue.

Actually, he wasn't very annoying at first.I used to not talk too much about exercises in the evening self-study, and the students in that class didn't know if they were lazy or something. Anyway, few people asked me questions.Only him, every class will find a difficult question to ask me.After coming and going, I have a good impression of him, and I think he is a person who loves to learn.Later, we slowly got in touch, and then I found that he was quite humorous.You know, it's attractive for guys to have a sense of humor.

I listened quietly, Han Xu babbled a lot, and the summary was similar to what I imagined.From being attracted to each other to getting to know each other deeply, to having different opinions and perspectives, and finally to breaking up or settling down, aren't these what most couples go through?

One day, it seemed to be a holiday, I don't remember.Han said, he asked me out, and said that there were other classmates, I thought it would be fine anyway, so I agreed.Later I found out that it was actually designed by their gang of boys to help him chase me.Who knows what those kids are thinking, maybe they just think it's fun, chasing after the teacher is very face-saving.

and then?

He kissed me.Han said that the tone suddenly changed from serious to non-serious.Jin, has your girl ever kissed you?Honestly oh.

……No.

Kissing the corners of the mouth and eyes should not be the answer Han wants, right?

☆, similarities and differences

Yeah?Han seemed to say regretfully, that's really a pity, your first kiss hasn't been sent out after so many years.

Don't keep talking about this.I stopped and said: Don't change the subject.

Okay, Han Lianlian replied, I will continue, I will continue.

Then, didn't you just say that he kissed me?Then he started showing his true colors, and I'll tell you about it later.

I interjected: You still haven't told me how you felt.

What else can I feel, I just think, except that he is my student, it’s nothing, so if I’m confused, I agree to give it a try.In fact, at that time, I also had an indescribable feeling in my heart, that kind of feeling that I knew it was not good to do so...you understand?

I probably understand.I said.

And with the deepening of the relationship, I found that many things were not what I thought.Han laughed at himself, I really wanted to wait until his third year of high school.

Um.I suddenly felt aching, and I couldn't say words of comfort.I vaguely feel that this will also be something I will experience.

I have thought about it a lot in the past few months, and the more I think about it, the more unpleasant it becomes. Maybe it’s because I don’t love it. What I thought was very romantic at first seems a bit ridiculous now.But what I thought was a little ridiculous at the beginning is now very moving.

Do you regret it?I asked her as lightly as possible, lest I accidentally break down the fragile dam in Han's heart.

No, it's over anyway.Han Chang sighed, Jin, some things have to be said before they can be let go, and if you hide them in your heart, they will only take root and sprout in your heart.

Ok.

So why don't you tell me about your affairs?I have confessed so much to you.Han's conversation changed so fast that people were caught off guard.

After thinking about it, I asked her, what do you want to hear?

Pick the key points, for example, did she confess her love to you?Also, what on earth are you thinking?Han's voice suddenly dropped, Jin, you have to think clearly, this is Guangxi, yours is the school, you are two different people.

I know.But like you said, women are emotional animals.I thought of Han's expression when he said that, and sighed in my heart.At that time, how could I have thought that such a thing would happen.

Uh... my crow's mouth!Han said self-critically, but I couldn't laugh.

In fact, I don't know what I think.I just think she is a girl with a lot of personality and very withdrawn, she is like a little hedgehog, but she opens her heart to me.I always feel that she is very dependent on me, of course, not in life, but psychologically.When I said these words, Zhang Ning's stubborn and indifferent expression was all in my mind.

...she is with me.Finally I said.

Han reacted a bit after hearing this, what?You still dare to keep her with you, don't be afraid...

Don't think so badly of everyone, okay?

I'm not kind enough to remind you, after all, I've been here.

I oh with interest, and Han Cai belatedly realized that he had slipped his tongue.But she didn't deny it, but said: Don't worry, sister's first night is still well kept.

After chatting casually for a few more words, I hung up the phone.To be honest, both Han and I have ideas that are far behind the times. I don’t know if it’s because of age.But so what?As Mo Yin wrote in the article: I just hopelessly believe in some abandoned things and try to hold on.

I suddenly thought of a small thing, the book Zhang Ning was reading in the living room was silent.

Forget it, it doesn't matter anyway.

I turned on the music on the phone and set the timer, threw it aside, pulled the quilt from the corner and held it in my arms, covering a small part of my stomach.Although the weather at the end of April is already a bit hot, I am not used to sleeping without something to hug.So I usually turn on the fan and blow it to my head under the quilt. The power of the fan can quickly make me sleepy.

This is another way to fall asleep besides sleeping pills, but I don't know how long it can last.When I was confused, I remembered that I still didn't tell Han Zhangning whether his behavior was a confession or not.

In the afternoon when there is no class, my nap time is generally unstable. Sometimes I feel that I have slept for a long time, and it turns out that it is only more than an hour.Sometimes my consciousness is in a daze and I want to open my eyes but I can't. It feels like the time is not long, but I actually slept for a long time.Whenever I wake up at this time, I always fall into a kind of trance loneliness, and the unbearable sadness pours out.

A person