The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

It seemed that it was going to rain again at night, accompanied by the vague thunder from afar, the thunder was her rhythm, and the sound of footsteps suppressed the thunder.Finally she stood by the river.The river bank looks like a bridge at dusk, the river surface is wrinkled by the wind, full of sparkling shadows, no beautiful golden light echoing the sky above the head, the sky is covered with cement, gloomy as if it is about to drop limestone at any time.

With her arms around her chest, she lowered her head slightly, looking around, no one was watching, she gently and tiptoely walked towards the river as if she was doing something bad, her heart was beating fast.No matter how many times you skip, every time you face the river bank, you will feel as powerless as a small speck of dust. After all, your head sinks and your body leans forward.

The water flowed from the ears, hula hula, then deafness, nothing left, the only thing left was the familiar feeling a hundred times, the tinnitus accompanied by suffocation, the head was heavy, the whole body was weak, and there was also the feeling of choking water. The hideous feeling of embarrassment, the whole body sinks, sinks, sinks, as if sinking into an abyss.

"Hurry up, let's go to class in 5 minutes!" With a familiar voice, she turned her head abruptly, and the couple ran past them with childish smiles. They ran side by side on the road, expressing their affection They looked at each other, then were flooded by the heavy rain.

"Resentment value, 99."

Tao Anan moved to the river bank step by step with blunt steps. She walked very slowly, and she still couldn't understand the transition of the scene. Every time, she didn't react very quickly. It's just the fleeting blankness like fireworks, and the influx of memories, and the process of refilling the weak body with strength, as if the charging voltage is too high, and the belly of the battery bulges with a puff, and it can't stand the big energy of.

Standing on the river bank, the rain dripped down his chin into his chest, the ground was slippery with soft mud, and the weeds were shaken by the wind and rain and trampled to the ground, slipping under his feet could kill Tao Anan's life.

She walked carefully, letting herself choose every step in the process of seeking death, and with 99 resentment points, she will be free from this world.

However, Su Ruanruan did not let her escape, Su Ruanruan stopped her from jumping into the river again, just like the Su Ruanruan she met when she was truly reborn for the first time, the green-haired girl grabbed her wrist and dragged her to a safe place, There is no meaning of pity and pity.The pain in the wrist was all due to Su Ruanruan's strength, that hand was made of steel and iron.

"Is there something wrong with you? The ground is so slippery and you are going here? Who is responsible for the fall?" Su Ruanruan said very bluntly, and she couldn't see her intention to die for a while.

Maybe it was because she saw it in her eyes, remembered it in her heart, kept her mouth silent, buried her tender thoughts in her heart, and dragged her to class forcefully, Su Ruanruan's eyes were softened in the rain, and the heavy rain washed over her, Both of them had sex.

"I usually come from here...don't be angry."

"Go to class." Su Ruanruan's voice was cold and stern, she turned sideways and pushed her to a safe place, the soles of her feet were dripping with rain, wet, and the rainwater splashed onto her trouser legs with every step she took.

So I walked cautiously, and the class bell rang, and the distance was only halfway.

The professor stood in the classroom holding his glasses and began to roll the roll. His eyes wandered around the audience. The people who came were drowsy. Because of the rain, their spirits were sluggish and their expressions were not at ease. Head bowed, face crooked, drowsy.

"Tao—An'an—" He was about to skip to the next name, but suddenly realized that this person hadn't come to class. He raised his eyes, and finally there was a slap at the door of the classroom, and a figure stood still: "Here."

"Sit back." The old professor was kind to her, otherwise he would make a cross behind his name.

The corridor outside the classroom was darkened by the sky and rain, and the green one was the most eye-catching scenery. Su Ruanruan lowered her body to tie her shoelaces, her wet hair was dripping with water, pattering on the floor. Voice.

The bell after class echoed in the corridor, and the next second everyone rushed out, bowed their heads to play with their mobile phones, or chatted with each other. Tao Anan held a book, looked quiet, and walked around the corridor. Su Ruanruan was waiting for her outside.

"Busy working?"

"It's okay. There was a problem with Cao Dong's speech."

"I'll help you write." This time she offered to do it, and Su Ruanruan laughed after a while: "Why are you so considerate?"

"I'll give it to you later."

"Farewell, come with me and write over there. I have a treat at noon, and it happens to be lunch with me at noon."

"Okay." She didn't refuse this time without hypocrisy. If Su Ruanruan wanted to invite her to do something, if it wasn't for a very strong reason, Su Ruanruan would definitely pull her. Now she can't find anything There are strong reasons, so I have to answer.

Some feeling of nostalgia for Su Ruanruan, once again pulled back from the dead door by her.The door of death is closed. She has gone through many times, and she just left.

Su Ruanruan will definitely laugh at her if she knows, hey, it's not very good for you to go in and out of the gate of death.

It seemed pointless to save her, but she was grateful for the extra few seconds.She is so attached to the world, but she realizes that she is a dead person.

Who taught her the feeling of death?This is what she taught herself. Death has taught death itself. Presumably no one else can understand this cycle of rebirth after death.

When she walked into the student activity center, she still felt alienated. She was always out of tune with these people, and the gap between life and death became wider and deeper.

Everyone greeted Su Ruanruan one after another, each busy with their own affairs.

Cao Dong walked over from the other end of the corridor, and greeted her after seeing her: "Hey team leader."

Hearing this word, Su Ruanruan laughed inexplicably, and made a somewhat secretive smile to scare Tao Anan. Tao Anan waved his hands and pushed Su Ruanruan away to scare her. Su Ruanruan's cell phone rang suddenly, which scared Tao Anan.

After answering the phone call, Su Ruanruan didn't come in. Cao Dong looked at her back and told Tao Anan: "It is estimated that the materials have arrived over there. She went to order something, team leader, let me tell you—— "

"I have something to tell you too." Tao Anan interrupted in a hurry. This is really a good opportunity. After she finished speaking, Su Ruanruan happened to be away. She had written the host speech once, and left after writing it again. When she jumped into the river Everyone is gone.

"Okay, let's go here, there are too many people at the door, do you want to drink water?"

"No, thank you." Tao An'an thanked softly, lowered his head and followed Cao Dong upstairs from the side, found an office and entered, Cao Dong handed her a can of hot milk.

"Thank you." She put the milk aside, "I have something serious to tell you."

"You say you say it." He laughed happily, lowered his head and dragged the chair between his legs, put it behind his buttocks, and sat down.

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