look back again

Chapter 35

"Heh," Zheng He sneered, and stood up rubbing the corner of his mouth that was hurt from the beating. Instead of looking at Lu Yuanhang, he looked at Lin Chen who came out from behind.

"15 years ago, you were protected by your father. You never thought that 15 years later, there would still be a man who would protect you. You are really blessed, Lin Chen!"

This sentence made Lu Yuanhang's heart skip a beat. He thought of Xu Li's investigation of Zheng He's background. He remembered that Zheng He must have lost his younger brother Zheng Feng 15 years ago, because of a negligence that no one could explain clearly. , his younger brother had a high fever in the classroom and no one noticed, and he died due to delayed treatment. At that time, Lin Chen happened to be his younger brother's deskmate. However, Lin Chen had already gone through the transfer procedures, so the two should not be able to meet each other.

"Why?" This was the question in Lin Chen's mind. He couldn't figure out what entanglement he would have with Zheng He. He actually liked this friend very much. He liked it in his heart. Apart from Lu Yuanhang, The person he really wants to associate with has a sense of reassurance about him.But all of a sudden, it was gone again, Zheng He in front of him still had a trace of gentleness, and the eyes he looked at him were full of hatred.

What kind of hatred?It can make a person so unrecognizable.

"Why? Hehe, you still ask me why? Yes, you are innocent, you are pitiful, you have been hiding behind others, leaving all the problems to others, of course you don't know anything, but Lin Chen, Because of your eccentricity, you don't care about others, you don't feel good from others, so you don't take the initiative to care about others, and let a person who wants to make friends with you die painfully by your side , and you, don’t hear it! Don’t ask! Just let him die in your indifference!” Zheng He’s eyes were red, and he stared at Lin Chen firmly, exhausting every word and every word.

"Do you still remember Zheng Feng! You definitely don't remember! He had a high fever when he died, did he suffer from pain beside you! And you, turn a blind eye! He was silently begging for help, and you, Ignorant! But he is my brother, my beloved brother, he stayed in that classroom forever, that year, he was only nine years old! When he showed his affection to you and wanted to make friends with you, he Do you still remember the smile at you? As for you, you transferred to another school, and you transferred on the same day! You didn’t even say goodbye to him! He, do you remember!!!”

"What does this have to do with Lin Chen, he has already transferred schools!"

"Transfer? Haha, yes, he really has a good father. When I went to school to find him, the teacher said that Lin Chen had already transferred. He must be guilty! He transferred so quickly! Are you afraid to face him? For my own fault, I dare not stay in this classroom anymore, aren't you afraid that my brother will come back to look for you in his dreams at night when you sleep? Has he ever asked you why you are so indifferent and unfeeling!"

Lin Chen's heart thumped heavily. He really had a little impression of Zheng Feng. Because of Lin Chen's health, he hardly ever went to elementary school properly. He started to go to school seriously when he was in the third grade. He was just a transfer student who was arranged by the teacher next to a male classmate, that person was Zheng Feng.

Zheng Feng is also a very quiet classmate. At the beginning, the two of them simply greeted each other. Gradually, he would take the initiative to talk to him, and he was not so afraid anymore.But the good times didn't last long. At that time, it happened that his father changed jobs and was about to be transferred from his current position, so he transferred with him. He still remembers that when he left that day, he came to Zheng Feng's side and said goodbye to him for the first time. , and waited there for a while, hoping to get a response from Zheng Feng, but Zheng Feng didn't raise his head that day, he thought Zheng Feng was just unhappy, by mistake, the last sentence he said to Zheng Feng , turned out to be true.

Goodbye, forever!

"he?"

"He died that day, and he will be gone that day. It's all you. You just need to care a little more. I don't ask you much, just look at him!!!"

Lin Chen couldn't stand anymore, his feet hit the ground directly, and he knelt down heavily. He didn't know that his negligence actually killed a person. He never thought about it again, when he refused others , There is a person, because of his own rejection, left this world forever, left forever, how old is he, he has not been able to take a good look at this world, he lives harder, stronger, happier than himself I have more right to live.

"Sorry……"

Lin Chen tightly grabbed his wrist, held tightly, only pain, only pain can make him breathe, only pain can make him feel at ease, only pain can make him understand How outrageous how wrong I was.

It turned out that he still carried such a debt on his body, no wonder he lived so tiredly, did everything have a cause and effect?At this moment, Lin Chen believed in the so-called karma. He made a wrong step and pushed himself into this abyss step by step. How about it, such a self does not deserve any happiness.

"I'm sorry..." Apart from being sorry, he didn't know how to express his apology. Lu Yuanhang could forgive him, and his parents could forgive him, but for Zheng He, he couldn't even forgive himself.Just a moment ago, he thought that his redemption was over, he was reborn from Nirvana, and he could live happily with Lu Yuanhang. Whack is waiting, one thought of heaven, one thought of hell, he understood.

Lu Yuanhang was also stunned by this turning point, seeing Lin Chen in such pain, but he didn't know how to comfort him, Zheng Feng was gone, and it didn't make any sense who was right or wrong.He knows Lin Chen's character, he is really timid and cowardly, but he doesn't believe that Lin Chen decided to transfer because of Zheng Feng's matter, although he has many problems, but he will not escape, just like now, After he knew the truth, he didn't hide behind himself, but stood in front of Zheng He.

"Lin Chen has indeed changed schools, and the transfer is not because of your brother, but because of his father's transfer, and he didn't know about it."

"No, I went to school that day, because I wanted to say hello to him before leaving, I went, I saw him lying on the table, I thought he was angry, I, I, I—"

"My brother is so kind. He won't be angry with others at all. He doesn't have the energy to raise his head and say goodbye to you!"

"Sorry, I don't know, sorry, I really don't know."

Guilt and self-blame, but these are useless. With Zheng Feng, all these regrets are useless...

Zheng He finally saw Lin Chen's guilt, and finally made him understand his fault. Seeing his pain, he felt that he should be satisfied in his heart, but in fact, he also understood that Lin Chen's fault was not to blame at all. On the head, he has no obligation to take responsibility at all, even he himself, Zheng Feng's closest brother, didn't find out about it, so why ask others to care about it?He was just not reconciled, he just wanted an apology from Lin Chen, and now, he finally got it.For the friend whom his younger brother pursued so hard, he finally got back his breath.

It's just that, without any meaning, 15 years have passed, and his brother will never come back.

"You, remember to go and see him, he really wants to make friends with you." Zheng He left an address, and then left without seeing Lin Chen again.

It's time to be content, at least, Lin Chen really didn't know about it.Instead of running away because of cowardice, brother, the friend you chose is worse than you and even more useless than you. Do you still want to make friends with him?

But he really looks like you. From the first time I saw him, I felt like you. I didn’t dare to talk to strangers, and I didn’t dare to approach others casually. When I was nervous, I would stutter. Only in front of me would I feel like you. Only when you laugh, you can talk freely.

Lin Chen, why is it you?Originally, we could be friends...

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I didn't intend to get together to abuse, but I, Erfeng Jinmi, abused me too much, so I wrote it wrong┭┮﹏┭┮