Jiang Hao

"..." Cai Xia was silent, complaining a lot about my attitude, "Why can't I come, I just want to come to you... What's wrong?"

I sighed and didn't want to say more to him, "I'm not in school now." The intermediary is located in the high-tech development zone of the city, a few 10 minutes away from the old campus, not too close or far.I asked Jason to have dinner at night. He heard that I was going abroad after graduation, and he always asked me to have dinner with me recently. After all, after I left, there might not be a chance to meet once a year. "I don't have time at night. I have Arranged." I rejected Cai Xia, acting out of temper.

"...What do you mean?" Cai Xia questioned me, puzzled.

"I don't have time at night," I yelled at him again, "literally, you go back."

I can't stand Cai Xia like this, I don't know him at all, I feel very strange.

Thinking about it carefully, I never had an in-depth exchange with Caixia.During these times together, we eat, drink and have fun without thinking about the future.Cai Xia may have thought about it, but he never told me about it.

I am such a person, if he had told me earlier, I am afraid that I would be speechless, and then escape, choosing the safest result in my heart.From this point of view, Cai Xia knows me well, at least better than I know him.

"Sun Yikun, how can you be so cruel?"

I rubbed my temples, laughing at how things were going.I may be a cruel person, can't deny it, especially to Cai Xia.

But at the point where I am now, there is nothing I can do.From the moment the decision was made, the outcome was already doomed, "Can you be more honest? I beg you!"

"..." Cai Xia took a deep breath and endured to the extreme, "I'm at your door, if I don't see you, I'll go directly to your house."

I froze for a moment, unable to respond.I didn't have time to think about how he found the specific place of my house, and didn't even dare to ask whether he was lying, so I said in a panic, "What's the point of you doing this?"

I really do not understand.

If my parents knew about my 'sexuality', it would not be of any benefit to Cai Xia. I couldn't figure out what was the point of his doing so?

Cai Xia ignored me and asked me, "Can I see you today?"

I compromised, "You wait, I'm going back to school now." At the same time, I also made plans to burn the boat.

On the phone, I repeatedly apologized to Jason.

He came back from the new campus for me, and I was really embarrassed by Cai Xia's 'crying and making trouble'.

Jason knew me well and knew me a little bit.If it is not for special circumstances, there will be no temporary breach of contract.

He didn't say much, and let me go to my own affairs first, and then I'll make an appointment with him when I have time.

When I got back to school, I immediately walked to the door of the house.

Cai Xia was sitting on the road downstairs of my house, and the people passing by were all looking sideways at him.

I was furious, his behavior stepped on the bottom line, I couldn't bear it, Ye Suo didn't want to bear it.

"What are you doing?" I walked up to him and said, then walked towards the shadow behind the building.

At this time, my parents have already gone home, I am afraid that dinner is already ready.However, this is downstairs after all, and I have to care about the sideways glances of the neighbors. Who knows if there will be good people gossiping in front of my parents and talking about my affairs.

Cai Xia followed behind me, full of reluctance, "You are not afraid of nothing, why are you so cowardly at this time?"

I looked back at him and said nothing.What Cai Xia said is right, I am "counseling", plus the previous "selfishness", it is the best summary of me.

When I got to the back of the building, I looked around, and after making sure that there was no one there, I said, "Don't mess with me, okay?"Deep down, I didn't want to end up with Cai Xia.After all, such a long-term relationship, no matter how you say it, is also a matter of fate, and there is no need to fight to the death.

"Why did I just look for a job and come to see your parents? Isn't that reasonable? Didn't you also meet my parents before, and I reciprocate, what's wrong?"

Unreasonable, unreasonable...

There are only these eight words left in my mind, and I can't think of anything else, "You deliberately want to make me unhappy, don't you?!" My tone was strong, and I had no intention of being soft at all.

Previously, since Cai Xia found out that I was preparing for the English test, I had repeatedly backed down.

Now, there is no avoiding it, and it has finally reached a point where I can no longer bear it.

38

There is no room for struggle in separation.

Cai Xia looked at me with tears in his eyes, he growled and said, "Sun Yikun, you are really, really selfish."

I can't remember the previous conversation, but the word "selfish" enlightened me and woke me up.

This is the second time Cai Xia has said these two words. I looked at him and knew in my heart——we are finished.

Cai Xia slapped me across the face, it hurt a lot.

His eyes were red from crying, and he turned his head so that I didn't see the tears fall.

My heart was numb and I didn't feel anything about it.The psychological construction during this period has shown its effect at this moment, and I even feel a sense of relief.

"I will never come to you again." After Cai Xia finished speaking, she turned around and walked out of the shadows, without looking at me again.

Looking at the back of his departure, sadness lingers inexplicably.

The sadness caused by separation is hard to control.In the struggle of release and retention, I did nothing and could not say anything.

This situation is the best for me and Cai Xia.

After a few days of being in a daze, I was shocked to feel the feeling of 'lost'.

My mobile phone no longer has continuous reminders, and I have nothing to do after dinner, and no one will hint to call me, let alone the sweet and greasy 'Brother Kun'.

Cai Xia disappeared from my life.

He appeared very hastily, I met him without any preparation at the time, there was less rejection, and we were together naturally.

His departure is also reasonable, I don't know how to keep him, so naturally I can't do anything.

At the end of November, I finished my last English test. No matter what the result is, I have done my best.My father was dissatisfied with the materials I had in hand, including English grades, GPA, and PS documents that were not bright enough. None of these things satisfied him.

I started to apply one after another, and the schools are mainly concentrated in the 50-100 rankings in North America.

There were still a few irrelevant courses in the senior year of the school, and I went back to the new campus to take the exam.

Seeing me coming back, Jason asked after a few pleasantries, "What's the matter with you and Lu Zhengyang?"

"What's the matter?" I packed my things, and was asked inexplicably, "I haven't contacted you for a long time."

"Lu Zhengyang said that your mouth is too dirty, and you will hit it once we see you later."

I raised my head to look at Jason, and couldn't help laughing, "In this school? Hit me?" No matter how Lu Zhengyang has a family background, this is a school after all, and it's my territory. "Let him try."

"What the hell..." Jason frowned and leaned on the table beside him, "How old is he, and he's still like a high school student, he's just trying to be brave...don't be ashamed..." After he finished speaking, he leaned closer to me, "You What happened to him?"

"What can I do to him?" Lu Zhengyang simply thought that I didn't handle Cai Xia's matter properly, and he was angry with him twice in a row, "Why the hell can he force his wife? !"

Jason saw that I didn't want to say more, and he didn't bother to continue to ask, "Don't contact the special admissions department later, so as not to cause trouble. Those people are all idle all day long."

Hearing this, I was startled... After three and a half years in college, I was just too idle. If my father hadn't "forced" the decision to go abroad, these few years would have been nothing more than a waste of time.

The application process is cumbersome, even with the help of an intermediary, it still makes me almost collapse.

The facts are detailed, and the information that needs to be filled in each chapter form is confusing. In mid-December, I felt the pressure was too high to handle.

If I knew today, why bother.If I could have predicted the current situation a few years ago, I would not have thrown the high-level make-up exam papers on the podium, and I would not have eaten, drank and had fun in the first half of each semester.

I thought of Jiang Hao, and he came back from the exchange and asked me, 'What's your plan for the future? '

If regret medicine really exists, I hope I can start thinking about it at that time, at least I won't be so embarrassed now.

On Christmas Eve, I went to find Jiang Hao.

I drank some wine with Jason and a few 'kids' on good terms, and I lost control of my emotions.

I called my father on the phone, "I won't go back at night." Just a few words, and after I finished speaking, I hung up the phone.I couldn't bear my father's questioning, I didn't want to hear it, and I couldn't listen to it.

I hooked shoulders with Jason and staggered to the gate of the old campus.Jason knew I was upset, so he asked me, "Where are you going at night? Where is your wife?"

"It's over." I whispered.Consciousness is a little fuzzy, and some scruples are still there.There are a few people around me and Jason, they don't know anything about me, and they get themselves into trouble by talking too much.

Jason raised his eyebrows and didn't ask much, "Then you go to my house tonight and forget it."

I shook my head, "No, leave me alone." I pushed him away and stood up straight.

Jason put his arms around my waist, "What are you crazy about?"

"I have somewhere to go." After I finished speaking, I hailed a taxi, leaving Jason and the others behind.

I don't know why I went to Jiang Hao. Around this moment, I can't find another person who can remember the address.

When I got to the door of Jiang Hao's house, I knocked on the door vigorously without stopping for a moment, for fear that I would turn around after a moment of hesitation.When I leave now, I really don't know where to go.

The door opened, and Jiang Hao was dressed in home clothes.When he saw it was me, he was filled with surprise.

"Are you okay?" He asked me in a daze.

"What could be wrong?!" I smiled, and lifted my foot