Jiang Hao

Resigned to let him play with me.

When I first dated Lily during the summer vacation, I asked him "Do you want to come with me?"

"No more," Jiang Hao flatly refused, "I have something to do tomorrow."

I knew that Jiang Hao said that something was wrong to make it difficult for me. At that time, I once again felt that he was very good.

The next day when I came home from a date, I found that Jiang Hao had been reading in my room all day, and he had sorted out all the novels in my room.

I opened the door with the key, and the room was pitch dark. My parents probably haven't come home yet, but my own room is lit.Pushing the door open, Jiang Hao was wearing earphones, and my Walkman had his own tapes in it.He sat on a chair with his knees hugged, reading a book very seriously, and didn't even notice that I entered the room.

In that second, I experienced two firsts.

For the first time, I took a serious look at Jiang Hao's appearance, and for the first time, I felt that I was a little bullying Jiang Hao.

For the former, I didn't pay much attention. Jiang Hao's hair is theoretically a bit long, longer than the few people around me who play well.He wears a pair of glasses. I don't know how to judge men's looks, but I don't think he is ugly under the light.

Regarding the latter, I have no interest in the business of bullying. Although I know that I have more or less "bullying men and women" character traits, but doing it for granted is completely outside the boundaries of behavior.

I didn't like the feeling of pushing the door open that night. I felt sour, but at that time, I didn't say much.

After that, I would still ask Jiang Hao if he wanted to go out with me.Jiang Hao also always refused. After a few times, I found that he had nothing else to do, and would just sit in my room and read books all day long.It's understandable if you think about it, he just came back here in his third year of high school, and everyone is busy with the college entrance examination, so there's no way he's in the mood to make new friends.

It is a bold estimate that Jiang Hao is also a relatively familiar peer of mine.

"How about we go swimming tomorrow?" I said to Jiang Hao on a Wednesday at the end of July.

Not surprisingly, he declined without even thinking about it.

"Come with me," I said softly, "It's just the two of us. If you don't go, I'll go swimming by myself tomorrow."

Jiang Hao looked at me and replied after a few seconds, "Okay, but I'm not very good at it."

"So you're going to be fine tomorrow?" I deliberately made things difficult for him, with a hint of teasing in my mind.It wasn't that I deliberately bullied him, I just thought it was fun at the time.

"It's not something important." He responded naturally, but he wasn't embarrassed.

I was arguing with Xiao Li in those few days, and the reason seems to be very lame now: I want to sleep with her, but she doesn't want to.

I said to Xiaoli, do you believe that I will marry you, I will definitely marry you.

I really say this from the bottom of my heart, because I have no concept of marriage at that age, and when I was 17, I thought that I could stay together no matter how much I quarreled with her.

This is also the reason why I am very angry. In my heart, I have put the matter of going to bed with trust and promise to a high level. The stupid voice in my head keeps saying: If she doesn't want to, it means that she doesn't love enough and I don't want to be with me all the time. .

In the final analysis, it was just because at that time a few 'children' buddies who had been playing since they were young had already taken care of the matter, but I hadn't seen anything for a long time. .

The more I think about it, the more my eyes follow the girl's body.

When I went swimming the next day, I taught Jiang Hao repeatedly.It's not that Jiang Hao doesn't know it at all, but it's not like I'm more flexible in the water than on the shore.But my mind has always been on the women who are out of the water and in one-piece swimsuits.

"Hey..." I took advantage of Jiang Hao raising his head to take a breath, and suddenly reached out to wrap his arms around his waist and pulled him very close to me, my chest was almost touching his back, "You Did you see that girl..." I whispered in his ear, "That's the one with the big breasts..." As I spoke, I pointed to him with a small finger, "Fuck, the one with the big breasts..." My brother is so hard..." At that time, I liked to talk to everyone like that, until later, when I knew that Jiang Hao was a few months younger than me, I became even more unscrupulous.

Jiang Hao's body struggled slightly, and his buttocks seemed to be frozen after touching my sensitive parts, and his body was completely motionless.

I can't remember whether I got hard at that time, but I just remember that Jiang Hao's face turned red all of a sudden, and the change in the cold water was so fast, I still made fun of him unconsciously, "That boobs are really powerful, you don't even think about it. It's embarrassing to see."

Later, Jiang Hao pushed me away and wandered away. I didn't care, and I left a picture of Jiang Hao being too thin-skinned to hang on.This impression more or less left a foreshadowing for me to deliberately tease him later.

Xiao Li and I entered into a full-scale cold war, and I became more and more unhappy. Xiao Li wanted to go out to play, so I deliberately dragged Jiang Hao to go with me.

"No," Jiang Hao said by mid-August that he was already very unhappy about the three of them going out together, "I really have something to do tomorrow."

I feel that Xiaoli may have told Jiang Hao in private to tell him not to follow.But I don't care, as soon as I think of going out with Xiaoli, I can quarrel about everything, I feel very irritable and even don't want to go out at all.

"What can you do, you are playing with three people. Me, me, or me," I completely ignored Jiang Hao's meaning, "you must come with me. My people live in my house, you have to listen to me Yes." As far as authoritarianism is concerned, I am annoyed that my dad treats me like this.But deep down I am still my father's cub, and even that has been inherited.

Jiang Hao remained silent again, then looked at me and frowned.I know this is his default symptom. When he encounters confrontation, he will always choose to wrong himself in the end to help others.

During that time, Jiang Hao probably resisted a lot of Xiaoli's eyes for me.

Jiang Hao didn't need to swallow this breath, but my heartless choice at that time was nothing to me.

Every time I invite Jiang Hao to eat delicious food the next day, I always ask him what he likes to eat, and then take the money my dad gave him to eat the most expensive one without any frugality.Although I will still need Jiang Hao the next time I meet Xiaoli, I subconsciously know that my behavior is very wrong. I am very rude to Jiang Hao and even more ruthless to Xiaoli.

At the end of August, Jiang Hao witnessed the breakup between Xiao Li and me.

The fuse is a small thing that cannot be smaller.I always knew she didn't like the name 'Xiao Li', mainly because 'Xiao Li' in that commercial looked a bit like a mistress.

I still called her Xiaoli that day.She suddenly lost her temper and said to me, "Sun Yikun, if you call me by that mistress' name again, it will be over for us both."

I also became angry at once, she used to tell me love words like 'being a mistress is even more painful', and this inexplicable anger was sent to me to see what it meant, "Aren't you just like a mistress now. "I pushed back angrily.

"What did you say?" Xiao Li suddenly stood up angrily, "Say it again, I'm like your mistress with whom?" All the diners in the room looked at our table.

Brother junior high school is not afraid of the 30-year-old head teacher slapping his mouth, but he is afraid of a girlfriend who exists in name only and goes crazy, "And Jiang Hao, you have long eyes and can't tell that the two of us hang out all day long, and we all hang out in the same bed? "

Jiang Hao and I do share a bed in my house for two reasons: first, only two of the three bedrooms in my house have beds, so he can't sleep in my parents' bed.Second, my whole family, including myself, think that it is normal for two boys to sleep in the same bed. In fact, I have been sleeping with them in several families since I was a child.

I said this simply because I was upset that Xiaoli didn't sleep with me, and she must be very clear about what I meant.

"Go to hell, Sun Yikun," Xiao Li didn't hold onto Jiang Hao, "it's over for us." She probably also thought about it, the next time there is a quarrel, she will decisively break up with me.

I have been very straightforward in my life for more than ten years, especially when it comes to making a girlfriend. You only have to tell me to break up. The young master will never hinder you from living a better life. "No." I looked at Xiaoli's back Said freely.

After a few minutes, I calmed down, only to notice that Jiang Hao was sitting next to me and kept looking at me.

I saw some displeasure in his eyes, and I thought he might have been insulted by what I said.He probably minded me saying that about him, which I put down to his thin skin.But I didn’t explain it, I don’t think it’s necessary, and more importantly, I’m not in the mood to explain it right now, I subconsciously think it’s just a fucking excuse, things that can be heard in a few words, what’s wrong with men Easy to care about.

All the way back, Jiang Hao said very little.

Normally, Jiang Hao can talk quite well. He is definitely not an extrovert like me, and he has nothing to do with an introvert who can't fart.

I faintly sensed that Jiang Hao really minded.

When I went to bed at night, he still slept on my bed as before, nothing special happened.

Although it made me sad to break up with Xiaoli, after entering August, I realized that we would definitely end the game, so I didn't suffer much psychological torture when we really broke up.

I don't do much about Jiang Hao.

"I'm sorry about today's matter." I said to Jiang Hao after turning off the light, I couldn't say 'sorry' looking at a person's face.I always thought that would turn me into a really dumb clown, and I'm pretty thin-skinned just for that.

Jiang Hao turned around and looked at me.Even with the lights off, his eyes were still shining brightly, and I felt that the moment he looked at me there was something in his eyes.