To Oak

Zhu Miao never expected this to be the case.

His hands were grasping Xiang Shu's forearm, he felt Xiang Shu's hand trembling slightly, and wanted to pull it out.Subconsciously, he lowered his hands and held Xiang Shu's palm, feeling that the palm was slippery and full of cold sweat.

From the moment Yi Ning mentioned Xiang Shu's illness, Zhu Miao never backed down.

Suddenly, thinking of the woman and the worn-out doll just now, his heart stopped beating.That woman, holding the doll at first, had a peaceful smile on her face, as if the doll was her child, but later, she ruthlessly tore him apart.

Zhu Miao felt his nose sore and his throat tight. He sucked his nose and didn't cry. He put on what he thought was the most mature and stable expression. In order to maintain his expression, he pursed his lips tightly.

The room was completely quiet, but there were other voices faintly in the distance. I don't know which room it came from, whether it was crying or talking.Hearing Zhu Miao's heart twitched, he didn't know what to say, so he could only look at Xiang Shu's face.

Xiang Shu was still the same, expressionless.

Zhu Miao usually felt that he was powerful, like a towering tree that had already grown up, covering all the area covered by the shade of the tree. Zhu Miao was beside him, like a small sapling trembling in the wind. look up.But now, it's different again, Zhu Miao feels that she has become stronger all of a sudden, and wants to protect him.

But Zhu Miao didn't know what to do, almost subconsciously, he didn't say anything, he didn't do anything.

He took a step forward, put his arms around Xiang Shu's neck, and hugged him.Xiang Shu was taller than him, bent down a little following his movements, and naturally knocked his head into the hollow of his neck.Xiang Shu opened his eyes and stared at the courtyard behind Zhu Miao, which was lit up a little bit by the starlight. The flowers bloomed peacefully, and beside his face was Zhu Miao's pulsating artery, throbbing, slightly faster.

Xiang Shu could smell Zhu Miao's body, the smell of washing powder mixed with coffee, which was exactly the same as his own.He also felt the body temperature, it was scorching hot, he was almost burned, and it took him a while to realize that it was because his whole body was cold that Zhu Miao looked so hot.

In the past, in an almost masochistic manner, he often climbed over the wall and came in to watch across the small yard.

Every time, he felt that his blood was congealed and his whole body was cold. Just now, he was frozen, unable to think or act. He didn't go over to look at it at all, but he knew in his heart what Zhu Miao would see.The scenes he had seen in the past automatically played back in his mind. The wind stopped, the sound of insects also stopped, and even the leaves on the treetops stopped shaking.

But the miracle is that at the moment when Zhu Miao opened his arms to welcome him, Xiang Shu felt his blood flow again.

He felt Zhu Miao's heartbeat and body temperature, the wind blew over the treetops again, and the insects continued to chirp.

so amazing.

They hugged each other as if they were supporting each other. They held each other for an unknown amount of time. The sound of their breathing was as steady as the ebb and flow of the tide.

"It seems that someone is coming." Zhu Miao said in a low voice.

There were indeed flashlights shining everywhere in the distance, Zhu Miao hurriedly took Xiang Shu's hand, and walked back stooping.It was Xiang Shu who took him when he came, and now it was Zhu Miao's turn to take him back.They returned to the place where they climbed over the wall just now. This time it was Zhu Miao's turn to climb over the top of the wall. He stared at the approaching light in the distance, a little anxious, stretched out his hand to Xiang Shu, and whispered: "Brother , come quickly."

Xiang Shu suddenly remembered that day at school, when he beat Lin Zhou, Zhu Miao did the same, straddling the wall and reaching out to him.

Seeing that he was not moving, Zhu Miao almost flipped down again in a hurry, but fortunately Xiang Shu immediately grabbed his hand and flipped up.The two successfully climbed over the wall and returned to the main entrance of the nursing home. The motorcycle was still parked there. It only took a short while, but both Xiang Shu and Zhu Miao felt that it had been a long time.

Xiang Shu pushed the cart to the side of the road, and Zhu Miao followed beside him, mumbling and whispering.

"You think you can get rid of me like this, but you didn't explain the matter to me." He said in a rambling manner, "Brother, I also feel uncomfortable when your mother is like this, but how can I not like you because of this?" Ah. People who are sick can’t be liked? Then, if you want to find a partner, you should go for a medical examination first..."

"Besides, I'm not very good. You see, I have no money, my grades are not good, and I don't even have a place to live, but you don't like it..."

While talking, Zhu Miao's voice lowered little by little.

Xiang Shu turned around, there were only the two of them on the quiet suburban road, Zhu Miao looked at him, and said with some anxiety: "Brother, do you like mine?"

Xiang Shu reached out and rubbed his head, and said, "Go back and talk, get in the car."

Zhu Miao put on the helmet obediently, stepped onto the car, put his hand on Xiang Shu's shoulder, and whispered in his ear, "Shall we go home? How about we go to the beach?"

Xiang Shu didn't hesitate, and agreed with a "hmm".

Zhu Miao: "Slow down."

Xiang Shu started the motorcycle and drove really slowly along the road all the way back. Zhu Miao put his arms around his waist and leaned against his back, like a small star that continued to heat up.

It was still the same sea, the same reef, the car was parked on the beach, and they leaned against the reef, sitting side by side on the beach.

"Brother," Zhu Miao's voice matched the sound of the ocean waves, "You can say whatever you want, I want to hear everything."

Looking at the dark sea, the stars and the moon, Xiang Shu didn't know where to start, but once he started talking, everything became much easier.

When he met He Zheng, he had just started to treat his illness, and the drug treatment was combined with psychological treatment.He was about the same age as Zhu Miao at that time, and he often couldn't sleep all night long. When he was excited and happy, he felt that nothing in the world could defeat him, but when he was depressed, he felt that he had disappeared from the world. less than yourself.

He Zheng opened a coffee shop and taught him coffee. He quickly became dependent on He Zheng, but he didn't know that dependence is a much more dangerous emotion than love.When he had a manic attack, he beat up a business partner who had a dispute with He Zheng, and he sat alone in the police station, waiting for He Zheng to come and fetch him.

He also brought He Zheng to see his mother, who hysterically tore the doll's head off in front of both of them.

He Zheng was obviously frightened, he could feel it.

This is normal, his father was exhausted by his mother's repeated illnesses, and then left.He and He Zheng finally separated. After the separation, he worked hard to be that big tree that hides others, because he knew that it was better to let others depend on them than to depend on others.

Later, his condition gradually stabilized.

He also started to open a coffee shop and fell in love with coffee. When he and He Zheng met again, they greeted each other calmly.Only then did Xiang Shu realize that they might not have truly loved each other.He Zheng took him in like taking care of a stray cat, and he grabbed He Zheng like the last straw.

But now, he has more leeway to love others, and more leeway to let others love.

Zhu Miao rested her chin on her knees and listened quietly. She was a very qualified listener and her eyes sparkled.

He said: "Brother, I'm sorry, today is not my birthday, I lied to you, I just want to stay with you and let you tell me about you."

Xiang Shu has a copy of Zhu Miao's ID card in his hand.

He said, "I know, little liar."

Then they kissed.

The author says:

Rest for three days, update on Sunday.

I feel that the whole relationship line is relatively clear, and it can almost be finished, and the outing part can be placed outside the episode.