i know i'm sick

Looking around at the door, the furnishings in the room are exactly the same as in memory, even the water glasses on the table are exactly the same as before.He walked slowly to the side of the bed, sat down, and gently stroked the quilt and pillow with his fingers.

Really familiar.

If it wasn't for the memory of those more than ten years, Yang Anning would have thought that he and Aning hadn't left Yangcheng for Shiwan Dashan yet.He understood Ling Ran's intentions, and the arrangement of these unchanged things was just to remind him of the intimacy between him and him.However, Ling Ran ignored it. In Yang Anning's heart, sweetness has always existed, but that person is not him.

Yang Anning lay on the bed, staring straight at the bed curtain, memories flooded in like a flood.He remembered that he and Aning were entangled with each other on this bed, and he also remembered that Aning took care of him in every possible way afterwards.In Yangcheng, for Yang Anning, the deepest memory is this bed.He lay on this bed for several days, almost half of his time in Yangcheng.

Yang Anning closed her eyes and asked, "A'Ning, do you still remember our... first night?"

Aning lay down beside him and said, "Of course I remember. I was drunk and hurt you."

Yang Anning smiled lightly: "You acted like I bullied you later on."

Aning didn't speak, but held Yang Anning's hand.

Yang Anning said: "Ah Ning, I have never asked you, what are you thinking after that day?"

Aning froze for a moment, then asked, "What do you think I should think?"

Yang Anning said: "I don't know, you never mentioned before, what do you think about our future..."

Yang Anning paused, and said: "Of course I didn't mention it to you. At that time, I just felt that the relationship was strong and the future would be long. When we are together, it is naturally more affectionate."

Aning asked: "Then what do you think?"

Yang Anning said: "My parents have passed away. Although San'er and Brother Qiao are close to me, they can't interfere with emotional matters. When we are with you, there will be no pressure to come to my own home. But you are different. ...I thought about it before, you are young and unstable, no matter what happens in the future, I will protect you now. Although I don't have any martial arts skills, I can help you support other things, and I will definitely not let you It's hard to do at home. Maybe I'm arrogant, I thought, you are so obsessed with me now, as long as I return the same feelings to you, you will not change your mind. I thought that we can be together for a long time... "

Yang Anning didn't continue, the slightly deep voice slowly dissipated in the room.

"I thought we could be together for a long time." But Aning was by his side, why would he say such a thing?

Yang Anning didn't dare to think about it, he asked: "A'Ning, what about you?"

Aning was silent for a long time, until Yang Anning got up and looked down at him, he still didn't answer.

Yang Anning asked: "A'Ning, don't you want to tell me?"

Aning smiled wryly. He looked at Yang Anning and said, "Anning, I don't know, I really don't know."

It is impossible for Aning to know, he is not the real Ling Ran, so how could he know what Ling Ran is thinking?

Yang Anning looked at him, his face gradually lost expression.Yang Anning lay back on the bed again and said, "Go to sleep."

There were no more voices in the next room, and after a while, the sound of even breathing came, and Ling Ran knew that Yang Anning had fallen asleep.

Ling Ran didn't feel sleepy at all. Yang Anning's words not only made him feel unspeakable heartache again, but also slapped him several times like a pair of powerful hands.At that time, he was full of revenge, where did he think about the future with An Ning?But An Ning had already made plans for them.

Ling Ran has a secret deep in his heart, he dare not think about it, dare not say it, even he would rather forget it himself - that night, he was not drunk.

Ling Ran had never been drunk before, and pretending to be drunk was just a way to get Yang Anning.Maybe he wouldn't refuse Yang Anning if he asked directly, but Ling Ran didn't want to do that, but he wanted Yang Anning to be hurt.Ling Ran succeeded, but now he regrets it too much, he would rather he was really drunk at the beginning.

This is a secret that Ling Ran will never reveal.He couldn't let Yang Anning know, he couldn't bear the consequences of Yang Anning knowing about it.

Ever since he knew that Yang Anning was still alive, except for the excitement at the beginning, he was surrounded by regret every moment after that, especially after seeing Yang Anning, Yang Anning's situation reminded him all the time how abominable he is.

Ling Ran opened his eyes, doubting himself for the first time: After doing so many wrong things, can he really make An Ning change his mind?Why should An Ning forgive him?What qualifications does he have for An Ning to forgive him?

Ling Ran slapped himself hard, the crisp sound seemed so abrupt in the night.

Don't think so much, don't think so much, I don't forgive, An Ning can only be by his side, there is no other choice.

52.

Ling Ran and Yang Anning stayed in Yangcheng for seven days.I have been resting at the inn before, although there is a place to rest, but it is not my home after all, so there are many inconveniences.Yangcheng was the first destination they arrived at. Ling Ran specially arranged to stay longer, so that Yang Anning would have time to relieve the fatigue of the journey and refresh his body.

The last time they came to Yangcheng, the two of them basically spent time in the villa, and did not appreciate the scenery of Yangcheng.Back here again, Ling Ran hopes to visit all the beautiful scenery in Yangcheng with Yang Anning.Yang Anning did not refuse. He is from the north, so he is more or less curious about the scenery in the south. It is mid-March, and the wind in the north is still biting cold, but spring flowers are already blooming everywhere in Yangcheng.

Ling Ran might have other thoughts.

Along the way, Ling Ran has seen that Yang Anning is not disgusted with the process of going south, and even has a little nostalgia. This can be seen from Yang Anning's attitude towards him—from the moment he left Zheliu Villa. He refused to pay attention to him, and confronted him tit for tat. When he arrived in Yangcheng, he was able to occasionally respond to his questions, and his attitude towards him was much gentler.Naturally, Ling Ran would not let go of this opportunity, now Yang Anning can make him happy just by giving him a good look.

Ling Ran has been thinking about Zhang Qian's words, he wants to understand what "A Ning" means to Yang Anning.From Yang Anning's narration, he knew when and where Aning appeared, and he also understood that "A Ning" represented their beautiful past to Yang Anning, but how to replace Aning in Yang Anning? He has no idea about the position in his heart.He can treat Yang Anning unconditionally, but only if Yang Anning accepts it. If Anning refuses to accept it, everything will be in vain.

Ling Ran is very clear that in Yang Anning's heart, he represents the hurt and deceit of the past. He wants to restore the relationship with Yang Anning to the past, and he has to put in several times more effort than ordinary people. Now, even if Yang Anning accepts a stranger Neither would want to accept him.But Yang Anning was so gentle to Aning, she gave almost all her trust to Aning, obviously Aning and him were one person.Yang Anning still has love for him, otherwise he would not be so tolerant and considerate to Aning, this may be his only chance to save Yang Anning.

The speed of going south was consciously slowed down by Ling Ran.At first, Ling Ran wanted to bring Yang Anning back to Shiwan Dashan as soon as possible, looking for an opportunity for Yang Anning to recover, but the change of Yang Anning's attitude along the way made him change his mind.Ling Ran didn't need to think about it to know that Yang Anning's attitude towards him would never be as gentle as it is now when he arrived at Jincheng and Shiwandashan. He didn't even dare to think that Yang Anning would be the same after the general What kind of state.

Ling Ran is greedy for Yang Anning's little warmth.

Yang Anning didn't raise any objections, he didn't want to go to Shiwan Dashan again in his heart, but there must always be a break between him and Ling Ran.He is not an indecisive person. If it must be resolved, it should be resolved once.But no matter how clear he was in his heart, his deep-rooted resistance to it could not be eliminated, and it would be his wish if he could arrive at a slower time.

But no matter how slow you walk, you will always reach your destination one day. Seeing that Jin Cheng is getting closer and closer, Yang Anning's mood also calms down. It's not an outward expression, but it seems to hide everything in her heart dull.His attitude towards Ling Ran did not return to the indifference he had when he first left Zheliu Villa, but it was not as soft as he was on the road.

Ling Ran naturally saw his change, but there was nothing he could do.They can't be on the road forever, they still have to go to Jincheng after all.

53.

It has been raining in Jincheng since April.The continuous drizzle drifted over Jincheng, adding a little softness to Jincheng for no reason.

After entering the city, Ling Ran directly brought Yang Anning to the branch of the Xi Miao Sect in Jincheng.

When Yang Anning got out of the carriage, he hesitated for a moment, this hesitation was very short, and he couldn't find it if he didn't pay special attention.After getting out of the car, Yang Anning found that this was a very strange place, he had never been there before.

Ling Ran said: "An Ning, this is the branch of the Holy Cult in Jincheng, we will stay here first, and wait for you to rest well."

Yang Anning didn't answer. He looked around and found that this place had a strong exotic atmosphere just like the Ximiao Sect General Altar he had been to.This is not the place where he lived in Jincheng, but he thought about it. Since Ling Ran had such thoughts before, he would not take him to live in the core stronghold of Ximiao Sect in Jincheng.

Ling Ran said: "You don't have to think too much... just stay at ease, when you want to go... the main altar, let's go..."

Yang Anning raised the corner of her mouth lightly, and said, "Wait until I want to go? I won't have to go for the rest of my life. Master Ling doesn't have to worry about me."

Ling Ran also smiled at him, but the smile was very forced.Ling Ran said, "Don't worry."

Ling Ran was a little helpless, and also a little regretful with