Collection of essays

Protagonist: Shen Mu, Ling Zimo

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"The tragedy of life is not how much you suffer, but the inability to wake up from the suffering."

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It has been three days since my mother passed away.

These three days have been terrible for Shen Mu.

Shen Mu didn't know what a family should be like, but he knew that at least it shouldn't be like him.

Shen Mu's father was addicted to alcohol. On the day Shen Mu was five years old, his mother answered a phone call, then hurriedly took Shen Mu's hand and ran outside.The two took a taxi and rushed to the Liuhe Bridge at the fastest speed, but it was still useless.

They are one step late.

Shen Mu watched helplessly as his father, who was sitting on the railing of the bridge, fell into the river just like that.

Make a splash.

Later, Shen Mu's mother suffered from depression.

Then, three days ago, Shen Mu's mother passed away.

Shen Mu is a senior in high school this year.

But he had to take a break from school for a while.

Shen Mu is now alone.

In fact, in a sense, Shen Mu has been alone since the day his father passed away.

But there is still a big gap between whether it is true or not.

Can not accept.

Can not accept.

Shen Mu violently grabbed the photo album on the side, threw it viciously against the wall, and let out a hoarse roar.

The voice is hoarse, like a trapped animal.

There was a sudden knock on the door.

"Get out!" Shen Mu didn't open the door, but yelled in the direction of the door.

"Shen Mu, it's me, the teacher asked me to come."

The people outside the door were not frightened, but continued to knock on the door stubbornly, and explained.

It's the monitor of their class, Anyang.

That, good obedient boy.

Shen Mu raised the corner of his mouth, his eyes were full of sarcasm.He stood up, walked to the door, and then yanked the door open vigorously. Anyang didn't check for a while, and almost fell into Shen Mu's arms.

"What's the matter? Squad leader?" Shen Mu stretched out his hand "friendlyly" to support Anyang, then when he retracted his hand, he pretended to push Anyang hard to the ground.

"Hmm..." He fell to the ground, and a sharp pain came from Anyang's buttocks, which made his eyes turn red.

The squeamish is just a girl.

Shen Mu folded his hands on his chest, his eyes were cold.

Finding that Shen Mu didn't intend to reach out to help him, Anyang had no choice but to stand up by himself, with a look on his face as if he had been wronged a lot.He said: "Shen Mu, the teacher is worried about you. We are now in the third year of high school, and you are taking a break from school. It will be very difficult if you can't keep up with your studies, so the teacher asked me to tutor you..." "No need, thank you. "Shen Mu interrupted his words directly, then turned around, closed the door, and moved smoothly.

Anyang knocked on the door unwillingly and shouted loudly at the same time, obviously trying to persuade Shen Mu again.

Shen Mu looked around the house, then picked up a pair of pliers, and threw it viciously towards the door.The door collided with the pliers, and there was a loud noise, scaring Anyang to sit on the ground again.

But Shen Mu didn't have the time to realize how much Anyang's psychological shadow is now.He went straight to the balcony, leaned against the door, looked at the dark sky outside the window, casually touched a cigarette from his trouser pocket and lit it.

Shen Mu is not so cruel to everyone.

The attitude he usually pursues is to ignore.

If it wasn't for the way Anyang looked at him, it would be too disgusting.

He couldn't help but think of that pervert who blatantly invaded his life in the name of loving him in his third year of junior high, and finally made his mother fall ill.

From then on, he used one word for everyone who threatened to love him - "Get lost".

Extreme, but powerless.

Scared, hurt again.

Shen Mu took a long puff of the cigarette, and then exhaled it. As the smoke filled the air, he saw a light lit in the distance.

It's going to be night.

The city at night is very lively.

Shen Mu hates crowds, but he also looks forward to them.

Go down and walk.

Thinking of this, he stubbed out the cigarette in his hand and stood up unsteadily.When he reached the door, he stopped his hand movement again.

I don't know if that good boy is still around.

Come on, it's been more than ten minutes, and they probably left early.

Forget it.

Shen Mu suddenly didn't want to go down.

He felt a little sleepy.

No, I'm afraid that the good boy is still at the door, and then he will pester him needlessly.

lazy.

Thinking of this, Shen Mu wobbled back to the room and lay down on the bed.

When I woke up again, it was already broad daylight.

I'm a little hungry.

So hunger defeated laziness, Shen Mu walked out of the room, ready to go down and buy something casually.

Unexpectedly, the "trouble" is still there.

"You stayed all night?" Shen Mu frowned as he looked at the other party's swollen eyes.

"Woooooo..." Anyang didn't speak, but buried his head back in his knees, sobbing.

"Md, are you sick or poisonous!" Shen Mu finally couldn't help swearing, and scratched his hair irritably.

Anyang didn't speak, but still cried.

"..." Shen Mu glared at him angrily, and finally gave in and dodged a gap, "Get out."

There is no way, there are too many people during the day, but at night, it is okay, there are few people, maybe it has the effect of suppressing evil and driving away evil.But if you still put such an ancestor at the door during the day, maybe you should pass on some virtues to yourself by then.

Words are scary.

Sighing like this, Shen Mu took a cup of raw water from the kitchen and threw it in front of Anyang: "Only this, drink it or not."

Anyang's eyes were swollen, he picked up the cup, and just took a sip before spitting it out: "Uncooked water?!"

"Yeah, raw water. Only this, drink it or not." Shen Mu folded his arms around his chest, still looking at Anyang with a mocking face.

"Woo..." Anyang looked at the cup in his hand, was stunned for a while, then lowered his head, and started to cry.

"I!!!" Shen Mu felt like he was going crazy, he wanted to kill someone! !

"I just want to give you tutoring, I have no malicious intentions, why did you treat me like this, and I didn't provoke you!" An Yang lowered his head, obviously wronged to the extreme, so he cried loudly to Shen Mu while crying.

"Oh. Then, from now on, take back your disgusting eyes." Shen Mu said with a cold face, word by word.

"...Are you homophobic?"

"No. It's just because of you people that nothing good has ever happened to me."

"..." Anyang still lowered his head, just kept silent, didn't speak, but didn't cry either.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." After a long time, Anyang said softly, his voice was hoarse and dry, "I'm sorry...but...but I really...but I really like you...I can't let you go...I'm sorry ...I'm sorry...I'm sorry Shen Mu...I still like you..."

Anyang spoke with a humble attitude, which made Shen Mu's heart, which was always cold like a stone, suddenly sore.

"...Forget it." After the two stalemate for a while, Shen Mu finally surrendered, "From now on, you can come to my house for tutoring."

"!" Anyang raised his head when he heard the words, with a smile on his face, like a child who got a star, "Really! Shen Mu, do you accept me!"

"I just accept that you like me. Others, don't accept." Shen Mu explained, and then he watched Anyang's smile disappear little by little, and the whole person returned to the previous state.

But it seems to be better than before.

"Hehehe. It's good that you can accept that I like you! Shen Mu, don't worry! I will never cause you any trouble! I will help you with tutoring!"

"Now, can I trouble you to wash your face in the bathroom? The bathroom is over there."

"Okay, okay! By the way, Shen Mu, your room is so messy!"

"Hehe. If you don't like it, just get out."

"Shen Mu, can you stop being so vulgar~"

"Don't take an inch."

As soon as Shen Mu's warning words came out, Anyang calmed down immediately, and obediently walked into the bathroom.

After seeing Anyang go in, Shen Mu finally couldn't help rubbing his temples.

I feel that my future life will definitely be a mess.

well.trouble.

I really don't know if my brain was kicked by a donkey just now.

But I always feel that Anyang will be different from others.

hope so.

If he is the same as that person, then... get rid of it.

Shen Mu lowered his head, a sternness flashed in his eyes.

He has never been a kind person, and he has never been soft-hearted.

Anyang, you must...don't regret it.