Kuai Chuan Zhi Won't Love You Again

Su Nianjue woke up very late the next day.That night she had a dream, dreaming that Xie Ling was standing by the window of the university dormitory, stepping on the stool alone, leaving only a black back for her.Su Nianjue stood at the door of the balcony, saw her turn around, smiled and said to her, "Nianjue, I'm going to jump off the building."

Su Nianjue scratched at the door frame and said, "Why?"

Xie Ling didn't answer her.When she saw Xie Ling climb up the window sill, she just paused for a few seconds, then she lowered her body, let go of her hands and jumped down.She ran to the window sill, silent, and saw Xie Ling swooping down to the ground like a black bird, the height of the sixth floor, only a few seconds, in the darkness, she fell to the ground.Su Nianjue patted the glass, all the voices seemed to be squeezed out of her throat, and she kept repeating Xie Ling's name. She shouted for a long time, and the people on the ground gathered towards Xie Ling. They surrounded her and pointed at her. Pointing, Su Nianjue suddenly realized at that moment that Xie Ling was dead.

Xie Ling died.This thought lingered in my mind and couldn't dissipate until I washed my face and brushed my teeth. "I dreamed that you died." Su Nianjue said to the mirror, the toothpaste foam splashed on the mirror, and the blood oozing from the gums fell into the sink.She wiped the mirror and splashed cold water on her face.The cold water woke her up a bit.

Su Nianjue felt that she should call Xie Ling to express her condolences, such as "I dreamed about you yesterday" or "I miss you so much after seeing you for a few days", but she just touched the phone, and then got back under the quilt.Sunshine came in from the window sill, ringing in her ears, and her head was in a daze. She was about to fall asleep when Tong Jin sent another message, asking her if she would like to come out for lunch.Su Nianjue replied with a voice, "I have a cold, so I won't go out."

In fact, she didn't have a cold.Su Nianjue just didn't want to move, didn't want to put on makeup or choose clothes, and then sat with a man in a restaurant she didn't know, whispering softly, smiling sweetly, and finally parted ways and went back to their respective homes.She thought, her eating appearance is so ugly, if she uncovers this mysterious veil and exposes her real self in front of a man who is almost a stranger, not to mention fate, even good expectations will be easily shattered.

After a few days, I repaired the TV and watched the rerun of the Spring Festival Gala, and waited a few more days for the end of the holiday. Su Nianjue rushed to work with a heavy heart.The days flowed like water, Xie Ling was unscathed and got a salary increase, but Su Nianjue only waited for the beginning of spring.

The companies of Su Nianjue and Tong Jin are separated by two streets, and there is a half-hour difference between the two get off work. Sometimes Su Nianjue works overtime, and Tong Jin consciously waits for a few more hours.Salespeople seem to have inexhaustible energy and patience. Su Nianjue is very curious about this. She always believes that it is a kind of devotion for one person to spend a lot of time on another person, just like the investment of a businessman. If you earn a lot of money, you may lose your money, but Tong Jin is very happy, and this kind of willingness often seems very nonsensical.

For example, when Su Nianjue was walking along the street with Tong Jin holding a cup of milk tea, Tong Jin would always look at the surrounding neon with a blurred look; another example, Tong Jin likes to treat things like cakes and desserts as Give her a gift, and in return, Su Nianjue usually chooses the same or similar things; or, Su Nianjue finds that when she is quiet, Tong Jin will smile inexplicably, and then sigh very lightly.Xie Ling once asked Su Nianjue, "Why is it that every time I invest in a relationship, I am the one who loses the most?" Su Nianjue said that it was because you decided to avoid risks at the very beginning, and then Xie Ling asked her again, what When the time comes, I will choose a new relationship. Su Nianjue replied that when the fate comes, I will go to meet it.Xie Ling laughed at her point of view is mysterious and unknowable.

People often use "ambiguous" to describe the relationship between men and women. It can be said to be an attitude of "not taking the initiative, not committing, and not being responsible", or it can be an unresolved relationship between men and women. There is also some romantic color, and the subsequent success is full of black humor.There seems to be no ambiguity between them.When pressing the road with Tong Jin, Su Nianjue was very worried that if she suddenly smoked a cigarette, she would scare him, so every time she could only hold back, it would be better to be free when she was with Xie Ling.Sometimes she also felt that she was very strange. Mingming and Tong Jin didn't really know each other, but they could talk and do limitless things like an acquaintance.

At the end of February, Xie Ling asked Su Nianjue out for dinner with her keen senses.According to the habit, Su Nianjue turned down the date with Tong Jin.When I saw Xie Ling again, there was already some soft baby fat on her face.

"Nianjue, have you been in a relationship recently? You don't answer your phone or text messages, and you don't even talk to me on WeChat."

Su Nianjue laughed "hehe", "Look at me losing three catties during the New Year, do I have a sense of happiness nourished by love?"

Xie Ling rolled her eyes, "Don't change the subject!"

"Just came across something interesting, want to hear it?"

Xie Ling squinted her head, "What's the matter?"

Su Nianjue rested her chin, "Suddenly felt very sad."

"Huh?" Xie Ling was in disbelief.

Su Nianjue stuffed a few pieces of candy into his mouth, "Probably, that kind of sudden single dog feeling."

Southern cities have the qualifications to show spring.This is a season of love, just like a song sings. In such a season, loneliness is shameful, and it is an indelible trace from the bones.

In this beautiful spring, Xie Ling fell in love.Although he is an ordinary man with an average job and an average salary, his arrival still brought a new breath of life to Xie Ling.Xie Ling is a person who has experienced repeated defeats and defeats. Every relationship is as desperate as a moth to a flame. Even if the ambiguous love ends in a dismal end, as long as she thinks it is feasible, she will still plunge into it.Su Nianjue clearly remembered the names of the boyfriends Xie Ling had had since high school, but their faces were blurred.As Xie Ling's best friend, Su Nianjue took on the important task of listening to Xie Ling's complaints, and also had to be a peacemaker. At first she thought she would be in pain, but it turned out to be a little sad. A few years, or even get used to it. 28-year-old Su Nianjue, as always in the new year, accepted the fact that the other party had a blind date, accepted the fact that she was "trying", and accepted her daily life of showing affection.Su Nianjue, are you sad?

Su Nianjue didn't know whether she should be sad or not.She and Xie Ling have been together for so long that she can't tell whether she is in love or friendship with each other. Sometimes she feels that they are probably in another form of love, but they don't know it. Did not notice.Sometimes she felt that Xie Ling was such a completely different individual from herself, even if she wanted to protect her for the rest of her life, it was just a dream.Her secret love is full of stale taste, like a mouse living in the sewer, it is always a shameful relationship.Maybe she should, like Xie Ling, put her heart into a relationship, and one day get married and have children.But when I think about it carefully, I feel unwilling. I always have an idea, hoping that Xie Ling will change her mind one day, so waiting and waiting has become a habit. a companion.Just like now, Xie Ling has started a new relationship again, it seems that there is no end to reincarnation, sadness has become copy and paste.

The sun was shining brightly in March, Tong Jin took Su Nianjue to KTV to sing.There were only two people in a private room, some snacks were placed on the table, a few cups of beer and milk tea were piled up, and the sound of singing next door was intermittent, mixed with a few howling ghosts and wolves.Su Nianjue didn't sing much. When Tong Jin sang, she was drinking beer. She didn't drink much, but her head was a little dizzy. But Tong Jin, Su Nianjue ordered a lot of wine when she sang, and she drank while laughing. Paralyzed.

The confused Tong Jin said to Su Nianjue, "Nianjue, do you think I'm annoying?"

Su Nianjue took a bite of potato chips and said, "I don't think so." She really didn't find him annoying, she just didn't want to accept the nostalgia in his eyes.

Su Nianjue cut a song, Karen Mok's "Cloudy Sky", a touch of sarcasm in laziness, the lyrics and the melody reveal a woman's unspeakable thoughts.Su Nianjue asked Tong Jin, have you ever thought about starting a new relationship?

Tong Jin asked, with whom?

Su Nianjue smiled, "Who do you want to be with? It doesn't matter if I say it. If I say, Tong Jin, that so-and-so is very good, you go and be with her, do you want to?"

"I don't want to." Tong Jin rubbed his eyes and said, "Actually, I'm quite curious. I've known you for several months, but I've never heard you mention your boyfriend, or your family or friends, even if you like people who care."

Su Nianjue played with her fingers, "It's actually very common. I have a friend who I have known for ten years. She still doesn't know how many boyfriends I have. Some of them I like, and some of them I really hate. "

"That means he doesn't know you very well."

"No, no, she understands too well. It seems that as long as I talk about that man's appearance, height, temper and a few things about getting along with her, she can understand my mood." She is too clear—because of the shady things, there are always a few curtains to block them.

Tong Jin was silent for a while, Su Nianjue saw that he was silent, picked up the microphone and continued singing "Cloudy Sky".After the cloudy sky finished singing, Tong Jin said slowly, "Nian Jue, a girl I knew before was very similar to you. The first time I saw you, I thought she was back. But the longer I get along with you, the more I feel It becomes clearer that the two of you are completely different."

"She is a very good woman, but I don't cherish it. I always think that I still have nothing to do, and I am not worthy of her like this, so I procrastinate and procrastinate. I thought she would wait for me, but she didn't. "

"Did you never see her again afterward?"

"She's married."

Su Nianjue said "Oh", "We are very different?"

"Yes, it's very different." Tong Jin said with a wry smile, "You look like a gentle and good-tempered girl like her, but in her heart, like you said, there lives a naive little girl. Princess, so she is happy. And you, you... you are not as happy as you make yourself out to be, you are quieter than many people I know. You are the same age, but my colleagues With you, life seems to be totally different."

Su Nianjue didn't know what her expression was like, she thought for a long time, but she didn't know what to say.Maybe she knew from the very beginning, when Tong Jin's face showed that kind of nostalgia, she knew that this was a one-act play with no results.Tong Jin and her are just the first man they met in this year. There is no conflict, ambiguity, entanglement, or any kind of emotion between them; and she and Tong Jin are just a man to miss and a stencil depicting an ex-girlfriend.They have only known each other for three months, and in terms of time, a hypocritical online dating is enough.

In fact, she didn't expect much from Tong Jin, probably just suffering for too long and needed a safe stranger to exchange secrets with.Just like now, she heard Tong Jin tell her own story, similarly, Tong Jin also restored the complete Su Nianjue with his own eyes.