Jiaotong Yanxi

After a hearty breakfast, Jiao Tongyan and Lian Xi sat on the bench in the backyard garden, watching Lian's mother playing a game of throwing and catching the ball with Xiaomenlou.

"Lianxi, do you know how happy you are?" Jiao Tongyan watched Lian's mother happily playing with Xiaomenlou. He really hoped that he was Xiaomenlou and Lian's mother was his own mother.

"Why did you say that suddenly?" Lian Xi was bewildered by Jiao Tongyan's sudden serious expression, "Could it be that you became stupid after eating that pork and pear steamed bun? Are you retarded?"

Jiao Tongyan smiled, and said seriously to Lianxi: "I'm not joking with you, I really think you are very happy. Even though mother's cooking is not delicious, her love for you is real. This love has always been my luxury."

Lian Xi actually wanted to say that if it wasn't for Lian's mother's love for him, he wouldn't be sitting here alive today.But when he heard Jiao Tongyan's last words, Lianxi suddenly felt guilty.That's right, Lian Xi, thanks to the fact that you are still Jiao Tongyan's friend, you don't know anything about Jiao Tongyan's family, and you have never cared about Jiao Tongyan's heavy heart.On the surface, Jiao Tongyan, who seems carefree all day long, do you know how many things are hidden in his heart?

"Xiaoyan, if you treat me as a friend, you can tell me what's on your mind or any bitterness. I don't want to see you suddenly become sad, and then I don't know how to comfort you."

Jiao Tongyan was overwhelmed with gratitude when he heard Lianxi's heartfelt words: "Brother Lian, thank you, I really have nothing to do, don't worry too much, I just suddenly remembered my parents."

"I've never heard you mention your parents before, can you tell me something about your family?" Lian Xi asked tentatively, he didn't know if it was appropriate for him to ask these questions, he just didn't want to be vague Looking at Jiao Tong, he said that he was hurting the spring and the autumn, but he couldn't do anything.

Jiao Tongyan snorted lightly, "My parents? I have forgotten what my parents looked like. I only know that my father died in a car accident when I was 8 years old, and my mother was also hit because of my father. And hanged himself. These are all my uncle and my aunt told me, and I was also brought up by them."

"Xiaoyan, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked this, and it reminded you of a sad past." Lian Xi patted Jiao Tongyan on the shoulder, and he blamed himself for letting Jiao Tongyan recall such a ruthless past.

"Brother Lian, you don't need to say sorry. I was only 8 years old at the time. Although I already had some memories, I didn't have any feelings in my memory. I only knew about my parents from other people. Oh, so I also There are parents, but my parents are gone. But the only thing I remember with feeling is about Xiaomenlou."

"About Xiaomenlou?" Lian Xi couldn't believe his ears, Xiaomenlou was only two or three years old like this, even if Xiaomenlou was lucky enough to live for more than ten years, he could still recover from a car accident, but It is impossible for him to rejuvenate and live stronger and stronger!

"Hey, the current Xiaomenlou is not the one I raised when I was 8 years old." Jiao Tongyan explained embarrassingly.

Lian Xi sighed, just now he felt that his world view was about to collapse, and he almost thought that the world was reincarnated, with no beginning and no end.

"So that's it. I almost thought Xiaomenlou was reborn after death!"

Jiao Tongyan smiled and said: "I thought the same way when I saw the small gatehouse now. It was curled up in an underground passage, its body was covered with abscesses, and for some reason, its belly was broken and its internal organs were full. Part of it is exposed outside the belly. I didn’t pick it up because it was poor, because there are stray dogs like this all over the world, and it’s impossible for me to pick up every one of them. I picked it up because it looks the same as when I was 8 years old. The puppy I raised is very similar, with similar yellow hair and black eye circles, especially the way it looked at me at that time was the same as the way the puppy looked at me before it died more than 10 years ago. I almost thought It knew that I was lonely, so it reincarnated and came back to find me."

Jiao Tongyan shed tears unknowingly, just now he recalled the grief that he didn't have when his parents passed away.

"Then...how did Xiaomenlou die more than 10 years ago?" Lian Xi looked at Jiao Tongyan's tears, and he didn't know how to comfort him. He only knew that it must have something to do with the death of that puppy.

"After my mother's funeral, my uncle and aunt transferred my house to them through the village committee, and they became my guardians, so I lived with my uncle and aunt. At that time, there was Xiaomenlou with me." Jiao Tongyan looked at Lianxi when he said this, "Didn't you say that the name Xiaomenlou was ugly? Actually, I also think it is quite ugly."

Lian Xi felt very guilty when he heard this: "Xiaoyan, you must misunderstand, I was just joking with you at that time, this name is very special, it is not unpleasant at all."

Jiao Tongyan forced a smile: "En, I know. Actually, my mother got this name. I don't know why my mother chose such a tongue-twisting name for the puppy. I think it should be because of the little dog. The dog has a big forehead, so it’s called a small gatehouse.”

Lian Xi didn't want to make Jiao Tongyan feel so heavy, and tried his best to comfort him: "Your mother is very talented, she can think of such a special name."

Jiao Tongyan really smiled: "That's right, I'm so talented that I might just follow my mother. It's a pity that my mother can't see me like this." But Jiao Tongyan's smile suddenly faded again, "Brother Lian You said that if my mother knew that I could grow so big and tall, would she still commit suicide? Did she not think about how I would live in the future when she committed suicide? Did she not care about me at all when she committed suicide? ?”

Originally, Lianxi wanted to find out how Xiaomenlou died more than 10 years ago, so that Jiao Tongyan could be sad to this day. As she talked, Jiao Tongyan's topic jumped to her mother's suicide.

"Xiaoyan, you have to understand one thing. Anyone does something for a reason. Just like your mother committed suicide, it means that her emotions are close to collapse because of your father's death in a car accident. She just loves your father too much. It's better than loving you. But it doesn't mean she doesn't love you. After all, love and family affection are different, and the two are completely incomparable."