with life

When did it get dark, when did the lights turn on, and how did Chuning suddenly appear in this room.If Jiang Yao was a person with normal emotions, she would definitely think about these three questions carefully before receiving the first signal from her brain, fear.But she is no longer normal, the moment she sees Chuning, she will not be afraid, only endless sadness.

Jiang Yao lay in Chuning's arms, with her hands around her neck, her body was attacked by bursts of chills, but she didn't care, nor was she afraid, the person in the same room as her was not human.Her fingers gently brushed over Chuning's face, following the beautiful facial contours to the facial features, eyebrows, eyes, nose, lips...

It was so cold, her hands were almost numb, but she refused to let go.

But Chuning just hugged her quietly, his gentle eyes seemed to be staring into her heart, seeing through her soul.

"Why did you commit suicide?"

Jiang Yao pressed her face against Chuning's neck, shivering from the biting coldness, stubbornly resisting her physical instincts, stuck out her tongue, and lightly licked the lifeless gray-white skin.She knew that the night would pass, maybe Chuning would disappear again, and the greed in her heart always wanted to make time go slower, and slower.

Unexpectedly, Chuning didn't answer, but moved uncomfortably, pressed the collar to stop the kiss from the person in his arms, "Don't, it will scare you."

"I'm not afraid."

"Yaoyao..." Chuning hugged her tightly.

"Don't leave again, this time I won't give up." Jiang Yao held the hand covering her neck, and kissed delicately from the fingertips to the back of the hand, her tongue seemed to be numb.She was afraid that all of this was illusory, and that Chu Ning would disappear after dawn.

The feeling of this hug was so real, Jiang Yao didn't want to believe it was fake, she pressed Chuning's cold lips, put her hand into the black coat that was so big that it seemed to cover her entire body, and touched her chest It was soft, there was no heart rate, no ups and downs of breathing, everything was as silent as death, but Jiang Yao was like being poisoned, unable to restrain herself.

After taking off the coat, it was still the plain white shirt with one button unbuttoned, and because there was no scarf to cover it, there were a few small blue-purple spots looming from the neck to the large breast on Chuning's chest.Jiang Yao naturally knew what it was, but she didn't feel scared at all, instead she felt very distressed. If she had been braver and not so weak back then, why would she have ruined Chuning's fresh and young life...

She is a sinner, she is sinful.Thinking about it, Jiang Yao felt sour again, a few hot tears rolled into Chuning's collar, and she choked up, crying uncontrollably, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry...why didn't you come to me to pay for your life... Wouldn't it be better to kill me... "

Chuning's body shook, her black eyes were covered with layers of gloom, she hugged Jiang Yao who was curled up in her arms, a wry smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, she didn't know how to respond.If it can continue like this, it's not a bad thing, during the day Yaoyao concentrates on work, and at night they can get together and go back to the past, outsiders will not know, how wonderful.

But it is unforgivable for her to violate the way of heaven and force her to stay in the world.During the hug and kiss this time, Chuning clearly felt the changes in Jiang Yao's body, her body temperature was dropping, her mind's consciousness was also confused, and her expression was not as fresh as before. They all said that people and ghosts have different paths, and I'm afraid it will happen a few more times. Without any contact, Jiang Yaohui will die.

Letting the person in his arms kiss her chest all over, Chuning's eyes were so soft that they could soak in water, she slightly raised her head to enjoy the brief tenderness at this moment, but she couldn't help but feel unbearable sadness in her heart, no matter how reluctant she was, She can't hurt Jiang Yao either.She hoped that she would live well, see the world again for herself, keep the memory of the two of them being together, and continue her prematurely withered life.

"Don't cry."

She raised Jiang Yao's chin and gently kissed that soft lips, tears dripping from the corners of her eyes. If possible, she would also like to accompany Yaoyao until the other party grows old, and then they will go where they should go together. , how nice.Chuning's hand reached into Jiang Yao's clothes, and touched the warm skin. She was so envious and nostalgic, the cold touch traveled all over her body, and along with Jiang Yao's body trembling, it penetrated into her legs …

The warm soft meat was wet and slippery, wrapped around Chuning's slender fingers, she pinched the flower bead that was becoming more and more congested and erect, and gently kneaded, the sticky and greasy liquid inadvertently gushed out.There was a bone-chilling chill in the privacy, Jiang Yao trembled unpreparedly, a groan escaped from the corner of her lips, she hugged Chuning tightly and rubbed her legs, her body went numb, she felt a fire burning in her heart, Makes her want to scream like crazy.

The ravings were blocked between her lips and teeth, and Jiang Yao fell into a half-awake and half-comatose state again, as if an icicle had pierced her body in a daze, with a soothing whimper in her throat, she fell softly into Chuning's arms.

Jiang Yao was afraid that she would lose consciousness again, and she would not be able to see Chuning when she woke up. While she was still awake, she was almost numb to the bone in the cold feeling of being pierced between her legs.She grabbed onto Chuning's back and wailed intermittently, "Don't go...please...if I wake up and don't see you...I'll kill myself...to be with you...to be...a ghost...ah...!"

With the last scream, the coldness penetrated deeper into her body, as if it had hit a sensitive point, Jiang Yao's body shook violently uncontrollably, the last thing she saw before fainting was Chuning's. Eyes full of tenderness.

After a deep night's sleep, Jiang Yao slept peacefully.

It was already dawn when she woke up, she opened her eyes in a daze, and found that she was lying on the bed at home, wearing pajamas and covered with a quilt. Everything that happened last night seemed like a dream from another life, so real that she couldn't believe it.With no trace of Chuning around her, Jiang Yao panicked, got up quickly, and opened the closet door, the white scarf that was left behind was still there.

Seeing it, as if she had taken a reassurance, Jiang Yao calmed down, hugged the white scarf in her arms and stroked it gently, smelling the faint fragrance on it.It proves that the existence of Chuning is not a dream, and it also makes Jiang Yao believe exactly what kind of experience she has had and what irresponsible decisions she has made.

Maybe it's because Chuning can't come out during the day, their "things" should belong to the night.After comforting herself like this, Jiang Yao felt a little relieved, and tied the white scarf around her neck.

The funeral home's colleagues told her that she didn't have to go to work for the next few days, and that the Spring Festival holiday was coming soon, so she would just give her a few more days to recuperate depending on her physical and mental condition. Also nowhere to go.

"Nobita? What's wrong with you?"

In the fence of the guest room, the three German Shepherds were lying on their nests with their tails between their legs. No matter how Jiang Yao tried to bark, there was a moaning sound like a small animal whimpering, as if they were frightened by something.She was about to get the food bowl, but unexpectedly found that it was filled with the usual amount of dog food, and there were a few light blue footprints from the fence to the edge of the food bowl.It looked like a woman's feet, slender and petite, and Jiang Yao almost immediately thought of a possibility.

She stood up and looked around, "A-Ning, are you there..."

The only response to her was silence.

Nothing made Jiang Yao happier than realizing this. Her words were useful, and Chuning was still by her side and hadn't left yet.Does that mean that they will have unlimited possibilities, past mistakes will not be delayed, and there will be more good times to make up for, she is unwilling to bear that silly woman again.

It took a while for the dogs to return to normal, but they were not as lively and active as before. They wandered around the house all morning. Jiang Yao began to believe the so-called dog can see things that people can't see.

In the afternoon Jiang Ma came again, holding a few bags of vegetables in her left hand and a cardboard box in her right hand, looking mysterious.Jiang Yao felt guilty and didn't dare to tell her what she said before. After taking the food, she interrupted and peeked at what her mother was going to do.I saw Jiang Ma put the box on the big table in the dining room, and carefully moved out a...frog?

Jiang Yao almost dropped her jaw, and when she looked carefully, she realized that it was a toad-shaped statue with golden light all over its body, with its mouth wide open, and a deep black hole went straight into the belly of the golden statue.

"Mom, where did you get it?"

"Hey, be careful, don't touch it." Jiang Ma slapped the hand she was about to reach out to touch, and carefully placed the golden toad on the table, "I took a lot of effort to get it from Mr. Yin Yang." Please come here, and I will put it in your house in the future."

Jiang Yao froze for a moment, and immediately felt like laughing, but she couldn't help feeling a little worried. Although she didn't believe it at first, the dog incident was an example. Ever since she met Chuning, there was nothing that refreshed her understanding of Chuning. perception of the world.If those superstitions really have an effect on Chuning, then what should she do, at least not to hurt Chuning again...

"Mom, you, a doctor, actually believe this?"

"It's better to believe what it has than to believe it doesn't."

"..."

I don't know what that golden toad statue is used for. Its big black mouth is so permeable. Jiang Yao thought that it would have no effect other than to ward off evil spirits, but Jiang Ma's serious and solemn face seemed to be possessed by a demon.

"Yaoyao, listen, Mom will put this away for you. From now on, I will take out the bronze coin from Toad's mouth when it gets dark at night, and put it back in the morning at dawn. I will take it back to Mr. Yin Yang to clean it up every month. "Jiang Ma put the golden toad on the top of the TV in the living room, "I don't believe that woman can't be cured, if she dares to pester you again, I will let her die and not be reborn!"

The copper coin that looked old was placed on the tongue of the toad's mouth. Jiang Yao saw her mother's seriousness, and realized that things were not as simple as she thought.She originally thought that the two of them, Chuning and Chu Ning, had caused tragedy only because of their same-sex relationship, but now it seems that there are other reasons.

"Mom, tell me the truth, did you do something to Chuning before she was alive? Or said something?"

Said, Jiang Yao took a step back and looked at her mother defensively. This action made Jiang mother speechless with anger, and pointed at her, "Are you here to press your mother again?!"

"Then why did she commit suicide! And why did she still come to me after she died!" Jiang Yao yelled out as her emotions collapsed, but her legs softened and she fell to the ground as if she had exhausted all her strength.

Was it really just because she gave up on this relationship that Chuning couldn't think of committing suicide, or were there more human factors behind the incident?What is Chu Ning's obsession? I want to know whether Jiang Yao gave up voluntarily or was forced, and why the ghost lingers on her after death. It's because there was a misunderstanding between the two of them from the very beginning, maybe Bar.

In the broken picture, she was crying bitterly while hugging Chuning Lengqu's stiff body. In that old house, the tears flowed with the heart-piercing grief. How did she forget such a clear memory? .In the end, Jiang Yao's awakening, which Chuning traded her life for, was overwhelmed by the pain, and she just forgot, forgot everything.

Jiang Yao's mind cleared up a lot, she carefully sorted out what Chuning said, scrolled through the memories that barely reminded her of the past, and suddenly found that she was the one who didn't know the most.

"She's a badass...God...Yaoyao, she will take you away, is she here for revenge..."

"She won't hurt me." A few tears dripped from the corners of her eyes, Jiang Yao reached out and touched the white scarf around her neck, as if only touching Chuning's breath could make her feel at ease.

How could that silly woman harm her? She would rather end her own life than hurt her.The outburst of emotions was short-lived and stable, Jiang Yao sat on the ground and caressed the scarf around her neck foolishly, closed her eyes and breathed lightly, trying to calm her heart down.

She owes Chuning a lot, and the memories of the past are all tormenting her conscience. People like her should be cut into hell and never reborn. Her sufferings are all suffered by Chuning for her. up.But that silly woman has worked hard enough, she finally met the sunshine in this life, and she chose to fade away when her life was the most vivid and dazzling...

Many changes, in fact, Jiang Ma can also see it.She felt that her daughter was not as angry as before, and all the emotions she should have turned into a cold expression.Jiang Yao had been seriously ill since Chu Ning's death, and she drank paraquat and wanted to follow her away. Those days spent in the hospital were like a haze over the hearts of the whole family.Jiang Ma was worried that she would think of Chu Ning's death after waking up, and would torment herself again, but maybe even the gods love this child, or Chu Ning is damned, Jiang Yao woke up and forgot everything about that woman .

She could remember all the people and things around her, except Chu Ning, and the six blank years.

"Retribution... If it is retribution on me...it has nothing to do with Yaoyao..." Jiang Ma glanced at the golden toad, as if seeing Chuning hugging her daughter again before she was alive, she kept mumbling to herself. With words, helpless tears welled up from the corners of his eyes.

If she believed in retribution, Mama Jiang would more or less understand why she couldn't live in peace now. She glanced at her daughter who was sitting on the ground, smiling foolishly and fondling the scarf, wiped away her tears, and sighed softly...

Jiang Yao was very talented in fine arts since elementary school. She majored in fashion design in college, and later became interested in giving people makeup. She was eager to learn for a while. Unexpectedly, it was during this time that she met someone with the same major and same interest. Chuning.The two children just got along like good friends at the beginning. Jiang Ma liked Chu Ning quite a lot. When she learned that Chu Ning had no father or mother, she treated her like her own daughter. Who would have thought that the future would develop like this...

They often make appointments at Jiang Yao's house to try on each other's makeup. The beauty magazines at home are full of a room, and they draw each other's portraits like pranks. The works of the two children are still kept in Jiang's mother's place. .

After graduating, Jiang Yao became a make-up artist. She often went to the studio to do styling for the bride, or part-time to run errands with the crew to learn. Wherever she went, Chuning followed her.After her career improved, Jiang Yao bought a small house by herself and moved out, and secretly lived together with Chuning. Up to this point, Jiang's mother felt that they were just close friends, like sisters.Until one day, Jiang Yao suddenly announced their relationship to her mother.

No pair of parents would want their children to be gay. In Jiang's mother's eyes, it is simply a mental disorder, a disease that needs to be treated.During the time when they didn't get their parents' understanding, Jiang Yao and Chuning didn't know where to hide. Jiang Ma once thought that they would never come back after leaving the city.Now that she has regret medicine, she really regrets what she did in the past. She shouldn't have pushed the two children so hard, until they were cornered, unable to retreat, and even threatened Jiang Yao by committing suicide.

She never thought that her interference would cause such serious consequences. From the moment she learned that Chuning committed suicide, her heart could no longer be at peace...

I thought it would be good for the child to forget, and everything was empty, but I didn’t expect that Jiang Yao would insist on learning funeral service after waking up, and become a body beautician. The dead put on makeup to atone for their sins.

She was also afraid, tormented by her conscience, what she was worried about would eventually come, and sooner or later she would remember what she should remember, no matter how she tried to cover it up, it would be useless.

"you…"

"I'm sorry for her."

Jiang Yao smiled self-deprecatingly, her eyes filled with despair.