I meet a lot of people in my life, keep a distance from anyone in my life, but only want to meet you

I still can't believe it, the world without you, all I have is sadness 'Nothing works' If I could go back to the past, I wouldn't let you go, I couldn't agree after that, you all know my heart, or am I becoming The other person... can't go back!I will only be hysterical to you, and promise to give you a better self, for which I have used all my strength.In order to meet you, let you accompany me to walk the distance from death to life, I promise you, I must get better.I promise you, I must live on.From last winter to this winter, from winter to spring to summer, to this winter... I miss you so much, I am so scared, am I still not good enough, maybe, you must let me go back to the past That's why you're being cruel to me...