ring the bell

It's hard to analyze calmly.

It's no better than a friend missing. You can at least call the police. If you have money, you can investigate his whereabouts all over the world, dig three feet into the ground, and then say "I want to see people, I want to see corpses", because You know he is in this world, it is impossible to go to Mars.

But what about the ghost?

However, Zhong Linyang lost it?

This feeling of loss is too real, and nothing can be grasped.Xu Xu finally understands what is fleeting, but he can't figure out what is the opportunity for all this to happen.In his opinion, there are too many uncertain factors, maybe it was because of that kiss, maybe it was because of a master in Lama Temple who chanted a mantra and performed a method, and all the big ghosts and little monsters in the vicinity disappeared... well, he Also think this is too nonsense.Is that because the time has come and the fate is over?No way, who is this nonsense perfunctory!That's because...

Xu Xu wondered a little bit why Zhong Linyang came out of the hotel by himself and sat alone on the side of the road.

Zhong Linyang said, "I have to go." He knew he was going.

Zhong Linyang also said, "But I will come back." When was that?

Li Xu started to suffer from stomach pains, which always come back and forth, perhaps because he ate too much instant noodles in the past two years.He didn't know when he stood up, and now he sat down again, on the concrete pier that they sat on when they kissed just now.

The evening peak after get off work is still going on, Xu Xu looks up at the sky, the twilight is so red and so gorgeous, but it seems that there is only a thin layer, peeling it off is a long black night.Liucheng also has such a sky.Xu Xu touched the rough dust on the skateboard, and suddenly realized that he was still not good at facing loss, which was what he feared the most. Since childhood, he lived timidly and cautiously, just wanting to avoid loss.

Isn't this human instinct?He didn't want to be blamed or left behind, so he didn't want to make mistakes, but the ones he was holding on to left him the same way, making people suspect that a bottomless pit had been put in his hands, just like he didn't know anything later. No more, started making mistakes with impunity, and life didn't seem to get any worse.

Life has its own splashes, and it will not be disturbed by him. This is a fact, so it is easy to figure it out. At the same time, about Zhong Linyang's departure, a conjecture is gradually forming in Xu Xu's mind, but Xu Xu is unwilling to go. Thinking about it deeply, he turned his gaze elsewhere and stopped looking at the sky.

This evening is floating in the air and is slowly disappearing. Maybe you don't need to look at it, and it won't say goodbye.The street lamps are turned on, together with the neon signs of the shops on the street. Summer nights in Beijing always smell like poplar leaves. Sneezing, there is also a patch of poplars on the campus, Xu Xu often sits on the floor in it, holding a notebook and drawing scripts, Yang Linzhong, Yang Linzhong, he always repeats this idea.

At this moment, there is no script to draw, so it is more empty and more boring. During the waiting for No.708 minutes, Xu sneezed no less than twenty times, his stomach was already sore, and the wrist that was supporting his forehead was suddenly grasped.

"...you didn't leave." Zhong Linyang's voice.He was out of breath.

Xu froze, bowed his head for a long time, and the blood supply to the brain was insufficient. He saw Zhong Linyang first as a black shadow, a kind black shadow.Because of a ghost, Xu Xu feels that he has returned to the human world within a second. "You said you'd come back," he said.

"I came back too quickly." Zhong Linyang let go of him, covering his face with his hands, but Xu Xu noticed that his injuries, whether it was his arms or thighs, were heavier than he thought.

"Where have you been?" He pressed Zhong Linyang's face-blocking hand hard.

"Hey! Hey!" Zhong Linyang yelled, struggling with him, but he was a light ghost after all, and he couldn't hold back the strength of a living person for an hour.His face was finally exposed, the previous heavy makeup was gone, and his lips lacked color. Except for the messy long hair, he returned to the appearance a few years ago.

"Where have you been?" Xu Xu looked at him intently.

"I..." Zhong Linyang lowered his head, swallowed and spit, his Adam's apple rolled honestly, "You don't care!"

"Did you go back? Back to Liucheng?" Xu held his chin and raised his face towards himself.

"What am I going back to that crappy place for?"

Xu Xu ignored his stubbornness, and continued to ask: "Do you have to go back every day? Every evening?"

Zhong Linyang opened his eyes wide, opened his mouth, and remained silent for a long time.Suddenly, he jumped up and stood in front of Xu Xu with clenched fists. Passers-by walked close to him and passed him, "Yes, I'm going back. I have to dance every day. Didn't the fuck tell you?" The louder he yelled, the more trembling his voice became, "I jumped down, I'm dead, I still have to put myself back together, I came back to find you, I didn't have time to put on makeup, it's ugly, you hate it Right!"

"I hate you!" Xu Xu also jumped up.

Zhong Linyang was stunned, and Xu Xu stared at him fiercely, "Why do you think I like to make you look like a woman all day long?"

"Oh," Zhong Linyang sneered, "You don't like it? Your eyes are straight!"

"Fuck you! Quickly change your skirt, and don't make your hair so long. You don't need to make a body, right?" As he said yes, he was about to grab Zhong Linyang's wrist. There were already passers-by watching in amazement With panicked eyes, he acted as if nothing had happened.

"What are you doing!" Zhong Linyang screamed, "What do you mean?"

"Don't wear women's clothes anymore, okay?" Xu Xu withdrew his hand that was slapped away, and sighed.

Zhong Linyang's lips trembled, and he stared at Xu Xu suspiciously. After a while, he relaxed, "Then turn around."

"No, I'm afraid you'll run away."

Zhong Linyang stared angrily, as if angry, he disappeared completely, and after two seconds, when Xu Xu was about to beat his chest and feet, he reappeared.

Red school uniform, black half-length broken hair, clean face and bright facial features.Like when he was in school, he likes to look at people with his head tilted and his eyes crooked with a smile. He has grown a lot taller than when he was in school.

Xu was pinned and unable to move, only breathing heavily, one mouthful at a time.

The onlookers have gathered more and more, there is the sound of shutters, and the sound of children crying.

"I can only change into the image I remember," Zhong Linyang lowered his eyes and explained, "The woman's attire was changed according to a woman who goes on dates under the clock tower every day."

"That's good." Xu Xu took a wrong step forward.You haven't had time to become other things, make other impressions, he thought, and you haven't even had time to take off your school uniform.

"OK, let me tell you the truth, don't be polite to me, I know, I'm a shadow of your mind, dragging you to watch porn all day long, you dream, I also jump off a building like this, this dream has been haunting you, I I know everything." Zhong Linyang's eyelashes still drooped like that, "Have you seen enough? I'll change back when I've seen enough."

"Why can't you understand human language?" Xu Xu frowned.

It is rare for Zhong Linyang to see such a cowardly person say such a tone. Hearing this, he raised his eyes, and saw that Xu Xu had already stood in front of him, half a head shorter than him, but his hands were tightly wrapped around his waist, without paying attention, He's about to be hugged.

"What are you doing!" Zhong Linyang shoved him fiercely, "I'm so tired of you—"

The next whining was blocked by a kiss.Xu opened his mouth this time, and used the tip of his tongue to pick and grind his teeth, trying to pry Zhong Linyang's lips open.Of course it was not difficult, Zhong Linyang opened his lips blankly, although there was no air flow, his chest was indeed heaving rapidly, although there was no exchange of bodily fluids, he did hold Xu Xu's sleeve tightly and leaned himself against him body, clumsily used his dry mouth to accept this overly violent kiss.

There are more people taking pictures and videos, which makes Zhong Linyang panic - he looks like a man now, he is really afraid of being seen!He didn't want to turn into a ghost to kill people and silence him!

Ke Xu pressed his back hard and suppressed his trembling until the kiss was over. "Didn't you say to do it again just now?" Xu Xu's face was already red, he lowered his head slightly, and wiped the corners of his mouth, "It's fine now."

"A lot of people are looking at you, maybe there will be people from the mental hospital soon." Zhong Linyang forced himself to look directly at him.

"Yes." Xu Xu smiled, and Zhong Linyang realized that he was laughing out of tears.I saw him comparing Scissorhands to an office worker who was videotaping, "Hi!"

"Maybe someone can see me. Look at so many people, either think you are mentally ill or think you are gay." Zhong Linyang patted his hand off.

"I know." Ke Xu still smiled, sniffing his nose, looking very rascal.

"you--"

"I've already said, I like you, and now I'm not afraid of anything, even if you are a ghost, I just want to stay with you, and I don't want you to slip by yourself all day and jump off a building," Xu Xu took a deep breath Tone, wanting to hold Zhong Linyang's hand, but cautiously froze half an inch away, "Is it too late?"

Zhong Linyang was stunned and said nothing, but all the injuries on his body were healed, and the things that he hadn't had time to clean up suddenly became clean and smooth.He didn't know what was going on, but his heart was filled with a hot thing, which filled the big hole that had been vacant for many years.Is it joy?He almost forgot this feeling.So are there any tears?I've never seen anything like this come out of a ghost.

"But I still have to go back every day," he said eventually. "It's like being sucked back to work. I'm sick, but I can't help it."

"Then tomorrow—then I will go back with you tomorrow. I have to be with you." Xu said.Then Xu Xu leaned over, no longer caring about his dirty face full of tears, and hugged him gently.