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After half a month of painful military training and another half month of painful adaptation period, I finally ushered in the long-awaited university life smoothly.

Don't ask me what I have been doing for half a month of military training.

I don't remember anything.

Yes, don't remember.

I really don't remember what I have been doing for half a month.

It seems that every day is the same, get up, eat, stand in a military posture, eat, stand in a military posture, punch, and sleep.

By the way, the last roasted whole lamb is quite delicious.

and then?

Gone.

Nothing but tiredness.

You are so tired that you don't think about anything, you can't think about anything.

Go to sleep when you wake up, eat when you wake up, and sleep when you feel tired after eating.

Fortunately, it's only half a month. If it lasts longer, I think I might collapse.

Fortunately, it's over, and I'm back alive.

Finally ushered in the college life called heaven.

The classmates in the class come from all corners of the country, all over the world.

Biological science is a relatively popular major in recent years. Although it is not popular in City University, it is said that this year's department head is a new academician of the National Academy of Sciences. He is the best, so he has attracted many people. It is rare that there is no ratio of male to female. Too unbalanced professionally.

Because I have a good relationship with Tianci, and the two have a mutual friendship, so I sit with Tianci every time in class.

brother!

And Tianci was the same, he came to me almost when he came, as if deliberately alienating the distance from other people in the class, as if this class didn't matter to him, as if this was just an inn, and he might not leave anytime soon.

Tianci and I were soon inseparable from Mengmeng. The good thing was that I finally enjoyed the care of my good friend. The bad thing was that I didn't have a good relationship with other students in the class like Tianci.

But I don't care.

As my mother said, you don’t need many friends, as long as you have a close friend.

So I really put my heart and soul into this friendship.

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There are not many professional courses in the freshman year. They are all finishing courses of minor subjects, and some initial courses of basic biology. It is as messy as high school, learning everything, and not knowing what is important.

Fortunately, I found that everyone is like me. At the beginning, I was excited to study hard, and then I was dazzled by many subjects, and then I was attracted by various extracurricular activities.

CityU’s various interest groups are recruiting, and the teachers’ second classes are all very attractive. There are too many extracurricular activities that make you unable to concentrate on your studies. It seems that everyone is telling you to give up studying and play instead.

"Have you all received the notice? The instructor asked me to tell you. The small campus reporters are about to sign up. Those who are interested should go to the activity room on the fourth floor of the complex building to sign up before evening self-study."

I've seen this on WeChat a long time ago. It was filed into their class group with various other notifications. I thought it was an ordinary advertisement notification, so I didn't take it to heart, but...

"What is this little reporter?" I asked the girl next to me during self-study.

Tianci didn't come again tonight. According to him, he was arrested again.

Although Tianci is a fool in class and doesn't study hard like him at all, but I found that he seems to know everything, as long as you ask him, Tianci can almost answer it, as if no matter what the teacher said, it is just a review for him.

Is this a genius? ? ?

I thought sadly.

It's true that people are better than others!

I knew I was not a genius, so I had no choice but to continue studying hard, listening carefully during the day and reviewing in the study room at night.

"I don't know either? It's also an interest group." The girl Xiaosheng said.

At this moment, a girl in the front row turned her head and smiled, "You still want to be a little reporter like this, but when you see your appearance, it will be pia~, I will give you a cross."

Haha.

The two girls laughed.

I didn't expect the other party to say that much, and I was stunned for a while.

He recognized this girl, she was very beautiful, and it was said that she was a top class figure.

"Besides, people require you to pass the test in Mandarin. If you say a few words, you will reveal your Northeast accent. Pop, another big fork will be given to you."

Ha ha ha ha.

More laughter came.

Only then did I realize that I was being laughed at.

Being laughed at by girls, or being laughed at by a beautiful beauty, I have to say that this is my first time.

I really couldn't put such vicious words together with such a beautiful girl, and I didn't know how to refute for a moment.

And that girl seemed to be addicted to talking, and even quoted scriptures for a long time, making the people around laugh enough to stop when the teacher coughed.

And I didn't take any action, I just stood there in a daze.

Speechless.

The man despises him.

The man is taunting him.

Knowing this, I couldn't refute her.

Because what she said was true.

I am indeed not good-looking, although it is not unsightly, but it is indeed very popular, and there is a little crater on the face, which was made when I didn't understand anything in junior high school. Later, my mother found out and said harshly After a meal for myself, it didn't continue to increase.

As for the dialect, yes, I have never read aloud in public, let alone hosted it.

In the past few years, I have been studying in addition to studying. I even read texts to memorize them better. How could I pay attention to Mandarin.

It's a world of difference from the other party's clear and accurate pronunciation.

The girl next to me seemed to look at me, as if she found that I hadn't spoken for a long time, and felt that it was a bit too much, so she comforted me to give it a try.

But I know they are pitying me.

But why, why can they say that about themselves, why they look down on themselves.

Just by asking, I got it right.

Yes, how could they think highly of themselves, a boy who is not handsome, wears big thick glasses, has no money at home, can't speak nice words, doesn't know any teachers, and only knows how to read books all day, how can he be liked by others.

What they like are all the tall and handsome boys in the class, and they also like the boys who study well like Godsend, with fair and cute looks.

So after a month of study and life, I realized for the first time that I was actually a failure, and the little bit of self-confidence I had accumulated was gone.

I really can't do what I want.

At the beginning of my college life, I did nothing.

I don't know how to sing, but during the military training, the girls booed me to sing, and I actually sang the song in the school music book.

He doesn't know how to dress up, and the clothes he wears are said to have no aesthetic vision.

Can't speak, can't even call a beautiful woman.

He also wore thick glasses, which covered his small eyes.

I know how to study, but I am not even very good at studying.

Originally, I thought that I would be average in the class. Yes, I did not expect that I would be the top few in the class. After all, this is City University, and the elites from all over the country gather here. But in the first English During the monthly exam, I was surprised to find that my score of 95 was ranked eighth from the bottom in the class. Of the 40 students, half of them got full marks.

Even Tianci, who never took English classes, got full marks.

Gradually, I found that I really had nothing to be proud of, even the study that I always made myself proud of was gone.

It turns out that this is called regional difference.

It turns out that the gap between people is so big.

Godsend comforted me and told me to take my time and wait until I get used to it.

But I knew that Tianci was a local student, but I only heard about it after listening to girls' gossip. It turned out that Tianci was the number one student in the city's college entrance examination.

748 points, just two points short of a perfect score.

Eighteen points more than myself.

It is also the number one pick, which is really the difference between a first-class and a second-class.

In this way, my self-confidence was battered and battered during this month, as if someone stepped on the ground over and over again.

Not only was he unable to keep up with his studies, but he was also inferior in his dealings with others. He felt that he could not communicate with the students around him.

It's been a month, and I still can't adapt to life here.

And the shocks that I didn't expect are still coming in a steady stream. Even if I asked a small reporter to sign up today, I would be laughed at.

I really don't know what to do with myself.

For the first time, I began to feel a little bit at a loss about my future.

I know that I am not smart, so I can learn slowly before. In the tortoise and the hare race, I can catch up slowly in a stupid way.

But here I feel that no matter how I try to catch up, I can't catch up.

I lay quietly on the table, my eyes moist.

I miss home.

Although I was not very good in that family, I was just homesick.

want to get out of here.

Even if my mother scolds me for being worthless, this is the end of my life, I can't expect anything from you... But I still want to go home and leave here.

Of course, I was just thinking about it. I knew I couldn’t give up on CityU. I got into it with great difficulty. My family’s situation was not good. I knew that my mother had to save money to send me monthly living expenses after I left.

The subsistence allowance is not enough to pay for my studies.

I can't live up to this heart.

But I'm so tired.

very tired.

Tired.

Brain tired.

The body is more tired.

I'm hungry again.

I live frugally every day, and I don’t have much pocket money, so I can only eat the cheapest things.

Tianci will occasionally invite me to the second canteen, but my mother said that cannibalism is short-sighted. Although I know Tianci very well, I really don’t know Ding Fan.

No wonder everyone doesn't like me.

Who would like a poor, mediocre, poor student who doesn't study well? Of course, anyone can bully him.

Banhua's vicious face and taunting words appeared in my mind again.

I can't argue with people.

Everything I have since the beginning of school is indeed contemptible. This is not a high school, everyone focuses on learning, this is a university, and comprehensive quality is king.

Besides, what do I have to look up to?

Tears soaked my shirt, and in the quiet night, with a cold touch, it reached the bottom of my heart.