Kuai Chuan Zhi Won't Love You Again

My name is Chen Lisheng.

From the grass on the original, the spring breeze blows and the life is born again.

Died, entrusted with my mother's hope and deep love for me.

After meeting Su Nianyao, she suddenly changed her interpretation of the word.Separation of life and death, separation of life and death—I seem to have become a pessimist.

My father, Chen Yu, is 12 years older than my mother.He had a wife before he met his mother, but because he believed in true love, he forcibly divorced her, and then married his mother.My father was vigorous and resolute, and even his love was unquestionable-although I knew he loved my mother.If he didn't love, he wouldn't let his ex-wife abort the two children. He just gave him a sum of money and never contacted him again.For so many years, he has been very kind to my mother and me, but he has lost the warmth of the family.Maybe I, like my mother, feel uneasy even while enjoying it all.My mother once said to me that she hoped that I would be a man of indomitable spirit, that I would be responsible for myself and those who love me, so I tried my best to be a qualified gentleman, and I was determined to be a person who lived up to love.

That year, I went back to my hometown.The reason for going home is not only to fulfill grandpa's wish, but also for mother.She has been waiting for many years, hoping that I will return to China soon, so I hastily booked a plane ticket and finally embarked on the journey back to China.

Meeting Su Nianyao was an accident.I don't know how to describe her, maybe Li Tianyang's words can better express my heart.Li Tianyang said that Su Nianyao is very smart, and any smart woman deserves sympathy.Yes, she is very smart, whether academically or emotionally, she seems to have a keenness that no one else can surpass.At first, I admired her a lot. After all, a beautiful and smart girl is always easy to fall in love with, even if she treats others coldly.But later, when I got in touch with Tang Jin more and more, when I learned about Su Nianyao's feelings for Tang Jin, especially since I had discovered my liking for Tang Jin, I still chose many different things like my father. Bright means.I think, after all, I am a man of the Chen family, and the blood from the Chen family flows in my veins, so the depths of my soul are inevitably stained with the domineering and plundering of the Chen family.

A lot of things happened after that, and I can't remember them all.After all, we have been separated for so many years, and we are all growing up and even getting old.Maybe it's been so long, but I can only remember Su Nianyao's sad look when she looked back. Her words often echoed in my ears at night and could not dissipate for a long time.She said, even if I love someone, shouldn't I retain my last dignity?

It was only later that I understood the meaning of this sentence.As a mother who loves crazy demons, and a father who is like a stranger, we are probably evenly matched opponents, and also rivals in love who are enough to cherish each other.I watched her father burst into tears at the moment when he learned of his daughter's death. You can't imagine that this is a very influential figure who has been in the city for several years.Maybe this man loves her, but Tang Jin and I don't know this.Tang Jin once told me that Su Nianyao seldom mentioned family matters, but once, when Su Nianyao celebrated her birthday, she was drunk and told Tang Jin that when she was young, she wanted to take a drop of her father’s blood with a kitchen knife, because she heard that the hospital could extract human blood. DNA, but her father thought she was mentally ill, so he gradually alienated her.Tang Jin told me that she thought Su Nianyao was just drunk and talking nonsense, but she didn't expect it to be true.

At the class reunion after graduation, I waited for Tang Jin to come over at the hotel.But Tang Jin didn't come for a long time. I guess it was because there were too many people in the elevator, so she would take the stairs.My guess was not wrong, I heard her talking to Su Nianyao in the darkness.Su Nianyao's voice was very calm, but under the dim light, I saw her quietly wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes.They didn't find me.Together with Tang Jin, I heard her say a lot, without any resentment or pain, but it made people feel uneasy.I admit that I cannot accept the fact that Tang Jin is loved by a girl, even though I have lived abroad for many years.Maybe what Su Nianyao said is right, I just denied all her contributions to Tang Jin because of her love, and I subtly affected Tang Jin's original attitude.

What happened later was beyond everyone's expectations.Tang Jin and I were having dinner with everyone. A girl hurried to the box, dragged her homeroom teacher and yelled loudly, dead, the teacher is dead. Something happened to Su Nianyao.As soon as you turn around, it will be forever, and finally become an ominous motto.

Su Nianyao died from smoking.I know it's funny to say this, but when the doctor took off the mask and told me and the teacher with a serious face that Su Nianyao had a strong reaction to cigarettes, and her kidneys and the new cigarettes in her hand were repelled and she died. Feel no sense of humor.I knew that Su Nianyao was smoking, but I didn't know that she was smoking with all her life. She was consuming her life like fireworks, and she had no attachment to life.

Tang Jin said that she couldn't accept that the death of such a beautiful Su Nianyao was so absurd.She was found in a small garden of the hotel, smoking a lot of cigarettes in the corner, and then began to dizziness, nausea, vomiting, until she convulsed and passed out.The classmate went downstairs for a walk, and out of curiosity, he went deep into the garden and saw Su Nianyao lying on the ground.She ran back to the hotel to find the teacher, who called the ambulance again, and about 10 minutes had passed.The ambulance howled at night, dragging away Su Nianyao's stiff body.

I never thought that Su Nianyao would die, but the fact is not as I thought.Tang Jin was crying all the time, squatting at the door of the hospital, watching Father Su carefully take his daughter into the car and disappear into the night.Later, Father Su took the initiative to contact Tang Jin and left her a photo.He said that this was probably the only photo of Su Nianyao with someone else, and he decided to keep it for Tang Jin.In the photo, Su Nianyao kisses Tang Jin under the light and shadow.I sat beside Tang Jin and watched her face turn pale.Su's father is just a photo in Mosa's hand. He said, I know that I am not qualified to be a father. I have already passed away. I respect everything about her. No matter who she likes or what she has done, it doesn't matter anymore. up.If I had cared more about her, she wouldn't have come to this point.

After the college entrance examination, I accompanied Tang Jin to participate in her mother's operation, and I helped her find it.Tang Jin was very happy, showing the only smile in two months.After the operation, the young intern came up to both of us and handed me the examination report in his hand.He told Tang Jin and me that this was an examination performed by Su Nianyao a long time ago, and the examination report showed that Su Nianyao's kidneys did not match Tang Jin's mother's.Tang Jin's expression froze at the moment the doctor finished speaking, and I could only smile wryly.

I always thought that Su Nianyao was not qualified to participate in this love, but until now I realized that I was actually the visitor of Su Nianyao's love.

Tang Jin and I chose different universities. I stayed in this city, while Tang Jin left here and went to a new city.She told me that she will study medicine, which is her new goal.We are not together after all.

A year later, Li Tianyang returned to China with his new work.Tang Jin and I met again at the exhibition.Tang Jin has changed a lot, with short black hair reaching to her shoulders, and wearing a long white dress.When she saw me, she pursed her lips and smiled, but it was no longer as bright as before.

Li Tianyang's photography exhibition is called "Sending the Night".The [-] works are all black and white. The protagonists are all kinds of women. Their eyes are affectionate but lonely, blending with the darkness behind them.Li Tianyang said that the inspiration of the work actually comes from Su Nianyao, maybe every smart girl has a sighing soul in her heart.But among these twenty works, there is no Su Nianyao.

Li Tianyang told me that after so many years, everyone should let go.I thought, there's nothing I can't let go of, Tang Jin and I just have a fate, but I can't love others anymore.I often dream about the scene I saw in the library.

She hugged her, lowered her head and kissed her, the sunlight passed through the gaps in the leaves, as if passing through light years, long and peaceful.

Never forget.

The author has something to say:

The first story is finally over.After thinking about it day and night, my uncle... it finally came to an end.Well, anyway, this is a side story.