I meet a lot of people in my life, keep a distance from anyone in my life, but only want to meet you

I couldn't help scolding you once, scolding you for 7 months, scolding you to die!Learned all the words that others scolded me!Tell you all, tell you all my grievances.Tell you, they, they're all good and bad, tell you once I really couldn't swear and learn to swear, I tell you I can't be myself again, I really don't know how it all came to be like this , It was the fault that tormented you in the past, which made me feel helpless now that I am getting better and better.I don't know how to approach you or leave... I just stopped all my steps, kept silent, and waited for you to come.

I can see through all these fates and know that things are impermanent, but my only wish in this life is for you to come, because I really don't know how to go to you...I want to be with you, I want to be with you I have been walking for a long time, and I want to grow your favorite corn with you.That winter, before losing his memory, he said that he wanted to give birth to a beautiful girl for you... It really is half a circle around the world, and I still rub shoulders with you