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Aning said: "I will not leave you, I will always be with you. But An Ning, I also hope you can be happy..."

Yang Anning immediately said, "I'm very happy to be with you."

Aning's hands carefully painted Yang Anning's face, and Aning said: "I want to see you really happy, just like when you were with him before."

Yang Anning said, "What are you talking about? You were always with me before."

Aning kissed Yang Anning's forehead lightly, shook her head and said, "Anning, go back, I'll be with you."

Yang Anning let go of Aning, and he carefully looked at Aning's face. Aning's face looked a little strange, faintly overlapping with Ling Ran's face.

Aning said, "An Ning, don't be afraid."

Yang Anning closed her eyes and said, "I promise you."

Ling Ran looked at him from the side, he didn't know what Aning and Yang Anning said, he only saw Yang Anning talking to himself.In the end, Yang Anning seemed to have made a decision. He turned around and said to Ling Ran: "I'm with Aning, we'll go with you. But before I go, I have to arrange things in the village, and then I'll start my journey."

Ling Ran didn't expect him to agree so easily, he thought it would take a lot of effort to get Yang Anning to agree to go back with him.Ling Ran hastily agreed: "You can leave whenever you want. I'll listen to you."

Yang Anning said, "I have conditions."

Ling Ran froze for a moment, and said, "Say it."

Yang Anning said: "After we go, no matter what the result is, good or bad, I hope there can be a real break between us."

Ling Ran asked: "What is... a real end?"

Yang Anning said: "I don't know either. Who knows? If... I die, please send my remains back to Zheliu Villa..."

Ling Ran growled in pain: "I won't let you die! An Ning, trust me, I won't let what happened before..."

Yang Anning didn't answer, and didn't look at him anymore.

People in this world always have to move forward, but what is ahead?

There was a cloud of white mist in front of Yang Anning, and he couldn't see anything clearly.

49.

Liu Sanzhe and Qiao Dalou did not agree with Yang Anning's departure at first.The two years without hearing from Yang Anning also left a deep shadow on them. They were worried that if Yang Anning left, they would lose their news again, not to mention that Ling Ran was with him.But they could never change the decision Yang Anning made.

It took Yang Anning half a month to hand over all the affairs in the village to Liu Sanzhe. Although he let him go before, Yang Anning never let him touch some secret things.Hearing Yang Anning tell him what to do with the dark tent in the village, and how to deal with some shady businesses, Liu Sanzhe was secretly startled.

After Yang Anning explained everything, Liu Sanzhe asked tremblingly, "Uncle Yang, are you... not planning to come back?"

Yang Anning patted his head and said, "Just be prepared. Whether it's life or death, I will always come back."

Liu Sanzhe said: "Uncle Yang, why do you still want to go to that place? If you don't want to, we won't let that bastard take you away..."

Yang Anning said: "Maybe... I also have some thoughts of wanting to heal myself... In short, good or bad, it's just this time. If I can come back with all my hair, we can live in peace in the future."

On the day of leaving, Liu Sanzhe and Qiao shouted to send him off a long way.

Yang Anning was sitting in a four-horse carriage. The interior of the carriage was very comfortable. Soft fur blankets were spread on the ground, and the carriage was wrapped with silky brocade. In the center of the carriage was a small table with tea sets and Fruit, and a few pillows scattered around the table.Yang Anning's carriage was followed by several cargo carts, which were full of things needed along the way.

Liu Sanzhe and Qiao Dalou brought everything they could think of to Yang Anning, for fear that he would be wronged on the way.Naturally, they will not forget the most important medicinal materials. Yang Anning's health has just improved, and he cannot go back to the past because of this journey.

Ten miles away from the city gate, Yang Anning said loudly to Liu Sanzhe and Qiao: "Go back, I will report to you on time."

Joe said loudly: "If you are not happy outside, come back."

Liu Sanzhe said: "Uncle Yang, you must come back, we are all waiting for you."

Yang Anning smiled at them, the warmth in his words made Ling Ran beside him extremely jealous, Yang Anning said: "Don't worry, I will come back. When I am away, San'er, you have to manage Zhuangzi well. If you come back, I will If you find you are lazy, don’t blame me for being rude to you. Brother Qiao, if you can stop the affairs in the rivers and lakes, stop it. The life of fighting and killing, you don’t know when it will be dragged on yourself. If you can live a stable life Don't get involved in those things anymore. Sometimes, if you don't make trouble, things will come to you instead. "

Liu Sanzhe nodded hurriedly, and said, "I'm sure I'll be optimistic about Zhuangzi, don't worry."

Joe said loudly: "You take care of yourself, and don't worry about other things. San'er and I know it well."

Yang Anning said: "Well, I'm not worried about you. Okay, let's go back."

Yang Anning waved his hand, retracted his head into the carriage, and signaled the carriage to drive forward.

50.

The itinerary for going south was determined by Ling Ran. After walking for a long time, Yang Anning discovered that the journey this time was almost exactly the same as the last time.Yang Anning didn't say anything, he pretended not to notice anything.

Yang Anning basically never stepped out of the carriage unless he was staying at the hotel.Ling Ran would sometimes come to the carriage, and every time he entered, Yang Anning would unconsciously move a few minutes to the corner of the carriage.He is still afraid of Ling Ran, this is the shadow left by him before, it is something that has penetrated into his bones and blood.

Ling Ran naturally noticed his actions, but he also pretended to be stupid. He would not give up the opportunity to get along with Yang An Ning just because he avoided him. The result of the two can only be farther and farther away.Ling Ran does not allow such things to happen, he wants An Ning to get used to his existence, even if An Ning rejects him now.Habit is the scariest thing, what he has to do now is to make An Ning get used to having him by his side.

Yang Anning's daily medicines are all boiled by Ling Ran himself, what kind of medicinal materials should be put in and how much each medicinal material should be put in, Ling Ran can say without thinking.Yang Anning's medicine has to be boiled for three hours, and the control of the heat is very important. If the fire is not controlled properly, the whole medicine will be boiled in vain.There is no condition on the road, Ling Ran can only wait for the night to stay and Yang Anning to take medicine after rest, after a night, he basically has no time to sleep and rest.But Ling Ran never thought of entrusting this matter to others. It was all in Zheliu Villa, and he couldn't trust others after he came out.It was related to Yang Anning's body, he would rather be tired than to be negligent.

The tea, fruits and vegetables in Yang Anning's carriage never stopped, every day Ling Ran sent people to buy the freshest fruits and put them on Yang Anning's table.Sometimes when he rode along beside the carriage, he would hear An Ning talking in the carriage, and he knew that An Ning was talking to Aning.The peace facing Aning is always very gentle and tolerant. This kind of peace is the peace that once belonged to him, and it is the peace facing his lover.No matter how envious Ling Ran is, it's useless, Yang Anning won't show this side to him, it's something he lost, it's hard to get it back, it's hard to get it back, it will take a lot of hard work for him to get back what he lost.

When Ling Ran was in the carriage, he would take the initiative to tell Yang Anning about the past, they had sweet memories on this road, this memory not only belonged to him, but also belonged to Yang Anning.If time can be stopped, Ling Ran hopes to stay in the time and space when he and Yang Anning went south forever.Mentioning that memory, Ling Ran's heart is full of tenderness, and Yang Anning's expression will be more gentle - no matter how miserable it will be in the future, for them, that memory is a good one.Ling Ran chose this route, naturally hoping to arouse Yang Anning's love for him.

This is the most peaceful day for the two of them to get along since their reunion.

Their itinerary was much faster than the first time. After all, when they went south for the first time, the two of them also traveled around the mountains and rivers.

On the eighth night after leaving Zheliu Villa, they arrived in Yangcheng.

51.

Yangcheng is a special place for both Yang Anning and Ling Ran, but since they left last time, neither of them has been here again.Yang Anning had no chance and never thought of coming back, Ling Ran dared not come back.Yangcheng is the place where they really mingle physically and mentally. Yang Anning fully accepts Ling Ran here, leaving no room for herself emotionally.Later, Ling Ran had many opportunities to come back here, but he rejected them all. He had an undisguised resistance to Yang Cheng, and he was afraid that he would no longer be able to suppress his longing for Yang Anning when he returned here.

Now, they're back together.

Zhuangzi is still the same as before.Although Ling Ran didn't come back, the Zhuangzi where he and Yang Anning lived had been preserved, and not a single plant or tree in it had been changed.

Yang Anning felt very strange, although he had only been to this place once, and it had been more than ten years, yet he was familiar with this place as if he had just been here yesterday.

Ling Ran took him to the door of the room where they used to live, Yang Anning didn't show the slightest abnormality.The moment he stepped into Zhuangzi, he knew that he was going to live in this room.

Ling Ran said: "An Ning, you will sleep here tonight. I...is next door to you. Do you want to eat more? Or should I get someone to fetch water, and you can wash up and rest first?"

Yang Anning shook his head and said, "It's all gone, you don't have to worry about me."

After speaking, Yang Anning entered the room and closed the door.

Ling Ran stood at the door for a while, smiled wryly, and entered his room.

Yang Anning stood in the room