The people who hired me are dead

Rhett will not initiate close contact with people, even if that person is his friend.He's not withdrawn, he just can't hook up with people naturally.He also doesn't take the initiative to shake hands with people. If you think about it, you will know that shaking hands spreads more bacteria than kissing, so save it if you can.

But Yun Xinzhuo, who was about to collapse, seemed to be in urgent need of all physical contact, after being guided by Reid.Yun Xinzhuo hugged Rhett's waist tightly and buried his head in his arms, his breathing was so short that he was about to faint.

Reid patted Yun Xinzhuo's back and found that his clothes were soaked in cold sweat.His strong and powerful body trembled slightly in his arms, and from time to time there was a repressed and shifted gasp in his throat, just listening to it made people feel Yun Xinzhuo's pain.

Reid looked around the ward. It is very good here, with complete facilities to ensure that medical staff will come to help Yun Xinzhuo at any time.

But it is not suitable for Yun Xinzhuo, he should live in a sunny place, can see green plants through the windows, and preferably animals.Maybe he can consider letting Yun Xinzhuo go home for mediation, that is Yun Xinzhuo's comfort zone, and Rhett can also buy him a kitten.

"Red..." Yun Xinzhuo's voice was muffled, "I don't want to hurt innocent people."

"I know." Reid patted Yun Xinzhuo's back strangely, trying to comfort him, "Don't be afraid, you won't, do you know the result of your profiling? You have a strong sense of responsibility and justice, you The self-control ability is good." Rhett eased his tone and said softly, "Do you understand what this means?"

"I won't hurt others, right." Yun Xinzhuo said.

"Yes, you will only hurt yourself, which is a terrible thing. If you don't choose to be hospitalized and seek help from others, you will eventually be overwhelmed by depression." Reid sympathized with Yun Xinzhuo, he is a good person, and a good person always You will drag the responsibility onto yourself.Al went to a lot of psychotherapy because of Beckinsale's death, and then slowly recovered.

Yun Xinzhuo didn't answer, he just tightened his arms again.Feeling the temperature of Reid's embrace, he calmed down his emotions.

"Are you okay?" Reid asked, listening to the gradually even breathing, looking down at Yun Xinzhuo's hair. @无限好文, all in Jinjiang Literature City

"It's much better." Yun Xinzhuo took a deep breath and let go of Rhett's waist.He took out a tissue to wipe the cold sweat on his forehead, patted the bed and motioned Rhett to sit up.

"Although I have some guesses, are you already this serious now?" Reid sat on the edge of the bed, clutching his satchel strap and looked at Yun Xinzhuo's pale face and asked worriedly.

"I would feel better if I slept before." Yun Xinzhuo fiddled with the tissue to roll it up, grinning and said, "But this time I always dream, and I am even more tired when I wake up."

He observed Rhett's expression while speaking, as long as Rhett showed a little discomfort.He would immediately stop talking and cover it up with a joke.

"Speaking out will make you feel better, you can tell me. You don't have to worry so much, Yun, you don't need to carry it alone." Reid pressed Yun Xinzhuo's wrist and said seriously.

Things are just as Rhett thought, Yun Xinzhuo likes to have physical contact with people.When his hand touched Yun Xinzhuo's arm, Yun Xinzhuo glanced at him with probing and blank eyes.

"Do you know what you're afraid of?" Rhett asked tentatively.

"I don't know how to tell you." Yun Xinzhuo said hesitantly, "People around me will always leave me one by one. No matter how hard I try to protect them, the final result will not change."

Rhett didn't answer, he was thinking about the message in this sentence.He didn't understand why Yun Xinzhuo said that, because there was no relevant record in Yun Xinzhuo's information.The only person close to him who died unexpectedly was Lilian.

According to Reid's original thinking, Yun Xinzhuo should have suffered a major change before he was six years old.Abruptly leaving a familiar environment completely or changing the main personnel around will make young children panic and leave a serious psychological shadow.

After not being guided by science, this shadow slowly fermented, coupled with monophobia, which made Yun Xinzhuo's condition more and more serious.

This is also the main cause of other mental illnesses such as depression. In many cases, a sudden illness that seems to have no warning is actually a seed planted in childhood.After adulthood, under the stimulation of a certain scene, the seeds burst out of the ground and can crush people almost instantly.

Yun Xinzhuo saw the confusion on Reid's face, but he couldn't tell the source of his real pain.

When he was young, he witnessed the demise of his family.He alone took a shovel taller than him and buried all the corpses that could be found, so as not to let them die in the wilderness.

After he became an adult, he personally buried the first woman who made him fall in love.He vowed at the time that he would not make the same mistake again.But within a few years, he dragged his exhausted body, and with trembling hands, he dug up the remains of Junior Brother Qiu from the mass grave, put him together and sent him back to Anxiang for burial.

Yun Xinzhuo is very powerful, he can fight into Xuejiazhuang alone and retreat completely, and he can also fight against the Mayi twins alone without losing the wind.His sword is unsheathed like a bamboo, and he is never afraid of a siege.He can resist attacks with swords and break through siege with martial arts.

But he didn't know how to defeat the invisible and intangible demons. In front of the demons, his martial arts were useless like a joke.

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When he was young, he thought that he would be able to protect his loved ones by being able to learn martial arts when he grew up.But when he grew up, he found that nothing had changed.

"Are you okay, Yun." Hearing Yun Xinzhuo's heavy breathing again, Rhett reached out to wrap his arms around his shoulders, letting him lean into his arms.

He realized that it was inconvenient for Yun Xinzhuo to tell him some secret, and that secret was the main reason why he became what he is now.

Reid pursed his lips, he thought for a moment and said, "My mother suffers from paranoid schizophrenia, which is a very common schizophrenia symptom, and the onset is late and there is an incubation period. At the beginning, she had hallucinations, and slowly Slowly she couldn't distinguish between hallucinations and reality. She became tense and he understood her pain and tried to help her. It wasn't until she started throwing furniture and screaming like crazy every day that he chose to leave my mother."

Yun Xinzhuo turned his head and listened to Reid's speech. The body temperature of Reid's body and the sound of his heartbeat made him feel at ease.In fact, Yun Xinzhuo really needs hugs and long-term physical contact, as well as other things that can make him feel safe.It doesn't have to be Rhett, but only Rhett knows he needs it.And when he needed help, he took the initiative to hug Yun Xinzhuo.

Reid fiddled with Yun Xinzhuo's hair mechanically with his fingers, and continued after a pause, "She panicked when she was awake, and was afraid that she would lose control. She was in pain when she got sick, because she would have a strong sense of suffocation. And the illusion of dying. The pain caused to her by the illusion is far beyond what we can imagine. I don’t know how many times she has experienced parting from life and death in her illusion, but I still clearly remember her desperate cry Voice."

"Yun, did you feel so uncomfortable when you got sick?" Reid recalled his childhood memories, stroked Yun Xinzhuo's back and asked pityingly: "She is in a nursing home now, I don't want you to become like her Same."

He didn't hear Yun Xinzhuo's voice, only felt the clothes on his chest become wet.

"Actually, I have been worrying about one thing, because paranoid schizophrenia is genetically possible. I don't want to become like that, Yun, and I am also very afraid that one day when I look in the mirror, I will see a distorted version of myself." Rhett comforted Yun Xinzhuo's emotions, rubbing his cheek lightly, making sure that he could feel his body temperature as much as possible.

Reid understands Yun Xinzhuo's pain better than Yun Xinzhuo's exclusive psychiatrist, and he is willing to take the initiative to approach Yun Xinzhuo.In a way, they are sympathetic.

"I understand your fear, Yun, I know you are suffering. Even if everyone cares about you, your pain is still difficult to alleviate." Reid hugged his body tightly again, and his voice guided softly, "Say it It's okay, it doesn't affect me negatively at all. I'd love to hear from you, and I'm sure Sidney would, too."

Gradually, Rhett heard small cries, and Yun Xinzhuo's choked voice: "I want to live Rhett, I really want to live. But I really can't hold on anymore, I can't protect my lover and I can't protect me I'm tired of helping them with their funerals, I'm tired of being alone no matter how hard I try."

"I know their death is not my fault, and I have avenged them, but I always think of the days when I was with them. Rhett, I miss them, and I also miss home." Yun Xinzhuo was helpless Grabbing Rhett's clothes, he expressed the emotions that had been suppressed in his heart for many years.

Yun Xinzhuo has nothing to pursue, all he needs is a sword, a jug of wine, two or three friends and a home, that is his dream life.He has been working hard since he was a child, and his dream is still so far away until he grows up.

Rhett still couldn't understand who the dead people in Yun Xinzhuo's words were, but he already understood Yun Xinzhuo's problem.

Yun Xinzhuo's request is very simple, he needs someone to accompany him.That person before was Lilian, but now that Lilian is dead, Yun Xinzhuo collapsed.

After figuring it out, Reid found that Yun Xinzhuo's depression and monophobia were easy to treat, and his wishes were easily fulfilled.

Reid thought for a while, and said tentatively, "I am an FBI, and I have the ability to protect myself. Although I can do dangerous tasks, I will always save the day when I am with the team."

Yun Xinzhuo loosened Ruide's clothes, wiped his face with a tissue and listened to him frowning.

"I mean, maybe you can try to be friends with me." Rhett touched the back of his neck in shame, and he tilted his head and said, "Actually, I don't hate emails that much. When I go back to Quantico, you can often chat with me."

"Thank you for your kindness, but..." Yun Xinzhuo said hesitantly, "I always feel that there is something wrong with me, probably...a curse? I'm afraid you will be affected too."

"The curse has no scientific basis, Yun." Reid raised his eyebrows and said, "Let's be realistic, don't be so pessimistic. What's more, even if I'm not with you, my job is destined to face many dangers."

Yun Xinzhuo hooked the corner of his mouth, he looked into Rhett's eyes, and the smile on his face grew bigger and bigger.

Yun Xinzhuo took a deep breath and said with a smile, "Red, it may be a little strange to say it, but sometimes, you can make me feel more at ease than medicine."