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"I'm actually very lucky. I have made many friends since I was a child, and a few friends know about my family. They all expressed their understanding and kept the secret for me. They didn't discriminate against me and alienate me because of it. A child raised gay is gay."

"Maybe my luck has been used up in the first ten years." Ju Zeyi said, "In high school, my best friend, after knowing that my fathers were gay, continued to be friends with me, pretending I don’t mind at all, but at the same time I told people that my dad is gay and I’m gay too.”

"For a long time, I didn't know what happened. People in the class inexplicably began to alienate me, as if I was carrying some infectious disease, isolated me and slandered me."

"Until one day I heard him say to others, 'Ju Zeyi, that gay? If it weren't for his good grades, he would borrow my homework and give me a key point, who would care less to be friends with him'."

Ju Zeyi's tone was very flat, as if he was saying that the weather was fine today, but it made Cheng Qufei feel sad for a while.

Your most trusted friend stabbed you in the chest...

He also smiled and pointed to the wound for everyone to see, saying, I inserted it, and he deserved it.

How painful that must be.

"Classmates of two years, can you imagine that friends and classmates who used to eat and go to get out of class together, talk about making troubles, suddenly draw a line with you, and even say behind your back that you are disgusting and perverted."

Ju Zeyi's eyes were blank for a moment, he was silent for a while, and then he continued: "Actually, there's nothing wrong with it. It's fine to be alone, happy and quiet. When I was in the third year of high school, the basketball team changed, and I put all my energy into it. Back to study, thinking that it will be fine after graduation..."

Cheng Qufei moved his lips with a complicated tone: "So... what happened?"

"It was a sunny day, and the weather was very good." Ju Zeyi showed a look of reminiscence, and said, "I went back to the classroom after dinner, and there were a few people from other classes playing in our class. They gathered in the back row and gathered around Man, what are you looking at?"

"Then they stopped me and told me to come over."

"At first, I didn't want to pay attention to it, but it's been too long since no one took the initiative to talk to me in a friendly way, so I passed."

"They are watching G|V." Ju Zeyi closed his eyes, and now thinking of the situation at that time, he feels sick to his stomach, "The person who called me over put his arm around my shoulder and asked me, where is my dad? Didn’t it also be done like this, ask me if you want to try it too.”

"Ju Zeyi." Cheng Qufei couldn't help interrupting him, "You don't need to go into such details."

You don't have to force yourself to recall that day... He looked at Ju Zeyi's fingertips that were turning white from clenching hard, his eyes dim.

The back of Ju Zeyi's right hand still had a very light bruise, which was the mark left from the fight that day. He lowered his eyes, lowered his left hand, and gently rubbed the back of his right hand: "Then I will beat them all up." A meal."

"There are not many people in the classroom, but there are also many, but no one holds me back."

"At first they thought it was a small fight, and they were all afraid of being involved, so everyone stood by and watched. In the end, they couldn't hold back, and the scene got out of control. It was so chaotic that it was impossible to tell who was trying to persuade the fight and who was causing the trouble."

"I pushed the man onto the desk and pressed him to make him apologize."

"I didn't hear a 'sorry' until the end." Ju Zeyi said again, "But it doesn't matter, everyone went to the hospital, no one is better than the other."

"At that time, the college entrance examination was approaching, and the fight became a big scene. The parents of some students who were accidentally injured in the persuasion fight broke out. The school was very angry and said it would deal with it seriously."

"But I didn't expect that their so-called serious treatment was dealing with me." Ju Zeyi smiled, especially ironically, "The people who fought with me were powerful and powerful in their families, and their parents didn't care whether it was right or wrong. The school expelled me."

"Maybe the school is reluctant to let me and expects me to 'win glory' for them, so it just gave me a punishment. Also because I caused a bad influence on the school, it canceled my qualifications for various competitions and scholarships. Apologize to those classmates, ask me to be sincere, and ask me to read the review in front of the whole school."

"The head teacher explained to me that it was just to satisfy the parents of the other party, so it's fine to persuade me to bear it."

"It's too much." Cheng Qufei clenched his fists, his chest heaving up and down with anger, "Why, why should you bear it."

"If you want to punish everyone to be punished together, why do you do it? You are the only one who is punished in the end, and you have to bear with it."

He felt angry and sad.

He thought, it's no wonder that Ju Zeyi has been avoiding too much contact with people in his class, it's no wonder that Ju Zeyi is unwilling to participate in the Olympiad, he will drag Zhou Qiang without return, and he doesn't like Li Siyu... No wonder, he will say "If you can suppress it, then suppress it, if you are private, you will be punished intentionally, and the big matter will be reduced, and the trivial matter will be reduced." This kind of words, this must be so disappointing to the former teachers...

All the indifference has been explained, but in his bones, he is still that kind boy.

Cheng Qufei looked at Ju Zeyi, and his whole heart was filled with an emotion called distress. He almost wanted to scold and beat all the idiot teachers in No. [-] Middle School to make his heart feel better.

Compared with Cheng Qufei's heart full of turbulent waves, Ju Zeyi's heart was like a lake where a small pebble had fallen, with only a layer of ripples.

I have already been disappointed once, although I still feel resentful and ridiculous, but Ju Zeyi's heart is no longer as difficult as before.

It's just that Cheng Qufei's angry appearance made him feel that he was lucky after all.

Because he transferred to Qinghe and met Cheng Qufei.

He relaxed and said, "I refuse to apologize, and I refuse to make a review in front of the whole school. It was my fault for fighting, but other than that, I have nothing wrong with it."

"Of course the school is dissatisfied with my attitude, or the other party's parents are dissatisfied with my attitude, but they can't do anything about me—I have suspended my studies."

"It is very troublesome to transfer to another school at the critical moment of the college entrance examination. The school is not willing to let you go, and no school is willing to accept a student who has been recorded as a major demerit and seems to have 'bad conduct' at this time, so I I simply took a month off from school and didn't take the college entrance examination."

"Does that sound a bit stupid?" Ju Zeyi asked him, "I could have taken the college entrance examination, and it was only a month off from school. It wouldn't have much impact on my grades at all. I don't need to waste another year Time and youth, but a new beginning."

Cheng Qufei looked at him, slowly but seriously shook his head: "Not stupid."

He said, "Haven't you started now?"

"At the beginning of the story, you didn't do anything wrong, but at the end of the story, you were wrong." Cheng Qufei said, "If you make a mistake, you should be punished, so it doesn't matter if you record your demerit, disqualify you from the competition, or cancel your scholarship. Being expelled, if you should be punished like this, I think you will accept it calmly. But the school did not deal with this matter fairly, but pushed all the faults on you, and asked you to bear it. Since the school is biased, why can't we voice our protest?"

"Although it's a bit emotional, I think you're cool." Cheng Qufei smiled at him and said, "As long as you don't regret it, no one is qualified to dictate your life and choices."

"My dad and the others are very supportive of me." Ju Zeyi also laughed. He said, "They say that the college entrance examination is very important, but some principles are more important than the college entrance examination."

"They love you very much." Cheng Qufei changed his voice, "I can understand why you are so nervous and afraid that I know about your family relationship, but I am still very angry."

"I told you." Cheng Qufei approached him and tapped his chest, "I promise I won't stab it with a knife, and I won't let anyone hurt it."

He backed away again, with a sad tone: "But you, you don't really trust me."

"I didn't..." Ju Zeyi smiled wryly, "I just don't know how to tell you."

"Do you think I'm the same as that person? Do you think I'm only friends with you because of your good grades? Do you think I don't care about our...friendship?"

"No." Ju Zeyi shook his head without thinking, "You are completely different." He added, "Actually, I envy you."

"I envy you for not having experienced the hardships of life, I envy you for having such good friends as Cui Hao and Lu Yeyi, and I also envy you for being warm, brave, sincere and kind."

"A person like you with a heart as bright as the wind and the moon, even if you know about my family, even if you can't accept such an orientation, you won't take it as a joke, and you won't treat me as a different kind."

Cheng Qufei blinked, because of his praise, his face blushed unconsciously: "Then why are you so nervous, why are you so scared, I know?"

"I..." Ju Zeyi was at a loss for words for a moment, not knowing how to explain.

He wants to say because I like you, but the word "like" is too light, so light that it can explain all his cautiousness and uneasiness; it is too heavy, so heavy that it can only be pressed in his heart and cannot be seen by others.

In fact, there are traces to follow, Ju Zeyi's conniving, approaching, probing, hesitating to speak, and inappropriate words.Isn't he the same way, sticking to the boundaries of friends, what is beating wildly is a heart in the name of love.

Want to be nice, want to solve all the puzzles before him, answer all his questions, want him to always look at me.

It would be nice to be with him.

The person standing beside him is me, and the person standing beside him is me.

Those words that Ju Zeyi said, like a slide show, are automatically played in the mind frame by frame.Cheng Qufei found out that he actually remembered everything, without missing a single word.

Cheng Qufei is not stupid, he is quite smart, so those cryptic and unspoken things made him hard to believe, so he repeatedly denied himself, at this moment, all pointed to an answer.

Ju Zeyi liked him.

They love each other, why do they misunderstand each other so stupidly?