Jiaotong Yanxi

"I believe that when your mother left you, she must be gratified. She can be with your father again. At the same time, she is also regretful. It is a pity that she cannot raise you with her own hands and cannot give you enough. Maternal love, cannot watch you grow from a little boy to a big man, cannot watch you graduate from school, cannot watch you step into work, cannot watch you marry a wife and have children and grandchildren..."

It is impossible for Lian Xi to fully understand Jiao's mother's feelings and thoughts. He just thinks that any mother should be what he thinks. After all, the relationship between flesh and blood is so wonderful, just like the relationship between him and Lian's mother.

"I think if things could happen again, your mother would definitely not choose to end her life easily, because the best way to express her love for your father should be to give you enough affection and raise you up healthy and healthy. , grow up carefree."

Jiao Tongyan did not expect that Lianxi would enlighten him so patiently, and after listening to his enlightenment, he could really understand what her mother did.

"Brother Lian, thank you, thank you for telling me so much." Jiao Tongyan looked at Lianxi gratefully, and suddenly he felt that Lianxi was like a living Bodhisattva who could save all sentient beings, just sitting in the lotus. Then take a clean water bottle.

"Xiaoyan, I've said so much, I just hope you don't blame your mother, your mother loves you."

"Enen, brother Lian, I can really understand my mother's mood at that time after hearing you say that. If my lover passed away suddenly, I'm afraid I won't be able to accept it either." Jiao Tongyan thought for his mother in another way. His approach was completely understandable, so he continued what he hadn't finished talking just now, "At the beginning, Xiaomenlou lived with me at my uncle's and aunt's house, and my uncle's and aunt's family was not well-off, and they had a 5-year-old My son, that is, my younger brother, Fairy Tale. It is not easy to support our two children and my uncle. But he still borrows money to pay for my education, and he tries to do some odd jobs to make up for it when the farm work is not busy. Family. At that time, I thought, I must repay them well when I grow up to be promising. But when I just lost my parents, lost my family, and was the most vulnerable in my heart, they made up for me again." Jiao Tongyan Recalling the sad place again, the eyes are red.

"I used to come home from school every day, and the small gatehouse would wag its tail to pick me up when I called it. But that day when I came home from school, I found the original yard of my house, my aunt's yard, and the small yard. I didn’t find it anywhere I could go before the gatehouse. No matter how much I shouted, it didn’t appear beside me. A nearby neighbor heard my shout and said to me, “Xiaoyan, are you looking for your puppy? ? I saw it panting in the garbage pit over there at noon, it seems to be dead, you go there and have a look.', I thought how could it be possible? The small gatehouse was still fine when I went out in the morning, how could it be now? No way. I ran like crazy towards the garbage pit. I searched and searched again and again. I really didn't expect to find a small gatehouse in this place. But when I noticed a puppy was foaming at the mouth and convulsing When I was lying in a pit, I couldn't believe it, and I didn't dare to go forward. No, the small gatehouse will not die, this must not be the small gatehouse. But when I stepped forward, I saw that I was very familiar with it I suddenly knelt down in front of the small gate building. The small gate building was still a little conscious at that time. It looked at me pitifully, and it seemed to say in its eyes, "Master, save me, I don't want to die", but it didn't. After a few minutes, its eyes dimmed, and its pupils lost focus, and I touched its body, and it was completely cold."

"I hugged Xiaomenlou's body and cried in the garbage pit for nearly 2 hours, until someone told my uncle and aunt that they buried Xiaomenlou and took me back to their house. At that time, I lived with Fairy Tale Room, my uncle and aunt are in another room, I can vaguely hear them arguing in a low voice. My uncle said, 'How can you do this, can we still afford a puppy? At worst, I will work more. My aunt cried and said, "You know how to blame me, you are unlucky to pick up such a towel bottle, and you still have a small towel bottle. You are kind enough to pay for him to go to school. You don't even think about our fairy tales." What to do in the future, how can we support two children if we are so poor, I poisoned that stinky dog ​​to be considered good, I can’t wait to send that big oil bottle away at once.’, my uncle is also very anxious ‘it will be fine in the future, Tong Yan is that orphans are subsidized by the government if they don’t spend much money to go to school, don’t you think you can’t even accommodate a puppy...’”

"Then I realized that the existence of Xiaomenlou and I had troubled my uncle and my aunt so much that they destroyed my last spiritual support. I always thought that as long as Xiaomenlou was there, my parents would be It must be there, but I can't see them, but as soon as the small gate building is gone, I wake up completely, my parents are dead, and they will never come back."

Lian Xi watched Jiao Tongyan say that it was not a long story, but it was a sad story. He could fully understand that Jiao Tongyan pinned his longing and dependence on his parents on that puppy, and then that kind of longing and reliance Relying on the despair and helplessness of collapse.He also thought of Jiao Tongyan's empty eyes when the small gatehouse was hit now, it turned out that he almost stripped his spiritual support cruelly again.Lian Xi suddenly felt that those two punches were simply too light, and Jiao Tongyan could not exaggerate his own body.

Lian Xi looked at Jiao Tongyan who had removed the disguise and kept nothing from himself, he really wanted to become his spiritual pillar from now on, for him to rely on forever.He suddenly wanted to stretch out his arms to wrap him in his arms and let him cry in his arms.

"Xiaoyan, I'm sorry. If you want, I am willing to be your spiritual support forever. If you want to cry, this shoulder will always let you rely on." Lian Xi himself was surprised when he said this sentence. He apologized for his previous mistakes, but in the second half of the sentence, he was a little unclear what he was thinking. He suddenly had the urge to care for Jiao Tongyan, a friend, but this kind of care was not something an ordinary friend could do at all. He was a little panicked, he couldn't take Jiao Tongyan on this road, because he knew how hard and painful this road was.