love song

On the fourth day of Chen Ye's arrival in Switzerland, he was in a small town deep in the Alps. He had enjoyed the magnificence of the snow-capped mountains during the day, and he was sore when he returned to his residence in the afternoon.

He didn't think about it as soon as he was stuck on the bed, the door of the room was pushed open, and Stanley laughed when he saw his dead dog, "Are you not strong enough?"

Chen Ye turned over and was pressed against the soft mattress, thinking that Stanley was one year younger than him, shamelessly said: "Respecting the old is a virtue, take care of the old man's emotions."

He originally planned to go out alone, but Stanley saw the travel information he collected that day and suggested that the two should go together.Anyway, now Stanley has figured out everything that should be figured out, and Chen Ye has no objection, since they come out because they are not familiar with the places in life, it is really convenient to take care of each other as a companion.

Fortunately, in mid-winter, ski resorts, and towns are full of tourists who come here admiringly. Most young people choose to stay in semi-self-service hotels and share the big kitchen to cook for themselves. Ye also went to join in the fun, and one more person chose this small family-style hotel. As long as he can catch up with time, the owner can provide dinner.

Skiing is certainly exhausting, but this is not the first time for Chen Ye. He thought he could handle it. Today, he went on the so-called intermediate ski trails of the so-called resorts, only to realize that his little experience is really a three-legged cat, and it may be due to the high altitude. s reason.In short, he admired those veterans who came down from the mountain as if they had gone for a morning jog in the park. They could still run, jump, and cook by themselves. Now that he could lie down, he didn't want to sit.

But Stanley asked: "I'll bring you Shimi back?" Chen Ye got up after resting for a while, and rubbed his sore legs, "Let's go, let's go together. After eating, go out and see what's interesting." Finally It's too decadent to come out once and spend all the good time in the hotel.

After dinner, he left the hotel, and Stanley said to him, "The Irish beard checked out at noon, and Carla just said that a new tenant is coming tonight."

Carla is the owner of the hotel. There are three rooms rented out of her house. Stanley and Chen Ye each live in one room. The big Irish beard in Stanley's mouth is another tenant.

On a clear evening in the small town, from the snow-capped mountains in the distance to the foot, the houses in the town, and the pedestrians, all are shrouded in deep or light blue by the night sky. The lights from the windows of the small roadside shops are golden, which is very There are some dreamy colors, Chen Ye is intoxicated by it, and doesn't take it seriously, "Yeah."

Back at the hotel, he saw Shen Yuzhou wearing a ski suit.

Shen Yuzhou still had his luggage on his back, looking dusty. Seeing Chen Ye coming back, Carla said to them in English: "I think you should be interested in getting to know him. This is Shen. He is from China just like you." Shen Yuzhou introduced Chen Ye and Stanley.

Shen Yuzhou only looked at Chen Ye, who smiled back.

Stanley snorted, "No wonder Shen Lu asked me where I was and where I lived yesterday."

But that's not all. They were about to follow Carla upstairs when the doorbell rang, and Carla immediately turned and went downstairs. Soon, a man's voice came from the door, saying in English, "Does Shen Yuzhou live here? I It's his friend."

Chen Ye saw that Shen Yuzhou seemed to be taken aback, and he leaned back to look at the door.The man at the door met his eyes, with a look of surprise on his face, Chen Ye smiled again, Yu Xun'an, this is a bit interesting.

Yu Xun'an didn't know that Shen Yuzhou was chasing Chen Ye, but before Shen Yuzhou set off, he finally understood that Chen Ye was not alone.It was Shen Lu who told the truth. Shen Yuzhou was not at home for the Spring Festival, so he had to confess to his family. When Shen Lu heard that he was coming to Switzerland, his expression immediately changed, and then he was eloquent. Meaning, let Shen Yuzhou give up this trip.

Shen Yuzhou felt something was wrong when he heard it, and when he asked, sure enough, Stanley was sticking to Chen Ye's side.But it was also thanks to Shen Lu that he was able to find Chen Ye's location so quickly and accurately - Chen Ye had turned off his mobile phone these days and was completely isolated from the outside world, but Shen Lu was able to contact Stanley.

Now that Chen Ye has found it, the immediate problem is to arrange the room.

Shen Yuzhou met Yu Xun'an only after getting off the train in the town. He was a little surprised at the time, he only said hello, and then hurriedly searched for him according to the seat he had booked online, but he didn't expect that Yu Xun'an really came with him.

Yu Xun'an explained to the owner that he hadn't booked a room in advance, and happened to meet an acquaintance like Shen Yuzhou, and wanted to spend the night with Shen Yuzhou. Carla is an enthusiastic person, and it may be during the peak tourist season. It is true that it is not easy to book a room. She asked Shen Yuzhou for advice, of course with some bias. She added a sentence at the end of the sentence, I know you Chinese are very humane.

Shen Yuzhou said: "Okay," then turned to look at Yu Xun'an, "You stay in my room at night."

Between the four people staying at the hotel, Chen Ye couldn't count the number of arrows in the past or present. Shen Yuzhou and Yu Xun'an were talking with Carla in the downstairs hall. He thought it was nothing to do with him and wanted to go back to the room. But Stanley dragged him to the edge of the railing to watch as if he was watching a show, with his arms still on his shoulders, and his whole body was on his back, so he really watched the whole thing.

After Shen Yuzhou finished the last sentence, Chen Ye heard Stanley teasing in his ear, "That one is annoying." It was Yu Xun'an.

The shoulders were let go, Chen Ye stood straight and smiled nonchalantly: "Isn't this just right?" It was just right, after this night, Shen Yuzhou should no longer have that face that is vaguely related to him, clean and tidy.

But Shen Yuzhou was obviously surprised this time, Chen Ye watched them go upstairs and went back to the room with Stanley.The corridor on the second floor was very narrow, Chen Ye walked ahead, and the other three followed behind them.Hearing Carla open the door of the room, "It's here." But there was another person's footsteps getting closer as Chen Ye approached, and when Chen Ye turned around, it was Shen Yuzhou.

Shen Yuzhou walked past him with his luggage, looked at the two doors facing him, "Where do you live?"

Chen Ye was taken aback, "Huh?"

Shen Yuzhou stopped to look back at where he and Stanley were, and then pushed open the door of the room on the left, "Take me in for one night today." After speaking, he stepped in with two long legs resolutely.

Chen Ye was stunned for a while, unable to laugh or cry.Hearing Stanley come over and ask, "Do you need a knight? It's [-]% off." He shook his head and pushed Stanley's head away, "I can."

Could it be a matter between him and Shen Yuzhou? Now that Shen Yuzhou has traveled all over the ocean to chase him, Chen Ye doesn't want to pretend to be stupid and let him go.He expressed clearly that he had been rejected, and he couldn't figure out the meaning of Shen Yuzhou's doing so.

Chen Ye closed the door, Shen Yuzhou had already taken off his coat, was sitting on the sofa and took out his notebook from his bag, followed by the power supply, and settled his luggage on his own, completely ignoring that the owner of the room didn't "take in" the two Words have made any comments.

There was only one floor lamp on in the room, and the hazy yellow light illuminated the area around Shen Yuzhou. Chen Ye walked over and stood in front of him, and the not-so-big light covered the two of them.

Shen Yuzhou was fiddling with the computer with his head down, but when his eyes fell on his feet, he seemed to pause.

Chen Ye looked at the man's thick black hair, and the corners of his mouth curled into an arc, "Wouldn't it be inappropriate for you to live in the same two rooms?" As for the ex, Yu Xun'an was, and so was he, and Shen Yuzhou didn't seem to plan to follow What's wrong with Yu Xun'an, why is he not with Shen Yuzhou?On a winter night where dripping water turns into ice, Chen Ye is not necessarily vicious enough to force Shen Yuzhou out of the house, but even if he stays, he still has to say something to show his attitude.

But I don't know if he didn't express clearly enough, or Shen Yuzhou had a problem understanding. After he finished speaking, Shen Yuzhou raised his head, his dark and deep eyes wandered upwards slowly, and then met his eyes.

Looking at each other for a moment, Chen Ye felt in a daze that Shen Yuzhou seemed to be haggard, and he heard Shen Yuzhou say, "It's different."

Then, Shen Yuzhou stretched out his arms to embrace his waist, and Chen Ye froze.

And Shen Yuzhou's face was already pressed against his body, and the voice came from that position, muffled, "It's different, what's the difference, many years ago, I should have said it until you understood."

The man in front of him was like a wounded beast, extremely lonely and depressed, Chen Ye was stunned for a moment, and didn't think to push him away immediately.However, so many years have passed, what's the use of talking about it, what's the difference, mosquito blood and cinnabar mole?

Chen Ye originally wanted to say that there was no need to mention what happened back then, no matter what happened, who owed whom, in the final analysis it was just a love that couldn't be such a small matter, they should free themselves and move on is the right way, that's what he did, Now I also hope that Shen Yuzhou can do the same.But before he could speak, a sudden rush of bangs shattered the rare silence just now. This was destined to be an unusual night.

Yes, it was destined to be an unusual night. After 10 minutes, there were four people in the room.

The small table in the middle of the back room was full of food, except for the grilled German sausages brought back from the supermarket at night, cheese bread, beer, and the unfinished beef stew for dinner.

Stanley sat cross-legged in front of the small table, opened a can of beer and handed it to Chen Ye. He was the one who knocked on the door just now. After all, the two new tenants missed the dinner time, so it was not a bother for him to bring a bag of food.

Chen Ye took the beer can and sat cross-legged on the thick sheepskin cushion, leaning on the corner of the table on Stanley's side with his elbow.Opposite him, Yu Xun'an ate sausages wrapped in bread. Yu Xun'an followed Stanley in just now.

And Shen Yuzhou stretched one leg and sat on Chen Ye's left hand, just drinking the wine sullenly without taking a sip.

The fireplace next to it was burning brightly, excluding the strange relationship between the few people present, it looked like a weekend dinner on a winter night. With a sound of "crack", Stanley opened another bottle of wine, touching Chen Ye, it really felt like a dinner party, "Drink as you like."

At this time, Yu Xun'an filled his stomach and brought up the wine. He didn't play tricks on Shen Yuzhou before, and no one in the room didn't understand. He sat and ate and drank but looked normal, as if nothing happened .

Chen Ye felt that he seemed to have another trick, and sure enough, Yu Xun'an took a big sip of wine and said with a smile: "It's idle, so why don't you play something?" As he spoke, he took out a piece of paper from the paper bag they brought back. Vice Poker, "Truth or Dare, Come?"

It's an old game, everyone at the table has their own thoughts, this is not a game, it's clearly a liquidation, first Stanley laughed: "I'm fine."

Chen Ye was annoyed, and couldn't tell why, "I'll do whatever I want."

Shen Yuzhou was the only one left, and the other three all focused their eyes on him. Shen Yuzhou put down the wine, looked up at Chen Ye, "Talk about the rules."

The rule is to take out four cards, the one who draws the big ghost is asked, he can choose the truth or the big risk, and the one who draws the ace of hearts is responsible for asking and specifying what the loser will do.It was really a reckoning, the four cards were spread out, Yu Xun'an was speaking to everyone, and he glanced at Shen Yuzhou, "Don't lie, I feel a little awed in my heart."

Chen Ye didn't speak, Stanley laughed again, and Shen Yuzhou said, "Let's go."

It was Chen Ye who drew the big ghost for the first time. The ace of hearts was in Stanley's hands. Chen Ye was afraid that he would go crazy and let him run naked, so he chose the truth. Stanley was also quite vicious, and asked directly: "If you don't consider the reality, me, Zhuo Xu, him, who would you choose?"

He was referring to Shen Yuzhou, and when the three names were spread out in front of him, Chen Ye laughed angrily, "Who the hell am I, let me choose?"

Yu Xun'an said, "Just asking for your thoughts."

Said as if he was trying to catch someone and refused to answer, Chen Ye said decisively: "Zhuo Xu." There was no need to think, and he didn't look at anyone's expression.

Stanley touched him with the wine bottle in his hand, and said with a smile, "You are just a cat, whoever treats you well will run away with you."

Shen Yuzhou remained silent until the second time, when he drew the big ghost, Chen Ye spread the ace of hearts in his hand.He caught Chen Ye's eyes without hesitation, "Speak the truth."

Chen Ye said, "I have nothing to ask, pass."

In fact, the rules of the game itself have ulterior motives. There are only four cards in total. If you draw a few times, you can identify the important two cards if you pay attention.

After a few rounds, the Ace of Hearts fell into Yu Xun'an's hands. From the beginning, it was probably endless. Chen Ye was thinking about whether to get up, go to the bathroom, take a phone call or something, but before he could move, his calf Suddenly, he was grabbed by a powerful big hand from under the table.

Chen Ye struggled, but Shen Yuzhou's thick black eyes were fixedly looking forward, with a stubborn expression as if he couldn't be pulled away by eight horses.Even if Yu Xun'an had already started to torture him.

"That year you dumped Chen Ye and stayed with me purely because I was more useful to you than him?" Yu Xun'an asked like this.

From the question itself to the words used are very sharp, Chen Ye originally wanted to give them some space, but now that the matter has fallen to his head, he suddenly doesn't want to leave.

The air was so silent that for a while, Shen Yuzhou didn't answer.

After all, Yu Xun'an regained some reason, and finally brought the key point of the problem back to himself and Shen Yuzhou, and smiled, "Don't avoid the problem, I have avoided it too, but now that I think about it, after I confessed my love, you didn't What are you talking about, I said I contributed to the completion and acceptance of the South Bridge, so you chose me."

Chen Ye wanted to laugh a little, he didn't expect Yu Xun'an to confess his love in this way, it's really not his illusion, Yu Xun'an has indeed been flaunting to Shen Yuzhou all the time, he is very useful, more useful than Chen Ye to Shen Yuzhou.

Chen Ye felt that maybe it was one of the reasons that made her out of the game, but it wasn't entirely because Yu Xun'an didn't need to be so unconfident.

But after a while, Shen Yuzhou finally said, "I don't deny that I always thought you were excellent, but the last straw is..." As he spoke, his eyes suddenly drifted towards Chen Ye, faintly, as if he couldn't bear it.

He said: "The last straw is that Chen Ye said that he might as well die."

One sentence made everyone's expressions freeze, and Chen Ye didn't remember saying such a thing.

Shen Yuzhou closed his eyes and opened them again, as if to help him remember, "I came to see me overnight on a snowy day, missed an important exam, and got into a car accident. In the end, I said, it would be better to die on the road."

He said everything in one sentence, but he didn't even add the subject. Everyone knew that he was talking about Chen Ye.

Then, Shen Yuzhou's gaze fell on Chen Ye so steadfastly, "At that time, he was really thinking about exhausting himself and stayed with me, I was afraid, I felt that I couldn't support him, and it was not enough. In the final analysis, I am cowardly."

But the words have always been to Yu Xun'an, "So it doesn't matter who you are, just to be clear, as long as I feel appropriate."

The room was so quiet that a needle could be heard for a moment. Shen Yuzhou's answer seemed to be that he had no ambiguity towards Yu Xun'an. Chen Ye's mood was like a table of greasy meat suddenly turned into a dull vegetable. It doesn't even feel like it's true.

And Yu Xun'an sat opposite, with a strand of usually unruly hair hanging on his forehead, looking a bit embarrassed, but still looking directly into Shen Yuzhou's eyes, "Even for a second, have you ever been tempted by me?" ?”

Shen Yuzhou said, "I thought I could, but I didn't."

Yu Xun'an finally stood up, patted his legs, "Forget it, I shouldn't have asked this question, it's because I have been refusing to accept the reality." Everyone was about to walk out, then turned to look at Chen Ye, "You won , I stripped myself naked and threw me into bed, my so-called boyfriend didn’t even sleep, he left me alone in the hotel room, it was my birthday.”

He cursed again, "Damn it! An unforgettable birthday."

Yu Xun'an left the stage, and the other two endpoints of the triangle were silent. Then, Stanley looked wrong and disappeared without a sound.

The room was left with a table full of debris, and two people sat relatively silent at the edge of the table.

The weather in the snow-capped mountain town is unpredictable, the sun is bright during the day, and until late at night, snow as big as goose feathers is falling densely outside the window.

Chen Ye looked at the wanton Fei Bai for a while, then turned to Shen Yuzhou, and said, "Are you lying just now?"

"No," Shen Yuzhou held his hand resting on the edge of the table, "No, I'm just too weak."

It is weak to be eager for quick success, because you can't bear it, and to transfer the pain on Chen Ye without limit is weak; It is weak to understand redemption and let it go, it is weak to let go irresponsibly, it is weak to escape to another person's side, it is weak to persuade oneself to do the right thing after clearly regretting it, back then, he was really weak to the bottom.

Facing Chen Ye's clear and clear eyes, Shen Yuzhou suddenly remembered the birthday Yu Xun'an mentioned just now, which was at the end of March 2010.

At that time, it had been nearly four months since he broke up with Chen Ye, and the laughter and noise of the past seemed to be far away from him. Although his life was busy, he was also peaceful.

But on that day, the sun rose from the east to the west, and there was something in his heart that kept beating like a thump, and it seemed to be a little sore. He passed by a small shop opposite the company during lunch, and he turned back in the afternoon. .

There is a model of Gunpla in the window. It looks majestic in the picture, but it is just a model, and I am stunned.He thought, how come he has been entangled with a kid who likes this for three years, it's not appropriate in the first place, right?But the more he watched, the more flustered he felt, as if his chest had been ripped away, until the phone rang, it was Yu Xun'an, and Yu Xun'an said to him: "Today is my birthday, are you free tonight?"

The empty seat seemed to bleed instantly, and he asked, "Whose birthday do you say...?"

Yu Xun'an replied with a smile: "My birthday, who else could it be? How are you going to celebrate it for me?"

Having said that, he didn't let him celebrate, because Yu Xun'an had already arranged it himself.Shen Yuzhou packed himself up and went to the appointment. At that time, he and Yu Xun'an were already lovers, and celebrating his birthday with his boyfriend was what he should do.

At that time, they had been together for a few months, and they went out shopping, playing ball, and watching movies like ordinary same-sex lovers. They cooperated tacitly at work and never quarreled. It seemed that there was nothing wrong with it. He even felt that they just treated each other with respect It's not impossible to go on.

It's just that there is always a handful of hot blood in his chest that cannot be controlled by reason.

On the same day, Yu Xun'an arranged a candlelight dinner, and then got a room in the hotel.Before that, Shen Yuzhou didn't even take the initiative to kiss Yu Xun'an once, he didn't need it.But in that room, Yu Xun'an came out of the bathroom, took off the only bath towel covering his waist, lay on the bed naked like that, and said to him: "Yu Zhou, come here."

Shen Yuzhou was trembling all over, he seemed to hear someone crying, in a certain corner of his chest, someone was crying all the time, so shrill and heart-piercing.There is always a handful of hot blood in his chest, which cannot be controlled by reason. It turns out that not only Chen Ye, but even he cares about it. The person on the bed is the knot between him and Chen Ye.

He fled and ran all the way to the small shop, which was about to close, and he was the last customer of the day.He came out with the gunpla in his arms, got himself very drunk, and then threw the model home, refusing to look at it for a long time.

However, fate is really a wonderful irony, and he later found out that it was that day.

Thousands of miles away, in a distant Jiangnan water town, a boy missed dinner, and went back from the town by himself on a bicycle, and put a cake in front of Chen Ye.